A/N: I can't even tell you all how much has changed! My kid is close to turning TEN years old! I moved.. I left Vegas and went to Salem, OR. XD I just graduated this last June with THREE associate degrees. I am in University now working on my BA which includes a minor in Russian. And on October 13, 2018, I got married. On here, she is known as Leather Queen. You can find pics of us as Matt and Mello together on my DA. Same name as here.
I'm sorry I have disappeared for so long, but as you can see above.. It has been a VERY eventful few years for me. Not only do I have my family, but I also go to school at a very demanding private university, and I work full time. But I missed this so much.. It has always been my outlet. I admit, the original plot line is changing a little only cause how am I supposed to have stuck to it perfectly after so long? I grew! XD But a lot of the main pieces aren't changing and I still have SO MUCH planned. I am even typing this as my wife has NO IDEA I am doing this. I am finishing finals at this moment and am procrastinating the production of a 10 page essay due as my final in 2 days for Anthropology and needed an outlet for a little. After this paper, I have 2 final exams in Russian and Art History and then I am free from school until Jan 22, 2020. I do still work though.. Well, without further ado.. On to the story, yeah?!
(The long awaited..) Chapter 26
Everyone had settled into eating, but Near slowly put his chopsticks down and stood, eyes glancing over everyone before he said stoically, "Excuse me." Then left. Givanni was about to stand to go after him when Matt cut him off.
"Let me, G." He gave him a small smile. Givanni nodded and sat back down, looking at him meaningfully. Matt turned and gave Mello a peck on the lips to reassure him before he stood and followed Near up the stairs to his room. He knocked as he peeked into the room, "May I come in?" He asked. Near looked up, didn't answer, and looked back down at the cards he was using to build his current project. Matt whistled at the sight, "Impressive." He stated as he joined him, standing just behind him as he admired the work, "You're getting really good at this."
Near still didn't say anything as he placed another set of cards that balanced together to add to his project. Matt sighed, "Near, I'm sorry. I know no one likes him, but-"
"You think it bothers me that it is him?" Near cut him off with an even tone. Matt looked at him in confusion, but Near continued before he could speak again, "It does, yes. But that isn't what bothers me the most." He told him before looking back at him, "You have been lying to me for months." He accused.
"Wait, I never lied. I wouldn't lie." Matt defended.
"The omission of truth is it's own form of lying. Plus, you acted as if you hated him, and yet you two have been sleeping together for months. Besides, you don't hate him, you're in love with him." He said matter of fact.
Matt smiled and shook his head, "I'm not in love with him." He chuckled, causing Near to roll his eyes.
"Matt, please don't blatantly lie to my face now."
"I'm not. I'm not in love with him. I like him, yes. And I never lied. I was always genuine with my feelings. He has always been infuriating and I have been extremely mad at him. At first, it was almost satisfying in the way that he so venomously acted against the rainbow and yet I knew exactly what buttons to press and he couldn't get enough of the sex between us. Near, it has never been loving. I can promise you that." He said with a smirk.
Near gave him a meaningful look, "So, you're even lying to yourself, then? Fitting. Matt, even two people in love can have rough sex." He looked him in the eyes with a knowing look, "I can promise you that." He echoed.
Matt was momentarily distracted and he glared behind him at the door as he had half a mind to go kill his best friend. He then shook his head and muttered to himself, "I can kill him later.." He sighed and looked at Near. "Look, I'm sorry I hid it. I really am. I didn't know how to tell you guys. I didn't know what to say about it at all! I still don't know what we are. Plus, it has to stay a secret even now. Not from you guys. I think you guys are the safe place even for him. Near, if his father finds out, me and him would be in danger. I don't know what we can do, but he has made it clear he doesn't want what his father wants. And I know Misa doesn't either."
"Are Kiyomi and Misa together as well?" Near asked. Matt watched him and didn't speak at first.
"I won't lie to you, Near. But it isn't my secret to tell either." He claimed. Near nodded in appreciation of his honestly. "Will you come back down with me? Will you give him a chance?" He asked.
"I never hated him, Matt. I have always actually thought of Mello as interesting. But he better have good intentions with you." He said, the slightest bit of emotion in his voice and eyes, making MAtt smile. Near was a very one dimensional personality. He was always stoic and rarely felt emotion, let alone allowed anyone to see it. But when it came to his family, he was much deeper of a person than most people could even guess.
"What better way to be sure than to grill him?" He offered teasingly, earning a small smile from Near who then nodded and motioned for him to lead the way.
Matt lead the way back down and heard laughter as they approached the dining room. Matt couldn't help the smile that crossed over his lips as he saw Mello engaging with his family, seemingly perfectly at home. Him and Givanni were recounting a story from something that happened to another guy from the team and everyone was laughing. Near passed him up and moved to join Givanni who smiled at his boyfriend as he approached, a loving look on his face and in his eyes as his arm wrapped around his waist. He then looked over at the blond at the table who returned the look, icy blue eyes meeting his through his glasses and a small smile playing at his lips. Matt felt his heart flutter at the look and his smile grew slightly. Mello then looked at L when the elder man spoke to him, in order to reply.
'Oh crap..' Matt thought to himself as Near's words rang in his head and he couldn't look away from the blond. He felt himself begin to panic on the inside and he grew antsy as he willed the blond to understand how he felt as he stood rooted to the spot.
As if he could hear his internal please, Mello looked over at him, a look of concern over his features and he cocked a brow, "Matt?" He asked, motioning to the spot next to him in question. Matt stared for a moment before he stepped towards him and took his seat slowly, looking at the blond in the eyes again. Mello reached up and tugged on a lock of red hair, a teasing smile on his lips, "You ok, there?" He teased, "You don't normally do that except immediately after sex."
Matt chuckled and shook his head before leaning in and kissing him. He noticed the electric shock he felt when he felt the blond respond. It had always been there, but it was as if he noticed it for the first time. His entire body heated up as it flooded through him and he wondered if the blond felt it, too. He pulled back and nodded, "I'm fine." He assured.
Across the table, Beyond and L shared a knowing look, L's giving way to nerves as he thought of the situation. He had thought they were having fun, but if deep feelings were getting involved, that could be a dangerous problem. Beyond read his face and knew they would be talking about it later, and he doubted he would like what he heard. He glanced back at the teenagers that were obviously completely smitten with one another and he felt his heart ache in worry.
Matt thought about the things Mello had told him. He was afraid that they wouldn't figure it out. What if Mello's father found them out and came after his family? He would have to get more information. A spark of motivation came over him and he knew he would be diving in as soon as Mello left. That was exactly the feeling he was missing in his studies, really. A reason to do it. Mello gave him a reason. A really big one. He was falling hard for the blond, and it scared him more than the thought of Mello's father finding out about them.
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After dinner, Matt had pulled Mello off with him, not leading him back up to his room, but down to the basement, locking the door behind him so they wouldn't be bothered.
Mello looked around at the music equipment and moved around the room, taking in the details as he went. There was sheet music framed on the walls, some signed by famous bands to Beyond and others to Matt. Some were written by one of them and performed by them. Hits that took off in the area and even took traction across the country even if they weren't a famous band yet. Guitar picks and drum sticks were also hanging up. Pictures of performances. To one side, there sat the equipment that Matt and Cranium used. He reached the guitar MAtt always played and reached out, stroking his fingers over it and looking back over at the redhead teasingly.
Matt smirked as he watched him, "You know I enjoy it when you stroke my length." He teased, making Mello smile wider and chuckle.
"Sing me something?" The blond asked, biting his lip slightly. Matt couldn't help the smile and shook his head as he chuckled, moving towards him and kissing him again as he reached around and wrapped his hand around the neck of his guitar, picking it up. Mello smiled as they parted and moved to the couch, sitting right in the middle with his arms over the back on either side, watching him expectantly.
Matt thought for a moment and decided on a song he has been working on and he was pretty sure he knew how to finish it now. He had the music predone and moved over to get parts he had recorded to play in the background as he held the guitar and began to play with it the parts he hadn't added, leading up to the lyrics.
You can have a sound of the thousand voices calling your name
You can have the light of the world blind you, bath you in grace
But I don't see so easily what you hold in your hands
'Cause castles crumble, kingdoms fall and turn into sand
Mello watched intently as Matt began, a small smile on his lips as he took in the sight of the other before him. He never thought he would be sitting here like this, yet here he was. Not just here with someone, but here with him. With Matt. Someone who knew everything he had to tell about his father and Viktor, and he was still here.
Matt took a breath as he dove into the lyrics, an edge of emotion flowing out as the words came.
You can be an angel of mercy or give in to hate
You can try to buy it just like it every other careless mistake
How do you justify I'm mystified by the ways of your heart
With a million lies the truth will rise to tear you apart
Woah
Matt's voice had been a little hoarse on those lines and he felt like his heart was in his throat as he considered the enigma of Mello's heart. Mello had the power to tear him down and he was hyper aware of it, suddenly. When did the blond gain all the power?
Mello bit his lip as he watched and listened. How much of what he said was just the song? Why did he feel like it was more personal and intimate than anything before? Why did he feel like Matt was pleading with him?
No one gets out alive, every day is do or die
The one thing you leave behind
Is how did you love, how did you love?
It's not what you believe those prayers will make you bleed
But while you're on your knees
How did you love, how did you love, how did you love?
Mello stood and approached him, reaching out and gripping his sunglasses that hid his eyes. He pulled them from his face slowly and moved to set them aside at a table before turning back to the red head. Their eyes met at he played and Mello gave him a teasing look as he pulled his shirt up over his head and tossed it aside, enjoying the look the other have him.
Nothing ever feels quite the same when you are what you dreamed
And you will never look at anything the same when you see what I see
How we forget ourselves, lose our way from the cradle to the grave
You can't replicate or duplicate, gotta find your own way
Matt could tell that Mello was blind to his feelings. Matt's feelings. He, himself, had been so blind for so long. How would Mello know? Would it implode the blond's world just as much as his when he noticed? When he could see what he saw?
No one gets out alive, every day is do or die
The one thing you leave behind
Is how did you love, how did you love?
It's not what you believe those prayers will make you bleed
But while you're on your knees
How did you love, how did you love, how did you love?
Mello could we that Matt was pleading. His eyes always gave away the emotions he wouldn't or couldn't express. Though, the depth was lost to him. He didn't dare assume anything serious. He knew he cared for the red head. And he was content with that right now. Anything more would be way too dangerous. Matt would get hurt.
He undid his belt and pants. Sliding them down his legs and kicking them away. A small tent was below his boxer briefs as he started to get hard.
This ain't no cross to bury
We are the judge and jury, we are the judge and jury
No one gets out alive, every day is do or die
The one thing you leave behind
Is how did you love, how did you love?
It's not what you believe those prayers will make you bleed
But while you're on your knees
How did you love, how did you love?
Matt's eyes wandered hungrily over the blond's figure as he watched him. His own cock grew hard at the image before him. His voice was hoarse as he sang. Watching as the blind slipped his thumbs into the elastic of his underwear and pulled them down slowly, letting his erection out.
This ain't no cross to bury
We are the judge and jury
This ain't no cross to bury
We are the judge and jury
How did you love, how did you love?
How did you love, how did you love?
How did you love, how did you love?
How did you love, how did you love?
Mello bit his lip as he stared at the singer, oh how he loved the lust in those deep emerald eyes. The promise of the things the other would do unto him.
Matt finished the song and set his guitar aside, but allowed the next musical tracks to play. Some he was singing on, others were instrumental. He didn't mind. He wanted Mello too badly to care. He moved towards him and their eyes met, a deep connection between them as Matt leaned in and kissed him with such hunger the blond moaned against his lips.
Matt's hands ran down his back and over his hips to his ass, squeezing as he pulled them together tighter and rolled his own hips to grind against him.
"Oh, I want you.." he said huskily. Mello panted and pressed against him.
"Then take me.." he sighed, moving his hands up into his hair and tangling his fingers into the red strands. His body shook with anticipation and he let out a moan as Matt kissed over his neck and nipped his pulse. He moved his hands down and pulled at his pants, opening them and freeing his erection. "Just like this." He pleaded. Something about the thought of Matt being fully dressed and Mello being exposed was appealing. He was vulnerable and completely submissive to the other.
Matt groaned and lifted him up and Mello wrapped his legs around his waist. He turned and pressed the blond against the wall and freed a hand. He reached into his pocket, pulling out a condom, and ripped it open with his teeth before rolling it on.
Mello panted and moaned, "Oh, please Matt, I need you." He begged, knowing how much the redhead enjoyed it. Matt kissed him and gripped his hips as he positioned at his entrance and pushed into him. Rougher than last time. Mello let out a loud moan, tossing his head back against the wall. "Oh, yes!" He hissed in pleasure, making Matt smirk at him before he pulled back and slammed into him rougher.
"You really do love it rough, don't you?" He teased. Mello moaned and nodded.
"Yes, oh come on, fuck me." He gave him a challenging look, lighting a fire within Matt. The singer let out a low growl before he repeated the action, but this time continuing it, pushing in and out of him roughly and at an agonizing pace.
"You do feel so good. And hearing you beg.. oh, it is music to my ears." He teased with a husky whisper in his ear.
Mello whimpered and his nails dug into his back and he gripped the material of his shirt, "Oh, please. I need more. Faster. Fuck me hard and fast." He pleaded before pulling Matt away just enough to look into his eyes, "I need you so bad." He said huskily, desperation dripping from his tongue.
Something inside him snapped and his control slipped away. He moved his arms under the blond's knees and lifted them over his shoulders, allowing him to push deeper. Mello's head fell back with a loud moan before a surprised sound as Matt grabbed his hands and pinned them to the wall on either side of his head. He was completely trapped and at his mercy. And he had never been more turned on in his life.
The icy blue state gave away his enjoyment, making the list flare within Matt even wilder. Their eyes clashed as he sped up his motions, no longer holding back as he slammed repeatedly hard and rough into him. A loud bang sounded against the wall with every thrust and Mello moaned loudly and wildly thrashed his head, all while keeping his eyes locked on the other's. He was at bis complete mercy and they both loved it.
Mello panted and moaned uncontrollably as he drew closer and closer to the edge, "Oh fuck, oh Matt.. oh. I'm so close.." he groaned.
"Mm, me too, so close. So hot and good, fuck you feel so good." He growled as he sped up even faster, pushing as deep as he could and abusing his prostate.
"Cum with me.. oh Matt, I want you to cum with me so bad.." he pleaded, his breath hitching. Matt nodded and kissed him, feeling the blond tighten around him as his orgasm hit. He felt his cum spill out of him as his own hit and he pushed deep into him, cumming hard.
Mello moaned into his mouth as he came, feeling Matt tense and release with him and it made him feel even better. He let out a few whimpers and Matt thrust a few more times, helping them both ride it out.
They stay there for a few moments, basking in bliss before Mello's limbs and joints protested and she shifted. Matt pushed off the wall and let his limbs loose and they fell around him as he cradled the blond to him and moved to the couch to sit, Mello straddling him.
The blond hummed and lay his head on his chest, "Oh, just a short rest and then round 3." He sighed, causing Matt to chuckle.
"That eager, huh?" He teased. Mello sat up and looked at him with a dazed and glassy look.
"I have been wondering for a long time how it would feel to ride you rougher than I would ever do to my bike." He said huskily, a twitch of Matt's cock inside him making him smirk.
"Can't wait." He teased. Mello stared into his eyes for a few moments. Getting lost in them and making his stomach twist before he shook himself out of it.
"Just need to feel my arms and legs again first." He admitted, collapsing into him again and making Matt chuckle.
"Take all the time you need, I'm not going anywhere." He told him, wrapping his arms around him. Mello smiled and nuzzled into his neck, a light doze falling over him. Matt felt his heart flutter again and he groaned internally.
'Double crap..'
A/N: How is that for a long awaited update? XD Dun dun dun, Matty. 3