Chapter 29.5: My Feelings

As you could probably guess, this is not a regular chapter. in fact, this isn't a chapter at all. No, I'm writing this discourse to explain my thoughts and feelings regarding the state of this story. More importantly, I'm here to vent my frustrations.

I've been writing this story since July 1st, 2019. Since then, I have released a new chapter almost every week without fail, minus the week my son was born and one other time when I was just starting and refreshing my writing skills. What's notable is that each chapter I release is re-read and edited twice before being submitted. At this point, I have the second-longest She-Ra fanfiction on and I feel that that's an incredible accomplishment in and of itself.

I work a full-time job as an AODS Counselor which sometimes involves overtime and client calls/visits at three in the morning. In addition, my son was born November 19, 2019 which further added to my time consumption. Now, don't get me wrong, along with my wife, my son is the greatest thing to ever happen to me, and I'm ever grateful for him.

Yet, aside from all of these obligations and time constraints, I have still found the time to write quality, well thought out chapters every week.

This brings me to my main point: I am tired.

I'm tired of writing creative, quality, well thought out chapters each week only to receive the same two people leaving their reviews. ChicaFenix88 and Heart of the Demons. I love you both. Without fail, every week, you leave me quality reviews that warm my heart. I can honestly say without you two, I probably wouldn't post as much. So, seriously, thank you both so much for your devotion.

Now obviously, there have been other people that have left token reviews, which I certainly appreciate, but it's still a bit frustrating.

Every single time someone follows/favorites my story, I send them a message, personally thanking them for doing so. Out of everyone I've sent messages to, about 9% respond. I don't mean to take it personally, but frankly, I think it's rude to not even reply with a simple, "You're welcome." Maybe it's the Fanfiction culture, but also, some of you have been incredibly rude to me. I have enough drama in my life helping real people overcome their drug and alcohol addictions, so I'm not interested in online malarkey.

I've also heard criticism regarding my extensive use of original characters. To that, I simply offer this:

Bite me.

I love using original characters, and they are an integral part of the story. And not to speak highly of myself, but I think they fit pretty well in the She-Ra universe.

I guess what I'm trying to say is that I don't feel like I'm getting the admission and recognition that I feel I deserve. I realize that sounds selfish and maybe even childish, but it's simply my feelings. I don't mean to come off as a beggar, but I just want a little more appreciation.

This being said, I'm taking a break this week. I will most likely pick back up on February 15th.

I hope this doesn't come across as hostile or livid. I just needed to get my frustrations out. If you're offended by this and think I'm being unfair with these declarations, please message me and we can talk about it. Otherwise, thank you so much for reading this and reading my story.

Much love!

Kellen