Hey guys. Have you all recovered from the last chapter? I'm not sure I have lol. Life goes on and for Emma, it's always been a bumpy ride. This is a longer chapter, but that's because Chapter 30 will be the last one and there's a lot I want to include before then. Hope that's not an issue.

Read~Enjoy~Review

Chapter 28

The next morning, Emma got out of her mothers bed and went up to her room. She read the email again, but just couldn't answer it. What was she supposed to say? 'Oh, you didn't mean to hurt me so it's all good?' No. There honestly were no words that she could send to Regina at this time. Instead, she opened up her Facechat page and started printing off all her pictures of Regina, her and Regina, her Chloe and Regina, basically any picture that had Regina in it and then deleted them. She then did the same with all her pictures in her phone and computer; printing and deleting. Then, Emma went around the room and gathered any picture with Regina in it along with things Regina had gotten her through out the years. She couldn't throw it away, however, so she sat on her bed with a shoe box and put everything in it. Her hand went to the chain around her neck and the swan pendent and she let out a sigh. She hadn't taken this off since the day Regina got it for her, but she wanted a clean start. She took it off and put it in an envelope before placing it in the box. Emma put the cover on and then labelled the box before pushing it under her bed.

Emma sat back at her computer and hit reply on the email.

Regina,

I honestly have no idea what to say, which is why I didn't reply last night. I feel it's pointless to sit here and tell you how I feel because it's not going to change anything. I know you say you didn't mean to hurt me, but Regina, that doesn't take away the fact that you did hurt me, nor does it take the pain away. The fact that you couldn't talk to me, hurts. The fact that you just decided to give yourself to someone else, hurts. The fact that you didn't have any kind of respect for me or my feelings really, really hurts. I don't exactly know what you expect from me, Regina. Do you just expect me to say I forgive you and that's that? Because right now, I cannot do that, and I honestly don't know if I ever will. You were one of the last people I ever expected to just toss me aside like that, and I don't know if I'll ever get over it. I get it, we're young and we have our whole lives ahead of us and one day, this will be nothing but some past relationship, but it makes me so sad that it couldn't have ended better. It makes me sad that because of this, we won't be friends, that I can never trust you again.

Anyway, all that is besides the point because again, it won't make a difference. What I really wanted to email you about is how this is going to work going forward. We have mutual friends and I don't want them thinking they're in the middle. I know Zelena is your sister, but she's really become an amazing friend to me and an Aunt like figure to Chloe, and I really hope you're okay with us staying like that going forward. It's neither Zelena nor Chloe's fault that this happened, and I'd hate to see either of them punished for it. If you'd rather I don't be friends with Zelena, it will be really hard, but I can understand that. All I ask is that she still be allowed to see Chloe. Chloe's face lights up when she sees her Auntie Zee and I really don't want to take that away from either of them. As far as the others, I don't want you to think I'm making them 'take sides' on this, but I'm also not going to go out of my way to make you 'look good'. If people ask, I'm not going to lie for you. I mean, I won't attack you either, but I'm going to tell the truth. I'm not going to actively make anyone 'hate' you or anything like that and I've already stopped one person from attacking you – verbal or otherwise, and I'll continue to do that, but don't blame me if people do get mad at you. I'm sorry if that sounds rude, but that's how it is.

For what it's worth, I also want to thank you. Yes, the ending sucks, but what we had was pretty amazing and I'll always be thankful to you for that. You were here for me in moments I really needed someone. You helped me to find out who I am, who I wanted to be. You supported me through so much; the attack on my ma, finding my parents, the rape, my pregnancy, the birth of my daughter. You allowed me to cry on your shoulder so many times. You were patient and kind with me as I dealt with my past and you never once made me feel stupid about it. You were my first kiss, my first love, my first consensual sexual relationship and all of those were things I never thought I'd find in my life. Between you and my mothers, I was able to push through things that-without you guys- would have crushed me. I will forever be grateful for you, Regina, and all you did for me, no matter how it ended. For everything listed above, I will always have love for you and wish the best for you…even if that's not me. Maybe one day, like you said, we can be friends. Maybe. Just not one day soon, and I'm sorry for that. I need time, Regina. I need time to heal from this, to recover from this, to…well to be honest, I need time to realize this wasn't my fault like you said, that it's not because I wasn't good enough because no matter what, that's what I think. I'm sorry, I know you said more than once that it wasn't the case, but that's going to take a while for me to believe. That's not your fault, and I'm not saying it to make you feel guilty. I'm saying it to be honest. Just give me time and maybe one day, we can be friends again. In the meantime, I hope everything goes well for you.

Love,

Emma

Emma sat back in her chair and wiped at her eyes, hovering over the send button. She heard a soft knock at her door and looked over to see Amanda. "Hey."

"Hey honey. Everything okay?"

Emma nodded. "I wrote a reply to Regina. I'm just trying to decide if I should send it or not."

Amanda came into the room more. "Is it mean and full of things you'll later regret?"

Emma shook her head. "She hurt me, but I can't send her hateful things. I still love her." She sat up from her chair. "Will you read it and tell me if it's okay?"

"Are you sure?" Amanda felt proud that Emma would trust her, but she also didn't want her to feel forced to do so.

"Yeah. I mean, you pretty much know everything anyway."

Amanda sat down and read the email. Sure, there were some personal things, but neither she nor Olivia were naïve enough to think that Emma never did anything sexual with Regina. She felt tears in her eyes as she read and in the end, she pulled Emma onto her lap and just held her. She knew her daughter was hurting, yet here she was acting so mature about it. She honestly didn't think she'd be the same if Olivia cheated on her, although, she supposed, that was different too as they were married and had been together much longer. "Emma, I'm so sorry for all of this. The email sounds good though, very mature. I'm so proud of the woman you've become." Amanda tucked hair behind Emma's ears and cupped her face. "You did that, Emma. You pushed through, you pulled yourself back up, you survived, Emma." Amanda wiped Emma's tears with her thumbs. "You did that on your own, Emma, because you are a wonderful person. I hate thinking that you are thinking less of yourself now because of this. I also hate thinking that you think we all got you through everything. Emma, you did that on your own."

Emma put her hands over Amanda's and gave a small smile. "You just don't get it, Ma. Yes, I did all that, but I did it because I had you and mom holding me up when I fell. I had you guys pushing me, I had you guys supporting me. I had Regina supporting me too. Anyway, that wasn't the point of my email, so if that's what you're getting out of it, maybe I need to rewrite it."

"No baby. No. I know that wasn't the point and I'm sorry I just…I just felt you needed to hear that." Amanda kissed Emma's forehead and then let her face go. "I think your email is very mature and honest. I think you should send it." She stroked Emma's hair as she held her. "So, what are we going to do for your birthday?"

Emma hit send and then curled back into Amanda's lap. "I don't want to celebrate anymore." She said as she sniffed and absentmindedly played with Amanda's necklace. "I had grand plans, but now, I just don't care."

Amanda held Emma closer to her. "I get that. But I think we should do something as a family. Emma, it's a big day; your 18th birthday. Soon, you'll be packing up and leaving us so let us have this day with you."

Emma looked up at Amanda. "Packing up and leaving? Are you kicking me out?"

"Never. If it were up to mom and me, you'd never be allowed to leave." Amanda said with a smile. "I just know you're destined for great things."

"Thanks, ma. That means a lot." Emma sighed. "I don't know, maybe we invite my parents and siblings and go out to dinner?"

Amanda smiled. "I think your mom and dad would like that, so would your siblings."

"I'll call them later and ask. I mean, they may have to work." Emma's phone rang, and she sighed as she saw the caller ID. "It's Cora. I don't know what to say to her."

"Just start with Hello." Amanda said as she peeled herself from Emma and stood. "I'm going to go start breakfast."

Emma answered before the voice mail could pick up. "Hello?"

"Oh, Emma. I'm so glad you answered. I didn't know if you would. I just wanted to tell you how sorry I am for what happened. I may be Regina's mother, and I do love her no matter what, but I love you too, Emma, and I hate to think of you hurting over this."

Emma blinked and tried to swallow the lump in her throat – unsuccessfully. "Thanks." She choked out.

"Oh love, I'm sorry. Look, we don't have to go into detail here, but please know that no matter what, I'm still here for you and Chloe. I hope I can still see you two, but I understand if you want to cut off ties."

Emma coughed to try and get rid of the lump. "I would like that – to still see you, I mean. You're an important part in my and Chloe's lives."

"That makes me happy, Emma. Anyway, I'll let you go, but I just wanted you to know that I still and always will love you like a daughter."

"Thank you, Cora." Emma said, not able to hide the shaking of her voice.

"It'll get better." Cora said softly. "Bye, Emma."

Emma hung up and curled up on her bed. Though she didn't want to spend the whole day feeling sorry for herself, she also really didn't want to do anything. There was a soft knock at her door and Emma looked to see Olivia with Chloe and smiled. "Hey mom. Hello baby girl."

"Mama!" Cloe squirmed to get out of Olivia's arms and ran over to Emma's bed. Emma pulled her up and hugged her.

"Are you okay, sweet girl?" Olivia asked as she sat on the bed, stroking Emma's cheek.

"Is it okay to say no?" Emma asked, her eyes refilling with tears. "I replied to her, I took all pictures and gifts and put them all in a box, and Cora even called me." Emma said with a sigh. "I just feel like a part of me died."

Olivia laid down next to Emma, Chloe between them. She pressed her forehead against Emma's. "It's okay to say no, Emma. It's okay to not be okay. If you would rather not have people over, just say so. I know your ma just wants to help."

"Ruby wants to come over. I think I'll still ask Mal and Zelena, but that's it. I don't want a huge crowd." Emma ran her fingers through Chloe's blonde curls. "Ma asked about my birthday. I don't really want to celebrate anymore, but I did say maybe a family dinner would be nice."

"I think that sounds great, but not enough. You'll be 18, Emma, that's a big deal. Look, how about you let me and Mary plan something for you?"

Emma looked at Olivia and then nodded. "Okay, if you insist." She smiled a bit to show she was really okay with it. "Thanks, mom."

"You said you talked to Cora?"

Emma nodded and told her about their conversation. "Well, she's not wrong." Olivia stated. "I'm glad she called you to tell you she still loves you."

"Mama, hungy." Chloe announced and wiggled between the two.

Emma chuckled and leaned down to kiss Chloe. "Okay baby. Let's get dressed and go downstairs. Gramma Manda is making breakfast."

Olivia smiled and kissed Emma's forehead before getting up. "I'll see you girls downstairs."

Emma got up and got herself dressed before taking Chloe into the nursery area. She changed her diaper and then picked two outfits. Chloe picked a purple shirt and cute overalls and let Emma get her dressed and do her hair. "Love you, Mama." Chloe said, picking up on Emma's sad mood.

Emma smiled and picked Chloe up, hugging her. "I love you, too baby girl." She brought Chloe down and put her in her chair before going to pour herself some coffee. She filled Chloe's sippy cup with milk and brought it to her. "Eggs or pancakes, princess?"

"Eggies." She said with a smile and took her milk.

Amanda smiled. "Good, because I made a bunch of cheese eggs, bacon and toast." She said as she brought the food over, a small plate already set aside with some eggs cooling for Chloe.

"Thanks, Ma." Emma said, taking the smaller plate. She made sure the eggs were in smaller chunks and put the plate on Chloe's tray. She then ripped a piece of toast into little pieces and put that on her tray as well. At 16 months, Chloe loved to feed herself and while she liked to hold a spoon, she didn't actually use it, preferring her fingers instead. Emma watched her for a bit before she felt Olivia brush her hand against her arm, handing her a plate.

"Try to eat?" She said softly, and Emma nodded, taking a bite of her eggs.

Emma's phone went off and she looked at it and smiled a bit. "Zelena wanted to make sure she was invited tonight." She texted her back along with Mal and Ruby, asking if they wanted to come over. Both replied yes and asked what they could bring. "Snacks." Emma replied and then put her phone down. She picked her fork up and pushed her food around on her plate.

Olivia looked at Amanda and they both sighed, looking back at Emma. "I made your bacon just the way you like it." Amanda said hopefully, and Emma gave a small smile.

"Thanks. Sorry I'm just not very hungry."

"It's okay, Ems." She said softly.

Later that afternoon, Emma answered the door and found herself wrapped in a giant hug from her best friend. "Hey Ruby." She said, hugging her back. Next, Mal flung her arms around Emma and hugged her tight. "Mal. I'm glad you could make it."

Ruby and Mal both came in and Mal picked up Chloe. "Oh, my goodness! You are such a little Emma!"

"I Chloe!" The girl said and giggled as Mal tickled her tummy.

"Yes, you are, but you look like your mama."

"Hey girls." Olivia said as she came into the room. "It's so nice to see you both. Don't worry, I'm going to stay out of your way, just let me know when you're hungry and what you'd like. Amanda bought a lot of junk food, but we can also order out later. Maybe you two can get Emma to eat. Oh, and Emma, just let me know when you want Ma and I to take Chloe."

"Thanks mom." Emma said as she closed the door.

"Emma not eating?" Ruby asked with exaggerated shock. "That's not normal at all."

Emma rolled her eyes but smiled a bit. "Just haven't felt hungry."

Mal looked at her sympathetically. "We'll get your mind off that cheating bi…witch." She said, before tapping Chloe on the nose.

Emma sighed. "Mal, I appreciate that, but Zelena is going to be here and I don't want to spend the whole night trash talking her sister."

"Trash talk her all you want, Emma, I'll join you." Came Zelena's voice from the kitchen door. "I used the back door. Amanda let me in." She came over and hugged Emma. "Look, I love her, but I hate what she did to you and if you want to call her a cheating bitch all night, I don't blame you."

Mal gasped and covered Chloe's ears. "Little ears, Zee." She said over dramatically.

"Right, sorry." She said and smiled as Chloe held her arms out to her. "She wants her Auntie Zee." She said, taking the little one from Mal.

Mal then came over to Emma and put an arm around her. "Hey, just putting this out there, but some people recover faster if they have rebound sex. I mean, I would volunteer as tribute should you decide to try it." She said and winked. "I mean, I backed off before, but now that you're a free agent, I'm going to flirt with you as if my life depends on it. I'll be damned if that new girl gets you first."

Emma couldn't help but chuckle at that. "Lilly is pretty." She said, giving innocent eyes.

"Maybe, but I'm hot." Mal said with a shrug. "And so are you. Together, we'd be amazing. I'm guessing you to be a bit…reserved, submissive even. I could bring out the wild side in you, Emma. Yes, you've had sex, you've been made love to, but Emma, I could…" she lowered her voice "I could fuck you and make you feel things you've never felt before."

"Okay, horn dog, back down. Give Emma some space. She knows where to find you if she feels the need." Ruby said and Mal just chuckled.

That night, Emma was glad her friends were there. Yes, they spent a little time bashing Regina, but Emma's heart just wasn't in it. Yes, she was mad and upset, but she still loved Regina and didn't want to just bash her. They watched movies, talked, joked around and for a while, Emma felt normal again.

"So, what are we doing for your birthday?" Ruby asked.

"I don't know. I told Mom she and Mary can plan something."

"Ah, that explains the call I got today." Mal said with a grin. "I wondered why your mom was calling and asking where all the cool spots are."

"Why would she ask you that?" Zelena asked with a smirk, earning herself a pillow being thrown at her head.

"I'm not sure I'll be in the mood to celebrate, to be honest."

"It's not for two weeks, Em, things could change." Ruby said, stroking Emma's hair as Emma's head was resting in Ruby's lap.

"Maybe." She replied softly. "We'll see."

The next week, they only had two days of school before break started and Emma was thankful for it. Word of her and Regina had spread like wildfire and while everyone was on her 'side', she hated that people were talking so bad about Regina. Emma called her moms before hopping on the bus and heading to Mal's place. They had agreed to watch Chloe as they knew Emma needed some time with adults and friends. Emma had called Mal the night before and asked if she wanted company and of course, Mal agreed.

Mal lived in a large studio apartment just a block away from NYU that had a full wall of windows on one side and was decorated like any college girl's apartment would be. Obnoxious cheap art, second hand mismatched furniture, candles and an unmade bed. Emma loved it. "It must be nice to have a place of your own."

"It can be, but it can also be lonely. I'm glad you wanted to come over. Look, I know we're not 21, but neither of us are planning on driving. Don't feel pressured, but I'm going to have a glass of wine. Would you like one?"

Emma thought for a bit and nodded. "Sure, thank you. Mind if I go change quick?"

Mal let her eyes roam over Emma's body and nodded. "Go for it. Bathroom is over there." She said, pointing to the other room.

Emma went and changed from her uniform to some jeans and a blouse and came out. She sat on the sofa and sipped at her wine. "Mal I…"

"So why…" Mal started at the same time and then chuckled. "What made you want to come over?"

Emma smiled softly and then looked down, trying to find the right way to phrase what she was thinking. "I um…I was thinking about what you said the other night. I…I'm not using you, Mal, I swear I'm not, but I'd love for you to make me forget, just for a little bit."

Mal moved closer to Emma. "Are you sure? Emma, I know you're not using me and even if you were, I wouldn't care. But I don't want to do anything that will ruin our friendship. You have to know, it won't go further, I'm still not ready for all that seriousness, but if you're up for some fun…I can do that."

"It's just…other than being raped, I've only ever been with Regina and that took a lot for me to do."

"So, you've only ever been with Regina? I don't care. We go at your pace, Emma. If you want to stop at any point, you tell me. If you change your mind completely, we just lay in bed and watch TV. No pressure."

Emma put her hand over Mal's and looked at her. "I want this. I want…I need to feel something, Mal. Make me feel again." She then leaned over and kissed Mal, letting her hand slide up Mal's thigh.

Mal held Emma's wrist as she kissed her back. She broke the kiss and grinned at Emma. "If we do this, we do it my way. Sorry, but I'm not a bottom in any way."

Emma blinked. "I don't know what that means."

"Oh, dear lord above. I have so much to teach you." Mal said as she took Emma's hand and stood, pulling Emma with her. "It means, you just lay back and relax, let me make you feel good." Mal gently but firmly pushed Emma onto the bed and straddled her, kissing her hard. "And, it means you do what I tell you. Understand?"

Emma nodded and whispered. "Yes."

"Oh, Princess, it's 'Yes Ma'am." Mal said, stroking Emma's cheek and then pinching her chin to make the blonde look at her. "If you need a break, or to stop completely, you tell me."

"I will. I mean, yes, Ma'am."

Mal smirked and kissed Emma once more, pushing her back so she lay on the bed.

"Oh my Gods." Emma said, panting as she lay back on the bed, her fingers brushing back the hair from her forehead. "Seriously…wow. I never…it's never felt that amazing before. I mean, don't get me wrong, Regina was…"

"Shh. We're not talking about her." Mal said as she came back to the bed with their glasses of wine. She handed Emma's to hers and then sat back in the bed, not at all ashamed of her naked body.

Emma, on the other hand, kept herself wrapped in the sheet as she sipped at the wine. "Right, sorry. I just…I never knew sex could be like that."

Mal grinned as she put her wine on her bedside table. "We don't have to be done either, Emma." She lightly traced her fingers on Emma's arm. "Why are you all covered up? I just did things to you that made your toes curled, I've seen every part of you, why cover up?"

Emma blushed and looked down. "It's just…I mean now that we're not in the moment, I don't want you seeing my scars."

Mal sighed and took Emma's wine glass before moving closer to her and gently taking the sheet off her. "What scars? Emma, you're so beautiful and I want to see you."

Emma bit at her lip. "The scars on my back from years ago. The stretch marks on my stomach and boobs from when I was pregnant. The scars on my arms that never went away."

Mal sighed and ran her fingers lightly along the scars on Emma's arms. "These scars are beautiful, Emma. They show how strong you are and what you've overcome. Same with the ones on your back." Mal then let her fingers skim across Emma's now toned stomach. "These are nothing to be ashamed of either. These show just how amazing you are, how you grew a human inside of you even when you didn't want to conceive." Mal then moved to cup Emma's breasts. "And these. Wow, Emma. These are amazing. You fed your baby girl with these and they're still so beautiful." Mal stroked Emma's cheek. "You are beautiful and should never be ashamed."

Emma felt ridiculous, but she had tears in her eyes. She cleared her throat and looked at Mal with her now deep green eyes. "Then why wasn't I enough?"

Mal sighed and pulled Emma into her arms, holding her tight. "My beautiful girl. You were enough. She was selfish and will regret this for the rest of her life. No sane person would ever let you go, Emma."

Emma sniffed, wiping at her eyes. "You say that, but you don't want me either; not really."

Mal blinked her own tears as she stroked Emma's hair. "Emma, I love you. I love our friendship and I never want that to end. It's not you that I don't want to be in a relationship with; I just don't want a relationship at all. That's my issue though Emma, not yours. Believe me, I wish I could be in a relationship. It's just…growing up, my dad cheated on my mom for as long as I could remember. He was also very abusive to her, so finally, she left." Mal had told Emma that before, but this was all she had ever said to anyone. "What I've never said is when she left, she left me too. She left me with a man who she knew was abusive, Emma. I was only ten and even I knew how dangerous he was. I hated him and I'm sorry, but I can't go into detail. What I can say is because of all this, I just never want to be in an actual relationship. I don't want to be hurt, and I don't want to hurt someone else. I'm sorry if that doesn't make sense, Emma, but that's how I feel. It's not you, gods please believe me. You'd be the first person I'd ask out if I wanted a true relationship."

Emma wiped at her tears and then looked at Mal. "Thank you for telling me. For what it's worth, I'm sorry for what happened." Emma sighed and rolled her eyes. "I'm sorry I'm a mess. Gods, I just ruined everything, didn't I?"

Mal smiled softly. "Not at all. You ever heard of friends with benefits?"

"Yes. I'm not completely dumb."

Mal chuckled. "I never said you were, sweetie. Would you maybe want to do that with me? It's the closest thing to a relationship that I can commit to right now. If you don't want to, I completely understand. The lifestyle isn't for everyone; some people get really jealous when the other one is with other people."

Emma thought for a few moments. "How about we be friends, but if we're in the mood, we do this too? Then, there's no commitment, just fun."

Mal smiled. "I can do that if you're sure you can."

Emma nodded and then leaned over and kissed Mal. "I can. The question is, can you give me orgasm number four?"

Mal grinned. "Challenge accepted."

The next morning, Emma made them both breakfast and brought it back to the bed where Mal was just waking up. "Good morning."

"Mmm, morning princess." Mal said as she stretched and then sat up. "You know, usually the women I sleep with are gone the next morning. I like this. I like that you're still here and that you cooked for me."

Emma smiled and sat on the bed, putting the plate between them. "Well, hopefully I'm more than just some woman you slept with."

"Oh, you are. You're one of my best friends. Honestly, you are my best friend now. Regina hasn't talked to me for months and well, I'm honestly mad at her."

Emma stroked Mal's cheek. "I'm honored to be your best friend, but I'm sorry she did that to you as well."

Mal leaned over and kissed Emma's cheek. "Thanks."

After breakfast, Emma showered and got dressed. "I'm sorry, but I have to go. Chloe is asking for me I guess."

"It's okay, Emma." Mal said. "Do you want me to drive you home?"

"Nah, it's okay. I can take the bus." She chewed on her lip. "Thanks for last night."

Mal smiled softly. "Any time, Emma. I'll talk to you later, okay?"

"Okay. Bye." Emma said and then hesitated before turning back and pecking Mal's cheek. She then turned and went down the hall to the stairs.

Mal chuckled. "Bye, Emma."

The night of Emma's birthday, she was in her room with Ruby and Mal trying to figure out what to wear. "Can't you guys give me a clue as to what we're doing? I don't know what to wear."

Mal sighed. "I've already given you five choices, Emma, and Ruby gave you two. Dressy but comfortable, like us." Mal had a glittery black dress with a short skirt and one strap over her shoulder while Ruby wore a gorgeous red dress with a pleated skirt and quarter sleeves.

Emma sighed and looked again. "I hate dresses."

There was a knock at her door and Amanda came in with something on a hanger in a garment bag. "I got you something, Emma. Happy birthday."

Emma watched as Amanda hung the hanger on the hook on the door and unzipped it. Inside was a baby blue jumpsuit with a sparkle top and satiny pant legs. The blonde smiled as she looked at it. "Ma, it's perfect. Thank you so much." She took it off the hanger and went into the bathroom to change. When she put it on, she was surprised at how perfect it fit and at how low cut it was. However, she was in love with it and looked in the mirror. She had her hair curled and her make up had the smoky look she wished she could do, but always had Ruby do for her. She looked like a woman and couldn't stop herself from smiling. She came out and twirled around. "How do I look?"

Ruby smiled wide. "You look amazing!"

Amanda had tears in her eyes. "Where did my baby go?"

Emma went to her and hugged her. "I'll always be your baby."

Mal just stood there, gawking. "I don't know if I'll be able to keep my hands off of you tonight."

Emma smirked, momentarily forgetting Amanda was there. "Maybe I won't want you to." She said with a wink.

"La la la la la. I can't hear you." Amanda said, putting her fingers in her ears and turning to leave the room. "We need to leave in five minutes."

All girls chuckled and then got their shoes on to head out. "Ruby, August will call if he needs anything, right?" Emma asked for about the tenth time.

"Yes, besides, he's only really watching Chloe while mom's gone. She'll put her to sleep and be back way before she wakes up. However, if for some reason she does wake up, August is really good with her. He loves to visit mom when she watches her during the day."

Emma had agreed to Ruby's brother watching Chloe so Tracy, Ruby's mother, could come to the party, and then Tracy would watch her overnight, so Emma could enjoy herself. She was assured many times by Tracy that everything would be okay, but she was still a little worried. "Sorry, I just worry."

"She's your baby." Mal said, grabbing her purse. "Of course, you worry."

They all got into the car and Amanda headed out, still not believing her baby girl was now eighteen.

"I'm surprised Zelena isn't here with us." Ruby said casually, and Emma noticed both Ruby and Mal watching her.

"That's because mom asked her for help. She's invited and coming. Her and I are still good friends and, even though I didn't need it, I got Regina's permission to stay friends with her. Both Zelena and Cora will be there tonight."

"I saw there's a huge storm in Mexico…" Mal said casually as she swiped at her phone. "Pitty." She said before laughing. Ruby joined in the laugh and before Emma could stop herself, she did too. Maybe it was petty and immature, but when she saw that the area of Mexico Regina was in was experiencing unseasonal amounts of rain the whole time she was expected to be there, she couldn't help but feel a bit happy about that.

"Is anyone going to tell me where we're going?" Emma asked as they made their way through Times Square.

"Nope." Amanda said as she pulled the car over. "Because we're here."

Emma looked out the window and gasped. "Seriously? The Moxy?" The Moxy in Times Square was an amazing hotel with one of the coolest rooftop bar and lounge. She figured they'd maybe be eating here and would ask to get a glimpse of the rooftop before they left.

"Yes, seriously. Now get out so the valet can park my car." Amanda said with a chuckle.

The girls got out and Amanda handed them each a light, soft jacket to cover their arms. "It may get a bit chilly up there."

"Up…the roof? No way!" Emma said, squealing as she went to hug Amanda. "Are you serious?"

Amanda chuckled and hugged Emma back. "Yes, seriously. Apparently, your father knows the owner here. Now come on, we're a little late."

"Did you guys know?" Emma asked as they went in and took the elevator.

"Not a clue." Both Mal and Ruby replied. "This is so cool, Emma." Mal added.

When the elevator opened to the roof, Emma got out and stood stunned.

"Happy Birthday!" The crowed cheered, causing Emma to blush.

There were lights, balloons, a D.J., and so many people. Emma recognized people from her school, friends, some of her mothers' coworkers, and her family. There were some people she didn't recognize, but she was sure they must have been friends with one parent or another. Feeling a little overwhelmed, Emma found Olivia and went straight to her, hugging her so tight.

Olivia, knowing her daughter, hugged her back and whispered to her. "I love you, my sweet girl. I hope this is okay."

Emma took some deep breaths and smiled as she moved to look at Olivia. "It's perfect. Thank you so much."

"It wasn't just me." Olivia said, stepping back so Emma could see her birth parents.

Emma went to them and hugged first her father and then her mother. "Thank you so much. This is beautiful, even if it is too much."

"Nothing is too much for our daughter." David said, smiling as she stroked her cheek.

"He's right. Now you just enjoy." Mary said.

Emma kissed her cheek and then went to greet friends, wanting to be a good hostess. There was food and drinks – all nonalcoholic – and Emma tried her best to have conversations with everyone there. David introduced her to some of he and Mary's closest friends and coworkers and Emma beamed as she met them.

After a couple hours, Olivia pulled Emma aside and sat her on a chair. "Take a break. You're exhausting me just watching you." She chuckled as she handed Emma a plate with finger foods. "Eat."

"Thank you." Emma said, sitting back and taking the plate. While she was having fun, it was exhausting to be sure she gave everyone attention.

"Are you having fun? It looks like you are." Olivia said as she sat next to her daughter.

"I am. Thank you so much, mom. This is one of the best birthdays ever."

"I'm so glad, Emma. I didn't want what happened to ruin this day for you." Emma kept her smile, though her shoulders sagged a bit. Olivia sighed. "I'm so sorry. I shouldn't have said anything."

Emma shook her head a little. "It's okay." Emma put her plate on the table next to the chair and wrapped her arms around her mother, cuddling in with her. "I wish she was here. I can't help it. I wish I would have woken up today and this all would have been a bad dream and she would be here and holding me and loving me and telling me I'm silly for the bad dream I had." Emma said as she wiped at a stray tear. "But that's not going to happen and it's time I move on. I can't hold onto this sadness forever."

Mary cleared her throat and Emma looked over to her and smiled. "I'm sorry if I'm interrupting." She said, but Emma shook her head so she came closer. "Emma, I just wanted to tell you how sorry I am about what happened with Regina. Maybe this isn't the time but…"

"It's okay." Emma said, moving closer to Olivia to give Mary room to sit down. "It's what we were talking about anyway. Not that I want to always talk about it, but it's okay."

Mary sat down and rubbed Emma's back. "I thought better of her, I really did." She sighed. "But you're so young, you'll find someone. I'm not saying to not be sad or angry, I'm just saying, don't hold onto those feelings."

"I know, Mom, thank you. Honestly, I'm not going to look for a while. You're right, I am young and I have so much time. I kind of just want to focus on me and Chloe, and maybe have a little fun now and then. I'm graduating next month and then it's my last summer before college. I'm still deciding on which school to go to and what I'm going to do with Chloe while I'm at classes. It's a lot of pressure so I don't need to add to it by dating. Let's be honest, it's going to be hard to find someone who will accept me and Chloe."

"If they're worth it, they won't even thing twice." Mary said. "I understand and agree with what you're saying, Emma. I think it's good to focus on yourself and your daughter. What are your options for school? NYU was one, right?"

Emma nodded. "It's between NYU and Boston University. I am still thinking Social Services, but I may just do the first term doing my gen ed classes. NYU is probably where I'll go because I can just stay home, but I'm not going to lie, I wish I could have the full experience. Please don't think bad of me, but sometimes I can't help but wonder how it would be if I didn't have Chloe. I love her so much and obviously I wouldn't change a thing about having her, but I do wonder what it would be like to live in a dorm and have late nights with my roommate. Go out for pizza at 2am after a study session, even go to some frat or sorority party. I can't help but wonder what it's like for your first thought after being invited somewhere to be 'what am I going to wear?' versus 'who can I get to babysit? Do I have money for a babysitter?'. I love her, please don't think I don't, and I know I made this choice on my own and I don't regret it. I just can't help but wonder."

Olivia stroked Emma's hair. She had never heard her daughter talk about this and wondered how long it had bothered her. "I know you love Chloe, Emma, but what you're thinking is completely normal and understandable. As much as I never want to let you or Chloe leave, I get why you'd want to experience the normal college life. Maybe a compromise can happen, Ems. Ma and I are retiring, as you know, and while we are going to look for little part time things to do, we will always have time for you and Chloe. We'll work it out."

Mary patted Emma's hand. "Yes, it will all work out. Your dad and I are here for you as well, Emma."

"I know. I'm so lucky to have all of you." Emma said with a smile. "I should probably get back to the party."

"Actually, your ma and I have a surprise for you." Olivia stated with a grin. She took Emma's hands and pulled her up. The three went back out to the party and Olivia took Emma to face the D.J. booth before waiving Amanda up by her. They took a mic and smiled at Emma. "Can I please have everyone's attention?" Olivia asked and waited until the crowd grew quiet. "First I'd like to thank all of you for coming tonight to celebrate Emma's birthday. It means so much to her mother and I to see her so happy and surrounded by people who care about her. I'm going to get just slightly sappy here for a moment, so Emma, I'm sorry but I'm not sorry." Laughter surrounded Emma but she felt as if it was just her and her mothers there. "Fifteen years ago, I met the most adorable little girl who instantly captured my heart. In my job, I meet many, many children and always wonder what happens to them later in life, but for some reason, I knew from the first moment that I wanted to be in this one's life. I loved that little one from the moment she looked at me with her big, tear filled eyes. I'm so proud that she is mine and of the strength she has shown through out the years. She has been through more than any child should ever go through and she still finds a reason to smile every day. Words can't express how much I respect and look up to my daughter. She is honestly my biggest hero."

Emma felt Ruby, Mal and Zelena around her as she wiped at her tears. "Thank you." She mouthed as Olivia passed the microphone over to Amanda.

"What can I say about our Emma? Olivia is right, Emma is the strongest person I've ever met in my life, and I've met a lot of strong people. She has brought so much love into my life from the day she came into it. My little Fred." She said with a smile. "I thank you for all you've done in making us all a family. I honestly hope you have a wonderful birthday and that you know just how much you are loved." Amanda signaled to the side and a large cake was wheeled out with sparklers in it. The crowd all cheered and sang Happy Birthday to Emma while she wiped at her tears, smiled from ear to ear and hugged her mothers. After she blew out the candles, she heard a man clearing his throat and looked up to the D.J booth to see her father and mother.

The crowed grew quiet as cake was handed out and David smiled. "For those of you who don't know me, I am Emma's birth father. Eighteen years ago was both the best and worst day of our lives. She was the most beautiful baby with tufts of blonde hair and big blue eyes. I'm not going to go into detail, but because of circumstances beyond our control, we lost our baby girl and honestly thought we'd never see her again. Just over two years ago, she came back into our live and has made us whole again. She was and is everything we ever wanted her to be and more. I'm so thankful to her and her mothers for letting us be in her life and to be able to have these very precious moments with her. I just want to say Happy birthday, baby girl and thank you for letting us be with you for all of these moments and the moments to come." David went to hand the microphone to Mary, but she waved it away. "She's pretty emotional, but Emma, she also wishes you a happy birthday."

Emma smiled and went to her birth parents, hugging them tightly. She then to the microphone and looked out at everyone. She took a few moments and swallowed. "I want to thank each and every one of you for being here to day and for being in my life. When I was young, before I met my mother – Olivia, I honestly thought life wasn't worth living. I believed what I had been told; that I was worthless, hopeless, terrible and worse. I never could have imagined I'd have so many wonderful people in my life. My parents, all of them, have mentioned how strong I am, but I don't think they realize that I wouldn't be like that if I didn't have them. They made me who I am and made it worth the fight. I'm so honored to have four wonderful parents who love me, support me, and are always here for me. I'm thankful for my friends who always have my back. Ruby, you and I have been friends since we were five years old and your friendship honestly means so much to me. Mal, you help get me through all the tough times. Zelena, you are the perfect auntie to my baby and honestly such a wonderful friend. I'm grateful for those of you who supported my mothers and had huge impacts in my life. Tracy for taking care of me, and now my daughter with such love and patience. Nick and Fynn for being my surrogate fathers for so many years and showing me that not all men are horrible creatures. Just all of you, I'm so thankful for all of you and thank you for coming to celebrate this day with me. Now, let's eat cake!"

There was a cheer and the party continued. As people started leaving, David and Mary came over to Emma and handed her a key card. "We booked a suite for you and your friends for the night. Your moms are a floor down next to us, but we thought you and your friends would like to have the suite to yourself."

Emma hugged her father and then her mother. "Thank you so much. I mean it, thank you for everything. For today and just…everything." Emma said through tear filled eyes. "I love you guys so much. This night has been just perfect."

Mary smiled and wiped at Emma's tears. "You're very welcome, honey."

"Emma?" Amanda called. "Oh sorry, I didn't mean to interrupt."

"It's okay." David said, stepping back.

"I was just wondering if you wanted your gifts in your hotel room or just right into the car for tonight?"

"Hotel room!" Mal said, coming over and wrapping her arm around Emma's shoulders. "We can open them tonight."

Emma chuckled. "In the room it is." Emma looked over at the table with the gifts. "There's so many. I don't even really need anything."

Amanda told the assistant where to take the gifts and Emma just looked around. "I can't believe all of this was for me." She said softly. "Regina would have loved this."

Zelena sighed. "It's her loss. I took a lot of pictures and I'm sure she's sitting in her stupid little hotel room where it's pouring rain, feeling miserable and wishing she was here instead. Oh, by the way, mom said to say goodbye. She didn't want to interrupt you talking to your parents."

"Oh she should have." Emma said, feeling sad she missed her. "Hey, you guys know you're spending the night?"

"Yeah. That much we knew." Ruby said with a chuckle. "But I'm not sharing a room with you and Mal. I don't need to hear what you two may get up to."

Emma rolled her eyes. "I'm not allowed birthday sex?"

"La la la la la." Amanda said loudly as she walked by them, making them all laugh.

"Wait, you two?" Zelena asked, pointing between them. "Are you a couple?"

Emma didn't miss the slight look of disappointment in Zelena's eyes, though she was confused by it. "No. I'm not dating anyone. I'm just…having fun." Emma said with a shrug.

"And I'm fun." Mal said, wiggling her eyebrows.

"I didn't know that was an option." Zelena said, looking back at Emma. "I mean, you're so…good."

Emma chuckled at that. "Having sex makes someone bad?" She was really confused as to why Zelena seemed upset.

"No, no of course not. I didn't mean that. I just meant…I don't know. Never mind." Zelena said, feeling frustrated.

Emma knit her brows. "No, tell me. Please. Do…does it bother you? Do you think less of me?" Emma couldn't help but feel a bit hurt.

Zelena let out a breath. "No, Emma. I don't think less of you at all. I want you happy, I want you to live and have fun and all that. I just thought you were the kind of person who only slept with people you were in a relationship with."

Emma shrugged. "I mean I was when I was with Regina. I'm not a slut or anything, I'm not just going around sleeping with any girl who will come to my bed." She couldn't keep the offended tone from her voice.

"No, Emma, I know that. I'm sorry, I'm not at all trying to offend you." Zelena said, taking Emma's hand. "I'm sorry, this is all coming out wrong. I…I just…" Zelena blushed and looked down. "I mean maybe it's wrong, but I'd love to…to be with you."

Emma was stunned and just stood there while Mal smirked a bit. "You mean, you want to fuck her? I thought you were into guys."

Emma blushed at Mal's bluntness and Zelena just shrugged. "I mean, I'm into both I think. I've never…but I'd like to with Emma."

Ruby sighed. "It's going to be a friggen orgy in the room tonight, isn't it?"

Emma looked at her friends and started laughing. "You guys are the best." She took Zelena's hand and kissed it. "I'd honestly love to spend a night with you and see what happens. I was already accused of doing so, we may as well make the rumors true. Come on, let's go check out the suite." She looked around. "Are Lilly, Belle, Ella, and Kathryn still here? I didn't get a lot of time to talk to them."

Ruby looked around. "Looks like Lilly is. Looks like something may be wrong."

Emma looked over and then handed Ruby the key. "Why don't you guys go to the room and I'll be there soon."

Emma went to Lilly and gently touched her arm as she was looking at her phone. "Hey, are you okay?"

Lilly gave a nod and wiped her eyes. "Yeah. Sorry, I'm trying to get ahold of my mom to pick me up, but she must be out…working."

Emma shook her head. "You don't have to be sorry. Would you want to stay here tonight?" Emma always had a feeling that things weren't quite right with Lilly at home, but never pried. "My dad got me a suite so there's plenty room."

"Are you sure?" Lilly asked, looking at Emma. "I'd really appreciate it. I don't really want to go home."

"Yes, I'm sure." Emma bit at her lip. "Do you want to talk about it?"

Lilly shook her head. "Not on your birthday. Maybe…maybe another day though? And um…maybe with your moms too?"

Emma nodded and then took Lilly's hand. "Come on, let's go."

When Emma knocked on the door to the suite, she heard her parents were all in the room as well. Olivia opened the door and smiled. "There you are. Lilly, are you staying too?"

"If that's okay, Ma'am."

"I told you before, call me Olivia. Yes, of course it's okay."

The two came in and Emma looked around. "This is amazing!" It looked like a really fancy apartment inside. "I'm almost sad I didn't come in here earlier."

David laughed. "I can get you a room here any time you'd like."

After a bit, both sets of parents left and Mal let out a sigh. "Gods, I was wondering if they were ever going to leave. I got you something, Emma." She reached into her bag and pulled out a bottle of wine. "No one has to drink it, no one is judging those who don't, I just thought if anyone wanted to, we could."

Emma chewed on her lip as it was one thing to do this at Mal's apartment, but this was a hotel with both sets of her parents just a floor below. "I don't know, Mal. I don't want them walking in and seeing it."

"Understood. I'll just put it back and we can indulge another time." Mal put the wine away and looked at Emma and smiled. "Did you have a good party? It looked like you had fun."

"I did. It was honestly great. I feel so blessed to have the parents I have."

"Can I ask about that, Emma?" Lilly said quietly. "You were adopted? But you have your birth parents too?"

Emma explained her story, leaving out most of the gory details, of her childhood and then how she found her birth parents and what they'd gone through.

"Wow. That's crazy. What a turn around for you though. To go from a little girl who had no one to having so many people, you're very lucky."

"Oh, I know. I don't at all take it for granted either."

The next morning, after everyone had eaten breakfast in the restaurant at the hotel, Olivia cleared her throat. "I have one last surprise for you, Emma. Your mother and I could not figure out what to get you for your birthday. We talked and talked and talked and talked and realized that not once have you ever really asked us for anything. Anyway, some may say we are spoiling you, but we feel you deserve this." She took Emma's right hand while Amanda took her left and lead her outside.

"Are you fucking serious?" Emma asked, shocked with tears in her eyes. Outside was a brand new 2020, bright yellow Chevy Blazer with a bright red bow on it. "It's mine?"

"Yes, my love. It's yours." Amanda stated. "We thought about a smaller car, but this is really safe for you and Chloe."

"It's so pretty." Emma said in awe as she ran her hand along the SVU.

"There are rules, of course, even if you are 18." Olivia stated. "Mainly, no texting and driving, no goofing off, that kind of stuff. As long as you're in school, we'll pay your car insurance and to some extent, your gas."

Emma hugged her mothers tightly. "Thank you so much. I promise I'll be a good driver." Emma had gotten her license when she was 16, thanks to her father giving her driving classes for her birthday. "Is that a car seat in there already?"

"Yep, it's included." Amanda said with a wink. "Go on, get in and have fun." She handed Emma the key. "I did tell Tracy you'd be by to pick up Chloe by two, so don't forget."

"Watch where you park too." David called with a chuckle. "It's easy to get parking tickets."

"Emma?" Mary called out and Emma looked over. "Your father and I have something for you too. Can you come over sometime this week?"

Emma went to her and hugged her as well. "I will, mom. I'll call you and set up a time. I love you all so much. Thank you for the party last night; it's a night I'll never forget."

"Come on, Emma!" Ruby called from the car. "We want to ride!"

"I'll see you all later." Emma said, hugging all four of her parents once more before taking the bow off the car. "Wait, is our stuff in here?"

"Yes, we had them put it in your car. Now go." Olivia said with a chuckle. She put her arm around Amanda as they watched her go. She turned to her wife and rest her forehead against Amanda's. "Our baby is all grown up."