To those of you who thought last chapter was the last chapter: SURPRISE! There's more new name! Theres actually a fair bit more new name, I thought about ending it last chapter, cause that would have been a great way to end it, but then I remembered that I told someone that Holly and Gail will get married in this fic, plus I've written a bunch of other scenes, so yeah, theres still more new name.

Turtle: Canada, it's a magical place. Who wouldn't want free health care and the ability to purchase maple syrup in a hardware store, I mean, what else do you need? In some cases the birth mother can take up to 63 weeks off. Plus there's parental leave, if you're in a relationship with the parent that gave birth and plan on raising the child as your own, you too could get up to 63 unpaid weeks off, this information is for Ontario, it does depends on the company you work for. I truthfully did think about twins, as I'm sure you know with IVF you have a higher chance of multiple births, but then I decided no, however I will think about adding another child to this story.

Gail and Holly are sitting shoulder to shoulder in Holly's hospital bed. Holly is holding the baby who is breast feeding for the first time. Gail lifts her arm up to place over Holly's shoulders, Holly cuddles into Gail. Gail smiles at the two, "I was going to make a joke about those being my breasts first but then I decided I can't compete with a baby."

"Can't?" questions Holly, raising her eyebrows, "no. You wont compete with a baby."

Gail mumbles an agreement and says, "it was a tasteful joke."

"Let's hear it," insists Holly.

"I don't want to."

"Good," says Holly. After a moment she says, "I'm going to name him Gilbert."

Gail can't help but gasp, she looks at Holly. Holly sees a glimmer of hope in Gail's eyes, she still sees the uncertainty that's been lingering in Gail's eyes for the past few weeks, but now she sees hope as well. Gail says, "that's a nice name." Knowing what the name means to the two of them.

Holly is holding her new baby boy Gilbert, Gail is resting against Holly in the Hospital bed. They're waiting for the doctor to come back and tell them they can go home. "You're still going to stay with me right, even though we're going to get a new roommate." Holly smiles at her own joke.

"Is he going to help with rent?" Gail leans her head against Holly's. "Yes I'll stay with you, you're going to need the help, and I told you that I would stay as long as you wanted me to."

"Good," smiles Holly, having her dreams come true, her dreams right here in her arms.

True to his word, Oliver allows Gail to have a week off, he suggests that maybe Gail should think about parental leave, but Gail doesn't want to be presumptuous and take all that time off, she knows she doesn't have to take the full time off, but anything more than a week and she'd feel weird. She told Holly she would stick around for a little while longer and help out with the baby, but beyond that she's not sure what she'll do.

That first week goes by in a blur. Gilbert and Holly slept most of the time. Gail mostly kept things clean and quiet. Shooing away visitors at the door wanting to come see Holly and the baby, Gail knows that Holly was not ready for any company yet. Gail kept the kitchen stocked and spent a lot of time playing on the GameCube while the other two slept. Whenever Holly was up it was to feed the baby, feed herself, snuggle with Gail on the couch watching some random television show and go back to bed.

After a couple weeks of this, Gail feels like she is on borrowed time at Holly's, not a matter of if but when Holly wants her out of the house. Lucky for Gail her schedule has been afternoon shifts, so whenever she gets back to Holly's early in the morning both Holly and Gilbert are sleeping. Sometimes she hears Gilbert stirring, so she goes into the nursery and picks him up, checks his diaper, and rocks him back to sleep, allowing Holly to keep sleeping. She can't help but smile at little Gil, she leans down to kiss his dark brown hair. Then she would go to sleep, while the other two would be up. She has the next couple of days off; she has day shifts next week. She's happy she's still here to be helping out Holly, but she's also afraid of what Holly will say when she sees her still here.

Holly was so elated for Gail to have a few days off; Holly was feeling overwhelmed and needed some support. Having Gail there to help out with Gilbert, change diapers, give him bottles, bathe him in the sink, Holly doesn't know what she would do without Gail. Now Gail is back to work, luckily it's day shifts so Holly will have her here at night. Holly feels Gail get out of bed. She is expecting her to lean over and give her a kiss, on the head, forehead, cheek, shoulder, somewhere, but nothing. Nothing. Where's her kiss, when they were in Moonbeam, Gail always gave her a kiss before she left for her mail route. What is this, what is happening to Gail? Holly needs to start asking questions.

Holly is in the baby's room, making sure he's asleep. She hears Gail come in the house. Holly's still not used to Gail not being around. In Moonbeam, Gail was back at the safe house before she was and stayed home all night. In Toronto, Gail works weird hours, is barely ever around, and when she is she is extremely quiet and slightly aloof. Holly's just assumed Gail's tired. After working all the shifts she works plus coming home to a new born, Gail has barely slept. Holly waits another minute in Gilbert's room, to see if the blonde is going to come in to check on the baby. When Holly feels Gail isn't coming, she walks down the stairs in search of Gail. She sees her seated in the kitchen, head in her hand, rested against the table. Yup, she's tired, Holly thinks. She leans against the door jamb leading into the kitchen, she is now the second person I have watched sleep tonight, she thinks, I should totally stop doing this…

"Hey," says Holly from the doorway.

Gail mumbles something in reply.

"Why not just go to bed…you're tired."

Gail nods her head in her hand. Gail is at a loss, she doesn't know what she is doing, she's scared of what is to come, or what may come. She doesn't want to bring up her and Holly's situation, she doesn't want to lose whatever she has with Holly and now with Gilbert, she fears her not saying anything is just dragging things along, and neither wants to be the one that ends it.

Holly moves off of her spot, seeing that the blonde isn't going to move anytime soon. She walks over to Gail and rubs her hands over Gail's shoulders; she sits in Gail's lap draping her arms over Gail's shoulders. Holly tilts her head to the side, Gail opens her eyes. "Hey," says Holly. She kisses Gail on the nose. "Tough day?"

Gail grumbles. Holly smiles sympathetically and rests their foreheads together. Gail sighs contentedly, damn I'm going to miss this, she thinks. She pats Holly's legs to indicate her to get off, "I'm tired Holly, I want to go to sleep."

Holly kisses her cheek before she gets up, "okay."

"Okay," says Gail as she stands up and stretches.

"Do you work tomorrow?"

"Just the morning, I should be able to get here by 2, 3 at the latest. Do you need something?"

Holly inwardly yells, YOU! I need you back, I don't know where your head has been at, but it's not here. "No," she says.

"Okay," Gail nods her head and leaves the kitchen.

Holly takes Gail's spot in that chair, she sits down and adopts the same position with her head in her hand and sighs.

Lisa comes over to visit Holly, now willing to let others in the house. Gilbert is sleeping in his crib; Lisa and Holly are looking at him. Lisa's had enough as she walks out of the room, Holly adjusts the way Gilbert is lying in his crib before she follows Lisa out.

"He's cute," says Lisa, sitting at the bar stools in the kitchen. "But, I mean, I should hope so, look at you."

Holly not sure if that's a compliment or not, she says, "thanks."

"So, are you going to raise him vegan?"

"Why? I'm not a vegan."

"It's the new thing Holls, I'm even vegan."

Holly laughs, "you mean your latest fling is vegan, so naturally you are too."

"I've been vegan for almost three weeks now," Lisa brags.

"Well, I'm breast feeding him, so, he can't be vegan."

"He can still be considered vegan, common mistake," Lisa looks down at Holly's boobs, "your boobs do look rather nice, don't forget you need to even out how often you feed from which breast or else you will get lopsided boobs." Lisa reaches across to cup Holly's boobs.

Holly pats Lisa's hands away, "and we wouldn't want that."

"Exactly," says Lisa, "just trying to help you out."

"…thanks…"

"So did you circumcise him?"

"Pardon me?" Holly asks slightly shocked at her friend's personal question.

"You know," Lisa mimes scissors with her fingers and says, "snip, snip."

Holly not sure what to say.

"Oh come on Hol, we're both doctors. They say it's a lot more hygienic, plus it's easier to put on a condom if you're circumcised."

"Why do you know this?"

"I read things…"

Holly sighs. "For your information, yes."

"Good," Lisa nods her head. "So how's the live in girlfriend, what does she think of all of this?" Lisa looks at Holly who shrugs her shoulders. "Have you two had sex after the baby was born yet?"

"Oh my God Lisa!" exclaims Holly, but wants to kind of justify why, "we've both been really busy and really tired."

"So no. He's what? Over a month old now," Holly nods her head at Lisa's question, "it's safe to have sex again." Lisa starts to do the math, "assuming you're like most pregnant women, you probably didn't want to have sex the last couple months of your pregnancy, so the two of you haven't had sex in almost five months." Lisa looks skyward, "I would die. Have you at least tried?" Holly doesn't say anything; she didn't really think it was that big of a deal, "you didn't try kissing her nose did you?" Lisa scrunches up her face, "you used to do that back in med school and sometimes it was like watching a train wreck, completely cringe worthy, I don't know how you kept a girlfriend." Holly still doesn't respond. "Cause I mean, Hol, it's cute to kiss someone's nose but…"

Holly makes a frustrated noise.

"I think I got my answer, you seem really…tense."

Holly doesn't respond, she thinks about her failed attempt at trying to start something with Gail the other night, she sighs. "What if it's not just about the sex?"

"What do you mean?"

"I don't know-something feels off between us."

"Do you love her?"

"Yes, I love her so much, it scares me, I don't want to lose her," confesses Holly.

"Well you need to tell her how much you love her and how much you want her in your life."

Holly pauses for a second and looks down at her left hand ring finger, she finds looking at that finger reminds her of Gail, she thinks, how do you do that?

Lisa clearly done with this conversation asks, "so what else is new?"

"You mean besides becoming a mom?" asks Holly sarcastically.

"Yes, I haven't seen you in ages," Lisa stresses, "what else have you been up to?"

Holly sighs, and this is why I prefer hanging out with her and Rachel. Holly has an idea, she hates to admit it but Lisa is right, and she needs to do something so she doesn't lose Gail, so Holly asks Lisa to watch Gilbert while she runs a few errands.

"What?" asks Lisa, "I don't know what to do with a baby!"

"I just put him down; he should be asleep for at least another two hours. I'll be home before he wakes up. I just need someone to be in the house. Please." She asks Lisa.

"Okay, fine, but you'll owe me if he does wake up."

"Okay," Holly shrugs her shoulders knowing Gilbert won't be up for a while. "Let me just grab my purse, I'll only be gone for an hour, hour and a half tops."

"Fine," says Lisa as she opens Holly's fridge and grabs a white wine bottle, "this is my sitting fee."

Holly smiles at her school friend, "it's a steep fee, but help yourself. If you need anything just call me."

Lisa grabs a glass from the cupboard, "will do."

"Thanks Lise," Holly grabs her car keys and heads out the door, determined to go to the jewelers and buy two weeding rings, damn she misses her ring, she knows it may sound silly but she does miss that tangible reminder of her and Gail.

Holly keeps fretting about filling out the papers she brought home from the hospital with her, the forms for Gilbert's birth card, health card, SIN card. She has everything filled out except one spot, the spot for a second parent's information. She wants to ask Gail if she can put her down, but is nervous. She loves Gail and wants Gail to be a part of her and Gilbert's family, not that she already isn't but officially, so that the hospital knows, the government knows, the world knows. OK, maybe the world won't know, but she wants it written down somewhere. She's been moving these papers around, from the kitchen to the family room and now to the desk in her bedroom, but still hasn't found the right moment. She got close, Gail was feeding the baby a bottle in the kitchen and she was looking over the papers, she noticed they were filled out and offered to mail them in for Holly, but then Gilbert spat up all over her. Holly would have asked her then, when the papers were brought up, but allowed Gail and Gilbert to leave the room to get cleaned up.

Earlier that evening Holly was putting Gilbert to bed, giving him his night time feeding and making sure his diaper was dry. She walks down the stairs and sees Gail sitting on the couch, staring at the tv. Holly has noticed that Gail has become more distant lately, ever since they got home from Moonbeam, and even more so when Gilbert was born. Holly walks over to Gail and sits in her lap. Gail doesn't move her arms around Holly like she normally would. They sit like that for a few, Gail eventually moves her hand to tap Holly's leg, indicating her to get off, "I want to grab something from the fridge."

Holly stands up. Gail walks into the kitchen, she places her hands on the counter and leans on them, she sighs, lost in her own thoughts. She doesn't notice that Holly followed her into the kitchen. Holly stands silently, looking at the blonde, wondering what's going on in that head. She wonders if it's because they haven't been spending that much time together, Gilbert has been taking a lot of her time, but Gail too has been spending more time with the baby then with Holly. She then wonders if it's sex, they haven't been that intimate with each other since the baby was born, they've either been too tired or really didn't want to. Holly can't help herself, she hates seeing Gail like this. She walks up behind her and hugs her; Gail startles a little, but settles in to Holly's embrace, clearly lost in thought. Holly rests the side of her head on Gail's back. Gail tries to loosen Holly's hold, but the brunette continues to hold her tightly. Gail, who's stronger than she looks, is able to turn around and properly give Holly a hug. Holly sighs; this is what she's been missing, but what about Gail?

Holly adjusts so her head is resting on Gail's shoulder, "are you okay?"

Gail pauses before asking Holly the same question, "are you okay?"

Wanting to see how the blonde responds, Holly lifts her head to look into Gail's beautiful blue eyes, "are you okay?"

Hoping that it's enough of an answer, Gail pecks Holly on the lips; she sees all the love and worry in her eyes and doesn't like it. Holly smiles softly; she places her hand on Gail's cheek and rubs her thumb soothingly up and down, she kisses Gail on the lips, sweetly, softly. Gail missed the feeling of Holly's lips. She stares into Holly's eyes and she can't help herself, she brings their lips back together and desperately deepens the kiss, wanting more, needing more. Holly's hands begin to wander, slipping them under Gail's top touching bare skin. Gail moves her hands down to Holly's ass, she pulls Holly closer to her, melding their bodies together. When it all becomes too much, Holly finally pulls back, "let's go upstairs."

And now Holly's staring at Gail who appears to be lost in thought all over again. "What are you thinking about?"

Holly trails her fingers between Gail's breasts, over her abdomen to her belly button and back. Gail's lying on her back with Holly curled beside her. Gail lets out her breath. "You're really good at that," confesses Gail.

Holly smirks, "I have had some pract-"

"Don't finish that," Gail cuts her off.

Holly slightly taken aback, "why?" She pauses for a second to rearrange her thoughts, to make sure her thoughts are in order and doesn't say anything that will push Gail further away. "We both know we've been with other people."

"Yeah, I guess," says Gail.

"So then what's wrong?"

Gail's not sure what to say; they've been back in Toronto for a couple of months now, and Holly had Gilbert. Holly had mentioned when they were in Moonbeam that she didn't want to date anyone while she was pregnant, even though Holly and Gail totally started dating, they were dating right, it wasn't just an act for their cover, and now Holly's not pregnant, does this mean Holly will start dating again? Gail doesn't know why she feels unsecure all of a sudden, she has never felt this stable in a relationship before, and yet for whatever reason she feels obligated to say something. "It's just-"

"It's what?" prompts Holly, completely confused with Gail, not sure where this conversation is going, just wanting the blonde to feel better again, to have her Gail back.

"Now that we're home, are you going to start dating people again?" All of Gail's insecurities come out. "You said you didn't want to date anyone while you were pregnant, and then you kind of couldn't date anyone while we were in Moonbeam because it could have thrown our cover."

"I am dating someone."

"Oh," says Gail completely defeated. "You probably had your eye on someone before you were plucked from your life and had to go to Moonbeam. I understand."

Holly changes her position from lying next to Gail to sitting on top of her. "I'm dating you silly." Holly finally understand why Gail has been so distant, "I don't want to date anyone else. It wouldn't even matter if I had my eye on someone, they're not you, and I want you. I don't know why you have this self doubt about yourself and your relationships. Whoever made you doubt how amazing you are is a real idiot," Holly says somewhat angrily. She pauses for a second, not wanting to get off topic. She has a brain wave, and quickly gets off the bed and grabs some papers from the desk. "These are Gilbert's hospital papers, there's a spot to put someone else's name as his parent, I was wondering if I could put yours'."

Gail sits up. "Seriously?" Gail asks completely in awe and dumbstruck, she moves to the edge of the bed where she continues to sit, staring at Holly.

"Yes." Holly says with the biggest smile on her face. "I'd love for you to be the other name on these forms, to join me in raising Gil." Suddenly all nervous, "do you…uh…want to?" She pauses, "you made a joke about being his dad, and I do want you as a part of the family, do you want to be?" Holly nervously asks again, she sets the sheets down on the bed and sits in Gail's lap, draping her arms over Gail's shoulders. "I mean there's another spot for a second parent's information and I thought if you were okay with it I'd put your name down, but if you don't want to be a part of this…"

Holly gets cut off the only real way Gail knows how to, with a kiss. "Relax nerd." She presses their foreheads together. "I would love to officially be a part of this family. I love you and I already love the baby, and I would be honoured to join you in raising him," she says somewhat dramatically. Gail pauses, filled with joy and hope, "I was always envious of friends or coworkers knowing exactly what they wanted. I always did what was expected of me, what I was supposed to do." Gail finds Holly's hands to clasp, "I know why I didn't know before, I hadn't met you yet, and now I know I want you and this beautiful boy in my life. I know what I want. I want you two to be my purpose, my reason, my…" Holly shuts her up the only honest way that seems to work.

Holly eventually pulls back and places their foreheads back together, "I was also thinking…that maybe you'd want to have the same last name as us, if you maybe wanted to be a Stewart too?"

Gail's all smiles, "are you asking me to change my name or marry you?"

"I went out to the store the other day to buy us wedding rings, they're in my top dresser drawer, I keep looking over at my left hand, to look at my ring, to see something that always reminds me of you, but it's not there-" Gail kisses her, Holly giggles and answers Gail's question, "I was thinking both…"

Gail falls backwards bringing Holly with her, "you make me so happy Holls, I would love that. I love you."

Gail is elated; all her weeks of unrest are gone. Holly asked her to officially be a part of her family, and of course Gail said yes. She woke up this morning feeling great, she heard Gilbert making noises and gladly got out of bed letting her fiancée sleep, fiancée Gal smiles to herself. She threw on a pair of sweats and a t-shirt. She went into Gilbert's room, picked him up, changed his diaper, and took him downstairs to warm up a bottle. After Gail finished feeding Gilbert a bottle she burped him, she has him in her arms rocking him back and forth, staring at his beautiful face. She hears a knock at the door; curious as to who would be here so early in the morning she walks to the front of the house and looks through the peephole. She sees her mother, she opens the door. Elaine stands there all dressed up for her day of work, her police uniform perfectly pressed and crisp, as always.

If Elaine is surprised by the scene that the door has revealed, Gail holding a little baby with a spit-up cloth resting on her shoulder, she doesn't show it. Elaine looks her daughter up and down and says, "okay dear, you've had your fun; it's time to stop playing house."

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