"I'm sorry, you're what?!" Diana blurted out.
Olivia, Diana, Michelle and Yvonne were sitting around after work, hanging out and doing each others color. Olivia didn't plan on saying anything, since her and Jay agreed it'd be best to not say anything, but she couldn't help it. She needed to vent, and these girls had become her sisters.
"Just don't say anything, this stays between us. No one knew, just Jay and I."
"When did it happen?" Michelle asked.
"That time the guys flew down and met us in Vegas. Jay and I left that club-"
"I remember that,' Yvonne interupted, 'I was honestly convinced you were both drunk and just left to finally fuck each other."
"Nope, we went and got married."
"How'd it happen?" Diana asked.
"We left the club, we went to the Paris hotel and had champagne under the Eiffel Tower, rode the gondolas at the Venetian hotel, watched the fountain show at the Bellagio. At some point during the night I made a comment that he would make a damn good husband some day to some very lucky girl, and I guess it got to him and got him thinking. He started to realize how things would have to be different for us, how we acted, how or when we hung out, I don't really know, but then he asked me to marry him."
The girls looked at her as if she were crazy.
"And you just said yes."
"Yeah, I guess I did."
"How come you never wear rings?"
"They were plain silver bands. My band is in the finger holes of one of my scissors and Jay's is in his badge holder between the badge and the leather."
"Okay, come on, that's freaking adorable." Michelle said.
"How are you handling all this?" Diana asked.
Olivia shrugged her shoulders.
"At first I was so upset and hurt that he never told me. I flat out asked him what our relationship was and he said just friends. He lied right to my face, for over a year. I felt so stupid."
"And now?"
"I feel…there's almost this sort of happiness about all of it, a giddiness. Like I'm really a Halstead." Olivia beamed.
"So now what about the wedding?"
"There'll still be a wedding. No one knows and we plan to keep it that way."
"You told the girls! Livi, they're gonna tell everyone!"
"No they won't, They swore to secrecy."
Jay shot her a look.
"That's not comforting, like at all."
Olivia huffed.
"I needed to vent, Jay, I needed to tell someone, to talk to someone!"
"Uh, how about, oh I don't know, your husband?!"
Olivia smiled widely.
"Why are you smiling like that?" Jay asked.
"You're my husband." She giggled.
"According to the state if Nevada."
Olivia wrapped her arms around him.
"I have to get home and iron all our clothes for tomorrow."
"You could stay and we could have locker room sex."
Olivia laughed.
"Not while our son is upstairs, no doubt causing some sort of havoc much like his father."
"Come on Livi, we haven't had sex since James came home."
"That happens when you have young kids. Maybe the easter bunny will bring it for you' she joked, ' Besides, I didn't hear you complaining this morning when I was on my knees." She quipped.
Jay could feel himself growing at the thought of this mornings events. She had been waiting for him on the bed when he got out of the shower. After a lot of touching and kissing, Olivia dropped to her knees and pleased him.
"James will be fine for a few more minutes. He's with his aunts and uncles in a building full of police."
Jay lifted her up and pinned her against the lockers.
"We'll have to be quick."
Quick it was. Neither could deny the fact that the thought of them possibly getting caught at any second was a rush. Jay always secretly fantasized about having a quickie in the locker room. They walked back upstairs holding hands. James was sitting at Jay's desk, focused on drawing a picture.
"Whatcha drawing little man?" Jay asked.
"Two police opicers, daddy, me and you. Look!"
Olivia scooped the little boy out of the chair.
"You and Daddy, huh?"
"Yup, I'm gonna be just like Daddy, mommy."
Jay could see Olivia's hesitance.
"How about you just focus on helping Mommy get ready for tomorrow."
James' face lit up.
"We's color eggs?"
"I'll try and be home in time. But you listen to your mama, you hear me?"
James nodded.
"Good,' he kissed them both, 'I love you both, so much."
"I love you too. Be safe, come home to us."
"Always."
It was the middle of the night when Olivia woke and Jay's side of the bed was empty. Intelligence caught a case and from the sound of Jay's voice when she spoke to him, it wasn't good. Jay had missed dinner, coloring eggs, bath time and bed time, which James was upset about but was trying to control himself and be good like Jay had asked him to. Olivia explained that Jay was helping people who needed it, because that's what good police do.
Realizing she fell asleep without hiding the eggs and put out the baskets, she got out of bed and went downstairs. She jumped and let out a gasp in fright when she saw Jay sitting on the couch with a blank look on his face and an empty glass in his hand. Jay had, had episodes like this before. Tough cases usually did it.
"Jay?" She whispered softly, kneeling in front of him, 'Jay, can you hear me?' She placed her hands gently on his knees. 'Jay, I need you to come back to me."
Jay's gaze shifted to her and she smiled at him.
"That's right handsome, show me those beautiful blue eyes."
She slowly stood before straddling his lap tp face him. She put his arms around her waist and then draped her arms around his neck, putting her forehead against his.
"Livi?"
"Yeah baby, it's me."
"It was so bad,' his eyes filled with tears, 'Livi, it was so bad."
Olivia held him in a tight hug, her head on top of his and her hands softly playing with the hairs at the base of his head.
"I know Jay, I know. It's okay, it's all over." She soothed.
jay never talked about the cases with her. He never wanted her to know hoe terrible the world could really be. So she did the only thing she could…be there for him, whatever he needed.
"Go up to bed,' she said, ' i'll be up in a few."
"I'll wait for you."
"Jay go, I'm gonna hide the eggs quickly for James and i'll be there in a minute."
jay leaned forward to kiss her.
"Okay, I love you."
"Love you too."