"We should be home sometime tonight" Tara said as she leans back against the couch and took a sip of her morning coffee. Tara has been up since 4 am worried about the conversation she was about have with Abel tonight.
"So your really gonna tell Abel the truth tonight?" Donna asked over the phone.
"Donna I have to because if I don't. Wendy will and that's the last thing me nor Jax wants." She said as she set her cup down.
"Yeah I know Tara." Donna said as she took a sip of her coffee." So I was thinking maybe I can take Thomas for few hours so you and Jax can talk to Abel tonight."
"That would be helpful actually. As much I would want Thomas to know the truth about Abel. I still think he's too young to understand any of this right now."
Jax sat down next to Tara and lean over and kissed her temple as he waits for Tara getting off of the phone.
"I got no problem with that. I'll see you guys tonight." Donna said as she hung up.
Tara set her cell down and lean back against the couch." Donna is gonna take Thomas tonight so we could have the conversation with Abel."
"Maybe Thomas should be there." Jax suggested.
Tara then shook her head." Thomas is too young for this. Finding out the truth about his brother. Jax Thomas is going to start asking questions. Questions we both can't answer yet." Tara said as she took a sip of her coffee.
"But babe the truth about Abel effects Thomas too. He should know the truth about Abel."Jax said looking at her for a moment." We been hiding the truth from Abel for fifteen years. Let's not hide it from Thomas either."Jax said as he kissed her temple before standing up."I am gonna go load up the truck." Jax said as he walked into the back room and grabbed their bags.
Tara ran her fingers through her hair as she leaves back against the couch. Deep down Tara knows keeping a secret like this from Thomas is something they both can't do. But how is she gonna explain to their youngest son that she never gave birth to his big brother.
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About half an hour away from the cabins Tara could hear her stomach starting to grumble. She didn't really eat anything this morning all she had was a cup of coffee." Hey I'm getting hungry. Can we stop by the cafe for breakfast?" Tara asked as she looked over at Jax.
Jax glance over as he nods his head." Yeah we could do that." He said as he turn his attention back to the road. He reached over and innerlock his fingers with hers."You doing okay babe?" He asked as he turned the corner.
"I'm fine Jax. I just want to get something to eat and hopefully once I have food in my stomach it will help calm my nerves." Tara said as she looked over at him and then out of the window.
Walking into the cafe Tara looked around and found a table."Order me an egg sanwich and ice tea. I'm gonna sit down." Tara said as she let go of Jax's hand and walked over to the table by the window. As she sat down she took her cell out and checked to see if she got any messages.
When she saw she didn't get any messages Tara set her cell down as she placed an hand on her stomach and closed her eyes as she slowly breathe in an out.
"Hey what's wrong?" Jax asked as soon as he sat down across from her after he set their breakfast down in front of them.
Tara forced a smile." My stomach just won't stop growling that's all." She said obviously lying." I haven't anything to eat all day plus I am still nervous about tonight." She reached over and picked up her egg sandwich.
Just as Tara was about to take a bite of her egg sandwich. Tara felt something creeping up her throat."Excuse. me." She mumbled as soon as she got up and ran into the restroom covering her mouth.
Jax dropped his fork and jumped out of his seat runnincg after Tara. When he reached the doior of the girls restroom he slowly opens it and peeks in."Babe?" You okay?" Jax asked with concern.
Tara stepped out of the bathroom stall and walked over to the sink and rinse her mouth out and then washed her face. She looks over as she nods her head." Yeah I think so." Tara said after she dried her hands off.
"Are you sure?" Jax asked as he walked into the girls restroom and closed the door behind him."Maybe your-" He tried to say when Tara stopped him and shook her head.
"Don't even go there Teller."Tara said as she grabbed her purse and walked passed him and out of the girls restroom. Walking back to their table Tara picked up her uneatten egg sandwich and threw it in the trash along with her ujtouch ice tea. Tara then walked out of the cafe and got into the passenger side of the truck as she waits for Jax.
Jax opened the door of the driver side and climbed in. After he closed the door and sat down he looks over at Tara for a moment." What was that all bout?" Jax asked as he arches his brow.
"Nothing." Tara said as she shrugged her shoulders.
"Come on Tara you ran into the restroom and basically puked your guts out and when I mentioned that you could possibly be pregnant you basically ran out of the cafe. So what's going on babe?" He asked.
"Jax it's too early to suspect anything. Besides I could just becoming down with something." She said as she get her seat belt on. She looks over at Jax as she could sense he was watching her.
"What?"Tara asked.
"Well I was thinking maybe we could stop by a drugstore when we get closer and pick up an pregnancy test or I can pick it up after I dropped you off." Jax suggested as he started up the truck.
Tara then shook her head." No. Tonight we need to focus on one thing and that's Abel and telling him the truth about Wendy. Tonight is not a good time to take an pregnancy test." Tara said looking over at him.
"Positive?" Jax asked.
"Positive. Now come on we still have a long drive back home so lets not waste it talking about an pregnancy that might not be possible." She said again as she sat up straight.
Jax then nods her head."Yeah." He said as he looked at Tara for a moment and then pulled out of the cafe and back into the traffic and drove home. Tara looked out the window and closed her eyes as she sighs deeply. Of course the possibility of being pregnant has crossed her mind more then once this weekend. But it's too early to ttell and tonight all Tara is concerned about is telling Abel the truth and he's going to take it.
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Pulling up into their driveway Jax killed the engine and exhaled deeply as he pulled the keys out of the ignition and leans back the seat." You ready to go in?" Jax asked.
Tara slowly shook her head." Not really."She said looking over at him." But we gotta do this. We gotta tell him Jax now tonight." Tara said as she unbuckled her seat belt and jumped out of the truck.
Tara started to head into the house as she felt Jax grabbing her wrist."We don't have to tell him now. We can tell him tomorrow babe. We just got home and I'm sure you want to get some sleep."he said looking down at her.
Tara shook her head again." Jax I'm fine okay? If we don't tell Abel the truth tonight Wendy will and we can't have her do that. I don't trust Wendy not now and not fifteen years ago especially with something like this." Tara said as leans up and kisses him softly.
" Go get the bags and I'll meet you inside."She said as she walked towards the door. Opening the door she walked in and kept the door open for Jax. Taking her jacket off and after hanging it up. Tara walked into the kitchen and grabbed a wine glass and her red wine from the fridge.
pouring herself a glass Tara walked over to the kitchen table and sat down. With one gulp she exhaled deeply as she set her glass down. Tara is not ready to hhave this conversation with her son who is not really her son. Tara is more nervous now then she was before.
"God Help me."She said softly.