Emma's POV

I was running back to the hotel room, let's face it, I hated being away from my beautiful Queen. I was so unbelievable happy. Everything was falling into place with me and Regina, I couldn't believe I could have ever forgotten her. I called Ruby on the way to the take away and told her we would come and visit this week before we went back to America. I was so excited. Ruby was unbelievably happy for me she actually cried on the phone. I called her a soft shit when she cried, and she called me an insensitive prick in return. I don't think our friendship will ever change.

I got back to the hotel and made my way up to our room. I got Regina some flowers on the way to the take away also. I knew I was being a soppy bitch, but this is what she has done to me.

I made my way into the room and I heard muffles noises coming from behind the door, I thought it would have been Regina still on the phone to her Director, so I came in as quiet as I could.

What I saw absolutely broke my heart. In the spilt second before I could react there was my everything lying on her back half naked her eyes were at the back of her head as a hand was wrapped tightly around her neck. I quickly noticed he was putting his hand towards his member and was about start to push towards her. I quickly grabbed the phone off the table and ripped it out of the socket the sound must of alerted the rapist as he spun his head around and looked directly in my eyes, my body stopped momentarily, I was shocked beyond belief, I seen a hint of a smirk on his face and as if in slow motion he turned back to face Regina and looked down at himself, no way was I going to let him put that anywhere near her, I swung the phone as hard as I could to the back of his head and he fell instantly on top of her. I pushed him off and pulled her from under him. She was unconscious, my whole world seemed to have stopped. Dread slowly consumed me as I feared he had killed her

The next few minutes was a blur, I rang 999 in a panic. The police and ambulance were on their way, two security guard from the hotel burst into the room a moment later. One covered us with a blanket. I was holding my angel in my arms, I was in tears, her neck was so red, and I could see the bruises he had inflicted on her

"please don't leave me, please not you, not again, I can't lose you again" I was whispering to her.

The paramedics turned up and started to work on Regina, I sat with my knees up to my chest the tears were streaming down my face. I heard the paramedic say there was pulse and she was going to be ok but I was in a state of shock I could only feel the tears run down my face and nod in return

The other paramedic looked over Killian as he was starting to wake up, but the police quickly restrained him. He was taken away by the paramedics and escorted by the police.

I had so much anger boiled inside toward him. I hated him. How could he do this. My fists were clenched so hard I felt my nails pierce the palm of my hands

"Miss is this your phone" one of the police officers showed me pulling me out of my haze

"no, it is my girlfriends" I sobbed through tears

"I need to take this for evidence, is there any numbers you need from it before we take it"

"yes… yes, I need her mom's number" the officer quickly held the phone in his gloved hands and managed to retrieve the number for me "why do you need it for evidence" I took the number from him and he put the phone inside a bag

"it looks like there has been a recording made, we need to take it and listen to what has been recorded" the police officer walked away along with the phone.

I left to go to the hospital with Regina, I didn't know what was happening to her or what state she was in, I just hoped she would survive that's all I cared about. Even though the paramedic told me would be fine, I still couldn't not think of the worse.

I called Regina's mom straight away, after a few awkward minutes of tears and anger she told me she was getting the next flight and that she will call me when she landed. I also called Ruby to which she was already on her way to the train station by the end of the call.

When we arrived at the hospital, I was told I couldn't go further as they needed to take Regina into the emergency ward. I felt my whole world crumble around me. This was all my fault.

I was now all alone. I wish I could take the pain away for her. It was in this moment I knew I would do anything for her. A nurse came over to me and knelt before me. She placed her hand on my knee and I looked up.

"was that your girlfriend, do you want to sit in a private waiting area?" I looked up and realized it was my mother in front of me. I haven't spoken to her in years I just burst out crying and she pulled me into her arms.

"come on Emma, let's take you in this room" she led me into the room and sat next to me, I was sat with my mother's arms wrapped around me, I was heartbroken. We didn't speak for the longest time until she spoke again "I am sorry Emma, what I done to you was unforgivable, I hope one day you can forgive me, but please know that I have never stopped thinking about you. I tried so hard to reach out to you soon after we stopped speaking, I realized my mistake, but I was told you wanted nothing to do with me. I am so sorry, and I know this isn't the time or the place, but you are my daughter and I will always love you"

I didn't know what to say until it dawned on me what she said, "I didn't know you reached out?"

I looked up at her and she looked shocked "but I did, I have never stopped trying to find you, but your friend Killian always said you didn't want to hear from me, I seen him in the hospital many times, even when you were on the ward he wouldn't let me near you as he said you didn't need the stress"

I shot up so fast "that FUCKING bastard" my mom stood up trying to calm me down "I never knew mom, if I did, I would have wanted to see you. I needed you so badly in the past" I was shaking with rage "I can't do this right now I need to know if Regina is OK"

"I will go check for you" she hugged me "stay here ok, wait here I will be back"

She came back about ten minutes later "sorry poppet, no news yet" I smiled at my old nickname, but it quickly went as I looked back down placing my head in my hands "come on, tell your mam all about it, I want to know everything"

"I don't know where to start"

"how about at the beginning darling, I've missed so much I want to know all about my daughter's life"

And so, I did, I told her everything from Bella dying, to going off the rails to meeting Regina and everything that happened with her. I told her about my memory loss, I was smiling when I told her the way myself and Regina met again and how Regina wouldn't give up on me. I told her everything that happened with Killian. I couldn't help but break down at this point. The person I trusted since I was young, the person who I thought was always there for me. He has hurt me beyond forgiveness, I have never felt so dirty, so sick in all my life, he has made me waste so many years, but all this must not compare to what he has done to Regina. He tried to rape her. I just can't get my head around it.

My mother has tears in her eyes and held me so close. Exhaustion took over and I ended up drifting off to sleep in her arms

"Emma, wake up baby" I opened my eyes slowly but all around was white, at first, I thought it was a light shining into my eyes, I squinted trying to focus until I seen a figure walk towards me from the distance.

I stood up rubbing my eyes trying to make out what or who it was, as they were coming closer, I realised it was a girl, she was dressed in all white. I suddenly started to panic wondering where I was, had I died, this place is too surreal to be real. Oh my god I am dead. How did that happen. I am sure I was just sat with my mother.

I closed my eyes again trying to wake up when I felt a hand on my arm. I felt a sudden surge of calmness seep through my body. "Emma, it is OK, you are safe" I opened my eyes slowly and I couldn't believe the sight before me.

I stood in complete shock, my eyes widened the more I stared at her, after the shock started to wear off I wrapped my arms around her pulling her close, tears fell down my face

"Bella" I whispered

"Hi Emma" she whispered back

I pulled away to look at her, she was so pretty, she looked so pure like an angel "am I dead" she giggled and cupped my face in her hands making me take a deep breath as if she was calming my whole world around me

"no Emma, you are not dead"

"am I dreaming?"

"you can make this whatever you want it be Emma" she never once looked away from me, she held my face in her hands looking at me with so much love it was overwhelming.

I started to sob, "I'm so sorry Bella, this is all my fault, I am the reason you are here and not alive" I pulled her close again "I should never have argued with you. I should never have crossed the road. You were too young and beautiful to be taken from this world"

She stroked my back to calm me down "Baby, none of this is your fault, it was my time to go. No matter what or where I was it would have been my time. I am just grateful my last moments were not alone, I was with the one I loved. You were my true love Emma" I smiled at her words

"I didn't even get the chance to tell you how much you meant to me"

"I know how you felt, you didn't need to say it. But I'm breaking all the rules coming to see you" she giggled again "you must stay strong for me, for Regina, we both love you so much and you are never alone, please do not ever think you are alone"

"but I could lose Regina" I sighed and pulled away "I feel like I never deserved either one of you, so many bad things have happened I don't want to hurt her, I don't want to be another reason for someone to be hurt"

"are you kidding me? Do you know how special you were to me? I can see how much you love Regina you would never hurt her. And I have seen how much she loves you. You two were meant to be" tears continued to fall from my eyes, Bella was always so calm, always knew the right things to say

She lifted my chin, so I was looking in her eyes again "you have to forgive yourself Emma, you need to move on. Regina is the key for you, you are the key for each other. YOU were my key, you made me so happy Emma. Please take this with you. Always know that none of this was our fault and that I will always love you"

She stepped towards me and kissed my lips. I couldn't help but wrap my arms around her, I even smelt her perfume I was always so fond of, she felt warm, safe, she felt like a home I was coming back to from being away for so long.

"I love you Bella" she smiled and kissed my check

"and I love you Emma" she winked at me and closed her eyes

She opened her eyes again she smiled and held my face "now go be with your girl"

I suddenly woke up with a shock. It was all so real, I lifted my hands to my face and could still feel her hands. I sighed and smiled at the feeling.

"goodbye Bella" I whispered to myself

A/N now, I know you all may feel a little in different to the Bella scene, however, I lost someone very special to me the same way that Bella was taken from this world. I very much experienced the same event as what I have written Emma to experience with Bella. It was by far the hardest thing I have had to go through. For more than 14 years I have wanted to write my story, although this is not based on my life, the events I have wrote about of drugs and alcohol to take away my pain is true. I wrote this part with Bella based off a dream I once had with my girlfriend, I felt like I was able to let go slightly, that she actually did visit me in my dreams. I'd like to think this was the case

I also wrote this in the hopes of helping others that may have lost loved ones, you can go through hell and back but always remember there can always be good moments ahead. Never give up

Two more chapters left I think. Hope you all enjoy ?