Ties That Bind

Chapter 41

Cut Deep

Author's Note: Hello all first I would like to say thank you for the amount of reviews that I got from the last chapter. I loved hearing from each one of you and I am going to try my best to respond to each one of your thoughts or questions.

I really love the fact that my readers are looking at this story as more than just a story to read and taking the time to look and feel the depth of each character and there development even though I am aware that this story does deal with some very strong situations.

In regards to giving Darien a further back story towards why he is the man that he is and behaves the way he does. I actually loved the idea and will be doing so not as much with a flash back, but there will be moments mentioned through conversations in future chapters that hopefully will give some more depth as to how he became the man he is, not excusing his actions but maybe explaining them further.

As far as every sexual encounter that Serena has with Darien that she is being raped by him. To clarify while yes there are definitely scenes that she is being raped by him. There are also times that she is being more forth coming and leaving herself open to his touches because she does enjoy the sensation he makes her feel and in doing so is exploring more of her own sexuality with him, but in regards to her feelings during the acts themselves and then getting more upset after he pushes her away; with Darien's constant hot and cold behavior it has left her confused to her feelings for him, but know she does care for him. Do to this a lot of the time she gets most upset has to do more with his coldness and uncaring attitude more than any other abusive behavior he shows.

To respond where the ideas for this story came from a lot of my writing comes straight from my own emotions and things that I deal with and come across on a daily basis which does not mean I myself am writing this as a memoir because it's not the case, but the feelings that she expresses throughout the story at what time or another came from my own feelings that I have myself felt trapped inside my own walls

I will try to update all my chapters as soon as possible, but it does get a little crazy sometimes juggling family work and all the rest, but I will be sure to update at least once a week and if ever possible sooner.

I hope this helped in some way to answer any questions or thoughts you may have, but if there are any questions left unanswered please send a review and I will try to answer in the next chapter.

Thank you everyone for following along and I hope you continue to enjoy the story. Please continue to send your thoughts and reviews. Thanks Mars Light

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Darien walked back into his room slamming the door shut behind him and then stopped putting his hand up onto the door and took a few deep breaths.

He heard her movements moving back and forth in her room on the other side of this door and it took a great deal of effort on his part to stay put after fucking her hard, hearing her crying out for him begging for more while he pushed her past the limits.

He had never done with anyone else before what he experienced with her and damn her even after trying to prove his point, she still enticed him further with that damn body of hers.

He let out a silent frustrated scream knowing things did not go as he had planned, he meant to teach her a lesson tonight that all his interests in her were purely physical that he was in complete control, but once again she had surprised him by making his need for her only grow harder.

He pushed a hand through his hair remembering earlier that day with her sitting across from him prying into things she should not be concerned about, asking him about how she could be of assistance to him. He walked away from the door thinking of several ways she could be of assistance.

He took a deep breath knowing he had every intention of going for his ride this evening and forgetting about her, let her just be another one that had passed through and be someone else's problem, but instead he ended up running into that man again. The one from the village who thought he could take what was his, the one she thought about, as his grip on his knife holster tightened at the thought of any other man having her.

His thoughts drifted back to her and the way her body perfectly molded against his own, which only fueled his rage more at the thought of any other man placing their hands on her while she called out to them, and then that damn way she looked at him again with those eyes of hers asking about the other guy worrying about his safety, when she should have been worrying about her own.

He took the holster with his knife in it and dropped it down to the bed as he looked seeing the sheet was folded over in just such a way with a flower petal placed on the end, he knew she had been in here and was the one to have done so.

He went and slammed his fist down onto the dresser thinking of the other man with his hand on her leg, but then she went and complicated things admitting to caring for only him. In all his years here. He was the head of the manor people feared him, they were loyal to him, they respected him, they did not care.

He took a few deep breaths and went and sat on the bed placing his hand on the hilt of the knife he had never intended to use the knife to hurt her, but to show her who was in control. He had complete power over her and then those eyes the way they looked upon him with doubt while he held the knife up against her smooth skin.

She had really expected that he would hurt her tonight and in doing so he dropped the knife down to the floor. He didn't understand his reactions why he was acting this way, why he couldn't get her far from his mind. She was just like the rest of them, she should have feared him only she didn't.

He let out a deep sigh remembering the way her legs wrapped around his own, he hadn't expected her to respond to him as she had tonight. The way her body heated up while he entered into her hard pushing her and demanding more which she gave.

He had meant to teach her a lesson that all his interests in her were purely physical that there was no room for her emotions, but once again she had surprised him with her needs for him growing stronger just as his has for her for days now.

He shook his head at the thought of the pent up frustrations that were building inside of him over the last two days. Yes he had found other ways to relieve his needs, but none could satisfy his urges, none could compare to the way she opened and came for him as he closed his eyes hearing her cries of pleasure and then heard her voice in his head asking if he was going to send her away.

He opened his eyes wide and raked a hand through his hair knowing he had thought about it, going back to the way it was before she came. He didn't need all the complications of her thinking there was more going on between them then just the sex, but then the thought of another putting their hands on her, having her scream out there name while they took her pleasures for their own. He couldn't have it. She would belong to him and no other.

He went to stand up to go back to her room and tie her up to the bed if he had to, show her there would be no one else, that no other man would ever touch her again that her body belonged to him and him alone, when something caught his eye. On the table near his bed were flowers as a memory of many weeks ago when he first got the sweet taste of her on his lips. She had come then to bring him flowers to give him pleasure and the vast amount of pleasure he took from her afterwards.

He walked over to the small table and with one quick swipe of his arm he knocked the vase over to the ground as the flowers spilt out around the floor. He turned and walked out of his room down the halls to the kitchen and started opening cabinet after cabinet until he found what he needed a large bottle of bourbon and a tall glass.

He sat down at the kitchen table with the bottle in one hand and a glass in the other as he put the glass down on the table and opened the bottle and drank directly from it. He slammed the bottle down on the table as his thoughts ran away to when he had fucked her right there on this very table. She had been shy with him then, but she had still fulfilled his desires which only grew with his need for her as he picked up the bottle and took another longer drink.

He placed the bottle down on the table and started to feel the heat rising within him. Lita must have kept the fires burning longer than normal again as he thought about holding her in his arms in front of the roaring fire on a cold evening. He picked up the bottle again finishing it quickly and then tossed the empty bottle against the opposite wall, where it shattered down to pieces on the floor.

He looked down to the shattered pieces of glass and then let out a frustrated sigh and stood back up in search of another bottle to drown out his troubles.

Andy quickly barged into the kitchen investigating the noise that he heard and saw the broken bottle and pieces of glass scattered across the floor. He quickly relaxed letting the door swing closed behind him and stood against the wall with his arms crossed, looking over to Darien with a whimsical expression asking "having a rough night?"

Darien ignored his comment telling him "I need to find another bottle" as he opened cabinet after cabinet trying to find another bottle before his thoughts drifted back to her again while complaining loudly "where does Lita keep the blasted bottles" as he marched down to the pantry and saw the sacks of flower sitting there on the floor as he let out a frustrated yell, she was everywhere here.

Andy shook his head knowing there had been a difference in him since he returned two nights ago from Christopher's earlier than expected. Since then he was in a worse mood than ever before, constantly complaining and taking it out on the other servants then who he knew he was truly holding back from.

He was aware he had not called on her in days passed and had heard rumors that he intended on sending her away. He didn't know what happened to cause such a strong reaction, but based on his temper the past couple of days. It was much worse than he could expect and shook his head asking "having woman trouble?"

Darien walked back up the few stairs holding another bottle in his hand and opened it with his teeth thinking of the way she responded to him parting her legs out wide and took another drink and then could feel those eyes of hers piercing into him, he followed with another longer drink.

Andy looked over to him seeing his tortured face and nodded his head stating "trying to find an escape at the bottom of that bottle are you"

Darien turned and looked to him angrily asking "don't you have something else you should be doing right now?"

Andy shook his head no and then carefully made his way around the broken glass to sit down at the table telling him "although I see your time away from the manor, did not improve your mood at all"

Darien chose to ignore his comment as leaned up against the counter still complaining "it is too damn hot around here. I have to have a word with Lita about that"

Andy looked to him and nodded his head knowing it wasn't warm there was actually a little bit of a draft, but nodded his head telling him "I'll take care of it" and then leaned back comfortably asking "so what has you running full speed to the nearest bottle"

Darien looked to the captain of his guard and probably the closest person he could call to a friend and shook his head telling him "nothing everything is going accordingly"

Andy nodded his head knowing it was not true, whatever demons were plaguing him he was taking it out on the bottle he was holding and the broken one on the floor before that, while he watched Darien take another long drink he asked insincerely "feel better?"

Darien looked to him feeling aggravated that Andy was getting far too close into his personal business and took on one of his most commanding tones telling him "Andy what I do is my business I would advise you to remember that. You are still under my command and should remember your place" as he took another drink from the bottle

Andy stood up from the chair knowing there was no talking to him when he let the liquor take over his thoughts and bowed down to him saying "yes my lord" then turned to walk out of the kitchen, but stopped at the door and turned around telling him "I know you won't take my advice, but I'll give it anyway. You won't find what you're looking for at the bottom of that bottle or the next one either, but perhaps from the girl upstairs, who looks upon others with an overly kind heart" as he walked out the kitchen door letting it close behind him.

Darien sat down at the table with a frustrated sigh and took another drink as he complained "why does no one in this damn household do as they are told" as he slammed the bottle against the table and thought of what Andy had just said and remembered the look in Serena's eyes when she had shed tears for him while telling him that she cared.

He looked up at the ceiling picturing her naked body in her bed under her satin sheets as her chest rise and fell, soon falling asleep against her pillow after he had given her body a proper workout. The thought of her lying there with her flesh heated up as she moaned out calling for him made him feel hard for her again.

The past few days he had kept his distance from her thinking his need for her would lesson, but it hadn't. He was a fool to think it would, it had only made his urges for her grow stronger. She was a drug to him he couldn't get enough of. She could be very dangerous to him if he wasn't careful.

He stood up and finished the bottle he was holding putting it back down on the table and made up his mind, from now on he would only go up there hold her down to the bed and screw her hard and fast, then leave her. She would finally understand there is no room for emotions only pleasure. She was no more to him then all the others before her just a pretty face and an amazing body.

He went and grabbed another bottle from the pantry for reinforcement and left the kitchen to head upstairs to go to her room.

Constance came walking down the stairs seeing him walking her way with a sour expression on his face as she greeted him pleasantly "good evening my lord"

Darien just nodded his head as he walked past quickly not wanting whatever distraction she wanted to bother him with now, until he heard her ask "my lord, I was curious as to what your plans are for the new girl"

Darien stopped walking as he turned around remembering the girl he met a day earlier, thinking she maybe just what he needed to get Serena away from his thoughts once and for all he asked her "tell me again about this new girl?"

Constance had a gleam in her eyes knowing she had his attention turned away from the annoying blonde telling him "yes sir. Sarah is her name. She started here just before your visit to Lord Christopher. The girl is young and innocent. Her father is away traveling most of the time and he has left her in your care to see to her needs"

Darien had a devilish grin thinking of how he could mold this new girl, he no longer needed to deal with complicated emotions as he asked her "innocent huh?"

Constance nodded her head pleased telling him "yes my lord" Darien thought about it for a moment and then turned to Constance telling her "I will have to see about how I can take care of all her needs personally"

Constance nodded her head telling him proudly "I will be sure to get the girl ready so she is prepared to welcome you my lord"

Darien nodded his head and turned around to head back up the stairs telling her "don't be long about it" then hurriedly walked back up the stairs.

Serena awoke the next morning as the sun just started to rise in the sky. She sat up in bed and stretched her muscles feeling her body still aching from yesterday. She looked out on her room remembering everything that had happened in one evening between Constance telling her she was unwanted and Lord Montgomery showing her that was untrue.

She let out a sigh thinking of last night about him and the coldness he showed to her, but also how he put his hands on her making her feel things for him. She closed her eyes knowing she had missed his touch and he had been out to take complete control over her and in doing so left her feeling hot for him inside, wanting more of him, which even now she could not escape as she placed her hand up to her neck where his lips had been just a few hours earlier.

She opened her eyes wide hearing a noise coming from inside the other room. She knew he was awake and stood up from the bed and walked by the door between their rooms. She put her hand up to knock hoping maybe he would enjoy some further company, but then put her hand back down thinking better of waiting until he called upon her fearing he may have changed his mind about keeping her near and then looked down to her wrists seeing there were still subtle signs of where the rope pressed into her skin.

She slowly walked away from the door and to her bureau and grabbed one of her shifts and then put her silk robe around herself wrapping it tightly, she took one more look at the closed door between their rooms, let out a small sigh and headed downstairs.

She headed towards the dining room to get something to eat after missing out on her meal yesterday, but then remembered her run in with Constance and decided against it, keeping her head low she went past the dining room and headed straight towards the kitchen.

She opened the door cautiously unsure who would be up yet at this hour and saw Lita on her hands and knees carefully picking up broken pieces of glass.

She walked in the room careful not to step on any broken pieces then kneeled down next to Lita telling her "here let me help you clean this up" then grabbed a nearby towel from the counter and carefully took a few of the larger pieces of glass placing them inside.

Lita looked over to see Serena kneeling down next to her in one of her silk robes and left out a relieved sigh hoping Lord Montgomery's mood has changed since last evening and looked to Serena appreciative telling her "thank you, but be careful the glass shards are sharp"

Serena nodded her head as she continued picking up the broken pieces asking "what happened here?"

Lita looked around seeing the mess still all over the floor and shook her head telling her "I don't know when I came down here this morning I found the glass everywhere"

Serena nodded her head confused as well and carefully picked up the towel with the broken glass in her hands to dispose of it as the door quickly swung open and Constance walked into the kitchen seeing the mess on the floor demanding "what is this mess" then looked over to Serena holding onto a towel asking her "what have you done now?"

Lita stood up from her place on the floor as she wiped away some dirt from her apron telling her "Serena had nothing to do with this. I came down here this morning and found all the broken glass Serena was only helping me clean it up"

Constance looked down at the broken glass and remembered Lord Montgomery walking away last evening with a bottle in his hands and then looked back over to Serena with a secret grin seeing her standing there doing nothing as usual, unaware at this very moment she was being replaced as Constance ordered out loudly "well what do you think you are doing just standing around here, there is work to be done"

Serena let out a long sigh knowing Constance would not make it any easier on her today either and then looked down at herself wearing only her silk robe, remembering last evening when he had come to her and felt hopeful that things would turn back to somewhat of a normalcy here asking with a little grin of her own "will Lord Montgomery be coming down for breakfast this morning?"

Constance looked at her with a smirk remembering her run in with him last evening and his current where about telling her pleased "Lord Montgomery is occupied elsewhere at this time"

Serena nodded her head assuming he had left again early this morning with personal business to attend to, but then remembered hearing noises coming from his bedroom and stood up to her knowing Constance did not give her orders, he did telling her proudly "that is incorrect, he is here I heard him earlier"

Constance looked to her with a knowing grin she told her "he is not otherwise detained where, but with who. I am certain he will be otherwise detained for some time. He will not be needing you to fulfill his needs any longer"

Serena stood there feeling like someone had punched her right in the gut, he had been with her last night. She could still feel his touches and kisses still along every part of her body, making her cry out for him wanting more of what he gave and then he left her room to take another to his bed.

She remembered his words last evening playing in her head asking does it bother you knowing I have been with several women even now. She was unaware of his plans when he asked, that he intended to take another right after her, she felt anger boiling up inside of her as she squeezed her fist together and then heard Lita cry out "Serena your hand"

She looked down to see her hand now covered in blood. In her anger and frustration she had tightened the hand that held the towel with the broken pieces of glass in it as Lita quickly crossed the room and took hold of her hand putting it over a bucket and then grabbed a clean towel wrapping it around her still bleeding hand trying to keep pressure on the open wounds.

Serena stood there feeling numb to the pain while she heard Lita calling out to Constance telling her "we need to get her to a doctor"

Constance walked over and took a look at Serena's bleeding hand and shook her head telling her "don't be dramatic it is just a flesh wound" as she looked down to where small blood spots were hitting the floor telling her "and finish cleaning up this floor"

Lita stood there holding pressure on the towel seeing it dampening with Serena's blood and then looked over to Constance unbelieving what she was hearing she shook her head telling her "she needs medical attention, this will probably need stitches"

Constance looked to Lita unpleasantly hearing someone else going against her orders she told her firmly "what needs to be done is for you to go back to your kitchen duties" then grabbed another towel nearby and pushed it into Serena's good hand roughly telling her "I will see to the girl"

Serena took the clean towel and wrapped it around her hand and then looked up to the ceiling knowing what was going on above her as she heard Constance coldly order her "come along"

Serena looked back at Lita with a little sigh and nodded her head reassuringly and then followed Constance out of the room.

Not for one moment did she believe that Constance would actually take care of her as they walked out into the hall and stopped. Constance picked up her inured hand tightly causing her to feel pain coursing through it then looked to her telling her "you'll be fine, but if you want to keep your position here I suggest you find some other way to be useful"

Serena looked to her feeling a tightness in her chest rising, she knew the answer it was right in front of her, but she had to hear the words spoken aloud she asked "he is in his bed chamber with another girl right now, isn't he?"

Constance was surprised by her question as she released her hand letting out a loud fit of laughter telling her as though the answer were obvious "of course his lordship enjoys many women. His interests cannot be solely on one girl for very long before he looks elsewhere and it is my job to see to his needs and make sure all goes as he pleases"

Serena shook her head not wanting to hear any more of this as Constance's laughter echoed through the hallway she told her "you were just one of many. Do your really think you were the first girl he had become infatuated with?"

Serena shook her head trying to block out the thoughts from her mind as Constance looked to her and raised her head proudly telling her "now enough of this. You have duties to preform that you must do so accordingly. Do not expect I will be going and taking it easy on you like I did yesterday because of this" as she picked up Serena's hurt hand tightly in her own

Serena looked to her shaking her head feeling pained, but not from her hand as Constance replied telling her "if you do not due as you are told I will have a word with Lord Montgomery about finding somewhere else where your specific skills can be of use"

Serena looked to her shaking her head not wanting to hear anymore of her threats and then ripped her hand away from Constance's hold and ran from the room in tears.

Constance stood there smugly watching her run off as Andy came walking down the steps after witnessing Serena run away asking "what is the matter with Serena?"

Constance turned around surprised to see him there and shook her head replying "she is being insubordinate. I will have to have a word with Lord Montgomery about her actions"

Andy looked down the hall where Serena had run off and shook his head telling her "when it comes to that girl. I suggest you find other ways of handling things"

Constance looked to him knowing he was butting into her business and with a slight nod of her head she replied "very well sir"

Andy looked to her sternly knowing how Constance enjoyed abusing her power telling her "make sure you do" and then turned to walk away from her as Constance watched him go angrily and then lifted the bottom of her skirt slightly and headed up the stairs.