Promise To Love Me, Even When You Hate Me
Chapter 32
Her eyelids fluttered open, she blinked a few times waiting for her eyes to adjust, but the light was too much. Lifting her arm she tried to block it out, after a few seconds her arm became heavy and she dropped it back beside her, everything hurt. Her mind refused to steady as all she could hear was the incessant noise of machines beeping around her. Blinking furiously she clenched her jaw commanding her brain to focus, she attempted to sit up, but the movement made her yelp out in agony.
"Shit…"
She frowned as she inspected the cords that were attached to her body and shook her head.
"Hi…"
The deep voice made her flinch, a twinge of pain shot through her body.
Her head turned slowly trying to find the voice, a man stood from the chair in the corner of the room and approached the bed.
"How you feeling?"
Tilting her head she stared at the man as he perched himself on the end of her bed.
"I'm having deja vu, and… where do I know you from?"
"Ah, you don't, but you saw me, on the boat…"
She heaved herself upright and brought her knees to her chest placing her head in her hands.
"Ugh, I don't remember…"
"I'm Jonathan Dawson, ah, technically Captain, but have been acting as your replacement on Hammersley..."
She looked up at him scrunching her face trying to figure out what question to ask first. He could see she was struggling and cleared his throat, he smiled as he placed his hand out in front of her, Lisa obliged and shook his hand.
"It's nice to meet you, Ms Harvey."
Lisa withdrew her hand forgetting about the million questions in her mind.
"My name is Lisa McDonald…"
"Oh, from what I was told your new identity is Amelia Harvey?"
She shuffled in the opposite direction trying not to make it too obvious.
"Wait a minute, how do you know my aliases? How do I know you're on my side?"
He tried to reassure her with a friendly smile, he hadn't been told the whole story but he could tell by looking into her eyes she had been through a lot.
"I umm, I was brought in late, I know that things got messy after you left and umm, resurfaced, and I was placed on Hammersley to see if there were any loose ends, just in case. They were concerned that Shaun had turned too…"
Chills ran down her spine hearing his name, Jonathan knew by the frustrated expression on her face that she hadn't figured out the truth.
"He didn't betray you, we asked him to do it. We had to be sure that he was clean. We had him contact Warren and…"
She raised her hands to pause the conversation.
"Hang on, you planned all of this? You put me, us, on that boat with him?"
"Well, the plan was to have him come to the safe house, but it didn't exactly pan out like that. The vodka Shaun brought you was laced with something, Warren must has suspected that Shaun was faking it, and he took you all to the boat. Shaun was able to convince Warren he was still on his side and luckily we hand enough evidence against him when the Hammersley interrupted.
"Luckily? Seriously? Warren was about to kill us, so yeah, luckily they came along. Where the hell were back up?"
"They were there, we wouldn't have let anything happen…"
She rolled her eyes not believing him.
"Where's Shaun? And Dylan? I need to speak to them."
"What you need to do is think about everyone's safety, including your own."
"So, they're okay, they're alive?"
Jonathan sat there in silence not giving anything away, Lisa slammed her hand on the bed refocusing his attention.
"With all due respect Captain, I know you out rank me but…"
"It's for your own safety."
"I don't care, I just need to know if they're okay…"
He sat there stone faced, she let out a huff and chucked back the covers. Letting out a hiss of pain she maneuvered her legs over the side of the bed, Jonathan let out a sigh and attempted to help her stand but she swatted his hands way.
"I heard you were stubborn."
She stumbled to the door and attempted to turn the handle, it was locked, she turned and raised an eyebrow in Jonathan's direction. Jonathan sat back down on the bed and folded his arms over his chest.
"For your safety."
She exhaled sharply and defiantly stood at the door.
"Okay, I'm gonna ask you one more time, where I am? And where are Dylan and Shaun?"
"I'm sorry, I can't disclose that…"
She wrinkled her face placing her hands on her hips.
"Oh, bullshit!"
She stood there, eyes focused on him, waiting for him to cave, but he didn't budge.
"Okay, so can you tell me what happened to Warren?"
He sighed and unfolded his arms, he knew he needed to give her something.
"He didn't make it, but we're still not sure about who was working with him, but we'll get them."
"Yeah, you will, so I can go then?"
He didn't respond.
"Can I at least see Dylan?"
He shook his head, Lisa clenched her firsts at her side, she was in frustrated and in pain, she didn't have time to play games.
"And why not?"
"Because he, he's, look, it's for your…"
She rolled her eyes and interrupted.
"For my own safety, yeah, I heard you the other hundred times, so, where is he?"
He paused before answering choosing his words wisely.
"Lieutenant, you made your choice, and now you need to move on, for you own..."
"Don't even say it!"
She stormed up to him trying to intimidate him.
"Captain, where is he?"
He refused to answer, she stomped back to the door and violently shook the handle, Jonathan couldn't help but chuckle.
"It's still locked…"
She couldn't be in the room for another second, she looked around and spotted a towel sitting on the chair, she picked it up and wrapped it around her hand. Jonathan immediately stood up realising what she was about to do.
"Harvey, I'm warning you..."
She hesitated and closed her eyes taking a deep breath in.
Meredith voice over: So, do it, decide. Is this the life you want to live? Is this the person you want to love? Is this the best you can be? Can you be stronger? Kinder? More Compassionate? Decide. Breathe in. Breathe out and decide."
She exhaled and summoned all the strength in her body and smashed her hand through the glass, it shattered everywhere. Fiddling with the door knob on the other side she unlocked the door and swung it open. Jonathan rose from the bed and shook his head as he watched her walk out.
"Stubborn and ballsy…"
She stumbled down the hall way peering into each room, she stopped as she saw Dylan curled up on a bed. As she reached for the door handle she felt a hand on her shoulder, she turned seeing Jonathan.
"Wait, he has been told the same things as you, to move on…"
"What he thinks I'm dead?"
"If you go in there and mess this all up, we can't help you anymore, you'll be alone."
She turned back to face him while unlocking the door.
"I won't be alone, I'll have him..."
Running into the room she flung herself on to his bed startling him. He grabbed her by her shoulders attempting to register that she was alive.
"Oh my god, you're okay…"
She nodded as they held each other and tears poured down their faces, Dylan cupped her cheek in his hand.
"I understand why you did what you did, they told me you wouldn't be safe, that..."
"I know, and this maybe completely selfish but, Dylan, I can't go back, not after you, not after knowing what our lives could be like. I hurts me to think that us being together puts you in danger, but, the thought of us not being together, it hurts more."
They heard a chuckle from the door way, Shaun leaned on the door frame looking little worse for wear. Lisa ran up to him and threw her arms around him.
"You idiot! You really got me! Why would you do that?"
"Hey, couldn't let you have all the fun! I'm glad you're okay, and I knew you'd make the right decision..."
She looked back at Dylan and then at Shaun confused.
"Huh?"
"You chose to have a life..."
"Yeah, well, potentially a short one according to Jonathan."
He let out a hiss and rolled his eyes dismissing her comment.
"I know what he said, just ignore him, he doesn't have our history, I've got you…"
He nodded towards Dylan as he walked up behind Lisa and wrapped his arms around her.
"And, now him too, I guess..."
Dylan gave her a squeeze and a kiss on the cheek.
"I'll take good care of her…"
Shaun gave him a slight shove and raised an eyebrow.
"You better, I can make you disappear, remember!"
Dylan let out a chuckle assuming it was a joke, Shaun's eyes narrowed as he stared at him. Lisa laughed and whacked him on the chest.
"Stop! I can take care of myself thank you very much. So umm, now what?"
Dylan gave her a slight squeeze.
"Well, we do what he said, have a life! So, in saying that, I have something the ask you..."
His serious tone made her heart beat faster.
"Ah, okay..."
He grasped her hands in his and gazed into her eyes.
"Lisa McDonald, will you…"
Lisa held her breath, her eyes widened afraid of what he was about to ask.
"Will you date me?"
She snorted as she rolled her eyes and pulled him in for a kiss. Dylan laughed as they parted.
"I'll take that as a yes..."
Alex voice over: Today's the day my life begins. Today I become accountable to someone other than myself, accountable to you, to our future, to all the possibilities that life has to offer. Together, no matter what happens, I'll be ready for anything and everything. To take on life, to take on love. Today our life begins, and I, for one, can't wait."
The End.
A/N: Well, that's it guys! I wrote 4 different endings to this and this was the one that felt right. I was so desperate to do it justice, after one hundred thousand words it needed to be lol. Thanks for sticking with me, I hope you've enjoyed the wild ride!
Until next time... xx