5 years… This story has taken me 5 whole years to complete. I am so very proud of myself for finishing it, but honestly, it was the few fellow readers who have been following this story and commenting on it since the beginning that made me finish it. I can never express my gratitude for you guys. I didn't do this, WE did this! You are all so very awesome and I honestly couldn't have done it without you!
The song I have in this ending is a very beautiful song and I encourage you all to take a listen. It is called "Luminous" by Alice and the Glass Lake. The moment I heard it years ago, I knew it would be the ending song to this fiction. Years of wanting to write it as a finishing chapter and here it is. Thank you for this journey, please enjoy the last chapter of Breathe Today, Tomorrow Unknown.
In the corners of every room
Through the floors
Comes the light from an open sill
Little windows
It had been years since I made my final wish to Porunga. I still recall looking over and Dende and knowing what I had to do to finally make my nightmare end and my dream begin. Namek, the planet that resembled Earth so much, would forever be the place where I found true and utter peace.
The journey I had been on was something I would never be able to believe. If someone had told me that they had experienced all that I had, I would think them mad. I was taken from Earth, beaten, degraded, torn down, alone, raped, belittled, and so many more negative things. I had not known love, peace, hell I didn't even know a friend. It wasn't until I met Goku, the man that would change my life forever, that I would experience any of it.
I was trapped, to say the absolute least. Honestly, being free here on Earth now, I can't believe that I had ever been through what I had. How was that part of my life, yet, something so foreign to fathom? It was like I was living a dream, trapped within the four walls that was Vegeta's castle. I knew of my room, the dining hall, the library, and his room. I remember the Grand Room, too, but that wasn't an experience I had until Goku.
Spending the majority of my days by myself, trying to read up in the Library on how their ships worked was my entire life. I wanted out and I knew that I was going to get out one way or another, alive or dead. It's hard, now, thinking that I had that much pain for survival. I had a wall up and nothing would ever penetrate it. My relationships with my own kind, from then and now, are completely different. My walls aren't up towards the people I meet now, unlike everyone I had ever encountered on Planet Vegeta.
I was a vessel of a person, a husk if you will. I was empty inside except for the hunger of freedom that nourished my thoughts and kept me alive. What I had been through, what had been done to me and what I had done to others, was how I escaped my hell.
Paint the sheets of a silver moon
Make 'em glow
This is the- this is the light I've known
So long
"I wish that my mother and two brothers that were slaughtered years ago were alive and well with my father at the age they would had been had this not all occurred." That was the last wish I had made to Dende. I felt out of everyone involved, my dad had it the absolute worst. His family was killed in front of him, daughter taken away to some unknown place, people impersonating his daughter to get to his money, forcing him into heartbreak after heartbreak. I was going to give him peace, I wanted to give him peace. I didn't wish that he forgot about what had happened, he would know. He would remember all of the things that was done to him and he would finally be able to live happily with his family whole once more. The mother I had would be able to live her days out with my father while the two brothers I had would be able to live a life, to have a life, to experience everything fully.
I can still remember the dark clouds dissipating, the sky whole with light once more. I could smell the freedom that I had, thinking about how my father was reacting to his family suddenly being in his life again. He was probably doing some DNA tests to make sure. I would be home soon enough to be able to tell him what exactly happened.
All the years looking through books from the Saiyan library helped me pilot Goku's ship back home to Earth. It was a hard couple of weeks by myself, but I got through it. If anything, I was more excited that I hadn't gone into labor the whole voyage than anything.
It was then I was able to reflect on my life. I was by myself, truly by myself for the first time in my whole life. There was no one waiting for me in the hallway, no one outside of my room, no one in the next room over. Nothing. I had my son in my belly and that was it.
I cried a lot, some from happiness and some from sadness. It was the first time I was able to release any sort of emotion in my body. Pure emotion not filtered by anything else. My time with Goku I was able to release some, but everything that happened on my journey back home was unfiltered. I self-pitied, but as does everyone with trauma. The "why me" and the "How could it have" was a couple days of my trip, but those emotions passed in time as all emotions do.
I had wished many times that Goku was by my side, that I would have used my last wish to bring him back right then and there instead of waiting until I got back home to use the Earth's Dragon Balls to do so. But, had the Dragon Balls not been real on Earth, I didn't know if I would have regretted bringing Goku back over my family or vice versa. I had to keep telling myself that the Dragon Balls on Earth were real, but nothing was certain.
I see it running through you
Through you
Oh, Love
Runs through you
The day I made it back home, back into the giant backyard of my father's property, was one of the happiest moments of my life. If it weren't for the GPS device that was latent in the ship, I don't know if I would have ever made it back to Earth, let alone straight to my father's venue. I waddled the fields where I was taken by Nappa and over to my Father's front door. When he had opened it, I wept at the sight of him, throwing myself into his arms. I was home for the very first time, truly home.
Meeting my mother and brothers for the first time in a long time was a beautiful experience. Honestly, it was like I had met them for the very first time ever. I didn't remember much of them since I was so young. My father did, in fact, do a DNA test on them to ensure what he was seeing was real. He was never able to comprehend what had happened until I filled him in on every detail. He in turn told me of his time spent alone with Goku.
It was hard having to relive everything as I told my father of my life and what had happened in it. I spared no detail besides the intricate one of my rapes. He told me about his life and I learned how he filled my family in on what had happened. They found it farfetched, too, but they believed every word since they knew what life in the afterlife was like. There was an afterlife, which was nice to know about, where they had watched over us but couldn't entirely remember what had happened now that they were back on Earth. They didn't remember their time in it anymore, though. I guess that was best for all of us. The thought that if I knew there was actually an afterlife made me wonder if I would have offed myself. I would cringe each time I thought about it. Would I have gone to the Saiyan afterlife, or was my soul tethered to this planet's afterlife? I would never know, and I was glad for it.
They asked about my child, so I told them about that. My father knew who the real father of my son was, but I asked him never to tell me. It didn't matter to me; he was mine and Goku's son no matter what. I knew I would love him no matter the father, and even if Vegeta had been the real donor, he would never be like him anyway.
We spent weeks in the house without leaving my father's property learning about each other. It was like we couldn't get enough of it, which was completely fair. I got into the normalcy that was human life, leaving behind all of the traditions of Saiyan ways behind. I knew I couldn't leave it all behind since I had a half Saiyan child on the way.
We decorated a room in the house just for him when he was to arrive, whenever that would be. Pastel blue was painted across all of the walls, white trim of the windows, a beige carpet on the floor. It was a simple room and I liked it. I had lived in a beautiful palace prison before, now all I wanted was simplicity.
I spent a good portion of my days in my son's room. Sitting on the rocker, going back and forth as I pondered names. I tried to keep my thoughts positive, but the nightmare memories crept back now and then. To this day I don't like closing a door unless I absolutely have to. A fear I would conquer for the sake of my son.
I thought my life had changed the most it would ever change, but I couldn't have been more wrong. The day my son arrived on Earth was the moment that literally changed my life forever. November 1st was now the most important day of my life.
One star
One sky
Fill up my old heart
With new light
I'll take all I can
Loving in the moment
Is something luminous
My son, my beautiful baby boy, was the most beautiful thing I had ever set my eyes on. His lavender locks both suited and collided with my own blue hair, not that it mattered. And those eyes, those big blue eyes were so innocent. Don't get me started on when he actually looked at me with them, my entire world melted away. His cries, his laughs, sneezes and all were my new favorite sounds. All of this, all of the pain I had ever encountered in my life was worth the tiny being that slept countless hours in my arms. As a family, we agreed upon the name Trunks.
Watching him grow had to be one of the best things. His first steps, words, motions, foods, drinks, everything. It was all a new adventure for me. I had known love for only a few years, but it was quickly eclipsing the hatred and pain that once loomed within me. More and more I forgot about life on Planet Vegeta. I had a family, something I never thought I would ever have.
Learning how to be a mother, and a mother to a Saiyan at that, had its challenges, but my family helped me through it. When Trunks was old enough to understand that he was different, I let him know about the other half of his lineage. My father, thank god he was a scientist, was able to build things that would let Trunks be a Saiyan, such as training rooms that would be able to withstand his strength. I never wanted suppress that side of him, but to instead embrace it.
With the birth of my son, it deterred my plans on getting the Dragon Balls some, but not entirely. My father and I were working on a device that would help us track it. Since it was a magical item, we had to find out what kind of electromagnetic field it belonged to.
Once Trunks was old enough to where I could bring him into the lab with us, we finally were able to create something that we liked to call a Dragon Radar. When we had turned it on and it started beeping while an arrow pointed in a direction, we couldn't have been more excited about trying to find them.
The first time we had located a Dragon Ball and was able to take it home rebooted my faith that I was going to have Goku in my life once more. He was often on my mind, but I tried to push the thoughts back as to not linger on them. I didn't do it so much that he was a faint memory, though. I was determined to bring him back, and now that we had a working Dragon Radar, things were going to go to plan.
Building a ship that would take us where we needed to be was quite fun. We never knew if the Dragon Ball would be located in an ocean, cave, lava, or even in plain sight. My father and I made a ship that would be able to handle anything so that we were able to get to the Dragon Ball.
Taking us all over the world, it was amazing what I had seen. It was a journey that Trunks and I went on by ourselves after the first Dragon Ball was found. It needed to be just him and myself, I knew it. We needed to do this to complete our family together. I would tell him stories of his father and answer his questions to the best of my knowledge. It was a bonding experience and only hyped him up to meet Goku.
Shimmer down from my fingertips
Subtle warmth
To the brim with brilliance
Reborn
And now here I was, seeking the last Dragon Ball that would reunite me with Goku. Trunks would be able to meet his father, my brothers and mother would be able to meet him, too. I was excited that the years of my time without him, that we would soon be together again. It reassured me that the decision I had made was the right one back on Namek. My father didn't have to live more painful years without his family, it was a pain that I was more than willing to take for a couple of years while we found what we needed.
The location of this Dragon Ball, though, had me worried.
Located in a place not suitable for my son, I had to leave him behind. I called my father to come pick him up, not without Trunks arguing though. When my father showed up, he took my son with no questions asked. The last one, the four starred ball, was in the Hot Spot Goku and I had entered when we stole their cash. I never noticed it at the time, and even if I had seen it, I would have thought nothing of it.
Staring at the door that led inside, I looked back down at the Dragon Radar to make sure it was really asking me to go inside. Breathing softly, I picked my chin back up before walking towards the doors that brought me inside my own personal hell.
Not much had changed, everything still functioned the same. It was a front and I knew I had to go across the room to the elevator. The fucking ball was downstairs where I had met the eyes of that blond-haired girl several years ago.
The men that were there back then had changed, it was new men now. Walking towards the elevator like I had belonged there helped me a bit, but not enough to where they wouldn't ask questions.
"Oy, where do you think you're going?" The greeting was rough to my ears. Turning to face the man, I tried not to study his features for too long. He was a pig, and that's the only description I needed to know.
"Goku sent me here to grab something. Should I tell him you're refusing to let me?" I surprised myself with how well I was holding it together. It was like the wall I had torn down built back up in a single moment, remembering my younger self. I was stoic, emotionless, and in control of myself.
"Goku?" He stopped what he was doing for a moment. "We haven't seen the Saiyans in years."
"They wanted to see how you would fair their business by yourselves and it looks like I'll have to let them know they need to come back." I spat back at him, hoping he wouldn't pierce my lie.
"Why have they gone?" His rough voice lowered in tone, making me believe he actually bought my lie.
"I told you, they wanted to see how you would handle their precious trafficking business." I made sure to add in some details of their trade to make it more believable. "They have been away taking over other planets, it's a war out there for them. King and Prince Vegeta had to leave their posts to help their fleet." I added in some more lies. Hell, if he was believing this all, he probably thought I was important since I knew all about it. "Now, I need to get what they have asked of me so they can hurry up with this war."
Nodding, it seemed that he had bought everything I had said. When I made the wish that no bad creature could make their way to Earth again, it didn't mean that the humans who already knew about them would forget. It was something that I had never thought about until being in this moment. There was still trafficking going on, so I mentally placed this scenario on my wish list.
Feel the power in every limb
I'm not alone
This is the this is the light I've known
Would come along-long-long
When the elevator closed behind me, I studied the Dragon Radar intently. I had to be able to gauge which floor the Dragon Ball would be on. It was then the music kicked on. To this day I still hated the damn noise. Shaking my head and putting my mind back in the game, I continued looking at the Radar. To no surprise, it was on the bottom floor. Taking in another hard breath, I watched as the doors opened, memories flooding back into my mind.
Nothing had changed, there were still rooms with tiny windows. Across the hallway was the Dragon Ball, sitting on top of a pillar like some sort of fancy décor. I wondered how many girls had looked through their tiny windows and scowled at the ball. It mocked them each day, being on the outside of their rooms while they were caged inside.
Walking passed the doors, I tried my best not to look into any of the rooms, except when I walked by her room. The blond-haired girl was in my thoughts now and then, her haunting gaze hot on mine like she was actually in the room with me. Turning my head to look inside, it wasn't the same girl. I was relieved that hopefully the girl had found peace, but also saddened that another girl was forced to take her place. Turning my head back to the ball, I continued on.
Taking it from its pedestal, I easily brought it to the elevator and rode the mechanism back up. Once up, I gave the man no attention, though I saw him nod at me as I left. He probably had hopes that the Saiyans would return, but the only one that would was going to shut them the fuck down.
Taking the vehicle that my father and I had built back home, I couldn't believe that after all this time I had everything I needed in order to bring Goku back to me and Trunks. Then, we would gather them again and start piecing this world back together one wish at a time.
One star
One sky
Fill up my old heart
With new light
I'll take all I can
Loving in the moment
Is something luminous
I was greeted by Trunks at the door, the boy was about 6 now. 6 long years of not knowing his father and in mere minutes he would. I was excited and I knew he was, too. My father smiled at me, along with my mother. It seemed that both of my brothers had gone off somewhere.
"Where are Sox and Vest?" I asked, my hand playing in the hair of my son as he hugged my legs.
"They'll be back any minute." My mother's silk voice spoke from behind my father.
"Okay, good. I have the last of the Dragon Balls, we should be able to summon him at any moment." I tried to contain my excitement.
Heading to the lab where the balls were, Trunks helped me and my father bring them outside. Holding onto the four-star ball, I waited until my brothers finally got back.
"You have it?!" Sox was not about holding in his excitement.
"Yes, I do." I laughed at his reaction, happy that I waited for the two of them to share this moment with me.
As everyone gathered around the Dragon Balls, I placed the last one down before asking Shenron to arise. The clouds had done the same thing that they had on Namek. It was only mere moments until the sky grew dark as the luminous beams sprung from the Dragon Balls. Twisting and twirling into each other, it began to form a shape in the sky. My eyes grew wide as I peered upon the great dragon Shenron.
His image was completely different from Porunga. He was a slimmer creature, but somehow looked more like a dragon than the one on Namek did. His long horns sprung out into three branches behind his head, while his eyes stayed focused on all of us. It was at that moment I wondered if anyone else in the world could see this, or had time stopped for everyone but us?
Hearing the gasps from my family, I looked down at Trunks who looked up at the Dragon with the purest eyes I had seen since his infanthood.
"Is that Shenron, mom?!" He looked up at me for a moment before quickly placing his gaze back onto the great dragon that filled the sky.
"It is." I confirmed for him, seeing him pump his heels up and down in excitement.
"Alright now, speak your wish and I will grant it." His voice was far from Porunga's, too. It seemed that each dragon would be different, which was nice to know. I thought they would all look the same but have different names, but I was wrong.
And I thought I was done
Thought I was done
But I see it running through you
Through you, oh love
See it running through you
Through you, oh love
Feel it running through you
Through you, oh
"Yes, Shenron. I" I stopped speaking when Trunks began to pull on my shirt. "Trunks, what is it?" I swiftly whispered to him, not wanting to accidentally wish for something else.
"Mom, can I summon dad back, please?" I could see the want in his eyes. Trunks wasn't a kid who wanted a lot of things, so the fact that he was asking me right now to wish his father back was incredible.
"Okay, but you need to ask him for Goku. You must say his name, okay?" In all of the times I played this in my head, I never thought it would be Trunks who summoned him back on Earth. If he asked for his father, and Goku wasn't his real biological father, I wouldn't know what I would do. Sure, Vegeta couldn't come to Earth since he was an evil piece of shit, but I still didn't want him accidentally back on his own planet either.
"Okay, so what do I ask?" Trunks looked up at me with his big blue eyes, I could tell he didn't want to mess this up.
"I am waiting." Shenron's powerful voice burst through me the same way Porunga had when I wasn't expecting him to talk. This time, though, I didn't have a Saiyan fetus kicking the ever living shit out of my bladder, which made it a lot more tolerable of an experience. I did not miss being pregnant.
"You said: Shenron, I wish that Goku was back alive here on Earth with us." I placed my hand in his hair, playing with the lavender locks once more.
"Shenron," I could hear him try to summon his biggest voice as he spoke, "I wish for Goku to be back alive on Earth with me and my Mommy!" I kept my eyes on my son, feeling so proud of him in this moment. Besides the last one, he had gotten every single Dragon Ball with me. He had been on such a journey that he wasn't even going to understand until he was older. This was a big deal for him and for all of us. Our family would finally be complete. "Whoa, Mommy look!"
Taking my eyes off of my son, I looked up into the sky where Shenron's twisting body hovered. His eyes began to flash bright and red before his emotionless features talked back to us. "Your wish is granted." With that, his body faded back into the yellow light before turning into the Dragon Balls, which then began to scatter in every which direction throughout the sky. Time would only tell when I would meet Shenron once more.
Looking down at Trunk, I knelt down and hugged him. "You did so good, honey!" I was still so proud of him. He was becoming a man before my eyes.
"Mommy, who is that?" He motioned behind me as he broke the embrace. Standing up, I turned around to see who he might be referring to, hoping it would be the love of my life. Taking in a deep breath before turning around, I grabbed Trunks' hand before motioning towards where he was pointing.
"Goku."
One star
One sky
Fill up my old heart
With new light
I'll take all I can
Loving in the moment
Is something luminous
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And with that, this story is complete. 5 years to do it, but it is finally done. I am probably going to go through the chapters and rewrite them. Even though the story has ended, please leave a comment and let me know how you liked it! I have dreamed of this day for so long and now that it is here, I have even more confidence in writing more! You have all been so kind with your words, I greatly appreciate it. With 300 comments, almost 100,000 views, I could not be prouder!
Seriously, go listen to the song "Luminous" by Alice and the Glass Lake.
Shameless Self Promotion: If you liked this story, you might like the Predator one I am working on ;)
And with this, 2019 is over and 2020 is around the corner. Stay safe, readers, and have yourself a brand-new beginning. Thank you for reading Breathe Today, Tomorrow Unknown.