Chapter 47 - Instinct Takes Over

Louis got up and went into the kitchen, opening the oven and looking at the pie he had been baking. "It looks like the picture..."

Legosi rolled off the bed and followed him, leaving the game on his win screen. He walked up behind him, admiring his work. "Wow! Louis, that's amazing for your first try!"

Louis smiled. "Does it smell good?" He began taking it out.

"It smells amazing!" Legosi was so excited, it was adorable.

The deer put it on the stove, steam rising from the fresh dessert. "Well, we don't know how it tastes, yet."

Legosi licked his lips. "I'll get the plates and forks while it cools!" He set off, putting everything on the counter. He poured themselves some glasses of water as well.

Louis watched him, admirably. "Just be careful not to dig in too fast."

Legosi eyed the pie hungrily, waiting for it to cool. He twiddled the fork in between his fingers, nimbly.

After a few minutes, Louis put it on the counter and grabbed a big knife. "How big of a slice do you want?" He looked at Legosi, who was waiting eagerly. It was exactly what he wanted to see when his boyfriend found out he had surprise pie.

Legosi held his left index finger against the thumb and index finger of his right hand, making quite a big triangle with it.

Louis looked back down and cut about that size of a slice out and placed it on his plate. He leaned down and looked at the apple filling, golden and beautiful. "It better taste good, considering how it looks."

Legosi took a forkful of pie, holding it up to his mouth and wrapping it up in his long tongue. He chewed, his eyes closed. Were those...tears?

Louis watched closely. "So...?"

Legosi let out a puff of air, a high pitched sound coming out as well. "It's so good. It's so good!" He went in for another bite.

Louis smiled and served his own slice, then took a bite. "I'm relieved."

Legosi's tail wagged when he saw the deer take a bite. "What do you think? How's it taste?"

"I did a great job, for once."

"You always do a great job!" Legosi ate some more while also keeping an eye on Louis' plate.

Louis ate another bite. "I keep messing up! Usually."

"Well, I don't notice! I love your food." Legosi had finished his slice, so he opted to lean on the counter, staring at Louis with a half-lidded gaze.

Louis looked down at his pie and picked off another bite. "It took a lot longer to make than the soup."

"It is a bit more complex, so it makes sense. I love desserts." He licked his lips. He wanted to go for another slice, but he was afraid any movement he'd make would disturb what was happening…

Louis' eye found Legosi's, seeing they were half-lidded. "What's that look for?"

Legosi smiled, eyes darting away. "You're...beautiful."

Louis swallowed his piece. "You're not so bad yourself." He ate another bite.

Legosi went back to staring. This was the most he had seen him eat...ever? Was it really? Legosi couldn't remember. He thought back to the dinners Louis had at the fountain. They were never big meals. And they were never really touched.

Louis inspected his pie again. "It's nice and flaky, which is just how I wanted. I was worried the dough might be too chewy."

"You really did do a great job!"

Before they knew it, the whole slice was gone.

Legosi scooped Louis up in a big hug, suddenly.

Louis held his plate still, trying not to drop it. "Legosi!"

Legosi laughed. "Louis!"

"What are you doing!"

"I'm hugging you!"

"I just ate some pie!"

"I know!" Legosi sniffed. "I'm just happy."

"Oh, because you liked the pie," he rubbed his back with his knuckle since he was holding a fork.

"Y-yeah! Of course!"

"I think I'll get some more," he was already picking up the knife. The deer cut another slice, lifting it up and putting it on his plate. "Are you going to get more?"

"Y-yes! Of course!" Legosi got another, smaller than his first one, but still modestly sized. He forewent the fork entirely this time, holding the slice to his mouth and taking a bite, crumbs falling on his chin.

Louis slowly ate his, piece by piece. "We can save the rest for later."

Legosi nodded enthusiastically. "It's a pretty big pie!" He gazed upon Louis once again with that fond expression. "What are you thinking of making next? I could help again, like with the soup."

"Hm...maybe try my hand at muffins again. I don't want them to crumble so easily this time."

Legosi leaned down and nuzzled Louis' cheek with his nose while he rubbed his shoulders. "My chef..."

Louis blushed. "I-it's nothing, really..." Hearing those words from him made him very embarrassed for whatever reason.

The wolf's voice was breathy. "It's everything."

Louis looked down at his pie as he slowly ate another bite. He was very happy Legosi liked his cooking, though he still wanted to get better.

The wolf wrapped Louis up with his arms from behind, pressing his body against him like he so often did when standing together in the kitchen. It was a very comforting position for him. He didn't even think about the predator/prey image that most animals would probably see now. "I'm glad you like it, too."

"What can I say? It's very good." He took another bite, ending his second slice of pie.

Legosi let out a short, happy breath from his nose and squeezed Louis tighter, his tail smacking against the wood cabinet next to them. He turned and started to lick his cheek.

Louis blushed and laughed. "Hey, that tickles and you know it!"

"I love when you laugh!" Legosi managed to say between licks.

"Stoooop!" He turned around and pushed him gently.

Legosi smiled, his tongue still sticking from his mouth slightly. He let Louis push him so he was backed up against the counter next to the stove.

Louis was smiling. "You're just happy because I gave you pie, wolf. Dogs must always be happy after getting treats.

"I'm happy because we got to eat it together, too!"

He smiled and looked in the cabinets for the tin foil. "I know, I can't believe I had two slices."

"How do you feel?" Legosi cocked his head, slightly concerned.

"Kind of weird. Not used to having so much." And it wasn't even a lot. He found the foil and ripped off a square, coming back to the pie.

"I'm...really happy you ate."

Louis looked at him. "You say that with such a strange tone."

"You think?"

"It was just pie." He completely wrapped it up and put it in the fridge.

"It's...probably the most I've seen you eat. It made me happy..."

"Why does it matter how much I eat?"

Legosi flinched. "W-we talked about this, remember...?"

"I don't see why it's such a big deal to you." He crossed his arms.

"Because I care about you! I want you to be healthy!"

"I'm fine, Legosi!"

Legosi clammed up and looked away. He should have just kept his mouth shut.

Louis turned and began washing dishes quietly. Why did I snap at him like that? Idiot!

Legosi turned and walked into the living area. He sat on the bed and closed out the game, going to the Gamestation menu again.

Louis just stayed quiet as he continued to watch, the clinking of the the dishes filling the empty space.

The wolf brought up his avatar again, idly going through all the outfits, dressing his avatar up in all the various clothes. It was a nice, calming distraction. At least he ate. That's all I can ask for, for now.

After Louis was done with the dishes, he came over and sat down, silently.

At that moment, the wolf on the screen was wearing some sort of super hero getup. Legosi let out an amused huff.

The deer just watched, pulling his legs up. He thought the outfit was nice, at least.

Legosi reached out, holding Louis by the waist just as he had before.

Louis sighed and leaned his head against him.

"...Did you want to play some more games, or..."

"I'm okay." His mood had completely changed from when he was running around playing video games with Legosi. He thought about it and remembered how he had grabbed the wolf to get him off of him and it didn't work. He was sure it would have...

Legosi turned the console off, putting the controller down and just sitting there.

Louis did the same, looking at the black screen of the TV, seeing his antlers reflected in them.

Legosi looked down at his knees. "Louis..."

"Hm."

"...I'm sorry...For bringing up your eating habits again. I knew you didn't want to talk about it the first time, but I pushed it again. I guess I just wanted you to know how I felt. I won't bring it up again..."

"..."

"...Sorry," he whispered, ears flat.

"Legosi, it's fine. You probably should be worried. I'm just being a dick and defending myself for no reason."

The wolf just nodded slowly. "I am. Worried, that is." He turned to look at Louis with those tired eyes.

"I apologize." The deer laid back and sighed again. "I don't know what comes over me sometimes."

Legosi laid down with him, rubbing his chest. He was unsure of what to say, so he just stayed silent. This close again, Legosi remembered how they were wrestling on the ground earlier. Louis touching him like that... He didn't process it at the time, but it had definitely planted a seed in his mind. "Louis, uh, this might sound weird, but do you remember when we were on the floor before? When I was pinning you down."

"Mhm."

"Well, I've never been touched like that. Even by you. It...it made me feel...good. Good about myself. I know you love me, but...it was then that I felt like you actually...wanted me." He bit his lip. His face started burning.

Louis blushed and looked to the side. "I...um..."

"It's hard to really...think about an animal being attracted to me. I never had to think about it before. But that moment brought it to my mind..."

Louis covered his face. "Ugh...stupid wolf...it's hard to stay in a bad mood when you say things like that..."

Legosi laughed, bashfully. "Isn't that a good thing?"

"Shut it...I...didn't think anything of it at the time..."

"I see..."

"But for the record, I want you more than I've ever wanted anyone."

Legosi was still for a moment, before rolling on top of Louis and pressing their lips together.

Louis blushed and kissed him back. He spoke during it. "I'm sorry if I stepped out of line."

Legosi's ears pushed back, his eyes widened. "Would...would you want to touch me again?" The fur on his cheek looked so unbelievably soft.

Louis huffed. "Y-yes."

The wolf moved up a bit, silently, allowing Louis better access.

Louis slid his hand back down, his hand feeling the area again as he stared at Legosi's eyes. "Is it...okay?"

Legosi bit his lip. "Could...I take my pants off?"

The deer nodded. Oh boy, what am I getting myself into…

Legosi rolled to the side, undoing his belt and slipping his jeans off, showing his red plaid boxers. From the look of it, Legosi had definitely been enjoying it even with his pants on. He came back and laid on his back, looking over to Louis with vulnerable eyes.

Louis got up and crawled over him, looking down at his eyes. "You promise you'll be okay?"

Legosi nodded. "I think so, I mean, yes! I mean...I'll let you know the moment I'm uncomfortable..."

The deer nodded. "How should I...Do it? Reach back, or...?" He had no idea how to do this kind of stuff.

The wolf looked at him in confusion. "Uh, just touch it how you want."

Louis thought for a moment and then laid a bit to the side of Legosi, laying his chest against his. He reached his hand back and felt what was there. I can't believe I'm actually treating a carnivore like this…

Legosi let out a little 'mmmp!' sound. It was so high pitched and soft, one would never believe it came from such a large wolf. He clenched his fists, which he held on either side of his head.

Louis' head moved back a little as he was surprised by the noise. He moved his hand this way and that along him. He tried not to think about...The size. He buried his face in the crook of his neck. He breathed warm air onto him. He was getting excited himself.

Legosi put a tentative hand on his boyfriend's shoulder, gripping it tight, but not as tight as he wanted. He curled his toes, trying not to pant.

The cervid wrapped his hand around it and let go, really trying to push the size out of his mind. He had the urge to look so he just pushed his face deeper into the crook of his wolf's neck.

Legosi gasped as Louis gripped him. He was surprised he hadn't slipped out of the boxers yet. All he knew was that he realized how pent up he had been the past few weeks, manifesting itself in a raw, burning feeling.

"Sorry...Is it still good...?"

Legosi nodded, eyes screwed shut and brimming with tears.

Louis began kissing his neck, moving a little against him. He wanted to feel something, too.

The canine's panting grew more desperate. He reached over with his other hand to grip Louis, pressing his mouth onto his forehead to stop himself from moaning out loud. He pushed his hips up. He wasn't sure if he had ever been this hard.

Louis wanted him and he wanted Louis. That thought burned in his mind.

The deer grunted gently. He kept kissing and pleasuring his mate.

Legosi made weird whining and growling noises deep in his throat. He pulled Louis on top of him, gripping his back and rear.

"Mffff...Legosi..."

Legosi blushed intensely, giving Louis a guilty look. "How...how do you like it?"

"I probably shouldn't say..."

"I...I want to...but I'm afraid of touching you there because...claws." He looked away bashfully.

"You don't think you can be careful…?" His hand was resting on Legosi's crotch at this point.

He shook his head. "Just afraid of myself, I guess." He rubbed his hands up and down Louis' back.

The young buck huffed again. "It's your choice."

Legosi's hand stopped on Louis' pants, contemplating. He gave them a testing tug downward.

Louis just waited, looking at him. Alright, don't freak out...You've done this before.

Legosi tugged more. They were lounging pants, so there was no belt or anything. He slid them down to his thighs, leaving his hands there and debating his next move. Their hips were pressed together now, both in their underwear.

Louis looked down at him. "I didn't think I'd be so nervous, to be honest."

Legosi took his hands off, instantly. "Should we stop?"

"Not yet..." the deer said. "I think I'll be okay."

Legosi nodded, putting a hand on his back again, and the other he squeezed between their bodies. He reached down, finding Louis. He touched experimentally. It seemed he was enjoying it as much as he was and he hadn't even touched him. He stroked gently. He never thought he'd ever feel another male this way.

Louis leaned down and rested his head on his shoulder. Why is my chest so tight...It's Legosi...I shouldn't feel this way...It's not the same as with Azuki...I love him...He kept feeling that hand against him, becoming more excited.

Legosi tried his best not to brush his claws against him, even if it was through the cloth. They could still make short work of it, if he wanted. He adjusted himself, and the couple's tips touched.

Louis gasped gently, then swallowed nervously.

Legosi felt clammy, focusing all his attention to how they were pressed together. It was unbelievably intimate. He was with the animal he loved most in the world. A herbivore and a male, together in such a way, it was exhilarating. His heart pounded in his chest against Louis'. Nobody knew they were there at that moment, doing what they were doing. Everything they had ever learned growing up told them it shouldn't happen.

The wolf whined slightly, leaning up and licking Louis' neck, bucking his hips up slightly as he did, making even more contact.

Louis moved slowly against him. It was definitely dangerous to be doing this, but it felt right...So why was his chest so tight? Why did he feel so anxious? What was this tugging feeling?

Legosi picked up on this. Louis seemed stiff. "Louis! Louis! Are you okay?" he moaned, breathlessly.

The deer licked his cheek slowly. "I-I'm fine...L-Legosi..."

Legosi laid back, holding his arms to his sides. "Here, you can do whatever you want..."

He kissed his neck. "I think I'm just getting used to it...That's all...You're fine..." But that wasn't it.

Legosi stayed in his submissive position, waiting for Louis to make a move.

"Can you...touch me again?" He didn't know what to do.

The deer nodded, reaching his hand back between them. "Can you touch me too?"

Louis slid his hand back down as they both began feeling one another up again. The deer's heart pounded. How did he get this far with a male wolf?

Legosi couldn't help himself. He let his mouth hang open, tongue lolling out as he moaned softly, his eyes half lidded and blinking slowly.

Louis just watched his face as he kept stroking him, feeling himself being touched. He panted gently, but there was an anxiety there. He wasn't sure if the panting was from pleasure or nervousness.

"You promise you're okay...?"

"Y-yes, yes! Louis, aaah..." Legosi was almost lost in ecstasy. He rubbed him harder.

Suddenly, Louis felt himself building up and a strong feeling overcame him. That's when he broke and pulled back. "We should stop! Right now."

Legosi jumped slightly, ears perked and eyes alert as he pulled his hands away from him. "Wh-what? Did I get you?" He looked at his claws.

"Uh! No! I mean! No! We should just...uh...I'm gonna go for a walk!" He quickly pulled his pants up and then got off the bed.

"Okay..." Legosi looked down. He was going to have to take care of that. He got up and walked stiffly to the bathroom.

Louis left the dorm without shoes, walking to the left and putting his hands on his knees. What the fuck is wrong with me?

He went to the soft grass next to their dorm. He just laid and curled up there, ashamed. Why…

The wolf played a scenario in his head where Louis stayed with him and he finished quite quickly. It was the most intense climax he had ever had. He felt almost dizzy. He couldn't even imagine what it would have been like with the deer there...

Louis just laid, curled up in the grass. He was right there...I imagined it so many times, but...Why did I feel that way? I don't understand! He groaned frustratedly. Then he turned to look at the sky. I can't imagine how he feels...I ran away...

Legosi left the bathroom, looking around. Louis wasn't back. He slipped his pants back on, his mind beginning to clear. What had happened? He was being gentle and it felt really good.

He found his shoes and put them on, opening the door outside and ducking beneath it. He looked right, then left. Louis was laying on the grass just a few meters away. "L-Louis!" Legosi called out, jogging over to him.

Louis' back was to him. Oh god, I'm not ready to see him yet... He hugged his legs.

"Louis! Louis!" He crouched down next to him slipping his arms under him to lift him. "What happened? Are you alright?"

Louis sighed. "I guess that wasn't really a hiding spot..."

"H-hiding? What are you talking about?"

"Obviously, I didn't want you to see me..." He looked down at the grass again.

"Why not? Why not, Louis!" Legosi lifted him up a bit, gazing into his single eye with concern.

"Calm down!"

Legosi shushed, just holding Louis in silence. He sniffed.

Louis put a hand on his arm. "It's okay, Legosi..." No it isn't...But he was so ashamed he felt he had to lie.

"Did...did I do something wrong?" His ears drooped and his eyes were downcast.

"I...I don't think so! I don't know!"

"Let's at least go inside...we can talk in there."

Louis nodded, getting up.

They made their way inside. Legosi's throat was parched so he poured himself some water, offering some to Louis as well.

Louis took it, sipping gently. He was trying to avoid Legosi's eyes. Why am I afraid of him all of a sudden? I don't understand…

Legosi sat down next to him, his body weight pulling Louis in a bit.

"I'm so sorry, Legosi..."

The wolf put his arm around him, gently. "It's okay. I mean...we haven't even gotten my muzzle yet. I understand."

"Even now, I'm afraid...I know it's wrong..."

Legosi cocked his head. "Afraid of being with another male, or with a carnivore?"

"I don't know...I'm sorry."

"It's okay.", Legosi practically cooed. "There's no rush...and as you said, we can be together and never have sex. We'll still love each other."

He hugged him. "There was another feeling...I think that's what really scared me."

"What was it?"

"I almost...wanted to be eaten..."

Legosi gulped, a pit forming in his stomach. "...Oh."

Louis covered his face. "I think it was my body's instincts."

"Well, I guess you have to just..." Legosi held a hand to his chin. He had no idea what to say, actually. It was totally different than his instincts. He didn't want to overstep his boundaries and suggest Louis handle them the way he was. "...Well, I'll never eat you. I know it."

"I know. That's what's so frustrating. But I was still weak and backed out...I'm sorry, Legosi..." He covered his face, ashamed. It was honestly so embarrassing for Louis to have his instincts get the best of him.

"It's okay, it's okay." Legosi whispered, rubbing Louis with his hands. He was never good at comforting animals, but with Louis it just felt natural. "I'm not mad at you."

"It must be offensive, though."

Legosi shook his head. "There's nothing like that that could come between us, now. I'll try to understand and support you, no matter what."

"I can do it, Legosi, I just need to figure out how..."

"I'll help you figure it out as well." He continued to rub him, but he slowed down before continuing. "Um, I guess we could keep doing stuff like that to get you used to it?" He blushed.

"Yeah...If you still want me that way..." He still felt defeated.

"I...I've never felt anything like that before. It was...amazing.", he uttered the last word as if he were out of breath.

He slumped his shoulders. "That's good, at least..."

Legosi squeezed him. "I love you more than anything, Louis."

Louis sniffed. "I love you more than anything, even myself. Especially myself..."

The wolf squeezed harder. "Well, that's why we have our love for each other."

Louis smiled. "I promise next time...I'll change."

"And I'll help you."

"How?"

"When we...do something like that again, I'll follow any direction you give me to make you comfortable. Whatever you think would help."

"Okay...I'm sorry again..."

Legosi placed his hand on his cheek. "It's alright, I promise." He kissed him softly on the lips.

Louis kissed back, feeling calmed by those warm lips and rough teeth. "Okay."