Chapter 50 - We Need to Talk, Louis! (The Big Fight)

Louis looked over at Legosi as he stepped out of the bathroom. "Where's Haru?"

The bunny came out from behind him. "Right here." She looked at Legosi expectantly.

Legosi walked over to Louis, placing his hands on his shoulders, much to the deer's confusion. "Louis, it's important that you're still alive and that you've lived your life up until this moment. The world would be lesser if you were dead."

Louis made a face and blinked.

"You should probably be alone." Haru gestured to the bathroom.

"What's the matter?" The deer asked.

Legosi looked behind him at Haru, frightened. She wanted him to do it without her as backup?

She smiled innocently. Legosi could do this.

Louis furrowed his brows. "Alone? What for?"

"We need to talk, Louis!" his boyfriend claimed, getting more anxious by the second. He didn't want to do this.

"Huh? Well...okay."

Haru walked back to the couch, sitting upon it and looking between the couple. "Go ahead."

Louis looked at her then at Legosi. What could this be about? Oh…They walked into the bathroom and Legosi shut the door as Louis immediately turned around. "I know what this is about."

Legosi stroked the side of his face. "Tell me...What's it about?"

Louis blinked. "I didn't want it to end like this...But I get it if you feel this way…" He eyes shifted and his head turned, Legosi's hand leaving it. "I didn't think you'd break up with me so soon, but I guess I understand, seeing how problematic I am..." He rubbed his arm.

"WH!?" Legosi squeezed Louis' shoulders. "No! No, no, no, no! I'm not breaking up with you! I love you so much, Louis! But you've been scaring me with the things you say, and your eating disorder..."

"Eating disorder? What?" He made a crooked smile. Oh...thank goodness…

"Yes! You never eat, and when you do, it's barely enough! It's not normal and we both know it! You've only gotten skinnier since we left Oguma's!"

"Why does it matter?! I feel fine!"

Legosi let out a frustrated groan. Finally confronting the deer caused the feelings he had been holding to come out. "Why doesn't it?!"

"Because I'm fine."

"You aren't! This won't last! I've looked it up and it can cause you to be unable to concentrate, get dizzy, give you mood swings, which you definitely have. You can have fur loss too, and I've seen a lot more of your fur in the shower, lately! It's just a fact that animals need to eat! You need to eat! This is going to catch up with you and you will need to go to the hospital!"

"So, after all that time of hiding and not talking to me, you decide to yell at me all of a sudden?!"

"What?"

"You always back away from your problems, so why are you pretending to be brave all of a sudden?! What did Haru tell you?"

"I'm not acting brave, Louis! I'm scared for your life! It doesn't matter what Haru told me, you need to stop acting so stubborn! You're backing away from your problems, too!"

"I'm fine!"

Legosi closed his eyes, taking a deep breath. "It is not fine. You are not fine. You need help."

"Don't tell me what I need," Louis crossed his arms. "You don't know what I need."

"Stop avoiding this! You're sick!"

"So you think I'm sick, now? In which way?"

"Louis…"

"Tell me, Legosi. How am I sick?"

"You may not think you are and I get it...But you have to face the truth, Louis…"

"What truth, Legosi?! I'm fine!"

"You're the one who keeps saying you should be dead! You don't value your own life! But I do! I'm here to save you again, but you keep pushing me away! Well I'm not going away this time! If you can't admit you have a problem, then I'm going to tell Principle Gon!"

"Oh so you think I need you to save me again, is that it? What a hero. And what the fuck is Prinicipal Gon going to do?!"

Legosi flinched at the harsh words, but he wasn't giving up. "He might be able to help! Or he could get a doctor or therapist to help you! It's better than just doing nothing!"

"I don't need help, Legosi! I'm fine! Why are you of all people policing my life?"

"That's because I care about you! You're hurting yourself and you're hurting me! It's not healthy for either of us!" Legosi's head began to hurt. This was impossible. Louis really was a brick wall. But he was going to try this time. Try not to back down. "Seeing you so frail and skinny...Have you looked in the mirror?! Your ribs are showing more and more!"

"So now there's an issue with how I look?" Louis frowned more.

"No! Louis, you're not listening to me!"

"I. Am. Fine! Stop trying to push your way into this!'

In the living room, Haru was pulling at her ears nervously. Couples…

Legosi looked at Louis intensely, but he managed to quiet his voice down. "We're a couple, and that means your safety and wellbeing is my responsibility. You're the one who's pushing me away. You need to let someone help you. You can't do everything on your own. You've proven that multiple times, now. I know that it might be hard, but there's nothing to be ashamed of."

There's everything to be ashamed of. "I'm going back out, I have a cake to make." He started trying to go past him.

Legosi held him by the shoulders. "You will listen to me, for once. Stop pushing me away!"

The deer looked into his eyes, knowing that this pressure was being put on him was angering. He reached his hands up and tried to pry Legosi's off. "Leave me alone!"

"No!" He pulled him into his arms, hugging him. "No...I can't, because I don't want to lose you. I know you love me, but you're hurting me so much...Please...just listen to me. Trust me." The tears returned again, and this time they fell. He started crying, not letting go of Louis.

Louis moved his hand up between them and tried pushing his chest. "Legosi...I'm...Fine!"

The wolf kept his voice as steady and low as he could. "I know it's scary and that you don't think you need help. But you do. You deserve to be happy. You deserve three meals a day. You deserve to believe you're worth something. You deserve to be proud to be an herbivore. You deserve to live..."

"I'm going to be fine!" He pushed harder. "Let me go!" I don't deserve to live. I don't deserve anything I have. I wasn't supposed to make it this far. Now, I'm hurting you and I can't stop. It's just coming out.

"N-no..." Legosi's voice was cracking from his crying. "We need to find someone that can help you...Please, don't turn away from me, again..."

"I'm leaving!" He didn't like being cornered like this, especially by Legosi.

Legosi's lip trembled. He couldn't do this anymore. Louis didn't want help. He let him go, the deer stumbling out of his arms.

The herbivore straightened out his clothes and apron.

Legosi slowly kneeled to the ground, crying silently. Tears dropped onto the small shower rug beneath him. He just stared downward. Was he not good enough to make Louis want to live? Was there really no saving him? Was this all there was?

Louis just watched him, seeing his boyfriend hurt almost gave him a hole in his heart. Say something, Louis. Say anything. But...I can't.

A million different things popped into Legosi's mind. What should he say? What could he say? Louis was like an impossible puzzle whose missing piece was a fourth dimensional object. It was hopeless. Finally, words he would immediately want to take back spilled out from his throat. "D-d-do you...r-really l-love me?"

"What?" Louis' brows raised.

Legosi turned and leaned his back against the cabinet of the sink. He put his face in his hands and sobbed. His emotions couldn't take it anymore. The last half hour was just too much. He whimpered and and shook like a little puppy.

"You think I don't love you?"

He looked up at Louis with the tears still in his eyes and there was...anger? "How can you if you don't care about what I have to say! What I feel! About how much I care for you! You only want a body to hug and cuddle up with at night! But once I start speaking my mind you turn me away! You just want everything to be happy and perfect, but it's not! There are problems you have to face, Louis! And you're running from them! Running from me!" He hissed, facing away again.

"Oh really?! So that's how you feel?! I'm just another lonely soul who does whatever he can to get someone he can slide a dick in and out of so he feels less sad and useless?! I sure cooked all those meals and helped with all that homework and got all this furniture just so you'd treat me better in the long run. It was for me because I was apparently using you as a crutch the whole time! Really! I didn't know that, Legosi!"

Legosi just stayed looking off to the side. He had damaged things beyond repair. Better to do what he did best and lock his emotions down. I ruined everything...It's all my fault. "L-L…"

"Thank you." Louis went to the door to opened it. "I love myself so much more now. I'm so happy to know that the only thing I'm good for is taking advantage of you. Thank you, Legosi." He disappeared into the living room.

Haru looked up for where she was twiddling her fingers. "Louis! Take a moment to think about what you're doing!" She had heard everything.

"Goodbye, Haru-chan." He went to the door and left, slamming it behind him.

And that was that.