Chapter 48: They'd shut completely

I breathed in and out slowly, trying not to falter because if I did so would the barrier; and I wouldn't have that. Not until I'd found out exactly what was going on. I still felt weak; even though I felt slightly better than I had before. I felt a light touch on my shoulder, I turned coming face to face to with Sesshomaru. Everything felt as though it was moving in slow motion. My mama and Souta rushing to my side; Sesshomaru enveloping me in his arms. They all surrounded me, holding me in their arms, but I continued to stare into molten orbs. They held the same longing that I'm sure my own held as well. I opened my mouth to speak, ready to tell him how much I missed him; how empty I had felt without him. The moment I had built up the courage for the words to leave my lips, another had spoke first.

"Kagome."

We all turned to Myoga. I stood, with my mother's help. I walked over to him slowly, stopping only inches away from the barrier. He looked like hell.

"Myoga... what is going on? What happened to you? Why did you attack them?"

"His mother did this to me. The reason we are all here is his fault."

"Shesshomaru's mother..." I trailed off. "Why would she do that to you?"

I had so many questions, and none of them were being answered quickly enough.

"Tell her truth!" Souta yelled, from behind me.

I turned to look at him, my mama, then Sesshomaru. They all held the same look of disdain on their faces; the same anger in their eyes.

"The truth?" I turned back to him. "What have you done Myoga?"

"I have only tried to help you. They tried to stop me from doing so."

Myoga glared at Souta before setting his eyes back on me. My eyes narrowed, not believing a word he'd said.

"Kagome it is not what you think. I am not the bad guy. He is trying to place the blame on me."

"What blame is there to be placed if you haven't done anything wrong Myoga?"

"Kagome I want you to know that I care about you, and I only did what I did for you."

"If you really care about me then you will tell me the truth."

I watched him take a shaky breath in, exhaling it sharply; leaning against the wall.

"It's killing you," he whispered.

"Killing me? What are you talking about? You're not making any sense!"

"TELL HER!" Sesshomaru roared behind me.

I pressed my hands against the barrier.

"What. Did. You. Do?"

He looked at me, a sad look in his eyes. "The reason that you are so sick; the reason you were inches away from death, is because you are pregnant. The child is of demon blood, and it is killing you Kagome. Its demonic energy and your holy powers are clashing and it is taking a toll on your body. I want to help you... by getting rid of it. In my eyes, it was either you or it, and I chose you Kagome. Can't you see? I only want what is best for you, and that thing inside of you is no what you need. He is not what you need. You need your family. Your real family."

My body went stiff as I clenched my fists at my side. I could only stare into space as my mind reeled. I stood there, not sure if seconds or minutes had passed by.

"How could you?" I whispered.

My tone of voice was so sharp; so harsh.

"I was doing this for you."

"For me? Trying to kill my child before they were even born was for me!? How could that possibly be for me!? You were going to kill my child without ever telling me I was pregnant in the first place. How could you possibly think that was okay!? You controlling, manipulative son of a bitch! You expect me to think that you care about me after trying to pull something like that!? How dare you try and justify this!"

He wheezed. "I love you like my own... I just wanted to protect you. "You wouldn't understand the love a parent has for their child. I have been trying to protect you for so long."

"How could I possibly understand, when you weren't even going to give me the chance to be one!? You are NOT my father. A father would never do something so... so... SO EVIL! You are not my family." I whispered harshly

He stood there, leaned up against the wall. Taking my verbal lashing. His eyes were wide at my anger. I could feel myself shaking as my reiki crackled on my skin. My face hot and chest heaving with every hurried breath. I could feel the tears beginning to sting my eyes.

"I hate you," I whispered harshly.

My breathing became ragged, the barrier shattered from the intense power emitting from me. I could feel the warmth in my abdomen; where the jewel resided. My hair whipped around my face. The force of my power pressed him against the wall. I grabbed his forearms tightly. He screamed as my hands burned away his flesh. I could hear the calls from Sesshomaru, telling me to stop. They were so close yet so distant. I ignored them continuing on, disregarding the smell of burnt flesh that filled my nose. It was like I was on autopilot. I was letting my anger lead me. I gripped his forearms. Nails digging into his skin, drawing blood; satisfying me slightly, but doing nothing to calm my rage. It happened in such a quick motion. I'd swung him over my head, across the room. I watched his body crash through the window. I chased after him, leaping through the window. Ignoring the broken shards of glass cutting my skin. My arm shot out; hand wrapping itself around his throat. Squeezing so tight his eyes began to bulge. We slammed into the ground, but I straddle him, refusing to let go. My foot on one arm, hand on the other; trapping him. As I continued to choke the life out of him. His mouth hung open desperately trying to suck in air. I could see the fear in his eyes... I wanted to stop; to stop all of this, but I couldn't. I continued to squeeze as his legs kicked underneath me. The skin around his neck quickly blackened. He mouthed the word, please. Tears forming in his eyes. I watched as they ran down his face, which had already begun to turn blue. A pair of strong arms wrapped around me. I looked down to see them. Pale arms; familiar magenta markings. I watched as those pale arms began to darken. My eyes went wide, I realized what I was doing. I released Myoga, quickly turning to Sesshomaru. My anger quickly died out. I held his arms in my hands; trying to heal them.

"Why did you do that!? Why would you stop me!?" I didn't mean that... I don't know why I had said that. I wanted to stop and someone had finally stopped me.

He looked me in the eyes, resting his forehead against mine. "You could have hurt our child."

My vision became blurry, as my eyes welled up with teats; spilling over uncontrollably. I stared at him through wet lashes.

"Do not worry about me, I will be fine. As long as both of you are okay, I will be fine."

I held him close, resting his head on my breast. What came next had all happened so quickly. The sound of a blood curdling, the red liquid splattering on my back and my arms; as well as the ground around me. I held Sesshomaru closer to me, as I turned my head to peer behind me. Myoga stood there, shock and fear plastered over his face; bloody hand sticking out of his chest... heart in its hand. His eyes rolled to the back of his head, as he hit the ground with a hard thud. Revealing a woman behind him. She stood bare, her disheveled hair sticking to her blood-covered body. Sweat and dirt covering various parts of her skin. My mama ran past me covering her with her jacket. My eyes traveled up to her face; seeing the crescent-moon sitting on her brow. Sesshomaru's mother. She leaned against my mama for support. I looked at my mama. The colored had drained from her face. I could tell that she was trying to fight the tears; as was the woman in her arms. I couldn't imagine what they were feeling at this moment. I turned away from his dead body; trying my best not to go on autopilot once more. Instead of being lead by one emotion, I let them all be free. Letting my arms fall to my side. I couldn't hold it anymore. I just bawled and I didn't know why. I was angry, sad, and happy all at that moment. So much had just happened and I was struggling to process it all. He held me; an embrace I gladly welcomed. I just bawled into his chest like a child. I held onto him; not wanting to let go. I just laid there, not sure how much time had passed. My eyelids became heavier and heavier with each passing second until they'd shut completely.