I've been a little reluctant updating because of me forgetting, but I became motivated because an old friend messaged me on here. I really want to keep my promises to not abandon stories. (I seriously need to update half breed), but still. But weird rollercoaster. Been through horrid relationship, in a new one for a while, now I'm engaged to one of my fanfic followers lmao! Thanks for the reviews! Please enjoy.

Chapter 39: If

Mini-chap

Kaito's P.O.V.

8:11 p.m.

I hung around the porch outside with dad, not wanting to sit inside the house. `I've been having underlying questions I didn't know how to feel about; and dad seemed to be the only one I could really go to about them. ... I was just lucky to have caught him right when he got back home.'

The red-head blew out a cloud of smoke, taking a break to look over to me. "So you're worried of things getting out of hand?" He lowly told me.

Lowering my eyes, I briefly nodded my head, not sure of what else to say.

"Hmm" He hummed. "It's normal to be afraid of the possibility of a bad outcome, but you can't live life covering up your fears. You made your choices, and you can either make more of them, or stop and continue to worry. ... Soon enough others will detect it." He briefly explained.

I quickly ran my fingers through my hair as I leaned on the porch railing, sighing heavily. "I know. It's just that ... what if... I'm thinking too big? Unnecessarily big."

"And if you are?" He questioned back. "Sometimes you have to realize that giving a start to something is more meaningful than finishing. You've started something, and I've been talking to your mother about the recent talk of people mimicking your actions. Vandalizing property with messages for equal pay, to end sexual harrassment, etc. You started. Others will carry it on. ... So just focus on getting those people who are harassing Lens job, report them, and end that situation. No one is expecting you to act like superman." He blatanly told me.

My breath hitched, pausing to think of what to say in return. But there was nothing I could even respond to that.

He took his cigarette away from his lips and burned it out on the ledge of the rails before slapping his hand on top my my head to ruffle my hair. "You're still growing. Realize that every once in a while, because no one is ever really done with their growth; so don't hold yourself to the world. ... You'll be fine, and so will everything else." He then patted my back as he cracked a small but warm smile.

I relaxed a little and nodded my head.

"Thanks" I started. "...You're right. I started something, and I should be thankful for that and focus on one thing at a time. Hell, I hadn't even settled in being back at home fully." I snickered to myself at the end.

"You really hadn't. Your mother and I was thinking of inviting you and Len over for dinner. Family is still family, and we wanted to include him." He then mentioned.

I eyed him as soon as he said such thing.

Before I could say anything, he had continued.

"A lot has been going on lately. Wouldn't hurt to have a leisure day."

`He's right. I'd like to have more days like those for Len. ... Like really be a couple and sleep-in during the mornings, not worry about shit, and have time to process everything. Especially after the stuff with his mom. My babe need a break to relax.' I then took a deep breath and nodded my head before checking my watch.

"Hey, I'm going to get going. I have to pick up Len from work, but let me know when mom want to have that dinner" I quickly hugged the older red-head before stepping off the porch.

"I will. Let us know if you need anything; not money. You're a grown ass man and can get a job, but anything else, we'll be here for you." He blatantly told me. "Anyway, I should head back in anyway. I have to throw my clothes in the dryer." And with that, we gave a slight wave and slid back in the house.

`Still sarcastic as fuck sometimes...' I slightly scoffed and began walking away from the house.