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Chapter 54

Tris P.O.V

"Hey, how are you feeling? Christina asks, looking at me with nothing but concern.

The past week has been a total blur. The last thing I can really remember before waking up in the infirmary, was arguing with the nurses, a doctor, and Uriah. All I knew was Sara was taken by the same dangerous people that shot me, and had severely beaten up Shauna, and Hana. The thought of those monsters having their hands on my beautiful daughter infuriated me to no end. I needed to get to her, I needed to save my little girl...after all, when she was born I made a promise to her that I would always keep her safe, and protect her with my own life. I protected my sweet Sara when she was just an infant from Marcus, and I was sure as hell going to protect her now, gunshot be damned!

"Tris please, you need to sit down, you will only injure yourself further," the nurse said, as I tried to pull my arm out of her grip.

"No, I need to go, you don't understand." I yelled back at the doctor, who was keeping me from saving my baby girl...

"Tris, if you don't settle down, I will have to give you sedative."The Doctor said from the other side of the bed. He too had his damn hands on me, trying to keep me in place.

"Fuck off," I yelled out. I think back to that scene in the hospital room now, as I sit here on this bed. The foul language I had used that day was not very Abnegation-like at all. I internally laugh at the realization of how un-Abnegation I have become in the last few months, and thank the lord that I am no longer forced into that stifling life. "Get your damn hands the fuck off of me!" I continued to yell. I didn't care that I was pulling against the I.V. bag, I didn't care that I was in the middle of them giving me a blood transfusion, all I knew wasI needed to save my daughter before it was too late. I just couldn't lay there and do nothing at all, I needed to go and bring her back home where she belongs.

"What the hell are you doing to her?" A familiar voice yelled out, drawing not only my attention, but the attention of the doctor, and the nurse that were holding me down.

"She is trying to escape," the nurse blurted out. I still think she was a pain in the ass bitch.

"Escape," Uriah said, like the thought would be unfathomable to him. His lips were pushed into a straight line, disappointment, and anger written all over his face. I thought that meant he would help me, instead he stepped slowly up to the bed pushing his way through, until he was as close to my head as possible. He cradled my face between both of his strong hands, forcing me to look at him. "Tris, you have to stop, you need to stay calm." Tears instantly sprung from my eyes, at the thought of having to give up on saving my daughter from those disgusting bastards. Didn't he know, didn't he understand that they took my daughter, my innocent little girl? That I am lying here safe in the infirmary, while they do God knows what to my baby girl.

"Sara," I could barely whisper.

"Shh, Four left to go find her, he is on it, I promise. You have to trust that he will find her, Tris," he said gently. Even though I felt some sense of relief that Four was out looking for her, I also knew I couldn't give up. I needed to get out of that bed, and help Tobias get my baby girl back. What if he got hurt? What if I never saw him, or Sara again?

"No, I have to go," I tried pleading. But Uriah shook his head at me saying no, which meant I wasn't going anywhere. There was only one other option that I could think of...I had to fight. I finally got my good arm freed from the nurse, then with all the strength that I had left in me, I brought my hand down hard against Uriah's cheek, taking him, and everyone in the room by surprise. The doctor finally loosened his grip on me, as Uriah took his hand from my face, and cradled his own cheek. The nurse was frightened, so she stepped away from me. I then pushed myself to sit up, not letting the pain that I felt in my body register, but my injuries caused me to feel stiffer, and move slower, which unfortunately gave the doctor, nurse, and Uriah a chance to stop me. They pushed me back fast, and then secured me to the damn bed. The doctor spewed out something about giving me peace serum… after that, I don't remember much of anything that happened at all. I only know that at the time I felt unusually happy, and didn't have a single care in the world. It wasn't until the next morning, that Tobias told me what the doctor had given me to make me feel the way I did. Even a week later, I still might go back to the infirmary and kill that asinine Doctor, it's probably why he has no problem discharging me so soon.

"Tris?" Christina questions, when I don't answer her right away.

"Yeah, what?" I ask.

"Are you sure you're okay?" She asks again.

"Yeah, Im fine." I tell her. Ever since Christina found out I was shot, she has become like a hovering mother… every minute trying to help me with something, or she's always checking on me. The first day I was somewhat grateful, but after the second day, it became really old, really fast. I just hate all this attention. Luckily Christina took my word for it, and continued to do what she was doing before, folding her newly bought clothes. What else is new, I think, as I roll my eyes.

I wonder what her reaction will be when the truth truly comes out about my relationship with Tobias. I know her flirtatiousness and longing for Tobias will be a problem. Not to mention our friendship that happens to be built on lies. I fear what her reaction will be. I can only hope for a good outcome. If I'm being honest, I fear what most will say and do when the truth comes out. I have thought about coming clean to Chris, telling her the truth once and for all. But flashbacks of Peter giving her false accusations of me cheating comes to mind, I can only imagine what reaction I would receive now.

When I was discharged from the infirmary, Tobias tried to argue with me about not returning to the dorms. He wanted me to be home with him and Sara, where he knew I would be safe. Although I wanted nothing more than to finally be able to go home with my family, I knew I couldn't. Tobias is one of the leaders now, and our final test and rankings haven't been completed yet. I was worried that Tobias would be accused of favoritism, just like I would be accused of sleeping my way into Dauntless. We agreed it's best to keep things quiet for now, just until after the rankings are announced. Sure there will still be some accusations, and arguments… but once I am in, we can conquer them together.

With some quick thinking, Tobias explained the story of how I was shot, and with Uriah agreeing with Tobias' story, it all sounded believable. Since Uriah, and I were both the highest ranked in our initiation class, Tobias asked us to be guards for his daughter Sara, so she would have around the clock protection. No one was the wiser, I was shot during the take down of the Dauntless traitors while protecting Four's daughter, and Uriah, Shauna, and Hana were also injured in the crossfire, since we were all ambushed. With so much already going on... everyone just bought the story, they were too surprised after learning about all the arrests, and the potential war that was about to take place to really care.

Being the last leader standing, Tobias has been working around the clock, trying to figure out the best way to change things in Dauntless, and where it will go from here. One thing is for certain, Tobias is fully committed to these new changes, and making life better for all of its members. He has spoken about wanting to make things the way they used to be before greed and power got in the way. In all the years I have known Tobias, I have never felt more proud of him, than I do at this moment.

One of the first things that needed to be taken care of was adding new leadership to the compound. Just mere hours after my release from the infirmary, Tobias had already announced that two members of Dauntless would be joining the leadership team. Leaving the other two positions that are needed to be decided at a later date. He offered the first two leadership positions to Tori and Zeke. Tobias promoting Tori as a leader wasn't a big surprise to me. She has helped so many people within the compound, she's well known, trustworthy , and highly respected. I have no doubt in my mind that she will do a wonderful job and it will be an honor to have her as one of our leaders. I however, was taken by complete surprise when Tobias announced that Zeke would be the second leader that he chose for the Dauntless leadership team. When I asked Tobias why he had chosen Zeke, his response made perfect sense to me… he trusted Zeke with his life, he trusted him with the life of his family, and he was absolutely sure that he could trust Dauntless in Zeke's capable hands. After thinking about it for a bit…I have to say I completely agree. Sure, Zeke can be a crazy goofball at times, but when things get real and need to be dealt with, he will always be there to help figure it out, and have your back no matter what.

Tobias has also been busy working side by side with Candor's leader, Jack Kang. Together they, along with the other leaders of Chicago, have been attending the trials for every one of the prisoners. It was agreed by a majority vote, that they place each and every prisoner under truth serum. The agreement made between all the leaders was, if found guilty, and if they had a direct hand in the potential war, then they would be executed following their interrogation. If they didn't have a direct hand in it, then it would be discussed by us, and depending on how much of a hand they had in the potential war, then it would be decided what their punishment should be.

So far there has been a handful of interrogations that revealed that although the traitor did agree to help and had a hand in the war, they somehow felt forced by leadership, for one reason or another. Lauren for example, she was blackmailed into agreeing to go along with the war. Her only hand would have been to look for those who are reacting to the transmission being given to them by the serum that leadership would have injected into every Dauntless member after our rankings were given. Because there were too many members in this position to make factionless, it was decided that they would be placed under close supervision, and given probation. One wrong move, and they would be made factionless for good. Tobias was scheduled to pick them up, and bring them home, once all the initiate's had finished the last of their testing.

Once Dauntless was cleared of all their traitors, Candor then moved on to Erudite, which wasn't difficult, because of the file Max had provided Tobias. Tobias had refused to leave Dauntless, even after I was discharged. I think it was his way of wanting to keep both Sara and I close to him. Even if we weren't in the same room, at least to him we were in the same Compound. Especially when Jack Kang informed Tobias that Jeanine Mathews had gotten away. It turned out we had a leak in Erudite, she was warned that we were coming for her, and her faction. But you can't run in a city where every person knows who you are, and hates you for it. Within less than twenty four hours, Jeanine was turned in, and without even an interrogation she was immediately executed. Jeanine Mathews was sentenced to death, along with all the other traitor Dauntless leaders.

Al finally left the compound yesterday. With all the chaos happening,Tobias forgot to escort Al out of Dauntless, leaving him in the psych ward for longer than he had expected to be. Perhaps it was for the better, because Christina, Will and I were there to see him off and he looked a lot better than the last time we saw him, he was more at ease, and at peace with himself. Like Tobias promised, he made sure that Al left the compound with enough supplies to last him for a while, to give him a good start for when he became factionless. He thanked Tobias for all he had done for him, and even shook his hand, and then he hugged both Christina, and Will. Although I don't wish him any harm, I can never forgive, or forget what he did to me, so I stepped back, not allowing him to even come close to touching me.

"Tris, Tris," Christina calls out. I didn't notice that she was sitting next to me, because I was so lost in my own thoughts. I look up, giving her a small smile. "We're going to be late," she says. Christina along with everyone else has been more than eager to finally get this test over and done with. I know I am more than eager for initiation to come to an end, so I can finally start my life here in Dauntless with Tobias and Sara safe and sound by my side, where they will always belong.

"Let's go," I say, standing up slowly. Even after a week, it's still really painful to turn, or stand too quickly. My arm is in a sling, as my shoulder continues to heal. Christina nods, standing next to me, and we begin the long walk to the fear landscape rooms.

Christina and I finally enter the hallway, it seems she was right, we are among the last to arrive. All the chairs seems to be already occupied. I see Tobias standing at the door that leads to the testing room, talking about what to expect, as Christina and I walk in. All eyes turn to us, trying to see who has arrived late. Shit.

"As I was saying… we will be giving you your final testing today. We will call you one by one. When you are done, you may leave and do what you wish for the remainder of the day. But keep in mind, you still have a curfew, and are not permitted to leave the compound. Tomorrow we will announce the rankings, along with the job openings that will be available to you. In two days we will hold one final meeting. Expect to receive your assigned apartment, along with your job duties, after you announce what job you have selected. In case you haven't heard, there will be no further cuts from here on out. This test is merely to see what your ranking order is, so you can receive a better job than a lower ranked initiate, so the higher you rank, the better job you will get." Tobias yells out, he looks around making eye contact with each and every one of us, while lingering a little longer than he should on me.

"Tris, you can sit on my lap," Uriah calls out in a teasing tone. I look towards Tobias, seeing his eyes widen for a moment, before composing himself. He knows there isn't anything to worry about, Uriah is my good buddy, a brother even, but that doesn't mean I will risk disrespecting Tobias or pushing his feelings aside.

"Tempting," I tease back. "I'm good standing for now," I answer. I look back at Tobias, who instantly relaxes.

"Marlene," Tobias calls out, he opens the door for her to enter.

The room has finally calmed down, as many of the initiates are done with their tests for the day. I finally was able to get a seat for a few hours, after the testing began. The anticipation of what's about to come, has me on edge. My right leg bounces up and down, while I'm waiting, and dreading my name being called. I hate the thought of having to go through every fear I have in such a short amount of time. What terrifies me even more… I won't be the only one to see my worst fears, because my simulation is being supervised by the leaders. I do trust Tobias, Zeke, and Tori completely, so I think it will turn out okay, at least I hope it will.

"Tris," Tobias calls out gently, he stands there waiting for me by the door to the fear landscape room. I look around, noticing there are only five more intaites that need to be tested after me. I stand slowly making my way towards the door, Tobias closes the door behind us, ushering me to my seat. Tori is standing near the chair, prepared with the syringe that is already preloaded with the serum, and an alcohol wipe. Zeke sits by the fear landscape computer, and tells Tobias, he is ready when we are. I take my seat, letting out a shaky breath, Tobias then steps up close to my side, giving my hand that lays on my lap, a gentle squeeze. "You'll be fine Tris. Be brave."

"Good luck, Tris," Tori says, injecting me with the serum. I stare up at her, as I feel the effect of the serum take me under.

I see a shadow move across the grass and a large black bird lands on my shoulder. I know what's coming, I remember this fear all too well. I hit the black bird hard, and then everything happens at once. Thunder rumbles, the sky darkens, only it's not an incoming storm that causes the sky to darken, but a large cluster of the same birds that just landed on me. They all move in unison, all coming towards me at once.

I let out a scream, and begin to run as fast as I can. I find a large wooden log on the ground, I quickly bend down to pick it up. I turn around swinging with all my might, fighting each bird, but the ones I miss scratch and bite my skin. But I won't give up not until every last crow is gone.

I stand in a room with four walls of glass. I know this fear, although it isn't the most pleasant one, I know I can deal. I know if need be I can break the glass, but I I can't do that. Even if those that are watching, can be trusted, I can't leave evidence behind. I take a deep breath as the water is now up to my shoulders, I quickly rip off my jacket, diving into the tank further down in hopes to block the pipe with it. When I no longer feel any water pushing its way past it anymore, I swim back up the tank only having enough room for my head to breath above water.

I stand in the center of a white plain room. I take notice that there is no furniture, no decorations, nothing other than me. Suddenly there is a small table next to me, the only item present on it is a single gun. I stare at it for god knows how long. I remember this fear, the fear that I have to kill everyone that I hold dear to me. I refuse to look up, knowing that they will all be standing there before me...my mother, my father, my precious sweet little girl, along with the man that I love more than anything in this world.

"Pick it up," A familiar voice says, Jeanine. "Now." Her voice orders me, I do as she says, picking up the gun. "Shoot them." Jeanine orders

"What? No," I yell, as tears spring into my eyes. I shake my head no, refusing to give in.

"Do it now, that's an order." Jeanine's voice rises..

"Beatrice, it's alright. You have to do, what you have to do,"my father says, his face is expressionless.

"Beatrice, we love you," my mother says, nodding her head towards me as a form of encouragement.

"Tris, I love you. Be brave." Simulation Tobias says.

"Mama," Sara says, she lifts both her arms for me to take her.

"Do it now, or else," Jeanine demands. "You have until the count of ten." The countdown begins.

"Ten." My hands start to tremble. "Nine." I shake me head no, not able to wrap my head around the order. How could anyone want to murder innocent people like this? "Eight. Seven. Six. Five." I lift my arms, aiming the gun at my father first. I apologize to my father before pulling the trigger. He collapses to the ground, as tears spill down my face. "Four." I aim the gun again at my mother, just as I apologized to my father, I apologize to my mother and pull the trigger. I watch as my mother's lifeless body falls to the ground. Then I turn aiming the gun towards simulation Tobias, as more tears fall down my cheeks, my hands shake uncontrollably. I know I can't do this, not to them. I glance at Sara, as more sobs escape me. "Three. Two." I let out a scream, turning the gun on myself, as I tell Tobias and Sara how much I love them before pulling the trigger. Letting the darkness take me over.

The room is dark, like a sea of blackness surrounding me. I stand frozen in place, unable to move, I know what comes next. Remembering this fear perfectly, what parent wouldn't? As the life of their child lays in the hands of a monster, and not just any monster, Marcus no less. I take a deep breath preparing myself for the worst. For the moment I know I won't be able to stop and save my precious daughter.

My feet are stuck in what appears to be some kind of sticky slime. I try to move my feet forward, but I only move a few millimeters away from the ground before they get sucked back down. I scream out, but I know that no one can help me, that those watching can't help me.

"Momma. Momma." I hear the cries first, I turn my head in the direction of Sara's cries to see her, my daughter who seems to be toddling over to me. Like always she seems so happy to see me, her arms are up wanting nothing more than for me to scoop her into my arms. Only she doesn't get anywhere near me. Marcus steps out of the darkness. He doesn't say anything. He has a mischievous smile on his face, that sends cold shivers down my spine. He grabs Sara's arm before she can get anywhere near me.

"NO!" I yell out, as I once again try to move my legs, but they don't budge at all. Tears fall down my face, because I'm helpless to help and save my daughter, as he backhands her so hard that she falls to the floor with a thud. Sara calls out for me to help her, I cry harder knowing I can't. I am forced to watch Marcus begin to remove his belt.

"This is for her own damn good." He spits out as the belt comes down hard against Sara's back. By the fifth time, Sara no longer appears alone. As there are now two Marcus' whipping not only a bloody Sara, but a bloody Tobias as well. I watch as Sara and Tobias both curl up into balls, sitting in a pool of their own blood. The whipping only stops when Sara and Tobias are no longer breathing, and Marcus stands hovering over both their bodies laughing.

I stand on broken gravel under my feet, as I am surrounded by small concrete grey buildings, telling me I am clearly in Abnegation. It dawns on me that whatever this fear is, I haven't experienced it yet. I look around trying to prepare myself for what's to come, as the streets of Abnegation are completely deserted.

Suddenly the sound of popping breaks the silence, I see an army of black clothing walking stiffly down the streets of what was once known as my home. I hear the screams of the innocent people being ripped from their homes, and being murdered in the streets that were once known for the selfless people of this city.

Tears fall as I am forced to watch the blood of the innocent spill, as Dauntless members have no control over pulling the trigger. Their eyes, although open, seem cold and dead. I try to push one of the Dauntless members down, pulling their riffle away from them, anything to make them stop, but nothing works. I'm completely helpless. I cover my ears, and close my eyes… unable to handle seeing and hearing the sight before me. I take a deep breath, wishing for this fear to be over with.

I turn looking around at what appears to be Tobias' apartment, everything seems to be in its place, nothing is disturbed. What is going on now?

Suddenly I get the feeling I am no longer alone in the apartment, I turn to find Tobias standing in the room just a few feet away from me. I smile, happy that I am not alone after all. Only my smile doesn't last for long, as I see the look in his eyes… it takes me a moment to realize what the look is, it's the look of disgust, and disappointment. What have I done?

"I can't do this anymore Tris," Tobias says, I can hear the disgust in his voice.

"Tobias what are you-" But I am cut off by him, as he continues.

"You are not enough for me… I deserve better. I deserve a woman that can please me, that knows how to please me in ways that a woman should know how to. A woman that is the right size for me…" he continues, coldly and expressionless. But I can no longer focus on him and his words, as the scene behind him becomes nothing but darkness, with a single light casting over what should have been our bed. My heart breaks as I watch Tobias and another familiar woman laying in the bed. Although they are under the covers, it isn't hard to guess what they are doing. The woman screams out Tobias' name, it's then that I finally realize the familiar woman's identity, Lauren. I gape, not believing my own eyes, as tears begin to fall down my cheeks. He hovers over her, kissing her breasts, as he pounds in and out of her. She cries out his name.

"I want more, Tris," Tobias continues his words, but I can't focus on them as my worst fears play before me. The woman in the bed with Tobias emerges into Christina, he flips their bodies so she is now on top riding him. Her head is tilted back in ecstasy.

"I want to be free to explore my options." Once again the scene behind Tobias continues. Only this time Tobias is on his knees behind an unfamiliar woman, as she is bent over on all fours moaning his name, as he pounds in and out of her at an uncontrollable rate, gripping her hips as she screams in pleasure. I am no longer able to control the sobs, as the tears fall from my eyes down my cheeks, I don't bother to wipe them, or keep my screams down, as I plea for Tobias to stop.

My eyes fly open, and my heart pounds in my chest almost painfully, my breath is out of control, as I try to get my tears to stop. But I can't, my heart is completely broken, I can't seem to convince myself that this was only a sim. I look up at the three familiar faces that are looking at me in total shock. Only Tobias seems to have a mixture of shock, and hurt on his face.

"Six. Six fears?" Zeke asks, breaking the silence. As Tobias and I are left frozen in place, and totally speechless at my sixth fear.

A/N

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Trini