A/N: Hi everybody...I'm back from a much needed hiatus and this story is wrapping up on my end...I have both the ending and epilogue all written so this story should be rapidly coming to a close (I have an idea for a sequel if you want more of these characters)...hope you guys like it and I will be getting back to work on Stuck on You soon now that I have this story mostly complete! :)
The four of us quickly stopped at the two-bedroom apartment Alex had rented for two nights, even though we really only had thirty-two hours in Prague, well twenty-eight to actually enjoy it. Prague was more of Alex's best attempt at her Berlin friends not meeting a grumpy, jetlagged toddler and his equally pissy mother and I knew it but to Geo, it was just another cool new place. We dropped off our bags and headed to the Old Town Square where Alex held our son as he marveled at a clock tower built centuries ago and we peered inside old churches. Alex asked if I wanted to go in but old habits died hard and some spaces still worried me as a woman in love with a woman. Churches had always felt like the number one place where I had to hide my true self, followed closely by the sports field because it was perfectly fine to get drunk and make out with girls then show up to a match with a couple of hours of sleep as long as the talent scouts never realized it.
So we admired them from outside, marveling at ornate windows and centuries-old turrets. Alex bought us a few of her favorite treats for lunch and went to the sights that Geo was old enough for in Jewish Town, the parts that celebrated culture and family rather than memorializing the horrors that had happened, that no half Jewish toddler was old enough to handle, I could barely handle glimpses of them as his mother, and finally walked through Lethna Gardens. Once Geo was worn out and after the older two Vauses had a couple of beers, Diane took our son back to the hotel so that Alex and I could go on a romantic date.
"Be good, girls," Diane told us as she hugged Alex and then me, all without losing grip of the toddler on her hip who was fighting his exhaustion.
"Don't worry I'll have your daughter back by midnight, Ms. Vause," I joked as I did my best impression of a lovestruck quarterback taking the gorgeous popular cheerleader on a Saturday night date.
"Very funny, Piper. But you know you aren't the one I'm worried about. Anyway, she's already gotten you pregnant, what more shenanigans can you two get into? You know I don't worry about you two, I worry about the idiots of this world who can't deal with two women in love and building a life together that includes all the things and means of expression every other couple wants. Just be safe and don't do anything stupid. I want you two to have a romantic night out even if every time that rare occasion comes around it scares the shit out of me."
"I know, mom. Don't worry, just have fun with your grandson," I told her before Alex gave Diane directions to a chocolate shop and handed Diane some colorful paper money I had figured out was called a koruna, "And you behave for your Nana, cause you know she tells me everything. Do you want to lose your Nintendo on day one," Alex told Geo after she lifted him into her arms and gave him kisses.
"No, Momma. I'll be good. And Nana told me there special supise if I am good the wole tip! But I am aways good!"
"Well, I wouldn't say always but I always love you, even when you're naughty," Alex teased our son with a stern yet sarcastic tone. I flashed her a look when I heard her say that and Diane rolled her eyes.
"An' I aways love you, even when you put me on time out."
"But I'm not going to have to do that all vacation am I?"
"Nuh-uh, Momma!"
"That's my boy," Alex told him and with one last tight cuddle transferred him into Diane's arms. We watched for a moment as the two headed out of sight. "It never gets easier," Alex whispered as she tightened her grip on my hand and kissed my ear, an action that made me smile and melt against her body. "I know. Just don't let it ruin our night, baby. We only have so many dates left before true chaos arrives," I whispered as I put her hand on the slight bump that had recently begun to become noticeable. "Don't talk about my little princesses like that. They are perfect little half goddess babies."
"Sure. Right, yeah, about that, Al," I told her in a playful tone with a hint of seriousness.
"You sure you're up to going out tonight, babe," Alex stammered as she became truly concerned at the lack of rest that I had gotten over the past few days.
"Yes. We only have one night here and I want to see the sights."
"I just don't want you to overexert yourself."
"Yeah you were so worried about that when you fucked me on a plane not quite twenty-four hours ago when our kid and Diane were sleeping across from us in the next aisle."
"I didn't hear any complaints at the time," Alex teased with her seductive, commanding glare as she led me down the cobblestone walkways and to a boat that she had rented just for the two of us. We spent the next hour sipping sparkling cider for me and expensive French champagne for her while we picked at a cheese platter and watched the sunset while we floated leisurely down the river. Then we wandered down the streets of Mala Strana, passing the Lennon wall and placing a lock on a bridge as a symbol of our eternal love. Then we went to a romantic dinner with a view of the castle and winery followed by a night at the ballet and a late night walk through Petrin Park and some late night dessert for me and French cognac and a beer for Alex in the city's gay area before heading back to the hotel. We checked in on Geo and Diane's room and found our son fast asleep in his Nana's arms, Alex blew him a kiss before kissing me as she tended to do when she felt grateful for his existence and wanted me to know about it. "You need water or anything before we go to bed?"
"I'm fine. I just want a foot massage and jammies and to fall asleep in your arms. Tonight was magical."
"Yes and there's still nineteen days left, so we're just getting started. Tomorrow we're going to our first castle of the trip and the botanical gardens because I know you and mom will love it and Geo and I will probably play tag or something that will keep us on our toes. Then finally, we all get to ride down the river to the zoo and maybe Stromovka and pizza. After our long day, it'll be one sleep until Berlin and I don't know who's more excited for that leg of our trip. A whole week in Berlin, the only place other than New York City that I could imagine myself living in forever by choice."
"And Leni, right," I declared.
"Yeah. God, I miss her. She can't wait to meet my family, she's known me for around twenty years now and never met my mom. She's always been there for me. When everybody knew Silvia was bad news but I kept chasing anyway, she was still there, even when nobody else was. She was in my corner when the rest of the world was against me. And when I was falling for you and knew I was headed for huge trouble she helped me see a way to make it work and encouraged me to follow my heart. I'm looking forward to spending New Year's Eve with my Berlin friends and kissing you at midnight and my babies at about 12:05 when I finally let you go."
"Sounds perfect," I told her with a kiss.
After an exhausting whirlwind day in Prague and a night spent making sure we didn't leave anything behind in a foreign country, especially not the stuffies and blankie that Geo swore he didn't need until after receiving two stories and a glass of water without being the least bit 'sweepy', we woke up early to meet the luxury black SUV Alex had hired to take us to Leni's four-bedroom penthouse just outside the center of the gay area of Berlin. We took a quick tour of some of the top sights while Diane, Geo and I became acquainted with Leni and her partner.
Leni was an equally well situated psychologist, her specialty was in infant and neonatal loss while her partner, Claudie, was a medical researcher who specialized in blood and connective tissue disorders and within Europe was considered a foremost authority on rare and emerging nervous system related diseases. They were both professors at one of the universities and enjoyed an arrangement as they called it, something I would soon learn was common amongst Alex's European friends. Everybody slept with everybody and nobody cared as long as it was just sex. But I cared. Just a look wasn't a thing, let alone just sex, when I had so much to lose and Alex had everything to gain. I tried to put aside my jealousy as we sat at dinner the first night with four of Alex's closest German friends as they were talking and laughing in a language I barely understood, which only made me feel even more left out and concerned. I had no idea what they were saying but the body language of girls flirting was the true universal language. Eventually, Leni noticed and pulled me aside.
"Is everything okay, Piper," she asked in English as we stood in the hallway.
"Yeah. Yeah. I'm just tired. I think the jet lag must finally be hitting me," I answered, hoping she'd believe a lie even I didn't believe.
"So it has nothing to do with being in a country where you don't speak the language, your fiancé does and has in-jokes and is sitting at a table with five of her ex-lovers? Jealousy is human nature. You have a lot to lose. Alex is a special human being, she's a rare creature. If I were you, I'd be feeling jealous too."
"Maybe a little. I've seen her hanging out with Nicky but I'm not threatened by it but for some reason I find these women intimidating and I think my brain is confusing that with threatening."
"You aren't threatened by Nicky because you know those two are more like sisters, fucked up sisters but sisters nonetheless. These women don't have that. If it'll make you feel better, I'll let you in on a little secret but you can't tell."
"As long as it's not oh I was once married to your woman, go ahead."
"I was the first person in Alex's life who knew about you. Even before Diane. She told me everything and I do mean everything. At first, she just said she had feelings for this girl with a kid. Then she told me she was in trouble, more than ever and I have been through a lot with her so I knew it must be something pretty big because Alex is not the kind of woman who is prone to exaggerating shit for attention, she's the antithesis of that type. She told me that the chick was a potential client and she was in too deep to get out and she didn't really want to. She had been using her position as a doctor to get close to the girl she had developed a crush on. That she had looked her up on Instagram and been social media stalking her. I asked if the girl liked her too and she said 'I think so, I mean I hope so. I'm in love with her. But a kid? I don't know. I don't know if I can date a mom and come into an established mother-child relationship. Where would I fit in?' And I told her she could and should. That she had never used the words 'in love' to describe anyone. The plan to snare you was my idea and obviously, it worked," she told me as she peered down at my belly that I swore was mostly meat and cake, "Because here you are with all the things around a billion women wanted but never got. They got a roll in the sack with the legendary Alex Vause but whenever any of them caught feelings she cut them loose like they never existed. She didn't have time for feelings, just work and sex. But you have brought such richness and joy to her life. These women wish they could do that. So if anyone should be jealous of anyone in this apartment it's them of you. They all wish they could be you and are trying to figure out what you have that they don't as if it's anything that exists in the physical sphere. There's something about your energy. It's infectious. I see it, Alex sees it, but as for the rest of these bitches, they don't and never will so they are doomed to cry why not me for the rest of their miserable lives. Come join in and if anybody makes you feel truly uncomfortable let me know. This is my house and you are the guest of honor. And if Alex is the guilty one, let me know and I'll kick her pretty little cocky ass."
"But I don't know the language or all the little in-jokes and stories. Alex had this whole well-established life before me."
"Luckily, I'm here and a willing translator whether it's German culture and language as a whole or they of our little tribe. I want you to have the best week of your life and to see why I love this city, why it's such a cultural center and the best place to ring in a new year. We'll play some party games and if you ever need something explained, I'm here. I'm so glad Alex found you. Even if it meant my best friend didn't come rent my spare room and start a new life in Berlin. If I had to lose her to someone, I'm glad it's you and that little boy of yours. Seeing Alex holding him on her hip like she's been doing it his whole life was amazing. You would never know that she wasn't there from the moment of conception. I was finally watching her live up to the potential I knew she had."
"Could you imagine? She'd be more of a one-eyed monster than I am right now if she had been there for that," I chuckled before becoming serious, "He was meant to be hers. I truly believe that. My baby was meant to be hers and her babies were meant to be mine. It hasn't always been easy and sometimes we were so lost or she left things within his reach that she shouldn't have but I'm glad you told her to not let her fear win out. I don't know where I'd be without her."
"Just know, she will always need you more. Now come join in. Want another slice of cake?"
"I shouldn't, I've already had too much sugar. The last thing I want is to come home from this trip with gestational diabetes."
"Indulge a little. It's a party and you are a skinny thing with two babies growing in your belly. Eat. Be merry. And that's an order," Leni teased before hugging me as we headed back into the dining room where the other women and Alex were sitting around a table. Not long after I rejoined the group Diane excused herself and joined Geo in the room down the hall where he was sleeping. The next day, we went on a girl's shopping trip and perused street vendors with Leni and Diane while Claudie spent the afternoon entertaining Geo. I don't know what they did but I know it involved Schnitzel, feeding birds in the park and crafts. The next day we spent the morning at the zoo and aquarium and in the afternoon, we toured the historical sites and modern-day shops of the gay area while Geo fought his afternoon nap.
Eventually, Diane took him back to the apartment and the rest of us explored the wilder side of gay Berlin. I even eased up enough to dance with other people when Alex was otherwise occupied but at the end of the night, the last dance was all mine and I was all over her making sure everybody knew that every inch and blemish on her sexy body was mine to do whatever I wanted, whenever I wanted.
Our dancing was followed by a smoldering make out session as her hand found its way up my dress and two fingers slid along my folds destined for my swollen clit. The last words I remembered saying before I found myself led from the dance floor to the bathroom were "eat me."
Moments later, my panties were ripped and her head was between my legs as she did just that while I tried to wrestle control of her motions between my muscular thighs but she refused to allow me to overpower her. We fought for dominance as each of us tried to prove who knew my cunt and how to best please it. I knew my refusal to submit in a fairly public place wouldn't end well for me but I did it anyway because I knew the end result would make me feel alive and less like somebody's mother and more like a sexually desirable, empowered woman. Alex ultimately reached a fevered level of frustration when even drawing moon-shaped spots of blood on my legs did nothing to dissuade my behavior she removed her tongue without warning and ordered me to clean myself up. She led me out of the bathroom and through the noisy bar.
Once we hit the dark, chilly night, she guided me down alleys until we stopped outside a dark older building that I would soon find out was a sex club. She nodded at the bouncer and quickly walked down a corridor where she flung open a door to a private room and snapped her fingers as she pointed to the bed. I knew better than to do anything other than lay down and open my legs, this Alex Vause was a woman even I didn't dare to mess with. She soon proceeded to thoroughly remind me that, ultimately, I was her pet as she tied me up and whipped me before going down on me until her thirst was fully quenched. Just when I thought it was over, she thrust her fingers deep inside my raw, overly sensitive pussy as I screamed and rattled the restraints she had tied tightly on all four limbs. She rubbed my clit with her thumb to get me back to where she wanted me as she kept demanding that I cum while I cried that I couldn't but she just laughed and said she knew me better than that. And she was right, she did. When I finally let loose the orgasm was one of the strongest of my life and I rode out its aftershocks at Alex's skilled hands as her eyes softened with each orgasm until my body exhausted itself. She withdrew from my center slower and more gently than ever. She kissed my lips before kissing the marks left behind from the restraints. We laid there a while, our naked bodies pressed together with her lower half nestled between my legs as we made out softly until she knew our time was close to being up.
At that moment, I knew that being so well cared for came with a price and she didn't collect very often but when she did it took us both to heights unlike anything else we had ever experienced before.
The next day, still high from the night before, we tried to stumble through the technology and history museums without Geo or Diane becoming wise to just how much debauchery had gone on the night before. I wore foundation on my wrists and a baggy sweater with long black boots so nobody could see where there were still marks from the night before. We managed to do some exploring of a few neighborhoods and go to dinner before crashing.
New Year's Eve was spent at a park and Christmas market before Alex and I, along with Leni and Claudie went to a house party to ring in the new year, well after Diane insisted she was fine staying back and having a quiet night with Geo.
I ended up underneath a drunk, high and hungry Alex Vause in somebody's spare bedroom before the night was half over. I was still sore from our earlier night out but the second I felt the bulge under her leather pants I knew I had to have it no matter how much it hurt.
"Well, what's this, Vause," I teased as she ground her center into me as we danced in someone's living room.
"A little something I thought you might enjoy. Cause I know my girl requires frequent feedings. With most girls, what I did the other night would be enough for at least a week if not a lifetime but you are different. I'm sure you are famished again cause that was just a little snack while supper's cooking for you. That's why you're my one special girl cause you both match and whet my appetite."
"I certainly am. But is that all I wet cause I really thought I wetted something slightly lower than your stomach. And you know I love it when you show off your tits and muscles in a tight lowcut shirt and wear your dick for me. You know how I feel about a full-service lover," I whispered seductively as I kissed down her neck while my hand massaged her groin like she could get any harder than she already was from anything in my power. I knew she liked it when I added a bit of realism to our play just as much as I did. It took things to that next level that only we could get each other to.
"You're making me so hard, babe. You look so gorgeous, you have a glow about you," Alex whispered before her red lips zeroed in on my sweet spot just behind my earlobe.
"I think it has something to do about knowing exactly what your big dyke dick can do," I teased with a mischievous smile and my normally blue eyes turned steel grey with lust.
"Yes and now I can fuck you whenever I want 'cause you can only knock up the same chick once every nine months under ideal conditions," Alex responded followed by grabbing my earlobe in her teeth and dragging her front teeth across the soft skin until I craned my neck towards her and she ran a finger down my neck as if she were making invisible map dots for spots to nibble at later. I could tell she still thought she was in control and going to emerge the victor in this round of our seductive dance.
"Mmm…listen to you getting all nerdy doctor cause you know it drives me completely wild," I challenged as I pressed my center against her groin, feeling the toy against my aroused clit.
"How wet are you," Alex asked as I kept pulling back and rubbing against her in the same spot while my hand snuck up her abs and massaged the soft skin underneath her tits until she gasped for air like an overly inflated balloon. I had her right where I wanted her and she didn't even know it yet. I loved turning her soft only to make her animalistic nature explode into what I thought was a fabulous fireworks display but that was because I knew how to handle the live grenade that was the soft giant goddess beast better known as Dr. Alex Pearl Vause.
"Figure it out, Vause. Prove to me that you are the sexually sophisticated genius you claim to be. I'm not going to tell you," I retorted with my finger wagging just far enough from her lips that she couldn't do anything about what I knew would be her desire to possess it within her body.
"Having a needy cock and a sexy young blonde getting it even more excited is such a hard life," Alex sighed sarcastically.
"Oh, well. Maybe in your next life, Dr. Vause, you'll be born a heterosexual pillow princess," I teased knowing the beast it would awaken. I knew the babies I carried deep inside me would be well protected so I chose to bring out the rough, angry Alex Vause in all her glory. She pulled me into a room, pulled my tights down then pushed me onto my back on the bed, she looked around for something to tie my wrists together but finding nothing grumbled loudly and opened her fly with a locked-in glare, revealing a flesh-toned decently sized packer peeking out of her zipper. She rubbed her crotch against mine, pressing hard against my hips when I tried to take over control.
"Don't you worry your pretty little blonde head, your slutty little pussy is gonna get every inch of my thick cock. Cause I'm the only one who knows what your pussy needs. I'm gonna fill you up so good."
"Baby," I exclaimed as she ran her mouth along my collarbone and I pulled her pants down her hips and ran my hands along the tight black boxer brief style harness that held the toy in while she smirked at how much I craved her inside me. I hadn't met any part of this combination before and that only excited me more. I knew that move could have backfired and sometimes did but tonight it added fuel to the already raging fire burning between our bodies. She reached behind my back mid-arch and unzipped my dress to access my tits but not enough for it to come off. I wanted her to get me naked, I wanted the only thing between my body and hers to be her dick but I knew better than to ask this version of Alex to do this, well unless I wanted to end up taking it hard from behind while I moaned loudly with every thrust until I couldn't hold my body up another second and she kept fucking me while I laid on my belly until she decided she was done. As she took my tender breasts into her mouth that scenario began to not sound so bad but I kept letting her do what she wanted until finally, I felt the head of her cock thrust inside me roughly.
"You're so tight for me. I'm gonna pound your tight, young pussy so hard. How does it feel, babe?"
"So good, baby. I love the feeling of my walls stretching around your hard cock. You know just how to please a woman. You are the best I've ever had. You make me feel so good."
"Is there anything you want me to do," she teased as she kissed my lips and worked her tongue into my mouth as she thrust more of her cock inside me and I begun to feel the veins of her hard shaft rubbing against my walls as her thrusts made my wetness increase until I was sure I was going to leave a puddle on some stranger's comforter, "anything specific you would like me to touch?"
"You know what I want."
"No, I don't."
"Is that the game we're playing? Maybe you should be wrapping that up."
Alex looked down at every swollen spot on my body and I could see every bit of the ravenous wolf burning in her soul as she grinned, "I'll take my chances. Unless you don't want to risk carrying my little cubs. I know I wouldn't mind if you did. I'd love to make you my baby mama. I'd take damn good care of you and make sure everybody knew you're my boo. The special chick who is carrying my kid."
"Don't neglect my clit and maybe I'll let you cum inside me," I commanded as she began to rub the swollen nub and lick my tits.
"I live to please women, babe, it's why God gave me the good sense to figure out how to procure a dick and utilize it for maximum pleasure. And your pussy feels so good, you've got the voice that could lead a ship astray and the body that makes a good lover want to give you all the greatest joys a woman's body can hold."
"Then why don't you try, I mean if you really are that confident in your abilities at making love to women."
"Your wish is my command, princess."
"Fill my pussy with your cum, you big strong goddess-queen," I teased as I felt the head of her cock find the sensitive spot deep inside my walls that didn't just make volcanoes erupt but created new ones. I moaned and cried her name as I came hard, my soft, tight walls fluttering around her hard, thick cock, holding onto the only solid thing it could find as the rest of me rode out the waves as best I could and Alex's breathing became heavy as we got so deep into our play that we searched for a biological impossibility until we both reached a height and I could feel the moment she would have came inside me if she could. With a few progressively shallow thrusts she slowly pulled out of my swollen cunt as I yelped like a still hungry kitten who hadn't yet realized she was full. I saw the glistening toy still standing firmly at attention and Alex's smirk punctuated by her still smoldering green orbs as she collapsed from exertion next to me and I knew what I wanted. I knew a way Alex would allow me to extend out this play just a few more moments.
"It's such a shame you are going to have to ruin your nice leather pants with your wet cock. I would feel so responsible if my cum ruined such sexy pants."
"What do you propose, pay my dry cleaning bill?"
"I have something better in mind," I teased as I pulled her shirt off and it took every bit of restraint I had not to give in to the temptation of her aroused tits spilling out of her red lace bra. I kissed my way down the center of her neck, between her tits, stopping to make love to her six-pack abs with my mouth before wrapping my lips around her cock and sucking while my fingers rubbed the wet spot on her boxers, feeling it become wetter as her cock slowly began to taste less like me.
"Damn, I hate why you're so good at that but I love that you are. And you always do it without being asked. Dicks and tits have one thing in common—they both need to be sucked frequently."
I popped her dick out of my mouth and nibbled at the soft flesh just below her navel, that spot where middle age had begun to settle in, "I'll take that as a hint," I teased before flipping one of the cups off to reveal her breast with a hard nipple straining as it adjusted to the air and settled into a momentary sense of freedom. I instantly took as much of her nipple into my mouth as I could and sucked hard, gathering more of her breast as she became painfully aroused and begun writhing on the bed in search of friction. I knew I couldn't finish her here so I did what I could to tease out her orgasm while encoding a promise to satiate her after the party was over and I could get her fully naked.
"I am going to lick your pussy till it purrs like a kitten when we get home," I promised as I ran my fingers through her sweaty hair and wiped the frustrated tears from her eyes.
"You mean it? But what if you're too tired?"
"Then I'll cuddle you until we fall asleep and have you for breakfast with extra syrup."
"I can't believe the things you come up with sometimes, babe."
"I'm perfect, a perfect, cunning linguist," I joked as Alex groaned and rolled her eyes at a quip I still found amusing but she was long past the point of finding humorous. It was an old joke to her but she still rewarded me with a kiss and a chuckle anyway.
"So clever. I mean if baby dyke is what you're going for and not sophisticated rapidly approaching middle-age goddess badass big daddy dyke."
"You are so not a big daddy. Badass andro femme dyke who is equally skilled at wielding a dildo as she is at matching her heels to her lipstick, sure but daddy dyke not so much."
"Keep telling yourself that, maybe when your pussy stops throbbing from my cock and your core loosens from the pounding I gave your insatiable cunt I might believe you," Alex teased as she pulled me into one last kiss before we put ourselves together and returned to the party. Alex grabbed the closest bottle of alcohol and took a big swig before bumming a hand rolled unfiltered cigarette and disappearing outside to smoke while I made my rounds and felt like I had the words "I had sex" written across my face with a black marker until she came back in.
At midnight, we shared a steamy kiss that quickly turned into way more than a kiss as we didn't care who watched us tongue fuck each other into not just the new year but oblivion. I made good on my promise to take her home and eat her out until she drifted into a peaceful slumber while I curled against her body, as even in sleep she recognized my form against her frame and wrapped her arm across my waist firmly.
We spent one more day in Berlin, wrapping up seeing the sights and Alex's friends, who all told me how great I was for her and glad they were that she had found me, before the four of us, along with Leni and Claude drove an hour outside the city to spend a night at the water park before returning to Berlin to catch a train to Frankfurt. We spent a day seeing sights and visiting friends of Alex's before flying to Munich so we could do a private castle tour and have an engagement/baby announcement shoot fit for royalty. I had on a cream-colored flowing dress while Alex wore a white suit with a black silk shirt and black boots and Geo wore a little knight outfit while he held up chalkboard signs one that said "Save the Date…Alex and Piper Wedding 11.4.18" and another that said "My mommies are promoting me to big brother" on the top line followed by "Two princesses coming summer 2018." We spent almost two hours taking pictures and trying to get a few decent shots of an increasingly bored and hungry toddler. Eventually, we finished and got our kid some lunch and took him to a playground while we looked on smiling, holding hands and planting gentle, chaste kisses on each other's lips or laying our heads on each other's shoulders until we decided it was getting cold and after a quick stop at a café for sweets and cocoa, we went back to Alex's friend's house.
We caught an early morning flight to Copenhagen after one last dinner party with her German friends. I was sad to leave Germany after eleven days in the country. I saw what Alex loved so much about the beautiful country with its rich history, gorgeous landscapes, food, and the exciting nightlife. Leni was right, once I got past my jealousy and saw that Alex only had eyes for me even if she had a past that I wasn't a part of I was able to truly appreciate everything she was trying to show me by bringing me to a place that meant so much to her, amongst people who were so important to her. During our trip, a few girls tried to hit on her but she always made it clear that she was mine and our family and to grow old together were all she wanted in the world. I finally realized that other girls wanting the love of my life and Alex wanting something easier and simpler that I was sure other girls more her typical type could give her were two completely different things.
As good of a time that I had in Germany, I was exhausted by the time we got to Alex's friend Anne's house with her wife, Sofie, and their five-year-old son, Felix, who they were co-parenting with their gay best friends who lived next door. I spent our first day in Copenhagen in bed, too exhausted to get out of bed to do anything other than walking a few steps to the bathroom. I insisted she take Geo and go sightseeing like we planned. I spent the day getting pictures and videos of their adventures in between naps and texts of "how are you, baby" with kiss, two girls and heart emoticons. She came home with soup, a couple of her favorite pork dishes (just in case I was up for it, she told me) and Danish pastries which I was definitely up for. After I ate dinner, she drew me a warm bath and read to me while I soaked in the water. Then she gave me a massage and planted kisses up and down my back while I laid on my side and we chatted about whatever was on our minds. I was a bit surprised when instead of joining her friends and the boys she chose to pull me close and cuddle with me as I fell asleep. I could feel her softly running her fingers through my hair and breathing in the smell of my shampoo as I fell into a deep sleep.
The next morning, I was feeling better and up for exploring. We went all over the city and took Geo to the zoo before returning to Anne and Sofie's house for a friendly get together. We spent our third day exploring gay Copenhagen, going to museums and taking a boat cruise before grabbing dinner together. After dinner, Diane took the boys back to the other couple's house so we could go out on the town, including going to the world's oldest gay bar and of course a drag show. We took things slower in Copenhagen than we had during the German leg of our trip and Alex realized that we didn't have to see everything, this wasn't a once in a lifetime vacation but rather an introduction to the people firstly and places secondarily that Alex loved.
We spent our last afternoon in Copenhagen touring castles, something that never got old and Alex liked slightly more than the endless trips to parks and zoos, mostly because my beloved could play out her every queenly or chivalrous fantasy and I had no problem playing the part of the only daughter of a king or high-ranking lord in her tales. Making out in palaces in three different countries with my tall sexy future wife would end up being the highlight of our trip, well that and our second night in Paris when we left Geo with Diane and took a leisurely walk along the Seine, taking in the sights before ending at the Eiffel Tower, where Alex had hired a photographer for a dusk photo shoot just the two of us. Sure, it was a bit cliché but it was still an amazing moment and felt so freeing. Not that long ago the thought of kissing anyone, especially a woman, at one of the most romantic spots in the world would have been so far from anything I could have imagined but here I was, kissing the woman I loved and was carrying her babies at that very moment in front of the spot couples of all types came to express their overflowing love for one another and solidify their commitment to eternal affection.
I didn't even need the fancy dinner at a restaurant where if you have to inquire about the prices than you can't afford it but it was nice to have time to talk over candlelight and reconnect as we started the final leg of our trip. The next day, we went to Notre Dame and a private tour of the Louvre, then took Geo and Diane to see the Eiffel Tower and Fairground Museum before relaxing for a couple of hours at Luxemburg Gardens before heading back to the friends we were staying with while in Paris. That night, I was feeling up to going out dancing with Alex's friends so we stayed out until one am imagining we were in Paris in 1928. The next morning, we woke up to our hosts teaching Diane and Geo how to make French pastries. After brunch, we explored Montmartre, went shopping on the Champs Elysees and to Angelina Paris before wrapping up the night on a dinner cruise with Diane and Geo, who was so excited to go on his first boat ride.
For our last breakfast before we caught the train, Geo helped our hosts make crepes for the two of us and his Nana before we headed to the train with a toddler constantly asking, "Momma, where we going," while Diane whispered "C'mon just tell the kid," to us but mostly me. They both knew who the sap was and who was truly the strong one in control of the Vause household. But of course, I knew what I wanted and that Alex would never dare defy me because I decided where she would sleep at night and if she'd fall asleep holding me as she kissed me until she fell asleep or crying into a pillow. I didn't pull the 'he's my kid, I'm his mother' card very often with either Vause woman but this time I did and told her, "This is the way I'm doing things because it's the way I want to do it. I only get to do this once with my firstborn and I'm going to do it the way I want." Before Diane could respond Alex commanded us to stop fighting and I could see the hurt in her eyes so my attention instantly went to the younger Vause. At that point, I didn't care if Diane went and told our son we were going to Disney before he figured it out on his own because comforting Alex mattered more than trying to actualize my vision of the big tell as I had seen in videos and been imagining since I walked through LAX and saw the families headed to Disneyland in California. Either way, he'd be amazed at the castle towering before him and throw his arms around Mickey at the first available opportunity. I never was sure what Diane told Geo while my attention was focused on Alex or what bribe she potentially promised and in the grand scheme of things I didn't really care. All I knew was that forty-five minutes later an excited Geo jumped up and down as we walked through Disney Village and passed the Disney store.
"Mickey, Mommies! Mickey! I sees Mickey! I sees lotsa Mickeys! An' Lego! Momma A! Mommy P! Can we go to the store? Please? Please? I pomise I won't ask for anything!"
"You promise, eh, little buddy," Alex asked as she lifted Geo into her arms mid-leap and bounced him in her arms as he giggled, "Really? Pinkie swear and everything? Cause I'm not sure."
"I do! I really do! Really, really, Momma!"
"We can go into the store for a little while but when Momma says it's time to go it means stop playing or you might miss getting to do something even more exciting and have to go sit outside for a time out while other kids who behave for their parents get to play."
"Okay, Momma," he told her before Alex put him on her hip and pulled out her phone. Seconds later, mine pinged with a text, "Take mom for coffee or a snack, meet me in the store in about 20," and a second text, "But don't let the kiddo see you." I texted her back a cup of coffee, a winky face and a kitten with heart eyes and as we headed our separate ways got one back with a kiss face and a pair of red lips. Diane saw me grinning like a lovestruck teenager, "What did Alex—no, actually don't…I don't want to know. As long as you two are happy I don't want to know."
"It wasn't anything sexual," I asserted as Diane shot me the infamous Vause death glare and I corrected myself, "Okay, nothing too sexual and what I sent her was more sexual than what she sent me." "Did you send her that heart-eyed cat emoji again? Why do people have to make things dirty that aren't? You know what Alex recently told me," Diane asked in a slightly hushed tone.
"Yeah, not to send eggplants or peaches," I responded in a tone young people used to infer old people were so not hip to the times and its current cultural expressions.
"Or tacos. Alex didn't even know that one. I send her rainbow lollipops sometimes when I know it's an inappropriate moment. It's fun. A recent one is the painting nails emoji. And there's one that Nicky told me has become known among lesbians as the fingering or fisting emoji."
"I still don't know nor do I want to know exactly what fisting is. Let me guess, it's not 'cause you have a fresh manicure that you don't want to ruin?"
"Pretty much. How did you come to know so much about lesbian sexual innuendos?"
"I raised Alex Vause before she became the mythical Alex Vause, sex doctor and sex-positive lesbian Casanova. In about nine hundred square feet, if that. And I had to decide what mother I wanted to be. There was a reason she always hosted her crushes and it felt like I finally had some power as I mother, I could do something better than all the mothers who looked down on me when it came to raising my child. I couldn't buy her pants that fit, I don't even think they made clothes for tall adults let alone kids back then but I could make her feel safe and empowered. And really, that's more important than anything when you have a daughter. Of course, I had to put up an act and sometimes never seeing the same girl twice got to me or the nights when my teenage daughter didn't come home and I knew she was with some woman who didn't know her real age. At the end of the day, nothing is more important than your baby being alive. The rest is insignificant. If you don't get the Instagram-perfect moment the world won't end but if you never hug your baby again, well you'll be wishing it would. I see you get bogged down in wanting to be perfect in other mother's eyes or have these picture-perfect moments. And I get it. Mothers nowadays have so much pressure on them coming from directions that didn't even exist when my baby was little. I wouldn't want to be a new mother today, be raising a little one."
"Did you tell him?"
"Does it matter? He's still excited. You still got your moment and there's so many more special moments to experience with him, my baby is nearly forty and I can tell you the firsts never end. All I'm going to say is I owe somebody some sour candy later."
"I guess it doesn't. So do you want coffee or to try and find a snack?"
"Did you see anything you wanted?"
"Not really. And I think Alex made reservations for lunch with the characters or a show, I don't remember."
"I could use a beer but I don't want to make you uncomfortable."
"You do know where Alex and I go when you spend the night caring for Geo on this trip, right? The least of what I owe you is a beer anyway."
"Oh, so you're buying? What will people think," Diane teased and I playfully slapped her arm and winked before firing back, "I'm into older women and all, obviously, but even I have a point where it's too much."
"Yes, Nicky told me you have or should I say had a five-year rule. You kept to that one really well," Diane responded coolly as she peered down at my engagement ring and circled her finger in the air around my slightly rounded belly, "Unfortunately for you, I don't think my daughter had a rule other than is she above the age of consent in the country her and her prey currently inhabited."
"I made an exception, once and it's the only time I ever will. If I were you, I'd be thankful cause I'm the one birthing your grandbabies," I declared in a tone I had learned from Alex, both playful and commanding all at once.
"God, you might be more Vause than me or my baby girl."
"Well, I do have the first members of the next generation of Vause women currently in control of my brain and just about everything else that was once not long ago solely in my possession."
"You feeling better? I was so worried when you got sick our first day in Copenhagen."
"Yeah, sometimes I forget to slow down. Sometimes I forget that I'm even pregnant. I have the symptoms and am starting to get a belly but everything has been so mild. I wouldn't tell Alex, I don't think she would understand."
"It's normal. Even after I felt Alex kicking up a storm in my belly, I still had moments where I forgot I had a baby growing in my tummy or couldn't believe it. I think if you've never been pregnant you can't understand it. It doesn't mean you don't love your baby or the person you made her with or that you aren't grateful and thrilled to be pregnant and gotten pregnant easily. You know you can always come to me, Piper. And I will never tell Alex anything you don't want me to tell her. I might order you to tell her your own damn self but just as I told Nicky when I first met her, my relationship with you is separate if you want it to be. She has Red so she rarely takes me up on the offer but I'm the only one in your life who knows what it's like to bear a Vause daughter and keep her alive long enough to have her own."
"I'd like that," I eyed what looked like a bar and stepped in. Diane walked up to the bar and ordered a whiskey sour, like mother like daughter, I guess. I ordered my current favorite mocktail, a club soda with a splash of lime and a dash of ginger topped with lime zest. We ordered a couple of rounds as for the first time we spent time just the two of us and talked about everything about us but the most obvious thing we had in common. I lost track of time until I heard my phone ding.
"Well, guess that's our girl. I think I'm gonna mess with her head a little."
"I don't know why you two enjoy fucking with each other. I didn't think anything could be worse than Alex and Nicky's pranks when those two were younger but you guys are going to be married soon, you have a family."
"That's exactly why, mom, sometimes we need to just let loose. And it's a cat and mouse game," I told her as I texted Alex that I was buying a pretty girl drinks at a bar. She texted back, "u btr not. UR mine!" "But she's so gorgeous…she kinda reminds of you except not an asshole." "Does she now? Would this woman have dyed auburn hair and blue-green eyes? Could she possibly be the only other woman who answers when I holler mommy?"
"Possibly."
"I guess I'll make an exception then. That's the only gorgeous single woman you can buy drinks. You guys have fun?"
"Yeah. We actually got to talk. It was good for us, especially after our fight earlier. Has Geo been behaving?"
"Yeah. He's kept to his word. He's just been pulling stuffed animals off the shelves and playing pretend. I was mortified when one of the staff came over. I was sure he was going to kick us out of the store for making a mess but instead he got on the floor and played with him. He hasn't asked for anything. I don't think he knows he's at Disney."
"Mom told him. She confessed."
"He's three. It's an abstract idea. I don't think he's made the connection yet. He just thinks we're at a Disney store," she texted as I paid our tab and we headed to the store. Diane went to look at the sweatshirts and Mickey ears while I went to find Alex over by the toys. I pretty quickly saw my tall raven-haired partner. Even if I didn't snap to her like a magnet, I would still be able to easily pick her out of a crowd, based solely on her distinctive look. I walked up to her and snaked my arm around her waist before turning her around and kissing her hard.
"Hey. Somebody missed me," she whispered as she pulled me close and kissed me gently. If I hadn't heard Diane clearing her throat from just outside our view it would have quickly become very steamy.
"We are so going to fuck in a hotel bed at Disney tonight," I whispered against her ear as we pulled away from our embrace.
"Well, that's one way of thanking me for the thousands of dollars I'm going to spend in the next few days," Alex teased.
"That's all you have to say, Vause," I commanded.
"You know it's not. It's just nothing I haven't done. I've been to gay days at Disney World and well let's just say I'm lucky I'm still allowed in a Disney park," Alex teased as she dug her blue-black acrylic nails into my ribs.
"There really is nothing you haven't done."
"But there are still a few things I'd like to do. Should we get our kiddo before mom comes over and kicks our you know whats," Alex whispered as she realized just how many kids were swarming around and how many parents were attempting to shield their children from our rather overt expression of lesbian sexuality.
"Yeah," I responded as I rubbed her back, just to make sure any of the adults with their gaping mouths were still offended by the public display of affection between two women knew nothing they did could cause me to back down or force me back into the closet where I attempted to hide the best parts of me.
"Geo, time to go. We have to check into our hotel and then change for dinner," Alex called for our son who was stealing all the playtime he could get.
"We're staying here," he asked as he ran over to us and threw his arms around us excitedly.
"Yeah, baby. We're staying here for two whole nights! Remember how we told you we'd take you to Disney when you were five," I asked him as Alex looked on, allowing me to take the lead with our son.
"Uh-huh."
"Well, Mickey sent a letter with his buddy Santa and told us he was going to be in Paris when we were and invited us to come to his European vacation home. Momma and I talked about it and we decided since you've been such a good boy, we'd accept his invitation. We are going to spend two and a half days at Mickey's house. And Mickey's house has a big park with rides like Elmo's house does and we can go on anything you are tall enough for."
"Does this mean we no go when I five?"
"No, we're still going to see Mickey in Florida when you're five with your sisters. This is just about you. And then when we take you, you can tell them what it's like and help them be brave and know what rides are the most fun!"
"Why can't we go now?"
"Because Mickey isn't home tonight," I lied as parents of toddlers with no concept of time were often forced to do and hoped he would believe me, "He's going to be at the show we'll be at tonight. We're going to a cowboy show. I promise in the morning we'll go to the park before we even have breakfast. But you have to get up early and not be grumpy."
"That goes for Mommy too. Anyone who acts grumpy or whines about waking up at 5 am gets to stay in the hotel," Alex added as she kissed my cheek.
"But I'm pregnant," I teased as I stood there with my arms crossed and nibbled on my lower lip.
"Not an excuse," Alex replied with her trademark cool confidence and daringly cocky posture.
"Yeah, Mommy," Geo parroted his Momma with his hands on his hips like her. He had so much attitude but I had to admit I found it adorable, probably because it was in those moments that even I questioned how he wasn't biologically Alex's son or at least hadn't spent his babyhood surrounded by her badass persona. "Okay," I told Alex before turning my attention to Geo, "So I heard you kept your word to Momma."
"Uh-huh," he shook his head as a sweet smile that proved he was definitely my son, complete with manipulative cuteness and the innate knowledge of how to trick people into giving you what you want, when you want it.
"Mommy is very proud of you for being so good with a Momma. So I'll let you pick one small stuffed animal to sleep with tonight. But you have to be a big boy keep track of it for the rest of the trip," I told him as I looked into his eyes.
"Okay, Mommy. I pomise, I take the bestest care of it ever, ever," he exclaimed as he looked at the pile of stuffed animals next to him and tried to make an impossible decision on his own before looking to me for guidance, "I want the Mickey dressed as Stitch! But I also like the chipmunk one."
"You can get one now and if you still want the other one when we leave the park tomorrow night; if it's still the thing you want more then anything else you see, we'll get it for you," I told him as I knelt down and watched his lip quiver.
"Okay. I think I want Mickey. He's cool," Geo blurted out after a few seconds of turning his head back and forth between the two toys.
We paid for his toy, a couple of coffee mugs and little wedding-themed Minnie Mouse things while Diane paid for matching sweatshirts and everybody's favorite two sets of Mickey ears because Alex insisted we needed a different set for each day and the WASP in me couldn't disagree. We spent the next few days meeting characters, we went to four character meals, rode rides in various combinations, watched the parades and shows and of course, took hundreds of pictures.
Alex and I kissed in front of the castle and we took a couple of family picture of the four of us, including Diane with her hand around Geo's shoulders in front of us while we kissed, this picture would later find its way to our wedding announcement. By the end of our trip, we reluctantly left Disney and after one last lunch in Paris, Europe as a whole and returned to America with something deeper than the suitcase full of souvenirs.
We solidified ourselves as an inter-generational family and how that looked for the four of us. We all cried the morning that we dropped Diane off at the train station and Alex begged once again for Diane to move to New York but she still wasn't ready. Moving to New York, even if it was for her daughters and their expanding family meant retirement and she still felt too young for that.
The first few days back from vacation felt hollow but before we knew it, we were back to our old routine of school, work and hobbies. But we were never the same as individuals or a family after our European winter holiday.