Chapter 63…

What a day it's been.

Seeing Ana back in the kitchen with her radiant and beautiful smile.

Presenting my ideal breakfast and watching her move freely without injury, allowing my arms to move around her without watching her body wincing in pain.

It's been everything I've desired for, for such a long time.

Now with our baby developing inside of her, Teddy overly excited about everything possible, I finally feel like my life is complete.

The many holes in my heart that have been tearing me down for years and years have finally been rebuilt.

After a quick kiss goodbye to my future wife, I drive Teddy to school and then head straight to work to carry out my day.

Ros and I went through everything. It was most definitely needed. With Ana injured, I'll hold my hands up and say that I have most definitely taken a step back from the company to concentrate on Ana and Teddy. Despite her efforts of trying to convince me she'd be fine in the house on her own, I still only stuck to minimal hours.

Ros has been wonderful and today, i'll repay her for that. During our hours in the office we look through our finances, our employees, future business meetings, past business meetings and I was quite surprised to see that my earnings had increased again by 45%. I never ever had imagined being this successful, being this…Happy.

"I think we'll make a pay rise for all employees," I say to Ros as I point toward the screen.

"Yes sir…they'll love that"

"And…I'd like you to become second lead Ros"

I take her off guard and her eyes produce the most confused and shocked stare as she looks at me, making me chuckle.

Me chuckling at work? Imagine that.

"Wh-What sir?"

"You've been an amazing asset to the company Ros, you've been my assistant for too long, I want to give you this promotion. Second lead… When I'm not here, you're in charge. You know how I work, you know how I like things….You're the best fit. We have another baby coming soon and I need someone I can trust to look after my company while I'm not around as often"

"Wow…sir…I…"

"Please, call me Christian"

She beams, "Thank you Christian….this means so much"

I simply respond with a smile before making my route back into my office.

The rest of the day also goes by very very swiftly.

I've managed to set up a new building in Los Angeles and I've planned a trip for us all to go there for a vacation.

Now Ana is feeling healthier, I think she needs a break and she deserves it too.

Besides, Teddy has been barking about Disneyland for years and maybe now, it's finally time to take him.

It's 1.30 pm, and Ros and I are done for the day. It's been a very successful and productive one, to say the least.

But now, I'm thrilled to go home and surprise Ana with my early finish before we head to pick Teddy up and get ready for our family dinner tonight.

On my drive home, I notice a small florist off to the side of the street, so I pull up right outside.

A smile, plastered on my face today. It's a strange feeling I must admit. The smile hasn't left my face all day.

"Hello, sir what can I….Oh Mr. Grey…" Her eyes light up.

My business is growing and my face is everywhere. Even more so with the incident at my parent's house. It's been in the news, in newspapers, in magazines... and online. Everything is online lately.

"Afternoon…I'd like a bouquet of white roses, don't hold back…the cost doesn't matter"

"Of course sir, I'll get that done immediately. Where you like me to have them delivered to?"

"I'd like to take them now if that's possible, I'll pay the extra charges"

Her eyes widen in horror but it makes me internally laugh.

"Yes sir, of course, I'll be around 20 minutes?"

"Perfect" I grin and I walk around the store waiting.

Waiting.

Waiting. Gazing around at the other ideas.

Then, the most elegant bouquet emerges from the backroom, held skillfully in the florist's hands.

"Is this okay sir?"

"Wow…they…they're perfect, Truly perfect. Thankyou"

Reaching into my wallet, I pull out $200.

"Thanks" I smile at her, and her eyes grow.

"R-Really….sir…" She sounds completely taken back, completely shocked.

"Really…."

With that, I take the bouquet and I make my leave, heading to the car and driving home.

My heart skipping a beat, excited to see and spend time with my future wife.

We haven't had much time together lately and I thought it would be a perfect time and a nice gesture to spend some quality time together before we head to collect Teddy from school.

I draw into the garage.

That's weird….Sawyer's car isn't here.

I climb out, carefully bringing the bouquet with me before heading up the steps of our home.

Once inside I gaze around.

It's quiet.

Too quiet.

"Ana?" I call out. "Ana?!" I call out again but no answer.

Sawyer's car is gone and Ana isn't here.

I know she's feeling better but should she be out alone?

I mean, maybe she just went to her parents' right?

Maybe…

Now my mind is reeling with thoughts.

Why didn't she tell me she was going anywhere?

Unless, Unless maybe it's a surprise for me, or for Teddy.

But still, I wish she would have at least told me she was going out, I worry about her and I just want her to be safe. She's still recovering.

I put the bouquet down onto the island in the kitchen before pulling my phone out of my pocket and dialing Ana's cell.

Ring.

Ring.

Ring.

RIng.

Ring.

No answer.

I turn it off and dial Sawyer's.

Ring.

Ring.

"Mr. Grey"

"Sawyer….are you with Ana?"

"Uhm…yes sir"

"Put her on, I need to speak with her"

"She isn't here right now sir, I'm sorry"

"What do you mean? Where is she?"

"She's inside sir"

"Inside? Inside where?"

I can feel my frustration and tension building.

They're hiding something, I can feel it penetrating in the pit of my stomach.

Where the fuck is she!

"Miss Steele requested I bring her to the prison sir"

"Prison? What the fuck? Why is she there Sawyer?"

I can feel my knuckles clenching around my phone, tighter and tighter and tighter.

My whole body igniting.

As if I didn't already know why she's at the fucking prison.

Of course, I know.

Fucking Elena.

Elena fucking Lincoln.

"She's just coming out of the building now sir"

My teeth gritting together in anger and rage.

Keep cool Christian.

Keep fucking calm.

But I can't keep peaceful, can I?

This is me we're talking about.

My fiance has gone behind my back! How could she?!

Did she think I wouldn't find out?

Why didn't she just fucking tell me!

My heart is pounding so quickly I feel it may just come ripping through my skin.

"Put her on," I say a little too harshly.

"Miss Steele…Mr. Grey would like a word"

"Christian…."

"Where the fuck are you?! Why did you go to the prison?! Why didn't you tell me! Fuck Ana! I've been worried sick!"

So much for keeping it cool and calm Christian, way to go!

"Christian…please…calm down let me explain"

"Calm down? Calm down? Ana are you fucking kidding me right now? You are meant to be resting! I came home to spend time with you, just the two of us only to find out you've gone visiting Elena! What the fuck!"

"Christian….let me explain, please? Calm down….I'll be home soon"

I simply hang up.

My blood is bubbling.

I'm not entirely sure why I'm so angry? Oh wait, maybe it's because she's gone visiting the person that tried to kill her and our baby, manipulated me, used me….and now…now….

I'm so fucking angry.

I put my phone onto the island right next door to where I left the roses.

Staring at them.

Staring.

Not realizing how much time was passing the door opens and Ana walks in.

Fuck she looks beautiful, remarkable….

She looks so much better, so much healthier.

She has a glow in her cheeks and that sparkle in her eyes again.

But I'm annoyed.

I'm really fucking furious.

She looks at me then to the roses at my side.

"Christian….I…."

"Don't"

"But…please…"

"Don't"

I walk towards the door pulling my jacket back in as I walk through the passageway.

"Christian…."

"I'm going to pick up Teddy"

I say as I open the door and I close it immediately behind me.

Fuck, I shouldn't have just left.

I should have let her at least explain.

But no, she should have messaged me.

She should have told me where the fuck she was going.

I worry about her, especially after everything she's been through.

What makes me even more fucking angry is that she's carrying our child, it's not just her anymore.

I couldn't bear…

I couldn't bear it if…

Fuck.

I climb into the car and I look up towards the house through the windscreen.

She's standing there, in the window gazing right back at me.

Her eyes anxious, wanting and willing me to come back.

But no, she should have told me where she was.

Fucking Elena! Who knows what she could have tried to do.

And we have a meal tonight, the family meal I booked a reservation for at Ana's favorite place.

One of the places we've become fond of.

Our place.

Fuck, I am such a dick. I shouldn't have kicked off that way but she's made me so….so…angry, so frustrated.

I feel like I'm not in control.

I drive to get Teddy.

His little face bright with a sparkle as he comes bounding out of the classroom. His hands filled with paintings and drawings.

"There's my boy" I swoop him into my arms and I hold him close.

"Daddy!"

"How was school buddy?"

"Goods! I drawed a picture for da baby!"

And when he holds it up, my heart melts and I can feel the anger rippling away.

A clear image of 4 people.

Teddy, Ana, the baby and me.

"That's amazing buddy, the baby will love it"

"Mommy loves it too?"

"Yeah she will"

My lips curl into a smile and I kiss the top of his head before putting him into his car seat and heading back home.

I was a dick.

I overreacted.

I didn't let her explain herself.

Fuck, I hope she forgives me.

The drive home seemed to take way longer than it normally does.

If I have to listen to baby shark one more time I fear my ears may just have to explode.

But finally.

Finally, we arrive and Teddy squeals with delight.

"Mommy!"

Ana comes out of the doorway with a small smile on her face and with Teddy out of his car seat and onto his feet, he immediately goes rushing towards her.

His paintings and drawing being waved towards Ana excitedly.

"There's my handsome boy" She smiles brightly as he runs into her arms.

My whole life is right there, right in front of me.

Fuck I was a dick. I shouldn't have stormed off that way.

Maybe I haven't changed.

Maybe…just maybe….

Maybe Elena was right, maybe I will never change.

What if….just what if…

No.

Stop it.

Scolding myself, my hands fisted at my sides.

No! Just stop it.

I need to stop the negative thoughts.

I have come so fucking far.

So far because of my entire life in front of me, Ana, Teddy and now our baby.

Fuck I was a dick.

She's here, she's safe, why was I so mad?

Why am I so mad?

Finally, her eyes meet mine as she stands from her knees.

Her bright smile that plastered her face as she embraced Teddy has now become more saddened because of my actions.

Teddy runs inside excitedly, Ana's gaze follows him in before looking back at me.

I look at her, my eyes are guilty as sin.

But I am angry.

I'm so frustrated.

I want to take her into my arms, hold her close to me.

Say I'm sorry and that everything is going to be all right but I can't.

I'm still too mad and I don't want to say or do anything I'll regret.

"We'll talk after dinner" I simply say before walking past her.

Fuck I'm a dick, I know I am.

My heart is pulsating with frustration, distress, annoyance.

I love her but she's so independent. She's so headstrong and self-sufficient.

I just wish she realized how much I worry about her.

Fuck do I worry.

"Christian…" She says as I walk past her.

I pretend like I didn't hear anything.

We'll talk later, I'll apologize, she'll explain what happened and we can carry on.

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