Chapter 69

Nick POV

Thinking about the letter that Margaret gave Carrots and she's can unstable at times. What she writes can prove that. Those she does have some strong points about mental illness. For only a small percent want them locked away. Even those with mental health issues rarely commit crimes. So Margaret and Leon are in the small percent that does. Mammals are told to be a part of the puzzle. Katheryn's parents treated her like that. Wanting her unique puzzle piece to fit in and it never did. So that pissed them off instead of accepting her for who she was. In which Katheryn was so great. Carrots just saw her ramble about her favorite flowers but I saw what she wrote Katheryn and Nick equals love. Knowing that she was stalking to figure that out. Or she always knew about Katheryn. Either way, it's still creepy and unstable for her to do.

"How did you know," I whisper

Knowing that my mother wouldn't tell her for I told her about Margaret. It was for Kiddo safety and she wouldn't tell her anything. Those I know Margaret wouldn't threaten her. Why piss off Judy and just destroy every letter she gets because she hurt my mother. That's something she wouldn't want. She has it for Carrots by the letters address to her but she gets out at her friends like me. Called out Nora and we saw her true colors. Proves that Margaret is a stalker and knows what she's doing. It makes me wonder how long she been planning this. For it would take some time to figure it all out. Or she so unstable she can do it on the spot. Either way, it's bad for Carrots and those who care about her. Margaret just knows how to get at Carrots. Just knowing Judy will choose rapist as the greater evil for that's what get to Carrots. Like those who mistreat or kill mammals with disabilities gets to me. I wonder what's her test of loyalty is. Whatever it's not going to be against the law for carrots for she still wants her to be a police officer. Otherwise what she does loses all meaning.

"She reads me like a book," Judy said quietly

"Only because she stalks you as a creepy mammal would," I say

"Thank you, Nick," Judy said, "she has an interesting choice of her favorites."

"Yes she does," I say

That's all I'm going to say in the matter. For I don't want to tell Carrots about Katheryn due to Margaret. I want it to have meaning and for Katheryn important to me. Even in death, she's still important to me. Knowing that Carrots would understand why she is and Jude the same way with her So I'm going to wait for that's how I feel like and it's something to wait for the right moment. I just can't explain this feeling.

"So any closer to getting him?" Judy asked

"He's unpredictable with all the victims he picks out," Susana said

"Not like a rapist is like but we're figuring it out," Lola said

"We have full fate in you," Judy said

I know that they were chasing this rapist for three years now. I have been hearing about it for years. Luckily in Zootopia rape statute of limitation doesn't expire. It wasn't always like that but they decided this way a better way to do it. Murder doesn't have a limit but rape did. Other than some evidence that would be lost rape shouldn't have a limit. Victims already have a tough time coming out do too many reasons. While made Katheryn so mad and she knew most victims didn't lie. She knew a rape victim and she's autistic as well. She what they would call on the lower septum so that would be a perfect target for a rapist. Just hearing about rape always made sick to my stomach for I always feared for Katheryn. For someone would take advance of her due being Autistic for I knew it happened before. Knowing it's not about the sex but the power and most rapist wouldn't care if she had wasn't interested in sex. For its all about the power. Her parents told her she could never have a relationship due she couldn't have sex. In which they were wrong about it. a relationship doesn't need sex to work. Also, she wasn't interested in sex but we would have done the deed. I still haven't done it and waiting for the right moment. If I can ever find that again for Katheryn was perfect.

"Yes, we do," I say

"Thank you, Nick and Judy," Susana said

"We'll get Mrs. Moore and take her home. She's a likable one and very sweet."

Watching Susana and Lola enter the room. Mrs. Moore seems familiar and I just can't put a finger on it. I always state that I know everyone and that's no true. Most find out fairly quickly that I don't for that's easy to figure out within a few minutes. Just a simple question would be my downfall. Expose my little liar about knowing everyone. Katheryn knew that I was joking about it. For it makes no sense for you can't know everyone in Zootopia. For she's right for Zootopia a huge city. I'll figure out about Mrs. Flower later. I just know it will appear in my head. Stuff like that happens to everyone. I'm sure that it will happen to me.

Looking over at the latest victim and feel so bad for her. I don't know her but I wish I could take her pain away. Wishing that it never happened to her. But I can't do that for her. Seeing that she wearing a dark-colored shirt and dark blue pants. That puts a smile on my face. Mrs. Moore wearing a long blue jacket and jeans. Just reading her body language she has been wheelchair-bound for some time, not all her life. Wheelchair looks low on cost and I have seen families pay a lot for a wheelchair. Main thing her body looks tried I can tell by her eyes and her body language. A damaged mammal wouldn't be one of his victims. Moments later Mrs. Moore comes out and getting a closer look at her she seems to be around Finnick's age. Or at least that what she looks like. Mammals mistake my age all the time.

"Hello, officers Hopps and Wilde." Mrs. Moore said, "My name is Brittani More and you may call me Brittani."

Looking over at her and looks like theory is correct. A closer view you can tell she's sick and not something common. To me, it looks to be cancer or terminal illness. I have seen the look before. I can tell she loves Mickey Mouse. Katheryn loved all versions of Mickey Mouse. Brittani still has a strong voice.

"It's a pleasure to meet you, Brittani," Judy said

"I agree with Judy," I say

Brittani smiles and she has a sweet friendly smile. A type of smile you want to see and we wonder how she ended up in this position. For they told us Brittani was able to make her come forward. Does she know the victim? Or did she realize something was wrong and go her to open up? Looking back at her and I know it would be so painful to tell her story over and over again. I don't know how it feels to tell that story but I know how it feels like to tell a painful story.

I have been in this room for hours now and have been telling the same story. I don't see how telling it over and over again gets anywhere. The information never changes and I can never forget. How could I forget that? I have nightmares about it. Just watching Star die over and over again and I could do nothing. Even some nightmares I was the one that died. All the nightmares are horrible. They're going to be worse tonight after all of this. For reminders make it worse for me.

Those officer Spots doesn't care about that. For he's been grilling me for hours even those he shouldn't. This cheetah is like everyone else a bigot too foxes. Those he's also grilled an innocent raccoon who witnessed the shooting as well. I don't understand how jerks like him manage to hold a job as a police officer.

"So tell me what happened in the diner." Officer Spots asked

"I told you everything and more than once." I say "Katheryn Forester and I was eating at our booth. We were enjoying our meal and she burst in shooting. Killing innocent mammals including Katheryn Forester and she injured me."

It still hurts like heck and entertainment doesn't show how much it hurts to get shot. Never thought that I would imagine getting shot. I may be a con artist but I'm not stupid. Not going to get charged with a bogus crime because of bigot like him. I know he wants it to happen and he wants to blame me. Even those I'm a victim. Totally victim blaming and they don't care because I'm a fox.

"Are you sure about that?" Officer Spots asked

"Yes, I'm sure for I was there," I say

Keeping my voice calm even those I want to lash out on him. He deserves it but I know when to keep quiet. Knowing that driving him crazy and I don't care what it is. For that's his problem and not mine. Not letting him get to me either and staying by my motto I came up with.

"Foxes are known to be untrustworthy." officer Spots said

"Based on a biased untrue fact and just like its bias to say all cheetahs are fast and slim." I say "Or all cops love doughnuts."

That gets to him and I saw officer Clawhauser at his desk. He's not what you would think a cheetah would look like. For he has a big built and eats to much sugar. I saw the tasty doughnuts that he had. So he's at least the stereotype of a doughnut loving cop. I know I shouldn't have said that. But I'm sick of his judgment.

"Why you vermin." officer Spots said

Officer Spots get close to my face and it feels like we're in a cop show. In which the officer would get away with stuff like this. For that makes it fun to watch. Katheryn and I enjoyed watching them. There's a video camera but nothing going to happen to him. After all, he just got in my face and I'm a shifty fox. Moments later after he does the door opens up but I don't see the officer.

"Officer Spots get over here now."

There's a harsh tone and he does freeze. Is luck on my favor and is he going to get into trouble? He leaves me a few moments later. The door closes behind him and I don't know what's going on. For the room designed to not hear or see the outside. Only hearing if they want someone to hear. Right now they don't want me to hear.

"Finally some peace and quiet," I say

Never truly realized how you should value that. Understanding why Katheryn liked peace and quiet. Now just left to my own thoughts. A few minutes later officer Spots comes back and he doesn't look pleased. So he must have been told off about what he has been doing.

"You're free to go officer Wilde." Officer Spots said bitterly

"Well I thought that was never going to happen unless I was in pawcuffs," I say playfully

Knowing that he can't do a thing and that makes me happy. Serves him right for being a bigot in his position. Knowing that he's not going to change but at least he knows it. So I get up and leave the room. Looking to see no officer here and I wonder who had my back.

Officer Spots was fired and he lost everything shortly after that moment. For what he did was expose and finally something was done about it. I guess treating victims as criminals was the final push for many. Don't know what Mr. Spots is up to now. I don't know who had my back and I now can figure that out. Wouldn't take long to figure out as well.

"I want to thank your helping out my kits. I sent them on an errand and I realized too late I sent them the wrong amount. Terminal cancer does that to you." Brittani said

So I was right about my theory and it's sad to think about. I do remember Carrots helping young kits out. I wasn't there for I was watching who we were after and grabbing cookies. Reminds me of what Katheryn loved to and I made sure I didn't stop either. It feels good helping others. Knowing that her kits are twins and the girl has cerebral palsy. I could tell for I meet mammals like her. Katheryn had a good friend with cerebral palsy. Sadly he has passed on and now they're together again with Ienzo. Knowing that they're having a grand time and I'll join them someday.

"I'm sorry to hear that and I was happy to help." Judy said

"That's what I figured out." I say

I look over them and they're impressed. Those I still no why she's familiar to me. I just know she is and I'll figure that as well. Just going to take more thinking to figure it out. For it feels like its at the tip of my tongue. It's annoying when you clearly now something but doesn't come to you. Carrots has a smile on her face.

"I heard you were great officer Wilde and now I know you are. I'm impressed you knew that from just looking at me." Brittani said

"That makes him a great officer." Judy

"Same to you Judy."I say

"Thank you," Judy said, "It's best to take you home. How did you find out?"

"A mother instinct and I got to her." Brittani said

That makes sense and seems like a good mother would do. It's something that my mother would do for she's kind and motherly to do that. Knowing she wants to be a grandmother due to her playfully stating she wants grandkits. Of course she stopped when Katheryn died for she didn't want to hurt me. Only recently started up again knowing it was the right time.

"My mother would do that," I say "you did a great job."

"Same for my mother." Judy said, "I have to agree with Nick."

I know Mrs. Hopps would help out as well. Knowing now she would help out predators after she changed. Knowing it was because her parents Carrots had such views. But it was still her choice to have such views. For her parents didn't force Carrots to have such views. Like I have seen happen before. Carrots and I had to deal with that. It was a sad case that we had to deal with.

"Wonderful and it's always good to do the right thing." Brittani said

Yes it's always good to to do the right thing. Katheryn always set off to do the right think. Even if other mammals didn't like her doing it or thought she doing it for the wrong ways. Just due to her being a vixen. Katheryn always did it for she loved helping others. That was one of the many things that made her so great.

Hearing familiar footsteps and I know who they belong too Carrots does as well. Turning and see that Chief Bogo standing by us. By the look on his face he doesn't have good news for us. Knowing that or he wouldn't have reached out to us.

"What is it Chief Bogo?" Judy asked

"I have to have a word with officer Wilde." Chief Bogo said

Thinking about it that doesn't surprise me and I look at the letter once again. In which Judy paws over to Chief Bogo. He has his reading glasses on. By his reaction I know it has to deal with Margaret. What else she has done? Does it have to deal with Katheryn?

"I can wait my kits are still in school and my husband running errands. I just had to get some fresh which lead to this. I told him about what happened." Brittani said

"Alright and I hope it goes well Nick." Judy said

"Thank you Judy." I say

Watching Judy and Brittani head off and knowing they will be waiting at our office. While I dread finding out what Chief Bogo has to tell me. For I know its going to be bad and that it has to dealt with Margaret and Katheryn. For today letter was about Katheryn and I that we love each other. Knowing that Chief Bogo knew that. So what did find to figure that out? We wait in silence as we head over to his office. Which only takes a few minutes to do so and he closes the door behind him.

"Alright I'll cut to the chase she wrote you a letter." Chief Bogo said "She wrote crazy things but it makes sense why she did."

"Of course she would and I was surprised." I say

Heading over to his desk and sit on the chair as we always do. I see the letter setting in the front of his desk. I do see its addressed to me but isn't like Carrots letters. Knowing that she doesn't like me due to me being a fox. Knowing that she doesn't like predators very much she clearly stated that. Chief Bogo sits at his desk. Dreading what she has wrote to me. Knowing that's its going to be bad news. But I have to know about it. So I take her letter and see that its a long one and she used both sides the paper. It's different from the other papers she has used for Carrots and looks to be fancy paper to me. Written with a fine pen as well.

Vermin

I know you're surprised getting this letter and well I wasn't surprised by writing this letter. I knew it was coming. This should be a one time deal unless love comes up again. I won't do anything to you or Judy will have my head. So you're safe Nick. I don't want to lose my head. For that would no good for me. How I got this letter to Idris Bogo well that doesn't matter. I know you have a great imagination so use it. I know that you will have fun with that. Did you love my surprise that I left for you? Well of course not if you did well you would be crazy like me. In which you're not and that's good news for you. I knew you would figure it out for, after all, it was all about you. Judy wouldn't of course, I'm not saying she's stupid for she's not. How do you see something if you don't know about it? I know you haven't told Judy or she would have gotten two letters. I have been watching you when you're on shift. That's something that hasn't come up. I know you haven't told her. Aurora one great hider. But she will be found and will be returned. You can count on that.

Anyway, I know that you're wondering why I would write you a letter when I clearly showed I don't like you. Well, it's simple I know how you feel. First thing first with borderline personality disorder my relationships tend to be unstable due to how I am. Those I do like the feeling of it so I went after it. Even if it ended badly for me. For I wasn't always a killer just a helpless victim. You can check that out in the case files that ZPD keeps. Has that turned me into a heartless murder? No, it's who I am that does. More on that later I want you both to know. So both of you look forward to that. It's going to be lost of fun. Or at least that's how I felt and I know you won't. But that's what I want for that's more fun.

So anyway onto my story and its a good one for sure. A story for the ageless those your story beats mine by a long shot. Or does it beat mine? A picture is worth a thousand words. I saw her name on the memorial. My friend was killed and no that wasn't the reason why I turned into a murder. You just have to wait and see. From there I found all about a life you used and could have had. Just like I could have a life with Shawn Lodge. He was an Arctic hare and the same age as me. He was what you call a good gentlemammal and wasn't a fake. He worked on orchid filed and made great pies. I have always been a fan of pies and blue…rasp...just kidding I know your love for blueberries. Anyway, mine is good old apple pie for you can't go wrong with that. So we meet when I was getting apples and I'm a terrible baker but really wanted apples. I love my good old apples and enjoy them most when they're cut. Never thought that guacamole and apples would taste so good together. Hahaha just kidding that beyond gross those I do love pineapple on a pizza. Anyway, I was was clumsy idiot tripped and he was there to save the day. Of course there wasn't much to save just a hard fall. It was love a first sight for us like it was Hallbark or Disney movie. So sappy but I love it and yes, I do love both. Surprising how a cold heart serial killer can love something like that?

So we meet up that night for a simple dinner and we hit it right off. It was like we were destined to meet. That we were soulmates and I know you know how that feels. Each date we had was wonderful and he tried to teach me to bake but never helped. I can't make a pie but I can kill mammals. Strange on how that works. I told him about who I truly was and was so afraid that he would hate me. In which he didn't and he accepted me. Saying that he was bipolar so he knew how I felt. For the first time, I could connect with someone and that felt great. Soon after that, he proposed to me and I said yes. He was so sweet and I don't know about yours I guess that will be a mystery. I couldn't wait to marry him and to have a life with him. For the first time, I wanted kits. For both of us feared we would pass on what we have to our kits. Back then it felt like a curse now I feel free as a bird.

Most didn't wanted us to marry due to who we are. Only a few did but were threaten to be quiet. Like we had no right to marry and I'm sure you two were treated the same way. Never knew the history between Arctic foxes and red foxes very interesting history. Also, they believed due to having Autism she can't marry. I'm sure that her parents believed that. How would I know that for sure well my parents are like that? More on that later. Also, I have met them. But you would have gone through with it. I knew you were planning it for the longest time but it never came true for you. So we decided we would elope and for we don't need a wedding. Instead, we had a grand dinner and dessert. Help with his boss and friend Demetrius Underwood. He's a Yunnan Hare and he was our witness.

We were happily married for three years and you never had the chance to marry. That makes your love life more tragic. He died because of a hit and run and was left to die due to having a mental illness. Like he was treated like he has no right to live. I wasn't hit but was very upset and begging others to help him. Only one called to late but lied that he called right away. That hurt a lot and never thought it would happen truly hurt by blood. Did that play a part why I turned to a killer, yes it has? Unlike me, Shawn wouldn't have hurt anyone. I lost the love of my life due to the hate and fear of others. My story is like yours and just like how you lost Katheryn.

Margaret

I can't believe what I just read it's a lot to take in. Never knew that about her and truly full of wonders. This the first time she has highlight something. Yes, I have heard and know Demetrius Underwood for Katheryn loved his apples. Realizing something fell and I pick it up. Well it makes sense why she brought up a picture worth a thousand words. Picking it up and see a written message. Seeing that it was six years ago.

A lovely evening with a sweet couple who defines all odds like us.

"No, it can't be," I say

Chief Bogo has a confused look on his face and I do state I do know everyone but that just a playful prank. It has gotten me out of tricky spots and I fail to realize in this case I did. Turning over the photo and see Margaret and Shawn with Katheryn and I. In which we're enjoying apples with caramel and chocolate. Margaret well a happy hare and doesn't have a crazy look in her eyes. I haven't thought about that night in years and Margaret used Shawn's last name. Of course, she was married back then. I wouldn't have connected them both Margaret Lodge is so different from Margaret now.

"What is it officer Wilde?" Chief Bogo asked

His tone of voice is not mad more like interested. I remember that night and did chat with each other. Telling us about our story and we told us about ours. We did have a fun night and that was the only time we saw them. I paw the letter and photograph.

"I met Margaret seven years ago with Katheryn Forester and she was my girlfriend at the time. Later fiancee but we never got the chance to marry." I say "She was a whole different mammal and wouldn't have connected her if she didn't send the letter or photograph."

Chief Bogo has his reading glasses on and reads the letter. I feel bad for Judy being kept out this for the moment. I will tell her and Carrots will understand. If she was in my paws she would be the same way. Chief Bogo reads and has the same feeling I do.

"I wouldn't blame you, officer Wilde," Chief Bogo said, "I always know about what Katheryn and your story Nick."

"How…..you were on active duty that day. You and Meria were the couple that watched us. I already knew she was the photographer you saw."

I was so focused on keeping that my dark secret until I told Judy. I failed to reason others would know about the truth. Now that I think about it the buffalo couple Katheryn and I saw was him and Meria. Back when they were a happy and loving couple. Katheryn told me all about Chief Bogo and Meria and their family. Not thinking about that isn't the most stupid thing I have done. That's giving Mr. Big a skunk butt rug. I can't think why I did in the first place other than being stupid. Second to that not paying taxes. Those that changed my life forever so it wasn't a total loss.

"You're right officer Wilde," Chief Bogo said, "You shall in inform Judy about Margaret's past life but you may leave Katheryn out of it."

"Understood sir," I say

"We're Mrs. and Mr. Forster abusive?"

"Yes, but we couldn't prove that," I say "it was her word against theirs."

Katheryn's parents never hit her but they still were mentally and emotionally abusive. They were great about it too. They hid it and played their cards well. Katheryn did report them once but it didn't end well for her. For parents played she had Autism and that worked out for them. Katheryn never did it again. My parents and family members that loved and cared about Katheryn tried but could never do it. I know my mother grew to dislike her parents at the end. Before he left dad spoke to them and it was heated for sure. I'm just glad they didn't stop our friendship. Those that would have gotten them into serious trouble.

"Yes, I have dealt that a lot." Chief Bogo said, "One of the only things that Meria and I agree that infers with our work."

"Words are hard to prove to be true." I say "Judy going to be surprised by this new information. I remember that hit and run."

It was about two years ago when it happened. My life was conning and avoiding dangerous mammals just living a life I knew I had to have. Finnick and I saw it on the news and I hated the outcome. I was mad about it which surprised Finnick. I didn't tell him about how I met them but that injustice reminded me of Katheryn. In which it hurt and left before Finnick could see me lost it. Katheryn would have hated that outcome. One of the moments she would have been angry and she was rarely like that. For she was happy like a sunflower.

"Didn't happen in my precinct but did hear about it." Chief Bogo said, "The mammal who stopped helping was arrested and charged."

"I was glad to hear that," I say "he had no right to stop saving his life because he had a mental illness."

"You're right officer Wilde that's why he was charged." Chief Bogo said, "Everyone has the right to live."

"Right and sometimes we wish that some didn't," I say

Everyone has a right to live and be protected and Chief Bogo understands what I'm getting at. There's some we wish that shouldn't like rapist and kit abusers. Or those do commit horrible crimes should be put to death but aren't less they're put on death row but that's a rare one. She's the only one for a while and been for years. They just rot away in prison.

"Right officer Wilde," Chief Bogo said

"So she was betrayed by Everett," I say "That's why doesn't feel regret or guilt. For he doesn't deserve that."

"That may be the case I'll have them it check out and they'll tell you." Chief Bogo said

We still can't take the case or will never take the case. For we're to connect to it and that could cloud our judgment. Knowing our friends will tell us about Margaret for they already do. They're going to be surprised by this new information. Only a few mammals are born evil and Margaret wasn't. For the most part, evil is created and I don't blame her. Judy going be disappointed about hearing about Everett for had a crush on him and looked up to him. For the most part, mammals disappoint you.

"Right, and we will wait," I say

"So how are you doing officer Wilde?" Chief Bogo said, "It hurt what Mrs. Gardner did Meria and I. Reminding me of our pasted."

"I'm fine," I say

I'm surprised that he would tell me that. For he's a private mammal and tends to keep stuff to himself. Was that Margaret's goal? For she knew what she was doing and did it well. I'm sure she would be capable of doing that. I know she wants me to react and she got to me. Margaret knows how to play her tricks up her sleeve very well. I'm doing fine and it does hurt.

Author Note, finally back with this story. Took longer than expect. But here it is and I hope you enjoyed. I did you catch what Margaret left for Nick? now you know more about her. Nick and Katheryn relationship isn't perfect for none is. I did take ballet classes but they costed to much for my mom. Her parents aren't base on mine just parents who shouldn't been special ed parents. So until next time readers.

"Cassandra had a rough time with you," Chief Bogo said, "I won't say a word it's yours to tell officer Wilde."

"She didn't deserve that but she understood." I say "Thank you, and I will tell her."

I wasn't always fair to Cassandra but I'm not the only one do that. I feel bad for doing it too but its in the blame. Back then I found it hard talking to others about personality things. I didn't have that for the longest time. I found it hard to trust and Cassandra understood that. She was patient with me until I started to talk to her. It felt great getting stuff off my chest. I am doing fine it hurts but I'll be alright.

"Meria and I tried marriage therapy. We wanted to save our marriage but the effort was in vain. We gad many fights. I'm surprised we didn't drive the therapist insane or made her quit." Chief Bogo said

It's nice to know that they tried saving their marriage. They went from a loving couple to hating each other in a short amount of time. Sometimes that how life works out. You can like or love someone but grow to dislike and them. The same goes for disliking and hating someone to who you grow to like and love. That's what happened between Carrots and me. We never hated each other but there was a strong dislike. Only after our fight, I hated Judy for some time. Katheryn and I had fought too but there was only one that was really bad.

"My mom could never hate my dad but a did at a point. Hated Judy at one point as well." I say "Katheryn hated me for a bit."

"Not surprised by your father or officer Hopps." Chief said, "Those I am surprised by Katheryn. You reminded us of when we were younger. Only if you want what happened?"

I have to tell someone about it and I don't want to tell Kiddo first. I would feel so bad doing so and I know she looks up to me. Of course, she knows no one perfect but with her, I feel like I was going to disappoint her. I just don't want to hurt Kiddo. Someday I will tell Kiddo and Carrots. I take a deep breath.

"I was a monster at that moment," I say

"Nick….I'm sure it wasn't that bad." Chief Bogo said

"No, it was for I said the dreaded five words and meant it." I say "Why can't you be normal?"

Chief Bogo wasn't sure of himself and I know he knew was going to happen. Chief Bogo was trying to make me feel so bad. By his reaction his guess was right. Those it has been decades since I last said those words. It still makes sick to my stomach.

I never realized that middle school was going to be rough. Missing the days of good old grade school. But I can handle it and so can Katheryn. For we can handle anything that life throws at us. It's almost Christmas break and it will be nice to have a long break. Right now hanging out with Katheryn and mother is with us. Hanging out in a library and having lots of fun. There are so many books to choose from. I choose my favorite authors and so did Katheryn.

"This book going to be an interesting read," I say

"Just don't stay up all night." Rachelle said, "I know your secrets."

"I will mother," I say

Knowing she's giving her mother scare and I have stayed up late reading books. Or doing art as well and I tried to hide that I did Those I know I can't hide anything from my mother. For she has eyes everywhere and including the back of the head.

"My parents take my books before I head to bed so I can't do that," Katheryn said

Katheryn has a lot of books and she checks them out. Knowing that she would read all night if she could. Next, I check out my books out and that only takes a few minutes. Mother has a few books as well. She enjoys books that we find boring which is romantic books. Knowing that dad loved them as well. They used to giggle and more when reading romantic books alone. They knew when adult time was the best time. They didn't want to lose my innocence when I was young. Those now I know all about it and so does Katheryn.

"Once we get back we can have hot chocolate and cookies," Rachelle said

"Hurrah." Katheryn and I say

So we quickly head out and once we're outside we run to the car. Katheryn manages to beat me by a few moments. We laugh and head inside the car. While mother tags behind and we can hear her laugh. For she knows how to get us well. It only takes her a few minutes to get inside the car and a few more minutes to stay riding back home.

Mother talking to the landlord about something. Nothing that's bad he's just asking a question. So Katheryn and I are hanging out on the sidewalk. Still, a bit too short to reach the keypad and Katheryn can't know the password. So hanging out for few minutes outside and it's so cold. I read and Katheryn building stuff in the snow. In her own world for she's making happy sounds. Just acting weird and I shake my head.

"Why can't you be you be normal?" I ask

"Why did you…." Katheryn asked

"Nicholas Piberius Wilde!" Rachelle said

Katheryn has a hurt look on her face and I realized what I just did. What I truly meant and why did I mean it? Katheryn doesn't look me a few moments later there are tears in her eyes. My mother has never been so mad at me.

"Katheryn I'm sorry I didn't...I meant shouldn't have said it." I say "Katheryn I'm so sorry."

Katheryn doesn't look at me and I know she's so upset. Looking over at my mother and she's so mad. Katheryn runs over to her and my mother holds her close. Why did I saw that and why did I mean it? I can't figure out the answer. Having this horrible feeling now and I'm a monster.

It happened in a few moments and the impact lasted so long. I was grounded for so long and mother rarely yelled at me. Katheryn was really hurt and I felt so bad. I always accepted Katheryn but that moment I didn't. Katheryn didn't speak to me for weeks and she had the right to feel that. She forgave me when I told her a meaningful apology. Just like what happened with Judy and I. Chief Bogo feels bad and he knows what feels like.

"Even those I didn't know where it came from I meant it." I say "I almost lost my best friend because of that."

"That's rough Nick and we all make mistakes like that." Chief Bogo said, "I couldn't save my relationship with Meria. I'm glad that you did for Judy and Katheryn. I'm sorry for your loss Nick. I will see you later officer Wilde."

"Thank you, Sir, and I wish the same for your sake." I say "I can't promise next time it would because I got into trouble."

Having a smirk on my face and Chief Bogo lets out a small laugh. I have done that in the past but nothing that was too serious. Just something that would be put me in parking duty to teach me a lesson. That happens to us all to keep us in line. Judy's record hasn't been beaten. Even gave herself one even those she was on duty so she didn't have too. I wouldn't do something that would risk my career. Or sure hope I that doesn't happen to me.

"I know you too well officer Wilde." Chief Bogo said, "Make sure Mrs. Moore gets home well or her husband will be at us. Just don't let her stories distract you too much from your duty."

"Ballerina," I say

"Yes, she was a famous ballerina," Chief Bogo said, "I would be surprised that you know but I remember you, two dancing, like to ballerinas. You're light on your feet last time I saw you dance."

That's why she was so familiar to me. It only came to me when Chief Bogo brought up stores for Mrs. Moore did tell stories. Katheryn did have a ballet phase and she love ballet. In which she took ballet and so did I for I didn't want her to be alone. Ballet was lots of fun and I was the only gentlemammal but that never bothered me. I was called gay for being a dancer but didn't let that affect me. We did meet Brittani Moore and she was always Katheryn's favorite ballerina. She always loved and did ballet even after her parents made her quit. Saying nonsense about money they just wanted to hurt her and pretended it was just a phase. Photography they let her keep for they didn't want her scream bloody murder again. She also had figure skater phase but found ice skating too hard. So she chooses just to be a fan of it. So she could have been a ballerina if her parents didn't crush her dreams. I could have been her partner and we would have made a great team. Yes, we did a ballet routine and I was light on my feet.

"Because of Katheryn, I was," I say

Chief Bogo has a face on his face. I remember that moment and it was a wonderful fearing. I think we would have done well on a dance show. Getting up from the chair and not wanting to keep them waiting any longer. For we have to get Mrs. Moore home and we still on duty. Knowing that Chief Bogo has other business to attend to. Judy going to surprise more than once and not all going to be a good kind of surprise. I think about what happened and how I feel. It felt nice to tell how Chief Bogo how I felt. Later I'll tell my mother too and don't want to lay this on Kiddo for she's just a kit. I head out over to our office and see that's where they're waiting. It's only been around ten minutes. Looks like they're enjoying each other company.

"Nick, how did it go?" Judy asked, "What did you find out."

"It went as good as it could," I say "just a few more minutes if you don't mind Brittani."

"I don't mind," Brittani said

I think she would remember me and now I remember her. Knowing she wouldn't bring up Katheryn for she respects other mammals. Meeting her way back as a kit was so cool. For she had great stories to tell and she was a great dancer. So I head over to Carrots and get down to her level. Not going to tell her about Katheryn yet but she will find out soon. So I whisper her about Margaret she can hear the quietest whisper with her hearing. Like I knew she would be surprised and hurt by the news.