Hermione the dark lord's daughter.

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Chapter 43: memory returns. Hermione/Cali's P.O.V

"I trust you Professor…" I hear myself saying. "Please help me…" I add. I trust the professors but I can't help but feel scared. The headmaster was so different around me. I thought he cared about me but he obviously doesn't. I wonder what I've done to annoy him. My head hurts so much and it pounds every time I try and think about what happened to me. I hate the fact I can't remember, especially now professor McGonagall has told me that it isn't actually the start of my third year like I thought. I feel so vulnerable right now. How do I know who to trust? I wish my friends were here, at least the professors are, I know they would have my best interests at heart, professor McGonagall always has before and no matter what my friends say, I believe so has professor Snape.

"So what I'm going to ask you to do is to try and keep calm while making eye contact with me." Professor Snape says. I nod and take a few deep breaths to prepare. I'm still not entirely sure what's going to happen but I want to be calm like the professor asked me to be.
"I'm ready" I tell him. All of a sudden I feel pressure in my head. I feel myself whimper slightly, it hurts.
"Keep calm." Professor Snape's voice jumps into my mind, as all my childhood memories flash through my brain as if he's looking for something specific. I carry on breathing, it doesn't hurt so much now. Minutes later I feel his magic pull away gently from my mind. He's pulled a memory to the forefront of my mind, I watch in confusion. I can see my bedroom, and there is myself stood there with the professor but I don't remember any of it.
"It seems you're the daughter of Bellatrix LeStrange and the dark lord." The professor in my memory tells me and the memory version of myself screams. Suddenly flashes of other memories hit me so fast that I can't quite keep up. I see flashes of blonde Malfoy hair. Dinners round exquisite tables. Christmases full of laughs and smiles. Emotions hit me in waves but I can't associate them with images. Happiness, love, acceptance. Sisterhood. The pain is intense.
"What's happening?" I sob to the professors. Everything is blurry equally within my brain and within reality. The images in my head are mixing with reality and I can't tell the difference right now.
"Do you remember the memory that you just saw?" professor Snape asks. I shake my head indicating a negative answer. I feel sick. My head is spinning. "Has it sparked anything in your mind?" he asks and this time I nod. "Explain for me?"
"Flashes of images and words and emotions" I whisper an answer trying to make sense of the overload in my mind. Professor Snape looks into my eyes again and for a second time I feel the warmth of his magic enter my mind. It taps into my feelings and the flashes of stuff going through my brain, slowly it's as if our magic is sorting the memories, making a timeline and it feels comfortable and strangely familiar. Things slowly start falling into place as our magic intertwines. Our love. My family. Drake and Lore. The ministry. The battle. The fight. Everything rushes back into my mind like an ocean coming into tide, and once it starts, it won't stop. The full years of my memory pistoling themselves back into my mind, and I feel my heart skip beats, I breathe and sigh softly in relief but in anxiety at the same time.
"I was attacked in the ministry. I remember… oh merlin." I sob out wrapping my arms around my prince's hands tears falling rapidly.
"Cal…" Sev asks nervously. I nod in return, I feel like my mind has been violated. My neck feels bare without my necklaces. My gaze rapidly drops to my hand. Thankfully my ring is still nestled on my finger.

"I'll leave you to alone the lass obviously needs comforting." Minerva says softly.
"Thank you professor." I whisper, smiling kindly at her.
"Cal…" my prince says again.
"I'm here." I reply silently as my love holds me close. "I'm sorry." I whisper to him. "So so sorry."
"Who?" He asks, words so obviously hurting him. I pray my memory loss didn't hurt him too much. I can't imagine how it would of made him feel, for me not to remember him, remember our love. I close my eyes and think deeply. That one thing is still a blank. I remember the fight, spells flying, but I can't for the life of me remember who it is that accused me of being a traitor.
"I don't know." I respond silently, tears taking over me again. "My head hurts still and my memory of the attack itself is still kinda fuzzy." I tell him pulling him closer to me.

There is a knock on the door which Sev opens with a flick of his wrist. Uncle Lucius strides in, looking stressed.
"Sev… Cait… Herm…" he sighs shaking his head, obviously unsure as to how to refer to me and oblivious to the fact my memory has returned. If he had paid any attention as he entered the room, he would have worked it out, with the fact I'm in Severus' lap.
"Uncle." I say smiling up to her, bringing his attention to me and my position within the room.
"Cali!" he responds, his own smile doubling. I nod and he sits opposite me and Severus. "How did you get your memory back?" he asks.
"Severus healed my mind the best he could. He managed to unlock my memories and I've got most of them back to me. I don't remember who attacked me but other than that I'm the same old me." I tell him yawning softly, trying to be discrete. Every part of me aches. My head especially. The thought that someone has been in my mind without my permission scares me. "I need sleep" I whisper to the two men occupying my room as I slowly attempt to crawl off of Sev's lap and back into the hospital bed.
"You rest Cali. I'll return home and inform your father of the latest news." Uncle Lucius says, as he leans forward and drops a kiss to my forehead before leaving. I curl up on the bed and Sev drags his chair closer to my bed.

I take his hand in my own as I try to relax.
"I was so worried princess." He whispers to me. I nod in return.
"I know" I whisper in return. "I'm scared." I whimper softly. Now we're alone. Sev doesn't respond straight away but I can see in his eyes that he feels the same.
"Do you want to take about it? See if we can piece together your memory? Work out who, or at least which side did this to you?" he asks. I shake my head. I'm so tired. I don't have the energy for it right now.
"Tomorrow. I'm so tired. It's been a long day." Severus nods.
"You rest love. I won't be leaving your side. Nothing will move me, I promise." He says and I smile softly to him as I feel sleep take over me.

My sleep is plagued with nightmares and tremors. I hear a scream of pain and suddenly realise that it is mine. I feel Severus hold me and I can feel his arms surround me while the tremors take hold of me. It's a pain like nothing else. My muscles cramp and I scream out again. He massages the muscles that spasm.
"I'm sorry." He whispers "I let you down. I broke my promise." As that bout of tremors finish I breathe deeply.
"Not your fault." I tell him knowing what he is referring to. "However I need to talk to you. I've been thinking." I say.
"About what my love?"
"About my family, this war and my injury. I need your advice my love." I add when I notice him frown at the words war and injury.
"Poppy assured me, she would discharge you to my care tomorrow, once the tremors have calmed. Do you wish to discuss this now or then my love?" he asks.
"Tomorrow will be fine my prince. It'll give me chance to get these thoughts in order before the conversation." I tell him as I lay back down, it was only an hour since I tried to sleep. I need to get some more rest, especially if I'm having this conversation with Sev tomorrow. I know it's going to cause waves with my family, but I just don't care anymore. Something needs to change. Something has to be done and I'm going to be the one to do it. It's time to brace myself because I fear the consequences of what I have to say is going to change everything, for everyone.

Next time: Cali and Severus talk and negotiate.

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