Authors Note: Well let's keep it going! Now we have a little bit of Lori's perspective on the last two months.

Lori Grimes groaned as her phone rang into her otherwise quiet room. Her morning sickness was wreaking havoc on her sleep schedule and she had been trying to get rest since Shane left for work that morning.

She wondered how she got herself into this situation. Living with her soon to be ex husbands best friend- and pregnant with his best friends baby? Yeah, she'd hit rock bottom. She ran her hand over her still flat belly and cringed at the memory of Rick finding out about her infidelity. It was a few weeks after the shooting when Rick came home early from a visit with Carl to find Lori and Shane in bed together.

The strange thing was Rick's lack of reaction. When Lori asked why Rick seemed so calm he simply responded with, "We fell out of love a long time ago. Only a matter of time before you put the final knife in my back." In reality Rick seemed more upset about the lost friendship than the lost marriage.

Lori wasn't sure why she fell into the arms of Rick's childhood friend. He was crass, and known to have had many women in their small town and above all that he was family. But after the shooting Lori found herself desperately seeking attention and love. She felt selfish wanting this seeing as her only child was fighting for his life in a coma but Lori couldn't help herself. She wanted someone to pay attention to her- worry about her.

And that's just what Shane offered one night. And then another after that, and another.

And now here she was pregnant with Shane's baby, son still in a coma, and a pending divorce from a man who never did any wrong to her.

She groaned as another call rang through her phone. This time she sat up, much to the protest of her rolling stomach, and answered the call.

"Yes?" She mumbled miserably into the phone as she rubbing the sleep from her eyes.

"Jesus Lori can't you answer your phone?" It was Aaron, Rick's younger brother. Lori fought the urge to roll her eyes as she sat up straighter in the bed.

"I was asleep. Now what is it Aaron?" Lori snapped already wanting to be back asleep.

"If you would have answered literally anyone's call you would know-."

"Aaron I don't have the patience for you today."

"I was saying," Aaron cut off Lori and she let out a breath, "you need to come to the hospital."

"Is everything okay?" Lori asked knowing her time in bed was now over.

"Carl is awake Lori." Aaron answered and Lori's heart skipped a beat.

"I- oh my God. I'm on my way." The phone slipped from her hands and she pushed herself out of bed. Her brain couldn't seem to remember what she needed to do. All she knew was that she needed to get to Carl.

Wasting no time she pulled on one of Shane's Sheriff department hoodies and dashed for the door.

She wasn't too far down the road when her motion sickness got to her again. She quickly pulled over and had barely unbuckled herself from the front seat when she began to vomit on the side of the road. She never had morning sickness this bad with Carl and she had no idea how to cope with this newest symptom of her second pregnancy.

After making sure her stomach was settled she made her way to the car. She grew anxious when thinking about seeing Carl for the first time in over 2 months. She was nervous about seeing Rick. He made sure he was gone or out of the room when Lori came to visit Carl and if he ever had anything to say to her regarding their impending divorce he always made sure to say it through or in the presence of his divorce lawyer. Lori can't understand how she let herself take a man like Rick for granted.

Sure, he worked a couple more hours than she would have liked, and maybe he left the toilet seat upbut he had never done anything to warrant the behavior she had displayed these last few years of her marriage. She greeted his kindness and patience towards her with annoyance and anger. She couldn't figure out why but after ten years of marriage she was simply.. Bored. As bad as it sounded she enjoyed the petty fights they would have when he would pick up an extra shift, or when he would leave a beer on the coffee table without a coaster.

She wanted something more than her mundane housewife life… and that's exactly what her affair with Shane gave her. Her and Shane shared a secret that would devastate her family and there was something so exhilarating about it that Lori couldn't describe. He was the bad boy to Rick's southern gentleman. He wasn't gentle with Lori like Rick was- Shane kicked off the training wheels with Lori and gave her exactly what she wanted.

Scandal.

Scandal in her routine. She would sneak away into the bathroom, even when nobody was home, to text him things that would normally make her blush. They would meet up at bars outside of town and pretend they were strangers before going to a cheap motel to further their betrayal against Rick. Shane was everything that Rick wasn't- and at the time Lori thought that was everything that she needed.

But now as she sat on the side of the road dry heaving she began to regret every moment that had lead her here. She regretted every messaging Shane instead of finally answering Rick when he begged for her to talk to him. She regretted inviting Shane over the first night when Rick was pulling another late night and Carl was in a hospital bed fighting for his life. She never should have kissed him, touched him, or said that she wanted him- that she had always wanted him. She just wanted to feel something other than the crippling grief she felt over the shooting. She wanted to feel anything other than the sadness she felt every time she ran her fingers through Carl's fingers counting the minutes until he woke up. She wanted to feel anything other than the anxiety she felt when her and rick got Carl's first medical bill.

Turns out the Sheriff's departments medical insurance policy wasn't all that great- especially when it came to the costly care of a comatose shooting victim. Lori hadn't talked to her parents since she and Rick got married so she expected no help from them, and while Rick's mom did all she could to help every fund was running short.

The school made donations which also helped with the stress of where the money would come from for the next bill but the fear that it would all run out always came back to haunt Lori and Rick.

Lori pulled down the sun visor and took in appearance. She hardly looked like the pale faced ingenue that Rick had somehow chosen to love and marry all those years ago. She looked significantly older and felt it too. Deciding she didn't want her son to see her like this she ran a shaky hand through her hair and pulled it into a bun on top of her head. She slapped at her cheeks a few times and applied some chapstick in hopes of bringing some color back into her face.

She sighed and admitted to herself that she looked absolutely the same.

"Alright baby. Here I come."

I mean I don't really like Lori but I wanted to be fair in writing her own personal grief and maybe explain why she cheated.