Are you all still keeping track where we are? Think things might be going to get ugly soon but first... we need to get back on track :)
**quick heads up warning...this chapter does get slightly NSFW about halfway through** (in case you need to exit)
00:30 hours
Both Clay and Kelsey snuggled together in bed now. Their bodies pressed tight against each other with her back to Clay's chest. Aside from the pair of small black panties she's wearing, they're both naked.
Clay's has his arm draped over her waist, his hand stroking softly the skin on her stomach. Every now and again his fingers are tempted higher up her body to the firm fullness of her breast, smoothing his finger lightly against it.
There's so much more weight to her breasts now and he can certainly feel the change. He thinks how much he's always loved touching her there, how she liked it too how it turned her on but now, even though he's told how great she looks, how good she makes him feel, she seems uncomfortable, embarrassed even, about him touching her.
He's sighs, thinking how much less confident she is with her body now since she gave birth to Casey. He doesn't understand why because all he can think is how great she looks. He smiles. Still continuing to quietly, caress her skin.
She's been asleep for quite a while now. Clay, on the other hand, hasn't been unable to switch off, thinking about the past few days. Mainly about the mission but it is interspersed with thoughts of Alex, and his words, their conversation are playing out in his mind, messing with his thoughts.
He lays silent, listening to the in and out of her breathing. His eyes focused in the dim bedroom light at his son who he can see though the rails on the side of the crib. Sighing, quietly frustrated that he's unable to stop thinking about Alex and about how much he wants him gone from their lives, planning in his head how to get rid of him.
Eventually though even the noise in Clay's mind has to give in to the tired of his body and despite resisting for a while longer he finally succumbs. Closing his eyes, he falls asleep.
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0330 hours
Ahhh! Kelsey groans as she checks the time on her phone Shit! She groans louder this time as she sees how early it is. Sitting up in the bed she brushes her hair back from her face. "Yeah yeah... shhh! Casey c'mon, just give me a minute"
She looks into the crib where Casey's lays there crying then she looks beside her at Clay in the bed, still sound asleep . She smiles, but at the same time she's kind of jealous. Jealous that he's sleeping so well while she's now wide awake. Urgghh!
Mmmm! Clay turns over, his hand reaching out to her side of the bed "Hey.." He frowns opening his eyes looking at her "Where are you going?"
"Sorry... I didn't mean to wake you. Go back to sleep. I'm going through there to feed him. We'll try not to disturb you"
"Hey...no, come here. I don't mind being disturbed. Kelsey, get back in bed!"
"Clay you look tired; you need to sleep. It's fine, I don't mind"
"No! No, I want to be with you. Now, come back"
She smiles as she sits herself down on the bed. Relieved to be back in the war, soft comfort of the quilt. Clay sits up, he pulls his pillow up behind him and then sitting so his legs are either side of her, he pulls her body against his chest. The bare skin of her back is pressed tight against his flesh.
She puts the pillow, the one Ash got, under Casey's body and latches him on to her breast to feed. Clay smiles, wrapping his arms around them both. Leaning his chin over her shoulder, he enjoys watching as she holds the baby in her arms and feeds him.
Mmmm! "You know this is so nice to wake up to, even ..." he yawns "..at this time. Certainly, much better than waking up with Sonny's feet in your face!"
"What?" She laughs "Sonny's feet? Okay that sounds an interesting op " she smiles stroking her hand against his arm "Trust me though...this may seem nice now but a few nights of it and the novelty soon wears off. Sonny's feet will start to appeal to you by then" Phew! She sighs rubbing hand across her forehead before settling herself back against the firm strength of his body. She closes her eyes and, just for a while, she enjoys the quiet comfort she has "You're right though, this is nice!"
"Yeah...yeah this is perfect!" he leans against the pillows behind him, smoothing his hand on the top of her thigh, his other hand gently stroking the top of Casey's head as he feeds. Dropping gentle kisses gently against her neck he whispers in her ear "Kelsey...I love you!"
She smiles, twisting her head around to look at him "I love you too!"
Then sitting in the dim lit peace and quiet, she leans her head back on his shoulder, closing her eyes while he continues gently massaging her skin.
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06:34 hours
Ahhh shit! She groans Seriously?... Already! she sighs with a heavy heart "Okay... okay...yeah, Mummy's awake!" she calls quietly to the baby as she lifts her weary aching head from the pillow. Casey's really wailing now, and she sighs "Oh god! Yeah, yeah I hear you!. Give me a chance I'm coming!" she's awake but struggling to open her eyes.
Clay sits up with a start Shit! "What the hell what time is it?" he rubs at his head, his messy curls even more messy
"Just gone six thirty" she sighs "It's okay I've got this. I'll sort him out"
"Wow! Jeez... that came around quick" He checks the time "Is that the time? Christ, it's only a couple of hours since he already fed"
"I told you " she smiles "He's like clockwork, every three hours! If we're really lucky sometimes he might get to four! " She picks him up and sitting on the edge of the bed she holds him, rocking him side to side in her arms "Clay, can you just hold him. I really need to pee and get a drink first"
"Yeah sure!" he frowns as she hands the crying Casey to him. "Hey...hey it's okay. Shhh! Casey c'mon, ssshh Daddy's here" He smiles at him, holding him cuddled against the bare flesh on his chest. For a moment, sucking on his small fist, he settles down.
"Oh wow!" She smiles watching him from the bathroom doorway "Guess you must have the magic touch!"
Inside the bathroom, she rakes her hand through her hair and then uses the toilet, before washing her hands and face. Looking up at her reflection the mirror she sighs as she stares at the tired, naked version of herself she can now see. "Oh god, how tired do I look!"
She sighs again as she comes back through to the bedroom. Picking up her robe from the floor she slips it on covering her body up "I'm just gonna get a glass of water, are you okay with him?"
"Yeah, he's fine" Clay hushes his voice, still holding Casey. He's sat up in the bed, his eyes closed resting them and he smiles, enjoying the feeling of Casey moving, wriggling and fidgeting against his chest.
As she comes back with a glass of water Clay's fully awake and rocking Casey back and forward in his arms. He's ready to feed and crying again.
"Um...look I .. " she holds up warm bottle "I wondered if you might want to feed him? I mean I can do it but I just thought ..". she shrugs "that you might like to. You two look so cosy there and it means you can have some time with him, but only if you want"
Clay pauses while he thinks about it. It would be going against everything he said but he looks at how tired she looks and how snuggled Casey is in his arms and how nice it might be to feed him
"I could um... give it a go, I suppose." He looks up, hesitatingly taking the bottle from her hand. He presses it gently against Casey lips.
She sighs with tiredness, sitting herself in the bed next to them, watching. "Just keep it up a little bit more. So, he doesn't get too much air" she smiles stroking her finger against Casey's cheek encouraging him to suckle.
She can see that Casey's resisting as he hears her voice. "Just keep tempting him with it. He'll take it, he's hungry" She smiles "It's probably because he knows I'm here, he's testing you" she laughs and gets up to leave them alone
"Hey!" Clay takes hold of her hand and pulls her back to the bed "You're know you're always gonna be the better option, right. I mean, why would anyone wanna let you go?"
She frowns. Leaning across him, her face close to his, she kisses him "Are you okay there, I was going to make a coffee"
"Um.." Clay looks down Casey's who's now taking the bottle, sucking contentedly. He smiles at how nice it feels, holding him, satisfying his needs, giving him what he wants. He strokes his head gently "Yeah we're good!"
"Okay" She heads out of the bedroom, hesitating in the doorway she leans against the frame for a moment as she watches them. She smiles looking as the perfect picture. Clay's bare skin, strong muscles laden chest with their tiny helpless baby held safely in his arm. She sighs "Back in a minute!"
07:32am
Casey's fed, clean diaper and now settled back in his crib asleep. Kelsey's laying on the bed, on and off closing her eyes. She turns over on to her side and yawns stretching her arms as Clay, laid on his chest, wraps his arm over her waist.
"We should get up, I need to do some laundry today. I can't believe the amount of clothes he goes through You know we really could do with a washing machine" She sighs loudly. She frowns that she even said that out loud about the laundry, wondering if this is it now, how her life will be. An endless cycle of feeding and washing clothes.
Unwrapping herself from Clay's arm he heads to the bathroom and she picks up her phone from the side table next to her. She smiles as starts to work her way through some of the texts she's received overnight. Word has finally got back to her ship that she had the baby early and now some of the crew are sending her congratulatory messages.
See you soon!
She smiles at the optimism of some of the replies and laughs out loud at some of the banter. They're in the Indian Ocean right now and she sigh biting her lip as she looks at the fabulous pictures they've sent. If she's honest she's a little jealous right now as she looks around the bedroom. The piles of clothes, fresh diaper piles and packets of wet wipes. Hmmm!
Clay watches her from the bathroom doorway as he heads back to the bed. He can see her expression changing as she reads through the messages "Hey.. what you looking at?"
"Oh, nothing. Oh, it's um... some of the guys, from the Charles .. telling me where they are" she laughs "Telling me they hate their new SL, that he's a pain the arse." she smiles as she looks up at Clay " See all my time keeping lectures and they're missing me now"
"And you? You're missing it...being on the ship?" Clay frowns, stroking her hair back from her face as she sits herself up, leaning against the headboard next to him "I guess you must miss being at sea. I mean it must be kinda weird being land based now. Not the up and down of the ocean that you get used to "
"Maybe..." she shrugs " Yeah maybe I miss it a little . But I err.. .. I kinda accept it now. But yeah.. yeah there are days when I miss it. Hey, it's a six-billion-pound warship who wouldn't, right? "
"You know um... " he takes her hand in his stroking the skin on the back of it "I've been thinking that maybe we could ...well we could sit down, together and try and work out this care plan you need. I mean, see if we could make it work. If...if you really wanna give it a go. You know, I would understand if you wanted to, it's just down to planning, right? So not impossible"
She turns to face him, the frown on her head questioning him "You mean that? What I mean is you're willing to discuss it?"
"Yeah!..." he frowns " Yeah sure. I mean, it can't hurt to look at it, so then we'd know what we're dealing with, what the problems would be. Look Kelsey..." he strokes her face "I know I was a bit snippy about it before, dismissing it like I did. I'm sorry. But I'm willing to look at it with you, after all you have to be happy too, right? And I want you to be happy."
"Clay come here!" She smiles, wrapping her arms around his neck. She kisses him "You know I am happy, it's nothing to do with that. It's just...well I worked hard to get my position on that ship, so it means a lot to me. To give it .. I just have to be sure." She sighs studying his face "So um.. can I ask, what brought this change of heart? Not being funny you were really against it before"
"I know" he kisses her "I know I was but like I said, I've thought about it and if we're gonna make this work, then we need to talk about stuff" He sighs taking a deep breath in "And... I thought I might .. speak with Ash. You're it's time he stepped up. He's Casey's grandfather and maybe he could help us some."
"You're serious about that?" she laughs looking at him surprised" Okay...c'mon where did real Clay Spenser go?" she puts her hand on his forehead "Do you feel alright, are you ill? " she gently places her lips on his, kissing him as she sits herself across his lap "Let's just take one step at a time. Anyway, I need to speak to my CO first, see what the situation is about going back. I um.. also need to get some of my fitness back. Need to lose this baby belly or I'll never get back in my uniform"
She laughs, as he holds her head and kisses her back she smiles at him "I do love you Clay Spenser and we are gonna make this work"
"Yeah...yeah we are, cos I love you" he draws patterns on her arm with the tips of his fingers as he smiles at her "You know um...I was then gonna take a shower and well Casey's asleep .." he looks at his watch "And I reckon we've got two hours before he wakes again. So how about we um... we have some mum-my and daddy time?"
"Mummy!" she laughs "Did I hear you right you said Mum...my?
"Yeah ...you see, I 'm trying, right?"
"Right!" she smiles, biting the corner of her lip looking him in the eyes before she kisses him passionately "Well ... I guess then maybe some Mummy and Daddy time might be good"
"C'mon then" he pulls at her hand, dragging her up from the bed into the private sanctuary of the bathroom.
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Inside the bathroom the light is so much brighter than the bedroom. It's artificial and it highlights every flaw on a person skin. She gets caught up looking at her herself in the mirror again. She sighs to herself.
"Hey ." Clay frowns watching her "Kelsey, what's wrong?"
"Nothing" she shrugs "Oh... I don't know. Look, I mean look at this" she runs her hand over her stomach "I am I ever gonna get back in shape for the Navy?"
"Look at what?" Clay frowns " Kelsey.. you look great for someone how only had a baby just over a week ago!" he turns her around to face him and holding her cheek in his hand, he kisses her. His fingers lightly dancing over her skin and he undoes the soft belt that's keeping her robe closed around her body. Pushing the fabric back from her shoulder he kisses at the gap with her neck.
Mmmm! She groans, wrapping her arms around his neck. Leaning forward she touches his lips with her fingers while caressing her other hand though the soft of his curls. Their mouths lock against each other and his tongue disappears inside her mouth, probing gently against her tongue. She closes her eyes. She's enjoying this kissing, perhaps a little too much.
Shedding her robe from her body his hand caresses around the shape of her hip onto her back, then moving downwards he smooths it over the gentle curve of her butt. His fingers kneading at the firm flesh as she moans, enjoying the warm touch of his hand on her skin.
"So are you turning this shower on or not?" she smiles
Mmmm hmm! "I sure am"
Slipping the shorts he's wearing down his legs he takes them off. Naked now he leaning into the cubicle reaching across to turn the warm water on. Once at temperature he gets in, running the spray over his head, washing both his hair and his face. Shaking the water off, while he waits for Kelsey to join him .
Watching her, as nervously, she slips her black lace panties off, dropping them to the floor. She takes a deep breath, still conscious that Clay's looking at her body she anxiously covers her breasts with her arm, fiddling with her hair to distract from her nerves.
" C'mon then" he smiles "It's warm" He reaches his hand out, taking hold of hers as he pulls her inside the glass shower cubicle and under the water, with him.
Mmmm! She smiles, as the gentle warm from the shower spray caresses over her body. Clay squeezes some bodywash, the favorite one that she likes, into his hand and then lathers it over her back. Working it in his hands down her butt and over her thighs.
She giggles as he strokes his touch over her skin and then he turns her around to face him, Caressing at her neck and stroking softly down her body before, very, gently and delicately, he places his hand against her breast
"Clay..." she gasps uncomfortable at him touching her there. She closes her eyes as he kisses her "Clay...don't!"
Shhh! "Kelsey your beautiful. Just trust me"
She bites her lip nervously, softly placing her lips on his. Stroking her hand on his face, then she kisses his neck while caressing her hand over his biceps. She smiles as her fingers then trace a line around his tattoo.
Looking up into his eyes, they're smiling at each other. Then lightly she kisses her way down his shoulder onto his chest. She can feel the curve of every muscles as they flex at her touch. Keeping her eyes locked on his as she smooths the palm of her hand over the flesh. Moving it further down over the taut tone of his ab muscles.
Mmmm! "That feels nice" he groans out loud. Watching the expression change on his face as she moves her hand even lower down his body. Her fingers now grasping at the hard between his legs. She can feel just how, turned on he is by this, by how ridged his cock feels.
"Oh god!" He sighs as he brushes his firmness against her thigh. They still don't speak, just stand together, staring at each other. Talking to each other, using only their eyes. Somehow managing to explain without words, about their wants and needs.
She strokes her fingers gently along the length of his hard dick. Her touch forces him to close his eyes, pushing his back against the glass door of the shower. Mmmm!
As he moans, she can tell how much he likes tha and then she wraps her hand, tightly, around him. Encasing his cock in her fingers before pumping her hand against him. Making movements that gently forces the skin back and forward over the shaft. This turns him on more and more.
His hands are working now, massaging and grasping at her skin. His fingers caressing down her spine. Then cupping her butt firmly in his hands, he gently forces her hips towards him. Rubbing his groin against hers now. Smiling as he lets her know what he wants
"Clay stop! We can't." she sighs nervously "It's too soon to do that. I'm sorry"
He sighs frustrated all he wanted to do was tease her there between her legs. He wants his touch to make her cum. To see her face lost in ecstasy. "Too soon? " he frowns questioning her
"Yeah I told you .. it's just bit too soon yet. I'm not ready " she sighs biting her lip. She can tell he's disappointed and she pulls her body away from him
"Heyy... he pulls her back "It's okay ..Kelsey it's okay. We'll wait...until you're sure you're ready. I'm not pushing this. I just want you so much. I wanna be close to you, that's all. We don't have to do anything. This is fine" he strokes his hands down her back, kneading his hand in the flesh of her butt.
"I know!" she strokes his face "And I wanna be close to you to. I just need some more time before that "She pulls her hand through her long-wet hair and staring at him she smiles.
He smiles back, kissing her lips before pushing her back against the tiles on the wall. The warm water is streaming down his back, as he leans against her, kissing. His hands stroking over the whole of her body. As she continues to feel his hardness rubbing against her leg.
His need for some relief is great and he takes her hand and places it against his stiff cock. "You could um.. you know .. do that instead" he bites his lip looking at her, testing and teasing.
She leans back against the wall her hand wrapped around the hard of his dick. Watching his eyes begging her to jerk him off. She smiles again, his pleading with her, it puts her in control. And it gives her back some of her body confidence which and she shows by teasing him.
Leaning back against the wall in the shower, she piles her wet hair on top of her head, raising her arms above her. It has the effect of pushing her breasts forward more towards him.
Mmmm! He groans putting his hand to them but she confidently slaps it away.
"I told you don't touch
"Oh, c'mon Kelsey" his need, his desire for her is huge. His cock is rock hard, his balls swollen and looking at her, leaned there, he needs some relief from it "Please..." he smiles his hand resting on her hip, she hesitantly allows him to trail his hand slowly over her stomach.
He drops it lower, he's pushing the boundaries now, trying to find her clit. He does with some expert ease and she flinches as he rubs against it with his fingers. She's really unsure about how far to let him go with this, it feels too soon even to be doing this. But the combination of the water and his fingers it makes her moan out loud, even if she told herself she wasn't going to do that .
"Oh...Clay!" she frowns, placing her hand against his, holding it and stopping him doing anything "Sorry...no! No, I can't"
"Okay ! Really. it's okay!" he leans in and drops a kiss on to her mouth. He has to admit, that under the surface, he's disappointed. But he respects her wishes to stop.
As he kisses her she works her lips free and starts kissing down his chest, working her way down his stomach forcing him back against the glass panel and now she draws patterns with her tongue on his abs, before she kneels down in front of him.
She looks up cupping her hand around his balls, his cock firm in front of her mouth. Her eyes asking him if he wants her to do this.
"Oh yeah!" his response. He doesn't need to be asked twice, and anyway it's obvious from his stance that he wants this. Teasing his cock forward towards her lips as she caresses it in her hand. He fingers wrapping around his butt and down the outer muscles of his thigh, before bringing it back up inside of his leg and stopping at his ever so, swollen balls sack. She gently grasps at it massaging the contents
"Oh!...Oh Kelsey! Oh yeahhhh!" He smiles, tempting her again to take him "Please!" Now he almost begs, desperate he is for some relief. His hands tangled in her wet hair, fisting and pulling at her as she licks her tongue around the swollen and ready head of his dick, before trailing her tongue down along the full length. She squeezes gently, at the soft of his balls., teasing him too much now.
He keeps nudging his cock against her lips, desperately willing her to part them and allow him access to the warmth of her mouth. Then suddenly and without warning he gets what he wants. She takes all of him, deep into her throat, her tongue massaging along the length of the hardness.
Oh fuck! He groans closing his eyes. The warm soft feels totally amazing. Her wet hair brushing against his thigh, it's texture against his skin gives a world of different stimulation .
Closing his eyes, he leans back, butt pressed on the glass door, watching the spray from the shower dance along her spine while she continues to mouth at his cock. To which he makes continuous, loud, groaning noises.
As he gets close and closer to the peak of his orgasm, her sucking and working her tongue around his shaft makes him whimper loudly, interspersing it with cuss words.
Mmmm... oh fuck! "Oh, that feels sooo good!"
She closes his eyes tight and concentrate her efforts. She can tell this isn't going to take long now and she wraps her hand around his thigh.
He too knows this won't take long now. The feel of her body against him, her hands wrapped tightly holding his thighs, pulling his body back and forward towards her, while she sucks at him slurping and groaning. Taking all of him deeper and more readily and more needily.
Then with the water pouring over her head she bobs up and down between his legs. He looks down at her watching, unable to breath properly, right on the edge just about to cum
"Oh oh! Ohhhhhh yes...yes, baby girl!" he screams out loud as he forces himself against her. She steadies herself, embracing his movement. He wraps her hair tight around his hand then in two quick thrust to the back of her throat he enjoys the last few moments of private pleasure between then "Oh Kelsey! Yeah...I'm gonna cum!"
He tugs at her hair and thrusting deep just one more time this time he shoots his warm creamy load into the back of her throat
"Oh yeah!" he sighs with heavy breath as she laps up the last of him. Then he's finished, wrung out, his strength is sapped, and he closes his eyes.
Washing her face and hair under the shower water. Then wiping the water off looking at him not moving "Like that did we?" she smiles
Mmmm Hmm! He takes her head in his hands kissing her, tasting his own saltiness on her tongue. She sighs, pressing herself against him, what they just did, it really turned her on. The feeling takes her somewhat by surprise. As until now, her sexual needs had been the last things on her mind. But so much she wanted the closeness this precious together brought, that she didn't realize just how much she'd also enjoyed it .
Having alone time, just him and her, it was nice, and she was yearning for more. She couldn't wait till they could do things properly, to have him inside her body again.
This was about comfort about being together, but now maybe she ached for something more and she knew it wouldn't be long before they could make love, fully, again and be at one with each other
But...this had given her some confidence back in her body. Confidence that even her now changed body still managed to turn Clay on. She sighs thinking that soon things would start to heal and now at least, she knew she would still want him inside her again.
She focuses now as he turns off the water and steps out of the shower. Tying one of the white towels around his waist he then holds out a larger one to wrap her in, she could feel a glow about herself and she was still turned on. Her body actually ached for him, a frustration at knowing she would have to wait a while before full intercourse was something her body was ready for. But still getting turned on was a start. And she smiles as he wraps her in the fluffy towel.
He leans forward with a huge satisfied grin on his face. He kisses her, wrapping her up, holding her tight in the towel. Wiping the wet from her shoulders. With the toweling fabric around her body she can feel an ache in her breasts now it's then that she notices they're leaking
"oh shit!" she looks down at them. Slightly embarrassed, she hurriedly covers them up.
"Hey, Kelsey... it's fine. Don't worry " Clay smiles, kissing her " you know we definitely have to schedule more Mommy and Daddy time, I think"
Hmm! She smiles her hand finding its way under his towel, she gently fondles at his, now soft, parts. They're over sensitive, right now and he flinches against her touch. And while they won't fully arouse there is some potential movement there
"We'll see!" she smiles as she teases him running her tongue over her lips "So... you gonna make me some breakfast then?"