Written originally in April 2015, with some minor edits made for .
In my next life, I want to have at least one fifth of your innocence.
But right now, in this life, I just want to be able to know your feelings.
If anyone told me of my situation some time ago, I'd laugh and say that such a thing is impossible, but this is what I'm living right now.
After all, you used to be just a nerd, wearing glasses bigger than your face, who had no idea of what biking was, even if you had the talent for it.
Now you've became an existence that I can't live without. You've became like the sun.
Sakamichi, I'm in love with you.
... I wish I could say this out loud.
I wonder why did I fall in love with you.
Was it your smile? Your cheerfulness? Just because you're cute?
Because it was meant to be?
Sakamichi, I wonder if you have anyone in your heart.
Is there any space for me?
Unfortunately, I can't play nice guy for much longer. It would be kind of me to say "I'm happy just by being with you", but I can't be happy like this. Only having you by my side is not enough. I want to be truly yours. This is egotistical, but I think that the only way you can attain true happiness is with me. I swear by my own life, I'd do anything to keep your smile bright.
Please look at me.
Please have me, and only me, in your heart.
Please, love me.
I love you, Sakamichi.
The truth is, I'm the one who can only attain true happiness if I'm with you.