A/N: So I have had this idea for a while and couldn't get it out of my head until I wrote it down. I am nervous about posting this as it may seem a little out of character, but after recently re-watching season 7, the idea sprung to me. A few things will be in a different order/not happen, so I ask if you do want to join me with this story, to just keep an open mind and go with the flow that the story takes! I would really really like some reviews if possible, good and bad are both welcome from me. I hope you enjoy, and if you take the time to read, thank you so much.

Chapter 1: Spontaneity

Harvey can't quite comprehend the events of tonight, so he decided to walk home to clear his head.

Part of him felt dread settling at the bottom of his stomach, but the majority of him felt anger. Of all the people, she should know what this would do to him.

As the cool air of the night brushes past his face as he walks, his mind replays the moment over and over again. When Donna kissed him. The worst part is that she left straight after, and he was too stunned and stuck in his place to move quick enough and chase her.

The dread Harvey feels, on becoming the one thing he vowed to never become. Donna didn't give him a choice on that, she forced him to become this thing, and Harvey thinks she is selfish. He feels angry that this is now something he's got to keep a secret from Paula, his girlfriend, and the only woman who should be kissing him.

What Harvey struggles to come to terms with the most, is the anger he feels at himself. For what the kiss did to him, inside. It stirred something and part of him doesn't know if he could have pulled himself away if Donna wasn't the one to break the kiss. He could have spiralled into temptation. He hates himself for that.

The thought of her lips against his, stirs part of him he is too ashamed to admit. He can still feel where her hands rested around his neck, the way their noshes brushed and how her fingers caressed his cheek. Harvey pushes these thoughts away as quick as they entered his head. He cannot feel this way about sharing a kiss with another woman, he cares about Paula.

Of course him and Donna have had this potential, but why would he want to risk the relationship they had. It would never work, and now she's pushed them over the edge, Harvey thinks that they can never go back.

With a heavy heart and a mix of guilt and anger cursing through his veins, he makes his way into his condo. All he needs is to crawl into bed and try and forget all about tonight.

However, Harvey soon realises this is not on the cards when he notices a few lights on, and eventually Paula sitting on his sofa. His stomach drops at the sight of her, he feels dirty with guilt.

"Hey you", she smiles on seeing him.

When he doesn't immediately reply, she furrows her brows and stands up to greet him, sensing something off.

"Are you okay?", she asks tentatively.

Clearing his throat, he quickly adds, "Yeah I'm okay, I just didn't expect to see you". The last thing he needs is for Paula to sense that something is wrong, and find out about the kiss.

"You did give me your key you know", she adds with a teasing smile.

Harvey feels lighter already on seeing her. So he smiles and leans in for a slow and sensual kiss, he hopes to rid the taste of Donna from his lips and replace them with his girlfriend.

As they pull apart, Harvey smiles and grabs her hands. He doesn't know if it's because he wants to seal Donna outside of his relationship, or because Paula made him feel better within a matter of seconds and he almost forgot about what happened.

"Marry me", the words are out of his mouth before he can fully comprehend them.

Paula stiffens immediately. Her face then breaks out into a small smile and she laughs nervously. "Harvey, don't be silly".

"I just don't want you to have my key, I want to know that when I come home, it's going to be like this forever".

Harvey feels content with Paula in this moment, he has forgotten about his 'dirty' feelings about Donna's kiss, and subconsciously this way it makes up for the guilt he feels.

When Paula still hasn't said anything, he adds, "you made it feel like the world didn't matter within 30 seconds".

"Harvey, I don't want to rush things, I really like you and where this is heading", Paula says softly.

"Paula, I've had a bad day at work, and you were the one person I wanted to see after it".

Maybe that's because the other person is not an option because it's her that's caused the bad day.

"Now I've never been married, but I think that's how a wife should make you feel", he lets a smirk settle on his lips.

"Let's be spontaneous, I can even take the rest of the week off of work"

He can almost see the cogs turning in her head, before a smile breaks out on her face and she's pulling him in for a deep kiss. Harvey is quick to deepen it, desperate to remove the thoughts of Donna and replace with his now, fiancée.

Harvey doesn't allow himself to fully consider the idea, he refuses to entertain that this may be a mistake. After basically cheating on his girlfriend and feeling something for this other woman, this is the right thing to do to make up for it.

So Harvey sticks to his plan of taking the rest of the week off of work, only letting Louis and Mike know he won't be in the office until Monday morning. He doesn't tell them why or what he is doing. Harvey tells himself its because he wants it to be a surprise, and not because they may talk him out of it.

When Donna wakes up the following morning after her kiss with Harvey the night before, it's early. Early because she barely slept. The kiss solidified so many things for her, deep down she knew her feelings for Harvey ran deep, but now she knows they embody her.

Her stomach churns at the thought of how this affected Harvey. She knows he is with Paula, and it perhaps wasn't the right thing to do for him. But for once, she needed to do this for herself. And if this is what it takes for Harvey to see her for what they could really be for each other, then so be it. It was spontaneous, but she doesn't regret it.

After drowning in her thoughts for too long, she pulls herself out of bed, puts on her Donna face and gets ready for the day. She picks out her satin green dress, and puts every effort into her appearance. This could be a day to change everything, and she needed to be her usual confident self.

On entering the firm, she senses that Harvey hasn't arrived yet. So she decided to crack on immediately with her work and deal with him when he does arrive. An anxious and unsettled feeling briefly curses through her body, but she chooses to ignore it.

It's after an hour or so, when Mike is knocking on Donna's office. Motioning him to come in she can see his almost nervous expression.

"What can I do for you Mike?", she asks, smiling and trying to act calm.

"I just wanted to ask if you knew why Harvey was taking the rest of the week off? He wouldn't say why", Mike asks after taking a seat opposite.

Donna's stomach drops at his words. Taking the week off? Was this to avoid her? Has she really messed this up in the worst way possible. Can he really not face her after everything they have been through.

On Donna's silence and noticeably shocked expression, Mike adds, "You didn't know?".

She feels hurt, maybe she should have expected this. Biting on her bottom lip, feeling the first prickle of tears in her eyes, Donna slowly shakes her head.

"What happened Donna?", Mike asks softly.

Donna considers telling him about the kiss. He was the one who told her she should tell Harvey how she feels. But she feels stupid now. Harvey obviously didn't feel anything from the kiss, so much so that he couldn't even face her to tell her himself. Always running from his problems like the coward he is, Donna thinks.

Realising that Mike is waiting for an answer, she sits up straight, takes a breath and smiles her best 'I'm okay' smile.

"I don't know Mike, maybe he was just a bit exhausted because of his new role".

"But Harvey doesn't take vacations", Mike says pointedly.

She knows that Mike knows there is more to this story, and she is begging him with her eyes to drop it. He doesn't get the hint.

"Donna, tell me what happened, I know you know where he is", he asks.

Donna sighs with frustration now. "Mike, I am not Harvey's keeper. I am not his secretary anymore. So I don't know where he is, now stop asking me!". She knows that she is projecting her hurt and anger onto Mike, and she feels guilty. But she can't bring herself to tell him about the kiss, she is embarrassed.

Taken aback, Mike raises his eyebrows, "Okay Donna. Sorry to bother you", he says with annoyance laced in his tone.

She watches as he stands up and leaves her office. She spins her chair around to face the glass window, which is better than facing the entire firm through her glass walls. That's when she lets the first tear slip from her eye, the one she told herself she would not let happen.

Donna is deflated. At the fact that Harvey does everything in his power to avoid his problems, even when they're to do with her. At the fact that he is now leaving the firm in a ditch and she can't even admit to her closest friends what happened between them. But most of all, at the fact that she is in love with a man who has had her heart for over 12 years, she finally knows it, but also she finally knows that he doesn't feel the same.

Donna spends the day avoiding everyone at all costs. She cannot deal with being asked or told about Harvey again.

When it reaches 7pm, Donna gives up on work and tells herself she will do the rest tomorrow. She feels exhausted, emotionally and physically.

Sighing, she pours herself a drink and just sits. No music. No company, just her and her thoughts swimming around.

She's swirling the alcohol around in her glass when she's interrupted from her thoughts by a knock on her door. Louis walks in.

"Hey, I don't think I've ever seen you drinking on your own before", Louis says.

"Yeah, well I needed one", she said and regrets the harshness of her tone.

He hovers for a moment and she eyes him trying to read what's going on. His eyes carry a sympathetic look, and she feels exposed.

"Donna I need to tell you something", he says softly.

Donna can already tell that it's to do with Harvey, when is it ever not. Sighing, not knowing how her emotions can take anything else. "What is it Louis", she asks.

"So Harvey finally got back to me about 15 minutes ago", he says, treading carefully.

"And?", she's nervous now.

"Well, he's taking the weekend to go on his honeymoon".

Oh my god Donna thinks. Her mind is in overdrive, she knows what this implies, but she needs him to say it. The beating of her heart in her chest is so loud that she thinks Louis might be able to hear it.

"Honeymoon?", she croaks.

"Harvey and Paula got married today Donna", Louis sighs.

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