Pause
"You ok?" Deeks asked when he saw Kensi sitting on the bathroom floor.
She extended her arm out for him to help her up and handed him the oblong object in her hand. "Yea I'm fine." She said.
"Oh." Deeks said when he looked down at the negative pregnancy test she handed him. Well it's ok don't worry it's only been..." Kensi cut him off.
"6 months I know how long it's been Deeks. And I know you're just trying to help me and make me feel better but your not. ok?"
"But you know it's our path." Deeks said a little disappointed.
"No I don't need anymore path metaphors okay. I know we've been over this and I'm being a little unreasonable but every time I get my period or a pregnancy test comes back negative I feel like I'm letting everyone down. And I don't need a hero right now I need a husband. A husband who tells me how he's feeling and goes through this with me so I don't feel like I'm crazy because I'm the only one having these feelings. I feel like I'm failing you and I'm failing myself and I ruined this for us. If I don't get pregnant..."
"Hey." Deeks said grabbing her hands. "Look at me."
Kensi gazed up at him tears in her eyes.
"We don't need to worry about that yet. And I will love you no matter what I don't need kids to be happy because you already make me the happiest man in the world."
"How do you always know what to say to make me feel better?" Kensi asked and Deeks shrugged pulling her into a hug.
They stood in silence for while Deeks holding Kensi as close to his body as possible.
"I have an idea." Deeks broke the silence.
"What?"
"What if we took a break on trying for a baby for a couple months. No scheduling sex, no ovulation tracking, and no pregnancy tests. We're so stressed out and tense we just need to slow down. We can take some vacation and finally go on a real honeymoon slash anniversary trip and just relax."
"So we just pause baby making?"
"Yup. And go on vacation."
"That sounds wonderful."
Authors note:
So I wrote this I'm not sure how I feel about it. It didn't turn out the way I thought it would but as usual I started writing and something completely random came out. I've started another chapter but I'm not sure if I'm gonna continue this or leave it as a one-shot so let me know in the reviews if you want more. Thanks for reading!