Pamela
It was finally spring, the best time of the year and my seasonal depression has ended allowing me to grow my babies once again
I got a four bedroom greenhouse with a large backyard so i have enough room for all my children
"Red red" my heart dropped to my stomach hearing her voice i tried to avoid it but in the end i fell in love with her
It's not like Harley doesn't love me... but she wanted to take a break and go back to being friends which I'm fine with it's just...
"I'm in here" i call out to her, Harley doesn't want to be in a relationship so she decided on having one night stands to help her figure out what she wants
"Hey ya red i know I've been busy lately but i was wondering if..." Harley has turned over a new leaf and is hanging out with black canary along with a few other Justice league members
I'm proud that she's trying to find her way and find her identity but i wish she would let me help her or at least talk to me
"If what" I answer looking at her
"There was this accident and di.. black canary need ya to make somethin' for her" Harley said giving me her puppy dog eyes i guess Harley doesn't know that Dinah is my therapist
She knew i couldn't say no to her but i don't won't to be around her at the moment since it kills me seeing fuck other people...but if she's happy I'm happy
"What do you need" i answered back
"Ya know that stuff you made to get people to tell you the truth" nodding my head in agreement
Throwing herself at me she buried me in a bear hug squealing
"Thank you Thank you, your the best red" giving me a quick kiss on the cheek i go over to my mini garden that I use as a cover up to hide certain syringes
... handing her the glowing blue liquid her eyes lit up, saying goodbye one last time
She left
I guess I'm the stupid one to think she came here to talk about us or at least her
She's been distant lately since I told her I loved her and she doesn't realize how hard it was for me to tell her how I felt but I guess I scared her away
Since the last time someone told her they loved her was the joker
After all these years of being friends then being lovers and back to friends again I got tired of keeping my feelings to myself
Leaving the backyard I decided to calm my nerves with a warm bath
Stripping out of my dress i walked up to the full length mirror hanging on my closet door to see a disgusting form
I've always had the body of a whore but the color of my skin made me a monster, my skin was a pale green
My mother's features made me look classy but me personality ruins any type of beauty on my face
After all these years i look the same since i can no longer age, leaving me looking around 25 to 30
My bright Auburn locks gave the illusion of me being somewhat human... but in the end I'm not
The old wounds that she imprinted on this body have faded long ago leaving me traumatized by her experiments
Walking into the bathroom I turned on hot water and then grabbed a bottle of lavender oil to relax my muscles
Slipping into the tub i let my thoughts run wild since it's the only time i have to myself without feeling anxious
Pathetic" a voice echoed, at this point I'm use to them
"Weak...crazy bitch" i sunk farther into the tube to block out the noise
"No one will love you..."
You can't trust them they'll hurt you they always hurt you" no matter how deep i went into the water i still heard them
"They all hate you..."
"You have to kill them before they hurt you hurry..."
"Whore..bitch"
"Crazy...fat"
"DISGUSTING whore"
"No one will love you your just a quick fuck"
"Stop it STop IT STOP STOPPPPP" i felt the tears forming
Covering my ears i thought they would stop but they never do
"Hehehehehehehehehehehehehehehehehehehe"
The noises finally stopped opening up my eyes i realized I was outside in a field full of wild flowers, my greenhouse was no where in sight
This place seemed familiar almost like the place i use to go to when i lived in Paris, standing up the grass beneath my feet felt different almost like glass...no thorns
Looking around more i was surrounded by dead trees but everything else was alive,"Com..e" turning around towards the voice
I was facing a large mirror that belonged to mother but my reflection wasn't facing me it was like a bad omen
"C..come t..o me" walking towards the mirror was painful the more i walked the more cuts appeared on my legs
The mirror was a few inches away from me "Le..t go" what? i questioned
I..t h..urts let ..g..go".
"Let go if what" i called out no response
"It's a..almost...time le..t go" before I could answer the voice fire circled me forcing me to walk closer
Wait...am I d..dying looking at the mirror once more my reflection was gone but replaced with a shadow with glowing red eyes
"C..come I'll t..ake it a..all aw..ay" no no the shadow turned into me causing the mirror to crack with words appearing
...Whore
...worthless
...pathetic
...monster
...insane
...bitch
...selfish
...Fat
...heartless
"NO I DON'T WANT THIS" i screamed out, a loud scream broke out causing the mirror to break
The fire disappeared then everything went black
I couldn't stop shaking but i guess it's from the dream and cold water since i fell asleep
Stepping out the tube i slipped on my robe walking back into my bedroom that was one of my worst nightmares but hell my life is a nightmare
Walking out my room i was met with a tall man
..."Bruce"