I want to be happy for once

by FSOA

Mirage Farina Jenius wants to be happy for once in her life, and she thought she would get her chance with Hayate Immelman, but that was not the case. Diary Entry that I thought that she would write. (She canonically does have one) Also, I was in a weird place when I thought about writing this and I am still in that place somewhat. Also this ship is better than Freyja and Hayate.

(A/N. Hi Guys, I am not dead. I just got hit with the freight train that I call college. I finished my first year and almost finished my second year. I probably wouldn't have touched this account, but Coronavirus happened and all my classes got moved to online and I am home for another couple of months. I started and finished Macross Delta and I am currently obsessed with the show. That plus I got this idea in my head from what had happened in the show and what has happened to me in real life with a friend of mine, and I got way too many similarities between the two. I had some free time so I wrote it out.)

I just want someone to like me.

I try and try and try but in the end, I keep failing.

Hayate is the latest example of this. We got so close. People thought that we were actually dating, and I wished the rumors were true. The times we spent looking at the sunset, consoling him after his first kill, the day we went shopping for a birthday present for Frejya and the times we flew together? He is one of the reasons how I loved flying again. He made me a better person. Are those experiences all for naught? Are those memories only there just to toy with my feelings? Just to make me think that I will be happy with someone for once in my life?

I want him to be happy, but I want him to be happy with me. Is that too much to ask for? For once in my life, I just want to be happy with someone. Why can't it be with him?