Chapter 1: For The Best
"Padme please." Anakin pleaded, tears filling his eyes. "Please you cant do this."
Padme started to tear up as well and said, "Ani, I have to. I cant live a lie anymore."
"But they are going to expel me. I wont be able to see you guys, if you tell them everything I done."
Padme sighed, "A--Ani. It--Its for the best if you le--let me do what I am going to do."
Anakin got on his knees and pleaded with her, "Why, Why are you doing this."
Padme raised her voice slightly and said, "You changed Anakin. You killed Younglings, you almost killed Master Windu. You killed Sandpeople. Now we are having children. You are unstable and I cant risk the children's safety."
Anakin was taken back by this. He looked into her brown chocolate eyes and said, "You think I would ever hurt my kids."
Padme started to cry, "How can I know Ani. You already killed younglings, babies Anakin babies. If you lose control again you might kill your own children. I even seen it. You are not the same when you are him."
Anakin yelled with sadness and anger, "I was seduced by the dark side, Padme. By Palpatine. By my dreams. I can control myself, he is dead now."
Padme gasped, "He is dead."
Anakin yelled, "Yes. I killed him. He took everything and manipulated me. He even killed my own mother, he ordered the tuskens to kill her to tortue her and he drained her life energy, so that she will die in my arms. All so he can I seduce me to the dark side."
Padme started to sob, "Ani I am so sor--."
Anakin stopped her, tears now filling his eyes, "Dont be. I know what I done. I know what you want as well. I hope the kids and you will be able to have the life you always dreamed of."
Padme looked at him and yelled, "Ani. You cant leave. The kids, me, We need you."
"You said it yourself Padme. I am a monster. I just hope the kids will have a good life, and never remember their monster of a Dad."
"ANI PLEASE YOU CANT DO THIS." Padme pleaded sobbing.
Anakin opened the door and looked at her one last time, "Goodbye Padme. I love you. Obi-Wan will always be there for you, find someone who can make you happy. You deserve the best life. All I want is for you to be happy."
Padme cried out, "Ani you make me happy. I love you. All I want is you and the ki--."
Anakin already walked out and shut the door. Padme fell to the floor sobbing. This is the worst day of her life. She is about to go into labor, and her husband just left her.
How will she live with herself.
Anakin was walking away from Padme's apartment. He couldnt handle hearing her cries anymore. He understood her clearly. It is best if he leaves, only then can Padme and his children be safe. Anakin hated it, but she was right. She was fucking right. He never wants to leave them, but its for the best.
Then Anakin sees his former master sprinting over to him. He doesnt look happy.
"Anakin you cant do this." cried Obi-Wan. He looked at his former apprentice and felt the conflict within him. He felt the depression, sadness, anxiety, guilt, and angst. It took over Anakin. He wasnt a Sith nor Jedi at this point, he was just a broken man.
Anakin looked up at his former master and said, "Its for the best I go. I wont be able to hurt you, Padme, or my kids. I have to own up to my mistakes."
Obi-Wan looked at Anakin and pleaded, "Anakin you cant do this. Padme needs you. She is going to give birth and you have to be there."
Anakin couldnt comprehend anything. He wanted so bad to be with his angel, for the biggest change in both of their lives. But he couldnt. Padme saw what Anakin was before. An evil and crooked murderer. A killer. Anakin cant be around her, and cause her pain nor his kids. Its for the best if he leaves and they never see him again. At least they can live the life they deserved. Anakin looked at Obi-Wan and said, "Goodbye Master. Tell Padme, I love her and I will always love her. But its for the best that I go. She and the kids can finally be able to live the life they deserved."
Obi-Wan who started to tear up yelled, "Anakin. She loves you and she wants to be with you. You cant do this. Padme and the kids need you, they want to be with you. They want a Dad and father in their life"
Anakin roared back, "Stop Obi-Wan. Please. I cant be their father, look at me. Look at what I done. You cant change my mind anymore. I made my choice and I am going to do it, for the better of everyone."
"Where are you planning to go." Obi-Wan said.
Anakin sighed, "Somewhere far away from everyone, so I cant hurt anyone anymore. Somewhere far away where I will live alone. I dont want to see my wife, you, or my kids. I just want a new life, where I can forget about everything."
Obi-Wan was distraught and shocked. He cant believe what Anakin is saying. Has he truly lost it. He is leaving all this behind just to be alone. There has to be a better reason.
Obi-Wan snarled, "Its the dreams, isnt it."
Anakin looked back at Obi-Wan and shook his head, "No, its just me. Padme is right the galaxy doesnt deserve a monster like me."
Anakin started to walk away. He looked one more time at his former master and pleaded, "Please be with Padme when she gives birth. Please be my kids' uncle. They deserve someone who is loving and can show them respect."
Obi-Wan was going to say something but it was already to late. He just watches Anakin walk out. This reminds Obi-Wan of when Ahsoka left the Order. How devasted and broken Anakin was after that. Obi-Wan is starting to feel how Anakin felt on that day.
Anakin walked out of 500 Republica and headed into his starfighter. He hated the look of his ship, if reminded him too much on his past. When he reaches somewhere far away, he will scrap his ship for a more basic one. He finally got into his ship and fired up the engines.
Anakin looked in the rearview mirrors to see Obi-Wan standing there, behind him was Padme. They were pleading with him to stay, but Anakin couldnt hear anything. His mind was shielded, he couldnt take this pain anymore.
He fired up the engines and pulled the throttle back and now was flying into the Coruscanti sky. He looked back and saw Padme collapse to the floor. He saw Obi-Wan pick her up and bring her inside. Anakin suspected she will be in labor soon.
Anakin started to cry once he reached orbit. He just saw the love of his dreams plead with him to stay, only for him to disregard her and runaway. He loves her so much, just liked he loved his mother. He couldnt bear to see her in pain. Anakin sighed. He was now no more A Jedi, A Hero, or a husband. He was just now a hermit, loner, wanderer, nomad. He is going to live away from everyone in a sort of exile.
He just prays for the force to keep his wife and kids safe. And hopes that they forget about him and everything he has done. He always cared more about others than himself, and that is what he is still going to do.
Anakin looked down at his starchart and looked to see where he can go. He only knew of one other place he ever called home. Tatooine. He still had some family which was his stepfamily Owen and Beru Lars. Anakin nodded and decided he will stay with them for a little bit, till he can get himself back on his feet.
He plugged in the coordinates to Tatooine and punched the hyperdrive in and boom he was on his way.
Obi-Wan was carrying Padme who was whimpering and screaming in pains. He looked at her and saw the sweat start to fill up her face. Her brown curls now dampened and plastered on her already sweaty face. Her hand on her stomach trying to ease the pain.
The worst of all was her screaming. She kept screaming for Anakin. It was cries of pain and greif. She cant handle seeing him leave her, she was his everything, so was he to her. The kids and her need him, and he just left.
Obi-Wan squeezed Padme tightly and said, "Everything will be alright Padme. We are almost there."
Padme kept whimpering, "Ani. Please come back Ani. I love you. Ani."
Obi-Wan couldnt take it anymore. He was now more angry than sad now. Why would Anakin just leave his wife to fend for herself. "What a disgrace he is to her." Obi-Wan thought.
Obi-Wan finally brought her in to the medical center. Immediately medical droids took her into a room and started working on her. She just went into labor, and he could see the pain start to envelop her face.
Obi-Wan saw Master Yoda and Bail Organa standing outside the room peering through the glass.
"Master Kenobi." Yoda greets warmly.
Obi-Wan sighed in exhaustion, "Master Yoda and Bail Organa, nice to see you."
Bail bowed and then questioned, "Where is Anakin Skywalker. Shouldnt he be here."
Obi-Wan froze. He couldnt even open his mouth to say something. How could he tell them, that Anakin just left, disappeared, just to live alone. How could he.
Obi-Wan didnt have to try, because Yoda sensed everything. Yoda hummed, "It seems Young Skywalker has disappeared. Gone he has. Runaway."
Bail gasped, "Is this true Obi-Wan."
Obi-Wan just nodded. He couldnt even speak, tears started to form into his eyes. He couldnt even imagine what Anakin could be going through. He only imagined what Padme is going through, but not Anakin. Anakin lost his mother, his wife, kids, Jedi, Republic, everything. He is probably the most devastated by this. Obi-Wan couldnt even begin to fathom how he feels right now.
Yoda then said, "Why has he left."
Obi-Wan looked down at the Grand Master and back at Bail. He then choked on his words, "He said it was for the best. He said he wont be able to hurt anyone anymore."
Bail stood shock and countered, "Why would he ever say that. He hasn--."
Bail was stopped short when all 3 heard Padme scream loudly. Obi-Wan gasped, "She is about to give birth."
Obi-Wan rushed through the door and headed straight to Padme's side. He grabbed her hand and whispered, "Everything is alright Padme. Stay Strong."
Padme looked at him and whispered, "Obi-Wan."
Obi-Wan leaned in and looked at her, "Yes Padme I am here."
Padme whispered, "I cant do this. It hurts too much."
Obi-Wan then squeezed her hand and said, "Yes you can do it Padme. You can do it. When this is all over, you can be with your kids."
The medical droid then said automatically, "Ma'am it is time to push now."
Padme started to push and she started to scream. The pain was so immense. Obi-Wan held her hand tighter and tried to relieve the pain.
Padme was gripping the arm rests tight and her knuckles started to go white.
"You are doing great Padme keep pushing." Obi-Wan told her.
Padme looked at him and yelled, "It hurts so much."
"I know it does but you can get through it."
"Almost done, keep pushing ma'am." said the Medical Droid.
Padme was beyond screaming. Her body was squirming up and down and the pain for her was unbearable. She was screaming, "ANI, ANI, WHERE ARE YOU."
This sight saddened Obi-Wan to no prevail. Anakin is not coming back, and he never will. He made his choice. Once Anakin makes a choice then it is final. Padme still believes he is coming back. That is the part that hurts the most. Obi-Wan thought.
The screams finally seized when the young baby was finally pulled out.
"Its a boy." The medical droid exclaimed.
Obi-Wan smiled warmly and said, "Padme. Its a boy."
The pain Padme endured started to reside out of her. She looked at Obi-Wan and smiled weakly, "Can I hold him."
Obi-Wan nodded and picked up the crying baby and handed it to Padme. Padme looked at the baby and started to cry. He resembled so much of Anakin. His big blue eyes was the main give away. She hugged him closely and said, "I love you."
The medical droid then said, "What will you name the baby Ma'am."
"Luke, his name is Luke." Padme said lazily.
Obi-Wan smiled and said, "Thats a wonderful name."
Before Padme could say anything she screamed again. Another contraction hit her.
Obi-Wan looked at the droid worriedly and yelled, "WHAT IS GOING ON."
The droid answered back, "It seems she has twins."
The pain wasnt as unbearable as it was with Luke. The baby came out smoother and faster. The medical droid picked up the baby and handed it to Obi-Wan, "Its a girl." exclaimed the medical droid.
Obi-Wan looked at Padme and said, "Its a girl."
Padme started to sob uncontrollably. The thought of the girl made her think of Anakin. He always wanted a baby girl. He used to go on hours about what he would do with her, and how he would make her Daddy's Little Girl. Padme remembered he wanted to call her Leia after his mother. She always wanted to remember a piece of Anakin, even though he left. She decided to take his word.
"What is this baby's name." said the droid.
Padme smiled, "Leia, her name is Leia."
She then grabbed her two newborns and hugged them closely. She kissed there foreheads and said, "This is the happiest day of my life. I will always love you." She then hugged her children even tighter and cried over them. It was such an emotional scene.
Obi-Wan said, "Congratulations Padme."
Padme looked at him choking on her words with joy and sadness, "Thank You Obi-Wan.
Anakin was nearing Tatooine. He saw the dust ball of a planet that he once called home. He thought to himself, never again will he ever comeback here. But here he is coming back here not just for a visit, but to stay here permanently.
Anakin felt a change in the force. He felt happiness, joy, and love. He felt two glowing presences brought into this world. He only had one explanation to who these were. It was his children. It was his kids. They are alive, so is Padme. The dreams didnt come true. But it is too late, he made his choice. He will never be able to ever see them again.
He started to sob about everything. What has he done. He ruined his life. He failed his mother and everyone. What could he have done. He remembered all the good times in his life, and how he always wanted a loving family. He took that away, and now he deserves to feel this. Pain. He deserves it. After everything he has done, he deserves it.
Anakin slammed the controls of his ship ferociously through the Tatooine airspace he just wanted to land and cry himself to sleep. He eventually saw the only place he could stay at. The only place that called to him like home. The Lars Homestead.
Anakin landed his starfighter and jumped out of it. He pulled his hood up to hide his face from the wind which was blowing sand around. Anakin walked closer and closer to the house till he saw his mother's grave. He walked over to it and kneeled down.
He looked at it intently and started to cry, "I failed you Mom. I failed you. You told me to never turn back and to not to be afraid. Well look at me now. I turned back to this shithole and I am afraid. I dont know what else I have to live for. I am sorry Mom that you had a disgrace of a son as me. You deserved better. Just like everyone else in my life."
Anakin opened his eyes to wipe his tears. He noticed something on his mother's tomb. It was partly covered in sand. Anakin picked it up and it was a letter. It was from Owen Lars.
The letter read:
Dear Anakin,I dont know if you would ever come back here but if you do please read this.
Me and my wife Beru had a kid. A lovely little girl and we lived here peacefully for a couple of months. I got a job offer off planet on Coreilla. It is life changing offer and I took it. I did what was best for my family. I want my family to enjoy what the galaxy has to offer to us. We wanted to give our little girl a life she would enjoy. Me and Beru are hurt and shaken to leave our homestead. It was a family staple, but we soon realized change happens. We loved your mother, we loved her as our own. We love you too.
You might not realize it but you were like a brother to me and Beru. Your mother always talked good about you and we wished we could see you more. But times have changed and we understand. I just want to say if you ever need help with anything you can always contact me.
My daughter's name is Lexi. We told her a lot about you and your accomplishments. She really wants to meet you. You would be her uncle after all.
If you ever decide to stay at the homestead, it is all yours. You are our family and you deserve it. Your mother brought happiness to our lives, so this is the least we can do. We will forever keep the Skywalker and Lars bond forever. It is inseperable. I love you Anakin and always will. I hope life gives you what you always deserved.
Love Owen.
Anakin dropped the letter. He was in complete utter shock. He couldnt believe what he has read. He started to cry again. He has the place now to himself like how he wanted. But he loves Owen and Beru. The letter they left was so thoughtful, it made Anakin guilty for ignoring them.
Anakin choked with tears, "Im sorry for not being a good relative Owen and Beru. Im sorry."
He is even more taken back that they had a kid. He prays that they live a good life like his mother and Cliegg had. Anakin wishes the best for them. They deserved it. They brought happiness to his mother and that means so much. They are his family now and we always be.
He couldnt even be mad at them for leaving. Yes their father wanted them to tend the land and the moisture farm, but they have a kid. And that kid deserves the best life it can have. Anakin understands that, that is why he is here after all. He thought to himself, "I will take care of this land, in memory of Owen, Beru, Cliegg, and my mother. The only people who can call me family."
Anakin couldnt dwell on these thoughts anymore. He started to get tired and grew weary. He got up from the ground and headed into the Lars homestead. Nothing really changed much since the last time he was here and he liked that.
He quickly ran down the stairs into a bedroom and closed the door. Anakin jumped on the bed and closed his eyes. He started to sob, "This is the worst day of my life." He then closed in his eyes and tried to fall asleep.
He thought never again will he see his old life. Never again. From here on now, he will do what he needs to do to survive. He will live alone and sulk in his misfortunes and use them to create a new dull life.
"The life of a true Skywalker" Anakin thought. He then fell in a deep sleep.
End of Chapter 1: