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Disclaimer: I do not own bones. Hart hanson does.

Chapter 1.

Brennans POV

It's been 4 hours since I stopped breathing. His blood had turned cold on my hands when we got to the hospital, he couldn't leave me now, he couldn't. I haven't told him yet. The chair I'm sitting on was slowing starting to become a pain in my ass. Literally. It would have been better if this chair was beside Booths bed, with me holding his hand. But no, I'm in the waiting room beside a kid with a broken arm. A fucking broken arm. The man I lo-, my partner is in there with a bullet in his body, that he took for me.

I lift my arm to look at my watch, one more hour had passed. Why couldn't I be in there with him? GOD why is time passing so slowly? "Ms. Brennan?" I looked up. "Ms. Brennan?" My body reacted on it's own.

"Yes, Im Ms. Brennan" I shake my head. Focus. "Actually it's Dr. Brennan" I walked closer to the young doctor that said my name. About 5'5 and blond, probably an intern. Hopefully it wasn't him who was taking care of my Booth-, Booth, just Booth. "How is he?" My voice was giving up on me. Why was I crying? I never cry. His eyes met mine and my entire world collapsed. The green flakes in his eyes told me a story I didn't want to hear, his hand that was reaching up to my arm was showing me a world I didn't want to live in. The words that were coming out of his mouth couldn't reach my ears through the thick air that had surrounded my head.

"-everything we could" My ears came back to life. "He was too far gone when he came in here, the blood loss was too seve-" He stopped talking when he saw the fire in my eyes.

"everything you could?" My voice started to shake even more "if you did everything you could He would be alive, wouldn't he?" I bent down and picked up my purse that I had dropped somehow. "I want to see him. Now." His eyes went blank.

"Ms. Bren-" He caught his own tongue. "Dr. Brennan, you can't see him, you are not allowed in" My throat went dry and all of the words that I wanted to say were lost. Everything was spinning, I felt my skin starting to dampen. Was it hot in here? Why can't I breathe? My body was slowly giving up on me for every breath I took.

"I- I have- I have to-" My body was moving on it's own now, I had to leave. "I have to go, I can't be here" I stumbled away from the doctor, the chair I was sitting in moments before, where I was sitting with hope, I knocked it over. My mind took over, my brain went into overdrive and I tucked away my heart.

The cold march night air hit my face and I could finally breathe, I took a deep breath and the coolness burned it's way down my throat and into my lungs. I have to feel something, I have to do something. I can't be alone. He left me, he was taken from me without a goodbye. I let the breath out, didn't even realise that I was holding it in. Why am I feeling like this? My heart was starting feel like a brick at the bottom of the ocean.

"Work brain, WORK goddamnit!!" I hit myself on the forehead twice, and it hit me. "Where are my keys?" I started patting myself down, searching in all of my pockets. "Where the fuck are my KEYS?!" By now I was yelling into the night. I felt my bag. "They have to be in here" I emptied the contents out on the ground and started to sift through everything from notes on the latest case to the lipgloss that Booth loves. There! Found them! I grabbed them quickly and gathered most of my belongings and ran to my car, I have to get home. I have to shower, his blood, it's still on my hands. I look down at them, my left hand was holding the keys. That one had the most blood, his blood. My right hand was bloody aswell, but I pulled the tigger with that hand. Oh my god, I killed someone. I ended someones life.. Two lives were taken tonight. I shook my head. Focus Temperance, go home. My left hand held up the Keys and pointed then to my pr- Booths car? Why do I have Booths keys? Where is my car? I know I drove here, but why didn't I take my own car?

I shake my head once again, the keys in my hand now felt like a way out. I tightened my grip around the car key and pressed the button to open the doors. The familiar sound of the doors unlocking that assured me that I could get away from here safely.

I reached out and opened the drivers door. This is not my side, this is Booths side. This is all wrong. Why isnt He here with me? My heart started to ache again, started to long for something I couldnt figure out what it was. I threw my bag over to my side of the car and jumped in. The door closed and everything went quiet. The heart ache subsided and became a content reminder that from now on life was going to hurt a little more each day without him here. Life without Seeley Booth. Tears started to form in my eyes, they restes there for a short while before they made their way down my cheeks. Life without his charmig smile and chocolate brown eyes. The keys that belonged to the car were starting at me from my lap. On the key chain wre the car key, a key to my office, a key to his storage locket and two other keys. His. And mine. I have his keys. Im hplding on to everything thats left of him.

I took the keys and put them in and turned on the car, I skipped the seatbelt. Somehow that felt like The right thing to do. Its Booth thing, its Boothy of me. I put the car in drive and slowly guide the car out of the parking lot. "Okay brain think. I have to get home, shower and sleep. I have work tomorrow." I spoke outloud to myself. Getting scared by how quiet it was i pressed number 3 on the radio, my channel that Booth had fixed for me so I didnt have to search everytime I wanted to listen to the slow romantic songs that he knew I like to listen to when everything is too much at work.

We do it all

Everything

On our own

I recognised the song that came on, I think ive heard it before. It made my heart ache even more.

We dont need

Anything

Or anyone

But I do. I need someone. A special someone. I let the song guide me home, The hospital wasnt far from my destination. I just wanted to go home, let this nightmare be over. Tomorrow Booth will call me about a case and it will be like its always been. This is all just a nightmare, just a nightmare.

The streetlights made the car light up every few seconds, a yellow light that the car feel like it was safer than it was. How could a world be safe without Booth? It would be a dangerous without meaning.

I pressed down on the brake when I pulled into a parking spot just beside the stairs leading up to the apartment. I grabbed my bag, pulled out The keys from the ignition and jumped out of the car. The bag found its way to my shoulder and I quickly locked the doors and ran up the stairs. When I got to the door I stopped. I was standing at his door. The red door was starting me right in the face. I knew i shouldn't be here. Its not my place, Im not his girlfriend. Is it even legal for me to do this? Im not breaking in, I have a key. His own key. The one he used to lock his door for the last time, just hours ago. "oh Seeley..." slipper out as I sighed when I stared back at the door. "It wasnt suppossed to happen this way.." I whispered to the hallway. The keys in my hand felt heavier, I looked down at them. My chest expanded as I took a deep breath. "You can do this." I lifted the keys to the keyhole and pushed the right key in. I exhaled. My hand turned the key and I heard a *klick*.

Its open. His door is unlocked now. I just stand there for a few moments, I guess gatherings up the courage to face his apartment without him. To see how it looks like without him there. Does He clean just before I get there? Is it always clean? Maybe he leaves the dishes in the sink for the next day. Does he make his bed every morning? Where did that come from? Why am I interessted in his bed?

I shook my head and looked that the yet to be opened door. Why was I so scared to open it? I should just rip of the tape, as I think Booth would say. My hand reached out and pushed down the doorhandle. It was a lot heavier than I remember. Now that I think of it, have I ever opened this door on my own? Booth always invites me in, so I guess this is The first time for that aswell. I opened the door and was met by Booth, atleast his scent. His aftershave and collogne. He got ready for last night and left his scent for me to find in the early morning after- He got ready for me, just for me. He sat there right infront of me and smiled his biggest smile, just for me. Just like that bullet, he took that bullet just for me. The scent was not allowed to disappear, I rushed in and closed the door. As I turned around I quickly locked it and leaned against it. This way I had the back to the apartment, I didnt have to take it all in directly. My feet took a step back into the apartment and I look to my left, The kitchen. Ive been in there without him. I walked slowly over to the fridge, as if I was afraid I was going to wake someone up. I put my hand on the cold metal and just stood there, breathing.

"What is wrong with you Temperance?" I think outloud. How can I be so irrational? "Im standing in my dead partners kitchen. Crying. He's dead." My chest expanded and I let put a shaky breath. "Booth. Is. Dead." the tears started to roll down my face again as I scanned the pictures on The fridge. The first picture I saw was of the two of us.

*FLASHBACK*

A few weeks back, we all got together to go grab a few drinks at the newly opened bar around the corner. They had pool and darts. We all played a few rounds of darts, I won obviously but Booth was a close second of course. The winner in him wanted a rematch in something I had never played before. I had noticed the pool tables in the back, my eyes glance over to them the moment He asked me for a rematch. "Bones, what are you lo-" as he turned his head he saw what caught my eyes. "have you played before?" He asked with a hint of challenge in his eyes, they were sparkling. Imagine the sun, trees and mountains collide with ten thousand stars. His smile made his eyes shine even brighter.

I shook my head slowly in respons. "No I havent played before, I dont even know to hold The stick that you push the ball with" I met his eyes with mine and saw that his eyes had turned into a dark and playful golden brown.

"its called a cue, Bones." He lifted up his arm as a gesture for me to take the lead. "I'll teach you how to rack 'em up" He said as he winked at me. I walked passed him and I instantly felt a spark light up my entire spine. His hand had found its way to its favorite spot on my lower back.

We got to the table and put down our drinks. He started to roll up his sleeves. GOD He was so sexy with hi-wait wait wait, where the hell did that come from? I might have had a little too much to drink, even though I feel fine otherwise? He looked up at me with the same dark expression as earlier. "are you ready to get your ass kicked, Bones?" He flashed me his charm smile with a wink as he started to rack up the balls. "I rarely lose at anything, you know this Booth!" I said as I sashayed over to the "cues" as he called them. "How do I know which one to take?" I called over my shoulder.

When I didn't hear his voice in the next few seconds I was about to turn around when I heard a whisper. "The one you're holding looks fine" I felt his breath on my pale skin, it turned a lovely shade of pink in a split second. "you're going to have to learn over the table though, I'd love to show you" He quickly added with a deep husky voice I only heard late at night when we sit on The couch after a few to many.

I picked the cue off of its holder and felt the weight of it in my hands. I still felt Booths presence behind me, I closed my eyes as I felt reach around me to take the cue "I think we'll only need one tonight" He whisperer in my ear. He stepped away and was now ready to take me down. On the table I ho- wait, can I stop? "I'll go first, then I'll show you how you do it, capishe?" I nodded quickly a little bit too eagerly for my liking.

He stepped up and used a little blue powder cube on The sti- the cue. I don't really know what its for. He puts the cube down and leans down and angles the cue and breaks the first round. I see how a few balls go down.

"Did you see that only the fully colored ones went down?" I nodded "that means that those are mine now, Im gonna try to take all of mine down before you take down yours, you got it?" I nodded again. I couldnt speak, his presence was shining with confidence and it made him so sexy.

He shot down one more before he missed, which made it my turn." Come over here" He called to me and patted the table infront of him. I hummed as I walked over. "you're not gonna show me how I lose right? You're gonna help me win?" I made my eyes twinkle as I planted myself between the table and his firm body. "you wouldnt cheat would you?" I purred. I saw how his eyes went wide but quickly went dark. "ne-never, I-I would never cheat ON you-WITH YOU." He stuttered.

"Okay then" I said as I put my hand hand over his heart and his hard pectoral muscle. As I moved my hand slightly I could feel the softness of the dress shirt under my hand. My eyes met his. What was I doing? Was I flirting with him? "How do I play to win?" I saw the fire in his eyes as he softly chuckled.

He put his free hand om my hip and squeezed, the fire grew stronger in his eyes. He lifted the cue and gave it to me, I grabbed it with the hand that wasnt on his body. His now other free hand quickly made its way to my other hip and he swung me around. When I fully had turned he trapped me inside with his hands on either side of the table. He stepped closer until his body was tight against mine. "Now." He whispered. "we want the White ball here to hit the blue ball over there, okay?" I could feel his hard body react to the closeness of our bodies. The warmth of his body made mine turn into puddy, so I just nodded. He put his hand on The cue and tipped us over. Now I was trapped between him and The cue, leaning over a table in a dim bar. If only Angela saw us now, the squeal would be heard to the other side of town.

"What you want to do is to lean the cue on your hand, like this" I heard him whisper as he put my hand in position. He put my other hand at the end of the cue and then closed his hand over mine. His breath lightly made my hair move. "then you want to hit the White ball square in the middle." I repositioned my body, feeling his tight body against mine made me feel all tingly inside. I grazed my ass against is growing member. Was he as turned on as I was? He quickly took the hand from the back of the cue and put it on my hip to still my moving body. "Now what you dont want to do, is that." He chuckled, with his deep voice he continued. "that is completly different game, you sure you want to play with the devil?" I felt his lips against my neck as he was speaking.

We continued to play and everytime it was my turn He helped me, even though I could have done it on my own since He showed me the first time. Each time the touching increased. Every time we lined up to play my turn he grabbed me by my hips and pulled me close, I giggled this time. "GOD I love that laugh" I heard him mumble. As we leaned over the table he pressed his body close to mine, I let out a moan. Wait, are we actually doing this?

"if you continue like this Im going to have to throw the game" He chuckled. "and I dont want to do that, because you're winning somehow" as he said the last words I glance over to the few balls that were left. I had to find a way to make the game end. "Maybe I want to play with the devil" I huskily breathe out. "next ball down wins?" I ask as I press my ass against his hard member.

He stepped back, slapped me on the ass lightly "You're on. But you are all on your own now" He didnt move far, I could still feel his heat close to my body. I aimed the cue towards the White ball and I hit it square in the middle and it knocked down one of my last balls. I put down the cue on the table and turned to him. His eyes turned a shade I havent seen before, they were on fire.

The pool tables were in the far back of the bar next to a hallway to the bathrooms. I walked past him as I put my hand on his shoulder and whispered in his ear "I won, didnt I?" I smirked and continued to walk towards the hallway. He stood there shocked before he realised I was gone. His body caught up to mine and he grabbed my hand to spin me into his body. "Now where are you going, Lady?" this felt like a dream, how did this happen?. His deep dark eyes were making my body quiver with need.

He stalked me until my body felt the wall behind me. "I told you, that-" He put a hand beside my head as I let out a shaky breath. I didnt wear heels today so that made me much smaller than I usually am. He looked down into my eyes. "-that if you continued to play like that, the devil would come out to play" with that he put his other hand just where my skirt ended. He lightly brushed against my skin that was already on fire. His hand slowly made its way up my body and then he wrapped his arm around my waist pulling me in tightly. "I'll ask again.." He leaned in closer an inch from my mouth, almost asking for permission. "do you" He eyes glance down at my lips as my tongue started out almost touching his. "wanna play with the devil?" His eyes came up to met mine again.

"Only if the devil wants to play with me" I got out before his mouth crashed against mine. My arms landed around his shoulder. His mouth against mine felt like finding home. We fought for dominance as his tongue asked for permission. He let down his arms and grabbed my ass and lifted me up, I hooked my legs around his waist. He pressed me against the wall so we wouldnt fall. His body felt so good, my skirt rode up my legs and gave him more access. My body quivered at the thought of him even being this close. A familiar feeling was pooling in my lower stomach. I could feel him pressed against my wet core. I was right before. He was just as turned on as me. His lips left mine and started traveling down my neck. They found a sweet spot just behind my ear. He heard me moan, to that he growled and bit down lightly. He kissed the spot he bit and continued down my body. His member was grinding against my core as I let my head fall back against the wall. "Sweetie??" I opened my eyes in panic. I felt Booth tense up. He quickly let me down and I pulled down my skirt. The dim light helped us cover the fact that our faces were red. The sexual tension was not as easy to hide. Angela wouldnt notice, she always thinks there is tension between us, if i remember correctly she once said "the tension is so thick I could cut it with a knife" I dont really get what she means by that, because tension isnt something you can touch or cut into.

Angela turned the corner just as all of our clothes ha found their original spot. "Sweetie! There you are!!" she came up to us and grabbed my arm. "ive been looking for you two everywhere!!" she looked at us, neither of us said anything. We looked at each other and quickly looked back at Angela again. If we looked at each other for any longer she would know. "we have been taking photos all night and you two are not in any of them, come ooon" she lifts up a camera to her face and steps back. "Come on, look like you're having fun atleast" Booths arm found its way around my waist again and he looked at me "yeah Bones, look like you're having fun" He looked me me straight in the eyes with his playful glare and that me giggle and give him a huge smile, thats when I heard the *klick*. "oh my god!! Perfection!! I'll send you guys a copy, okay I'll see you in there" as Angela turned and walked away Booth burried his face in my neck.

He kept that picture on his fridge. We were so happy here, and god that night! His lips on my neck made my body burst into flames. My eyes traveled over a picture of pops and him, a picture of the whole team and then a picture of a boy with blond curly hair came into view. "parker! Oh no.."

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