Seated in the cold, haunting dining room a tense Sirius sat on the edge of his seat as though he was getting ready to sprint away at any given second.
Since he escaped Azkaban, he was constantly worried he'd get found by the ministry or death eaters and have to leave Harry and Remus all over again. Also the thought of facing the Dementors chilled him to the bone. Sirius spent his days on edge and snapping at everyone who got too close or spoke too loudly.
Despite the fact that his friends knew he was innocent, Sirius still felt immense guilt about the incident that happened 13 years ago. Even after over a decade Sirius was still blaming himself and letting it tear him up from the inside, though he refused to talk about it.
"Sirius, you need to loosen up! Everyone knows you're innocent now and you can get back out there. Honestly, when was the last time that you got involved with someone?" Tonks spoke out after another loss of temper from Sirius' part.
"Yeah Tonks is right, I mean it must be at least 13 years. I don't suppose you got intimate with anyone recently?" Said Harry.
It was the christmas holidays and Harry,Hermione,Remus,Tonks and the Weasley's stayed with Sirius at his childhood home.
"Okay, hold up, I'm not going to talk about my intimacy with you guys, especially you young'ns" Sirius retorted.
Being in this house didn't help with Sirius' uneasiness. Grimmauld Place was more of a living hell to Sirius then a home. The majority of the memories he had here was of his parents torturing him and his family speaking about 'dirty mud bloods and half-breeds'. The memories came like floods to Sirius, no matter how hard he tried to keep them at bay.
Later that evening Molly and Sirius were the only ones left in the kitchen as everyone else retired to the sitting room.
Molly was a very kind and caring woman and always wanted to make sure her family was happy so when she noticed Sirius wasn't, she became determined.
"I know you still care for Remus, and I know you miss him" she said.
"Of course I care for him, he's my best friend and yeah I miss him, we've barely spoken since harry started back at Hogwarts this year."
"You know that's not what I meant, just admit that you love him"
"What gave you that impression Molly?"
"Well, your eyes get this sparkle in them when you talk to or about Remus. And when you speak to him, you seem as though you can breathe and you're at ease unlike every other time..."Molly rhymed off the reasons for her thinking Sirius was in love with Remus.
"Okay, maybe you're right. Maybe I do love Remus, but I can't be with him. We don't speak much anymore and he doesn't trust me, I mean a year ago he thought I betrayed and killed his best friends!" Sirius cried.
"Look, I think you should tell Remus how you feel and you can't blame him for thinking you were guilty, the evidence was very convincing!"
After a long consideration Sirius reluctantly agreed to tell Remus about his love for Remus. He was terrified.
This is my first attempt at writing fanfiction. I have 5 short chapters written for this I can post more?