Chase POV

'I am not good at love. That's for sure. First Sabrine, but well, that wasn't my false. Then Sebastian, god, that one hurt. And now? Reese. Maybe Bree and Adam were right all along, maybe no one would ever like me. Maybe I am weird. Maybe I am meant to be alone.'

Douglas was in the hospital and it was my fault. I had trusted Reese. I had taken Reese to the penthouse. It was my fault. Right now everyone was at the hospital with Douglas, included Adam and Leo but I had come back to the building. I just couldn't stand to see the disappointment in his face, or in Adam's, Mr. Davenport's, well in everyone's faces. Because I knew there were disappointed. I sure was. I was just sitting down on the floor in Mission Command, I didn't want everyone to see me when they got back. Before I could realize I was crying, my head full of "what ifs" and bad things about me.

'I don't contribute anything to the team. Skylar is a greater leader. Any computer can make what I do. I shouldn't be here. I am useless. I am a burden.' those thoughts appeared in my mind. A memory flashed into my head.

Flashback

I was 7 years old, Adam was teasing me and calling me weak. I really felt weak, my abilities didn't help me with any game, but I was okay with it, I was smarter than them, or that's what I told myself. Actually, I was tired of being left aside. I sat in front of Mr. Davenport's computer and started looking for things, ways of stopping Adam's teasing and the voices in his head. I don't know how I ended finding that physical pain reduced psychological pain, I knew I didn't need it, but I was really curious about how it felt. I found a swiss knife/multipurpose in my dad's stuff and put it against my arm's skin. I looked around trying to see if Adam and Bree were paying attention to me, but they weren't, like always. I cut myself and looked and the injury, trying to understand why it felt relieving and why people did it. Not having an answer I was going to do it again, but Mr. Davenport entered the lab and took the knife out of my hands.

End of flashback

'I need to find Reese, Roman and Riker' I thought, but my head was full of nonsense. So, remembering the feeling, I took out my own swiss knife and cut myself. Feeling my mind brighter, and after putting on a bandage, I started looking for them on the console. Every lead I had, took me to a dead-end. I didn't realize how much time had happened, but I hoped enough so that everyone was back and in bed. I wasn't lucky enough. I went to the penthouse and when the Hidroloop door opened I saw everyone. I hung my head in shame and was going to go back to MC, but Adam talked

"Oh Chasey, I thought you were more intelligent, being the smartest man in the world and all that, but, being fooled a second time? When will you understand no girl or boy will ever like you" he said mockingly and laughing softly. But for once, I didn't answered him, or told him to stop, or rolled my eyes. I just stayed looking and the floor, defeated.

"You are right. I should have known. You and Bree were always right, I will never have a girlfriend or boyfriend and nobody would ever like me. I am sorry it took two attacks caused by me for me to realize" I looked at Douglas "I am sorry" I told the hidroloop to take me back to the MC. I wanted to cry, I wanted to cut, but I needed to find them

Bree POV

"That was totally unnecessary Adam" Mr. Davenport told him

"But it's true, he got fooled two times" he answered

"But we all make mistakes, and I think Mr. Davenport was talking about you telling Chase he would never be loved" I continued.

"But it was a joke, we always tease him!" my older brother defended himself

"But it wasn't the time for a joke! I will go talk to him" I said walking to the hidroloop, but Douglas stopped me

"I think Chase needs to be alone and forgive himself" I nodded. Oliver, Kaz and Skylar where looking at us curiously

"Wait, Adam said this was the second time, which was the first one?" I sighed and explained Sebastian's story

"And Chase fell in love with him, but he betrayed him, even attacked us and tried to kill Mr. Davenport. So yeah, it was rough for Chase" I finished. Oliver seemed quite happy?

"I didn't know he was into guys" he said. I nodded.

"He is Bi, just like me, he never says it because he thinks it's not important"

"Okay everyone, I think we should all get some rest, specially me" Douglas said while walking to his room.

I saw as everyone started walking away, but I just stayed looking at the hidroloop

"You coming Babe?" I heard Skylar ask me and I nodded as I walked to our room

Chase POV

I stayed awake all night trying to locate Roman, Riker and Reese. But I was really tired and fell asleep without even realizing.

"Chase? Did you sleep here?" I heard Mr. Davenport talking and I slowly opened my eyes

"I didn't realize, sorry, I wanted to stay awake all night" I murmured will standing up straight

"You look bad, how much time did you sleep?" he asked sounding… worried, but it couldn't be. I didn't make eye contact with him, not wanting to see the disappointment in Big D's eyes

"Well, last time I checked the clock while working it was 6 o'clock, and now it's 8, so I guess two hours, one and a half maybe" I answered looking at the screen

"But Chase! That's too…"
"Much, yeah, I know, I should have been working" I interrupted

"Little" he said without skipping a beat "You should sleep more"

'So I have less time to screw up' I thought

"Breakfast is almost ready, don't lose it" he said while heading to the Hidroloop. I didn't have any intention of going to breakfast, or lunch, or any meal, so I stayed at MC working, I planed on staying all day in there, or until I found our three enemies, but things don't always happen as planned. It was the early afternoon when I couldn't stand it anymore. All I could think of were all my defects and things I did wrong. My head hurt and I felt dizzy, I just couldn't concentrate on my work. I felt my legs failing me and I sat on the floor, grabbing my head with my hands and hiding it between my knees. I grabbed my swiss knife and was going to cut when someone entered Mission Command. I quickly put away my knife in my pocket and stood up, leaning onto the desk so I wouldn't fall because of my dizziness

"Chase" when I heard his voice I immediately looked and the screen and tried to work again, but I just couldn't concentrate, It was already difficult only with my mind, but at that moment I also had a physical reminder of my mistakes

"Yes?" I tried to say without my voice breaking

"You didn't came up to have breakfast or lunch, we are worried" Douglas stood between me and the screen so that I would look at him in the eyes. To my surprised there wasn't disappointment in them. But that didn't stopped my head from telling me how useless I was

"I was trying to find Riker, Roman and Reese" I murmured

"But you need to sleep and eat Chase!"

"I need to repair my mistake. Mistake that got you into hospital!" I said, I little louder than I wanted. I was using all of my willpower to not cry

"Chase…" my dad/uncle started, but it was quickly cut off by a video message

"Hey Chase, sorry to tell you this in a video message, but we couldn't get ourselves to tell you face to face" I heard Bree's voice and quickly walked around the desk, so I could stand in front of Douglas and see the screen. The video showed Kaz, Oliver and Bree in the street, all with smoothies in their hands

"We want you to quit the Elite Force" Kaz continued. I was devastated, I knew I didn't contribute anything to the team, but it hurt to hear it from my teammates.

"You being kind of useless and even a burden. We know you understand" hearing Oliver said that hurt the most. Mostly because, even though I wouldn't even confess it to myself, I did had a crush on him.

I could feel the tears forming in my eyes and I stumbled backwards, taking my hands to my face.