A drop of wine made its way down the side of the bottle, ending it's journey by staining the napkin below with a bloody star burst. Y/N tapped the top of her glass with her nail, listening to the gentle ring as she gazed out the window. It had begun to snow– the first of the season.

Y/N was desperately trying to get into the holiday spirit, and she grabbed her wand with her free hand to point it at her gramophone in the corner to flip her Celestina Warbeck holiday record. The needle landed gently on the b-side and "Merry Christmas, Happy Goblin Days" started with a quiet crackle. A song that would normally make her want to get up and sing, only coaxed a sigh from her.

Christmas used to be a fun time when she was in school. Large parties at the family estates, wearing fancy dresses and stuffing themselves silly with horderves. Sneaking into their father's studies to snoop through the drawers before running away giggling, Ms. Zabini's extravagant gifts of fine jewelry that every year got more stunning. Loading their pockets with olives and crackers, and braving the cold outside to try and coax the Malfoy's albino peacocks close enough to stroke. And the one year they all stayed at Hogwarts during the Triwizard Tournament, it's own league of fun and dressing up.

And then she remembers no Christmas parties at all.

Now she has no big house to live in, no fun parties to go to, and the first night she needs to build a fire in her little house always stirs up feelings of nostalgia and longing. It's annoying to feel depressed for no reason, but almost just as annoying when she realizes, year after year, it's about how winter reminds her of him.

The dregs at the bottom of Y/N's glass have created interesting patterns. She doesn't remember emptying her glass again. The snow outside is coming down in big flakes now, and her record has gone silent. She still has a few hours to kill before she needs to start dinner. Perhaps a walk in the fresh snow can get her out of her Christmas funk.

Y/N pulls on her boots and coat at the door. She decides a hat is in order with all this heavy precipitation, and reaches up to the top shelf in the hall closet to grab her warm knit one. Something else comes down with the hat, and a length of emerald fabric pools at her feet. At one end are the initials D.M. in elegant silver stitching. Y/N had forgotten she'd had this. She considers kicking to the back of the closet for a moment while her chest swirls with a concoction of emotions, before snatching up the scarf and looping it around her neck.

A scarf is a scarf, and it's unfortunately as warm as she remembered.

Y/N and Pansy Parkinson laid side by side on the cold oak floors of Malfoy Manor, carefully monitoring the planks for creaking. "I haven't heard anything for a few minutes," Pansy whispers.

"Me either," Y/N says back.

"Check the clock again."

Y/N carefully moves herself into an upright position and pads across the floor to check the clock on the nightstand of the room she and Pansy are sharing for the night. Together, the hands read exactly twelve fourty-five. She pads back and lies down next to Pansy again, taking a moment to steady her breathing before relaying the information.

"Shall we go?"

Y/N bites her lip, pretending to contemplate. "Yes. Should we take a candle?"

"No, stipud, we have to go in the dark. The moon is out. We should be able to see."

Y/N looks back at the bed to look at the lumps under the covers they had created with pillows, and then follows Pansy out into the hall. Sure enough, moonlight streaks through the windows. The girl's socked feet make no sounds as they count the doors and go around the corner. When they reach Draco's bedroom, they stop and hold their breath to listen at the door. Y/N can hear that Draco, Blaise, and Theo are still awake and talking.

Pansy gently knocks on the door three times, waits, and then another three times, before cracking it open so they can slip inside. Abandoning all care, they sprint the few steps into Draco's room before launching onto the bed with their other friends. "We had to wait a little while longer," Y/N explains, "Dobby was in the hall cleaning."

Draco, who is perched atop a pillow and leaning against his elaborate headboard, rolls his eyes. "Stupid elf. He should be downstairs cleaning, where the party was, not up here. I can't believe our family got stuck with such a useless one."

"That's why my mum just got rid of ours and hired a person," Blaise says.

"I've told father we should do the same, but he insists that people are too inclined to snoop," Draco's eyes glint with importance. "At least house elves you can be sure they won't tell anyone anything."

Pansy nods along with Draco as he speaks. Y/N curls her feet under her and rearranges her nightgown about her legs. "Have you tried asking Dobby about the Heir of Slytherin? If he has been around your family for a long time, maybe he knows something." Y/N tries to steer the conversation to what they were discussing before being sent to bed, a topic they all found very important and adult.

"I doubt he would've had access to important information like that, besides, it's not me," Draco says.

Blaise, Theo, and Pansy all do the same. "I don't understand who it could be if it's none of us. We're the most important people in our house," Theo says.

"Maybe it's a Pureblood who got sorted into another house, and wants revenge on the sorting hat," Pansy suggests.

Blaise wrinkles his nose. "Ew, like Weasley?"

They all laugh at that, and spend hours into the morning spinning increasingly wild theories, only to be found in a heap on Draco's bed the next morning by their parents.

The snow outside is satisfyingly crisp under Y/N's feet. She looks down, mesmerized as her boots cut into the fresh, untouched snow and leave behind a perfect imprint of her boot. She refocuses her eyes to her hair, spilling over her coat and scarf as thick white flakes catch on the strands. Only a few minutes into her walk, she's dappled with snow.

Thinking about old times in Malfoy Manor make her smile. The property itself isn't very far from her current home. After the war, she'd tried to move around to various wizarding communities, but none were all too welcoming. Even though Y/N's family's estate was lost to her, being back in the area she grew up brought her some comfort. Even if Draco's home was still only a few miles away.

The empty road lined with trees soon gave way to a tiny town. It was once filled with bustling shops for the magical folk in the area, disguised as run down buildings to any muggle passing from afar. Now, most of the stores truly were that, only a few like the food markets, apothecary and bookshop were still open. As Y/N passed the old tailor's shop, she tilted her head to the sky, sticking her tongue out to catch a snowflake.

"Y/N, have you given any more thought to what colors we should wear to the ball?" Draco moves the letter away from his face, letting his arm flop off the side of the couch.

Y/N sets down her quill next to the divination chart she's working on. "Last I heard from mum, she was sending me three to try in green, ice blue and some shade of purple. Do you care to look at the clippings of the different styles she owled me yesterday?"

"Not particularly," Draco sighs, looking past her and into the distance. At Y/N's beat of silence, Draco moves his eyes back to her. "I am sure whatever you pick will look very pretty," he adds, lifting his mother's letter to emphasize.

Y/N smiles a little despite herself. "I don't know why she keeps writing you, my own mother is just as accessible."

"I know!" Draco groans. The fire in the common room hearth gently illuminates his handsome features he's grown into the past two years. Y/N goes back to her essay. "Pans still not talking to you?" Draco asks, tossing the letter on the table and turning on his side to look at Y/N more directly.

Y/N just shakes her head.

"Well, she'll get over it soon enough, whatever it is."

But Y/N knew exactly the reason why Pansy wasn't talking to her, and the reason was sitting right in front of her. Pansy could be stubborn sometimes, but this was going on for nearly a week now with no conversation outside of anything in a classroom, if that. "I just want us all to have a fun time at Christmas here," Y/N sighs, resting her head on her hands. "It's probably the only time our parents will let us stay here over break."

Draco looks at Y/N sympathetically. "I know. I'll try to talk to her again tomorrow. You sure you don't know what's got her bothered?"

Y/N bites her lip before deciding it's stupid to hold out. "I think she's upset about who she's going to the ball with."

"What?" Draco says, wrinkling his brow. "Why, what's wrong with Theo?"

Y/N picks her quill back up and pretends to contemplate her essay agan, so her words seem more casual. "I think she's upset that you didn't ask her."

"Well, that's dumb. She knows damn well I can ask who I want, and I asked you." Draco catches Y/N's eyes and gives her a sly smile. "I'll talk to her. I dunno what's got her wand in such a twist these days."

"Thanks, Draco."

"Anytime. Hey, speaking of dates, who do you reckon Potter is bringing?"

"Maybe Snape."

Draco laughs, and Y/N can't help but feel warm inside.

Y/N is long past the shops, and is almost near what is considered the park for the area. Mostly a collection of short, winding trails through the trees, now transformed into a gigantic snowglobe in less than an hour. Bird sounds are amplified in the silence the snow brings, and two robins chase each other across the path. Their red feathers look beautiful against the white. Y/N walks her favorite trail, stopping to look at the frost covering the berries on a bush, and check a branch to see how many inches of snow have fallen so far. At the place where her path converges with another, she notices another set of footprints. They lead in the direction of the lake, and she decides to follow them, Y/N carefully stepping in the tracks of whoever came before her.

The snow has significantly improved Y/N's mood. The snowflakes clinging to her hair and eyelashes make her feel like a winter fairie, and the combination of the wine and her layers has her feeling cozy against the cold. She crosses her feet over to fit in the footprints, like she's walking a tightrope. Y/N is so focused on her footsteps again that she doesn't realize right away that she's reached the lake.

When a familiar root forces her to take a large step into her next foorprint she looks up. The lake hasn't frozen over yet, and it's dark water stands out in contrast to the pale sky and landscape surrounding it. Even the bank on the other side is white, white, white, and Y/N's gasp cuts through the quiet as she takes in the view. "Wow."

Something in her peripheral vision moves, and Y/N turns to see what it was. Sitting on the bench facing the lake several feet away is Draco Malfoy. He's the mirror image of the landscape she sees before him, all pale hair and face emerging from a black coat. And he looks positively scared to see Y/N.

It's a look she knows all too well.

"Y/N," Draco says, half greeting and half in surprise.

"Draco." Y/N stares back, almost equally bewildered. "I… I was just thinking about you, actually."

"That's funny… so was I," he says. "Would you like to come sit?"

Y/N makes her way over to the bench, and Draco pulls his wand out from his coat and melts the remaining snow on the bench. Y/N tucks her coat beneath her and sits down, unable to look away from Draco. Despite the fact that he still looks unsure, he's not looking away either.

It's been almost five years since Y/N has seen Draco. She can't help but drink in the sight of him, just as handsome and heartbroken as the day he'd left. Already she's shifting on the bench to face him.

"You look well," Draco finally says.

"Funny, you don't."

Draco laughs. Really hard. "You can always tell, can't you?"

Y/N just shrugs. "I am a talented witch, what can I say."

Draco reaches out and fingers the edge of Y/N's scarf, and her heart drops in her chest. She'd forgotten his initials were on display. "You kept this?"

Y/N is quite focused on Draco's ungloved hand in close proximity to her body, but she does say, "I honestly had forgotten about it until today."

Draco lets go of the scarf. "I remember when I gave that to you."

"So do I."

Draco doesn't put his hand back into his pocket, and instead lets it rest on the bench in between them.

"I miss you," Y/N blurts out.

"Me, too," Draco says immediately.

Y/N scoots a fraction closer, and Draco's hand moves from the bench to the top of Y/N's knee.

Y/N curls closer into Draco's lap, and dips her finger below the collar of Draco's dress shirt to trail her nail up his neck and along his hairline. Draco runs his finger slowly back and forth across Y/N's bare kneecap.

"Ugh," Pansy pretends to act disgusted as she glares at her best friends from the opposite couch. "I can't believe I used to want that."

Daphne runs her fingers through Pansy's hair affectionately, and Y/N can feel Draco's laugh in his chest. "Yeah, and I can't believe how much you acted like a bitch over it."

Pansy rolls her eyes and just settles against Daphne. "That was like a month, Draco. Besides, nothing could ever separate me and Y/N."

That night Y/N lays awake in the guest bedroom as Astoria sleeps in the twin bed opposite her. Pansy has ditched her this year to share with Daphne, which was expected, but didn't make sleeping in the same room with Astoria any less weird to her. But it was fine, really.

She checked the clock beside her bed. Almost one in the morning.

Y/N threw back the covers, not bothering to hide her tracks. Astoria was a smart girl, and all the parents never bothered to check the rooms anymore. When Y/N reached Draco's room around the corner, she just knocked once. The door flew open, revealing a tired, yet no less excited Draco.

"Hey."

"Hey."

Draco grabbed her by the wrist and swept her inside.

Y/N moved her hand to rest on top of Draco's. "I miss everyone. But especially you." She runs her thumb across Draco's knuckles. "Are you busy tonight?"

"Absolutely free," Draco says breathlessly.

"Good," Y/N says, "because I still have half a bottle of wine to finish."