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Trigger warnings: Attempted Suicide, Substance Abuse, Mental Health
Song: "Hold On" by Chord Overstreet

Yugi was driving faster than usual down the busy streets of Domino city. The familar roads all a blur right now. His mind a buzz as his focus was on the road infront of him. Frantic, praying. The phone next to him the only passenger, still on the text message open to Atem's somber farewell text. A few days ago they had a fight. One of those petty fights that he doesn't remember why they ever fought in the first place.

"Loving and fighting, accusing, denying"

Fighting tears that threatened to blur his vision on the road, he shouldn't have left Atem alone. He knew he should have listened to his gut not to trust Atem's 'oh-so-convincing' smile and lie that 'he was fine' after they made up, but still felt the need that they needed some time a part for a few days to clear the air. A few days he totally miss counted while he stayed with Joey halfway across the city. He knew what today was. How can he be so stupid to forget?!

"I can't imagine a world with you gone. The joy and the chaos, the demons we're made of, I'd be so lost if you left me alone"

Yugi cursed at himself as tears ran down his cheeks, gritting his teeth as memories of their laughter played in his mind, all the times their's and their friend's life were in danger and in chaos, the time he lost his soul to the orichalcos. Showed each other their demons by that cursed green stone and that horrible card. Today was THAT day that happened years ago in America. Of all days to be gone, today was NOT suppose to be one of those days! He finally saw their apartment complex, parked where he could and ran to his apartment. He grabed the emergency key under the carpet having forgotten his key the day he left after their fight, and open the door and didn't bother to close it again. Running all over their apartment searching for his boyfriend. "ATEM! PLEASE ANSWER ME! WHERE ARE YOU?!" He ran to the last place he can think of.

"You locked yourself in the bathroom"

He knew it, he pushed on the door and banged on it repeatedly. "ATEM PLEASE OPEN THE DOOR! ATEM!" Hearing no response, he kicked and banged the door harder.

"Lying on the floor when I break through"

Yugi felt like he couldn't breath. As if someone stabbed him in the heart and he was gasping for life. What he saw in front of him, he will never unsee. There on the floor was Atem, a bottle of pain killers next to his hand and a few pills still laying around scattered. "ATEM!" He yelled, running and fell by his boyfriend's side.

"I pull you in to feel your heartbeat"

As soon as he felt the faint heart beat, he knew he wasn't comeplelty gone as he thought, a slight relief, but he wasn't in the clear yet.

"Can you hear me screaming,"

"Please don't leave me! Hold on, I still want you. Come back, I still need you. Let me take your hand, I'll make it right. I swear to love you all my life. Hold on, I still need you." Yugi cried into Atem's ear as he held him close, tears falling onto his face as he held onto Atem's limp hand, before laying it on Atem's abdomen and carried his boyfriend to his car.

"Long endless highway, you're silent beside me"

Yugi was racing down the roads, signs and lights blurred as he headed straight for Domino Hospital, taking quick looks to his passenger side at his partner slumped on the door.

"Driving a nightmare I can't escape from. Helplessly praying, the light isn't fading"

He wished it wasn't taking this long to see the hospital in view, he could see the paleness showing on his lover's once rich tan skin. Tears falling down his face at the sight, he really hoped it wasn't coming down to that. He really didn't want to lose him this way. Oh please someone end this nightmare! As if on que the Domino Hosptial sign was straight ahead and he rushed to the ER side honking his horn to catch the nurses' attention.

"Hiding the shock and the chill in my bones"

Hands were still shaking, but he tried his best to keep his composure as his car was swarmed by doctors and nurses, checking his lover. Only mouthing to them 'OD' cus words failed to come out at the time.

"They took you away on a table"

Yugi watched as they rolled Atem to a room, IVs getting started.

"I pace back and forth as you lay still"

He was too worried and he watched as the doctors worked, the heartmonitor showing a very weak pulse, and then slowly coming to a flatline.

"They pull you in to feel your heartbeat"

Doctors now scrambled for the defibulators as they tried their best to revive his lover, he couldn't take what he was seeing playing out in front of him.

"Can you hear me screaming,"

"PLEASE DON'T LEAVE ME!"

He rushed into the room of doctors, ignoring their commands to get back and trying to pry him off his lover.

"Hold on, I still want you. Come back, I still need you." He chocked out, tears falling on his lover's chest, he fought the nurses trying to take him away.

"Let me take your hand, I'll make it right"

Yugi grabed Atem's hand and squeezed it tightly wishing that alone would wake up his lover from this death sleep.

"I swear to love you all my life. Hold on, I still need you."

They finally pried him off his grip of his lover and ushered him out of the room kicking and screaming for Atem, the last of his view of him before the door closed was the doctors setting up for another shock. He was all alone in the waiting room. Lost within his thoughts.

A few hours later...

"I don't wanna let go, I know I'm not that strong." Yugi said softly, Atem was in the ICU now. Heart monitor beeping a soft rythem, monitoring his vitals. Yugi sitting by his side holding onto his hand as he continued to whisper to his lover. Hoping somehow he would hear him.

"I just wanna hear you saying "baby, let's go home"." Tears fell as Yugi gripped tighter on his partner's hand as he kept speaking.

"Let's go home. Yeah, I just wanna take you home. Hold on, I still want you. Come back, I still need you." Was all Yugi can say, the silent prayer hoping to be answered, before leaning his head down. He kisses his partner's hand before he rested his forehead on his and Atem's joined hands on the bed. Suicide doesn't end the pain, it just gives it to someone else.

End

Sorry y'all, the lyrics to the song just spoke to me in ways that tore my heart out, but it helped me with my own situation going on in my life right now. It opened up my eyes to something I was blind to. So it caused me to write this very emotional story. Sorry for the angst and tears.

Yugioh, Yugi Muto, Atem and Joey belongs to Kazuki Takahashi

Song: "Hold On" belongs to Chord Overstreet

Story belongs to me