It's been a month since fairy tail disbanded, Natsu left, and Aquarius left me. For the first two weeks, I stood at magnolia, not in my apartment, nowhere fairy tail was, Before Tartaros. Everyone had left but I got visits from Erza. She would drop food off for me because she knew that I didn't care about me right now. I was drowned in sadness. In my own tears. I stood there night and day crying. Longing for fairy tail, Aquarius, for Natsu and happy my best friends. But none of them were there of course. Usually, when I turn around there's always people or at least someone there but this time there's nothing but darkness.
After three weeks Erza told me that she was leaving. I encouraged her I felt like a burden. "before I leave. I have some words of advice. You need to find out who you are. You're not this. A girl who drowns in her sorrows. Figure out to love yourself. And don't let guilt consume you. I love you lucy..you'll always be my favorite celestial wizard, a great teammate, and most important of all my little sister," she says as she embraces me. Her moving words brought me to tears, "E-Erza!" I said as I sobbed. This meant a lot to me.
just a little bit before the fourth week came I decided that's I needed to leave. When walking away I looked back at my home. Tears began falling but not due to sadness for once. These feelings were foreign. I stuck my hand up, my hand shoots the fairy tail symbol for the last time. "E-even if I can't see you...no matter how far away you guys maybe... I will always be watching over you guys," I say to myself as I take my final steps away from my home.
Presently, I'm on the train heading to the Stellar kingdom. The train is completely empty due to how many people are focused on rebuilding in Magnolia and all the other places. "Open the gate of the southern cross CRUX.." asleep floating cross appears. "Hey wakes up..." I start but as soon as I do so a loud noise that is in between a snort and a sneeze causes me to flinch. "A-ah um nice to see you too crux...can you please help me out. I'm looking for a spell to make a trainer.." I say. Now, this may sound weird. But all Magic users who want to excel in their magic have the ability to make a subconscious trainer this makes the training more difficult yet highly more effective. "Let me look for the spell.." he begins snoring. I wait until I've awakened from this waiting with the weird noise. "AHOO-UGH...I found it. I was able to memorize it. Listen carefully.." Crux says as he begins telling me. I memorize the spell in my head. Well, at least I think I did. "Thank you Crux..." I say as I close his gate
The train ride is over and when you first enter Stellar kingdom It seems like a giant jungle. That's the part I'll be staying in. Not the one with people Mavis knows that I need to stay away from them. I set up a camp in the middle of the forest. Before heading to bed I cast the spell.
When casting the spell a yellow circle surrounds my body and writing appears on my arms. It felt like a person was being sucked out of me. And as quick a second the person appears in front of me.
"Hello, Lucy-Chan I'm Mia...I will be your teacher for a while," Mia says. She is a beautiful well-bodied female. She has short brown hair that's cut into a sort of bob, blue eyes, toned. "Hi, Sensei.," I say pushing my fist on to my hand, I'm bowing slightly in respect.
"Lucy what you want to achieve will be tough. I'm letting you know that due to the way you performed the spell. I can't and won't stop training with you until ..you know what I'll let figure that out your self.. follow me.."Mia says as she smiles. I am amazed at myself of how realistic Mia is. I release myself from the bow and follower her.
She leads me to a river, ' Can you see the little waves..they're moving really fast. Now you see the stick. It's getting pushed. It's barely surviving..that's you. You're getting pushed by life. And you're accepting it.." Mia says as she looks at her. "T-That's not true..I'm trying. It's just hard.." I say as I cross my arm. Do I even believe that? "Everything you did while with fairy tail was hard. And you still tried and succeeded. It's only complicated this time because you don't have anyone there but yourself...why isn't that enough for you Lucy? Why?" Mia says as she follows the stick. My lips tremble slightly due to the fact that she is right, "I want to recognize that I'm enough but it's just not true. I'm weak I offered up Aquarius. I lost my guild and my best friend after doing so," I say as I follow Mia.
"Yes, you did sacrifice Aquarius. I think that's where all mental hardships stem from. You have survived without Natsu and the guild having them was a luxury," Mia says as she stops in her path and glares at me. "What! No fairytail was family. It's not a luxury to have family," I say as I grimace back at her. "If they were your family why did they leave?" She says leaving me flabbergast. "That's a good ass question," I say quietly .
"Lucy, for today to the end of this training I want you to realize that people come and go. But you.." she pauses and points at my chest. Her touch even feels realistic. "You'll always be stuck with yourself. You just have to decide which version of yourself you want to be..the weak, fragile, dependent one. Or the powerful, considerate, self-sufficient Lucy" she says as she turns to walk back to my campsite.