When love is real, it finds a way to meet you again. or not?
Its funny how seeing you makes my heart happy at the same time broken again...
Its been 10 years I already build my army Jouishishi called Freedom Fighters and our hideout is in AkibaNeo, its a small town in EDO. I'm creating my resume and I'm researching about Shinsengumi, the bakufu's dog Shinsengumi is the new special police to capture all the Jouishishi, they will be a big enemy to us. Sakamoto called me yesterday saying that his business is not well in the past few weeks so I need to find a part time job because I cant always depend on Sakamoto, I heared he likes Mutsu his vice commander, I hope Sakamoto stop being an Idiot and confess to Mutsu before its too late. After I'm done with my resume and research I got up and go outside to breath some fresh air.
Joui1: Katsura-sama good morning do you want a tea?
no.. I'll just walk around...
Joui1: But Katsura-sama what if the bakufu's dog is on the road?
I will disguist myself into a monk.
After I change my clothes, I saw the class picture of us. I am now 27 years old, Its been 10 years and I still can't leave the memory behind. I miss you guys, sensei sorry I cant visit you to your grave.
I went outside with the thought of my old friends how are they? since the day they left I don't have a news about them. I'm glad Sakamoto find me and keep me in touch.
Flashback 10 years ago after Zura went to River
I went to sensei's grave near our own grave. I get sensei and burried him in our old school. Sensei love the school so he will be happy to go back here. I went to our old room. The only place burned is the place of our classroom and training room, I'm glad sensei's room and our room is not burned. I clean the rooms and change my clothes every night I cried in sensei's grave asking why this happened to us, everynight I feared to sleep because of the nightmare so I didnt sleep at night but I sleep in the morning. I didnt eat healthy food. My rotation is morning sleep then go to sensei's grave to pray and clean I also go to my parents and grandmother's grave to pray at night I'm going to eat a fruit that I get from our tree. Its been half a year thats my only rotation. One day I heared someone's laugh, I know thats laugh its from Sakamoto, maybe I'm starting to hallucinate because I didnt have enough sleep and healthy food. I get up and go to the temple's entrance I saw Sakamoto
Sakamoto: Its been awhile Zura ahahaha ahahaha... What happen to you? You look dead.
I stared at Sakamoto I want to talk but I cant find a word to say, I just cry
Sakamoto: Hey Hey Zura no crying... Gintoki and Takasugi will be mad if they saw you cry.
Sakamoto hold my hands and help me get up and go to the room.
Sakamoto: so this is your hideout after war? Do you still eat and sleep you look so skinny and unhealthy. Glad I brought foods, water and medicine. Someone told me that you live here.
I'm glad Sakamoto stayed with me saying that I still have reasons to live, little by little I start to talk again to Sakamoto, he became my pillar and savior.
When its bedtime Sakamoto always hold my hand just like what Gintoki did when we are young, he will hold my hand until I fall asleep and when I wake up he's always there and smiling it really helps me.
One night I wake up in the middle of the night Sakamoto is not there and I panic I look for him, he's in the school's entrance I heared him talk with whom? I dont know I didnt see anyone.
Sakamoto: don't worry he's now slowly recovering, although he still need someone to hold his hand when he's going to sleep but he's now slowly talking, yesterday he smiled at my joke I think Zura will overcome this he will soon be back to his old self, how about you? how are you? are you going somewhere? Whatever your decision Zura will be happy if he see you, when will you show yourself to him? you know he's not blaiming you and he's not mad at you. He's Zura you know, Zura will never blame anyone but he's blaming himself, Zura is too good for this world.
I slowly go to where Sakamoto is to see who is with him but when I'm near Sakamoto look at me with a shock and signal someone to go.
Sakamoto: Yo Zura why are you awake? ahahaha You know I go out to breath some fresh air and look for the sky
Sakamoto whos with you? I heard you talk to someone? whos that?
Sakamoto: ahahahaha what are you saying Zura, come on lets go back to sleep.
Months have been passed slowly I get back in track, after a few more months I decided that Sakamoto still wants to go to space and I'm holding him too much, So I talk to Sakamoto and said that I'm okay now he can now go and explore the space. Its been a two years since I last saw them and now its time for me to move forward. Sakamoto gave me a money, clothes and cellphone so I can still talk to him, he also said that someone will secretly look after me and report to him what will happen to me.
I travel to some places until I got here in Edo its a big town, I first go to eat and look for a place to stay, I ran to a police saying I'm a terorist, they know my name and my nickname, they called me Runaway Kotaro, I ran as fast as I can, I don't know how did they know my name, why did they called me terorist? Who gave them information about me? I ran until some groups called me Katsura-sama saying that Takasugi ordered them to look for me and the police heared the conversation and get my photo to them.
We are the Jouishishi, Takasugi-sama told us that he will leave us and you will be our leader Katsura-sama we look for you all this year, we are glad you are okay.
Takasugi? I asked the jouishishi members we are now here in their headquarters.
Yes Takasugi-sama introduce you to us, please dont leave us, we need a strong leader who also have an experience in war.
End of flashback
Thats the reason why I'm now a leader and terorist its because of Takasugi.
Walking in the streets of Edo with my Monk costume made by Sakamoto, I go to the Kabuki District, I pass my resume to the stalls and stores, clubs and cafe. I hope I can get a job as soon as posible. When I'm about to go home, I bump a man not much higher than my height I know him I saw his picture when I'm doing my research, his the vice captain of the Shinsengumi, I bow and ask for forgiveness hoping the man let him go and not look on his face. Sorry said the man, Its okay i said and leave the man.
When I got home I told myself that this will be an interesting year. I eat dinner and study about the reports of my people, Its about Okita Sougo the First Captain of the Shinsengumi he's also the youngest police with the high rank known for his sadistic and no mercy personality. I receive a text from an employer saying tomorrow is my interview as a mail man. I need some rest so I can think properly at the interview.
I woke up because of the nightmare, I dreamed the day Gintoki took Sensei's life in exchanged for our freedom, I saw his face cried with so much sadness but still smile, I heard the begging voice of Takasugi and saw he's angry face. Its been a while since I dream about that... maybe its a reminder that I should go and visit sensei's grave.
I get up and take a bath and drink my tea. Its 3am in the morning my interview is afternoon, If I travel to our hometown I can go back before my job interview. I'm glad train is 24 hours, I rode the train and go to our old school, this is where I burried sensei without Gintoki and Takasugi's knowing. When I get there I'm confuse why there is a Candle and Flower in sensei's grave? who visited him? Is it Takasugi or is it Gintoki? The flower is still fresh and the candle still has a smoke. I ran around to look for them, for him but I didnt see anyone of them. Maybe they dont want to see me, maybe they treat me as a ghost from their past. I bowdown to sensei's grave and gave my prayer.
"Its been a while sensei, sorry if I just visit you now after 8 years. I'm trying to be strong, I dreamt of you sensei with gintoki and takasugi. I thank Sakamoto for saving me and Takasugi for giving me the Jouishishi, I am now a Leader of freedom fighters, we will create a world with equal rights so please don't worry about me sensei. I'm okay now, and I'm happy.
Going back to Edo and preparing myself to interview. I was hired and the salary is not so big its only a minimum wage but still it can help, delivering a package to Amanto headquarters it said that its an important package and I need to deliver it now, driving a motor going to amanto headquarters I stop at the stop light when a big so big white dog crash me, I saw a girl with a pale skin color, a boy with a glasses and a man with silver perm hair. Wait silver permed hair? Is it Gintoki... I looked up and saw Gintoki, he didnt change so much he still has his dead fish eye, he talks to the girl saying she should control the strength of Sadaharu, When he look at me he was shock but later help me get up. Some Shinsengumi slowly approach, I need to get out of here.
Even though I'm not ready to talk to gintoki I ask him to delivered the package to Amantos headquarters, the boy help me and said that we will go to hospital, Gintoki took the package and ask the boy named Shinpachi to take care of me.
Thats the first time I saw Gintoki after 10 years, It makes my heart jump to happiness but afraid that he will see me as his ghost in his past, thinking about that makes my heart sad.