First time

Time was spending slowly, giving the impression that day didn't finish. From now on, it was usual, and the duo found some activities, alone or together, as reading, watching a movie or cleaning their small apartment. Cassidy was layed on Butch's bed with a book in her hands, thin gold glasses on her short nose. Butch was observing her, while he was onto his phone, just beside her : he was the only one to see his partner with her glasses, and he was finding she was pretty gorgeous with them. His glance slided to notice her messy bun which let dropped her long strands of blond hair. Yeah, she was the most beautiful woman he had never seen before her, and she attracted him all the time. The silence into the apartment seemed to him to be bad, it was unusual and he suddenly began to stress about this atmosphere. He tried to read the tittle of Cassidy's novel, without success because of her hand : he kept his brown eyes on it, noticing the perfect French manicure she had done the morning, after her shower. When they wore their gloves, Butch couldn't take the time to observe these hands, so he was captivated about them : they were so thin and tiny compared to his, the criminal was totally impressed. Quiting his gaze from her hand, it came back to his phone, let a sigh went out from his mouth, drawing Cassidy's attention to himself. She smiled and met his eyes before talk :

" Are you boring, Butch ? " Cassidy asked to him.

" Yeah, I think so. I can say to you that I hate this heavy atmosphere… It wasn't usual. Our Pokémons are sleeping onto the carpet, there is nobody in the HQ and we cannot to go outside. So, yeah. I'm boring and all I want is to talk with the only person I've with me." Butch explained.

" Me. Okay, if you want. But what subject could we discuss ?"

" Hmm… About our first time ? "

" What 'first time' means to you ? It's a vast topic. "

" Our first time for everything ! I don't know… I've one example : the first time you had glasses ? "

" Argh… You could find a best topic ! " She laughed. " It was so weird ! You couldn't imagine ! I'm not nearsighted, but I need them to read or in front of screens… The first time, I had the biggest headache I've never had before, but now… It's usual, and without them I couldn't read : letters are blurred without. " She sighed. " What about you ? Hum… The first time you drove."

" You're becoming an old woman, Cass." Butch joked while Cassidy was hiting him with her book. " The first time I drove, I was a little boy. My dad took me onto his knees and I only used the wheel. But the first time I drove alone, I was 14."

" I think it's really young, nobody have any driving license at this age."

" Indeed. I drove without any driving license, but I wasn't affraid about this idea. Even if I was arrested by some cops, I didn't care because I was sure they're leaving me go. When I'd money, of course, I passed the license, car and motorcycle in the same time. Unlike you, I love driving."

" So you already were a mad man and a criminal when you were a teenage boy." She smirked at him. "I know ! You're the worst asshole with me when I'm driving, because you feel you in unsecure with me." Cassidy grumbled. "Oh wait before ask to me one thing, I've one important question for you ! How was it when, for the first time, you… " She imitated a smoker's movement and gave a wink at Butch.

" Don't sulk me, please. I hate when you do that." He did a false sad smile to his partner. " Alright ! So… It was stifling and I coughed, in a first time, but I repeated the gesture and after a new puff, it was better, not perfect, but I found that pleasant."

" How old were you at this moment ? "

"16. It was with my band, so you can imagine I didn't only smoke cigarettes… I tried some drugs, but it wasn't recurrent. I've only continued to smoke cigarettes, as you know."

"Unfortunately for my lungs." Cassidy said before pursued : "I've already smoked too. But it wasn't pleasant at all ! It burnt my throat and I had a coughing fit ! Yuk ! Never I'll start it again, I promised to myself." Butch couldn't help but smiled to her.

" I didn't know you were a secretive person." He had a laugh. " What about your first kiss ? "

" I was 13 and I didn't take some pleasure into it. It was… awkward, weird… You'll say me it's 'normal' for a first kiss, but I don't know… It wasn't as I could expect. I was disappointed and I refused to kiss other guys after, because I thought it'll be the same thing. What about yours ? "

" It was a little before Team Rocket."

" Only ? It's impossible, you're lying. I was believing you were a Casanova, all girls were at your feet." She gave him a sweet nudge, making laugh Butch.

" Nooo ! I swear Cass ! Well… I wished to find the true soulmate when I was more younger, yeah, you can mock my romanticism… But it was one of my dream, but during a party, my bros pushed me toward a girl I found sexy. I began to speak to her, to made her laugh and because I was a little drunk, I finished to kiss her by surprise."

The young woman burst out laughing at his secret. She didn't believe her ears, it was impressing to discover Butch's sensitive part, but from another angle, she found his romantic side so lovely, possibly attractive also. She succeeded to take again her calm and in front of Butch's unhappy appearance, she smiled.

" Excuse me, sweety. It really is cute, Butch. Even if I laughed, because it was truly surprising to learn that about you. I didn't think you were so romantic, but you admit it and it's rare for a boy. You've the right to hope to find the real love. Actually, I'm finding you attractive because of this part of you." She told. " Can you continue, please ? I would like to know the end of this story."

" Thank you so much, Cassie…" He cleared his throat. " Hurm… Okays, so… I thought she'll hit me, but she accepted my lips on hers. It was a pretty blond girl, and I felt very excited by her."

" Was it the first time you slept with a girl ? "

" Yeah. And it was fabulous, magic ! I loved when I was kissing her, to feel her soft skin under my fingers, to possess this sexy girl… "

" Okay ! Okay ! I don't need to have more details ! I know you're a real male, as your Mightyena when he sees a female ! " Cassidy teased him.

Butch didn't help but laugh too at her comment then was hesitating to ask to her how was the first time she slept with a guy. He was feared to become jealous about the first guy who deflowered his coworker, but he knew Cassidy had had several boyfriend before himself : she was a sexy woman and she knew how to be attractive in front of young males.

" Hurm… And you ? How was it ?"

Cassidy kept silence and turned pale. She gulped with difficulty, closed her book and gazed Butch. Never he had seen her eyes so lifeless : it was as if she was returning into an unpleasant memory. The young man felt he had taken the bad decision about his question, and without a word, took Cassidy's right hand. Suddenly, she closed her eyes, took a breathe and began to talk again, fixing her partner.

" You know… I've never explained to anybody this story. So I admit it's really, really complicated to me to… To tell, even if it's to you." She began.

" If you don't want to speak about this, I don't oblige you, okay ?"

" Thank you, you're my angel, Butch, my lovely guy." She barely touched his cheek. " I believe it's the time for me to talk, after all these years." She inhaled another time. "Okay. So, to be honnest… I hated this moment. It was with my first mate, I was 15 this time. At the beginning, I wanted to have sex with him, so it was good. But when he wished to undress me, I felt afraid, I was really scared, so I said no. But he didn't want to hear me, so I repeated again and again, I truly didn't want it. After a moment to fight against him, I abandonned, and because he was my boyfriend, I believed it was normal, that I had to let myself go, that he knew better than me all these things about sex."

" He… He raped you ?" Butch stammered.

" Probably… You know, I ignore it myself. I think so, but I convinced myself it was totally normal, that it was my own fault, because I was looking for trouble. I was too arrogant, too sexy, I loved when guys turned around to look me. It was the game : I wanted to play, and I lost, that's all."

" No ! A rape is not a normal act, it's a crime ! And of course not, it wasn't your fault. You said you didn't wish that, so you weren't in fault. The only person responsible in this story, it's your ex-boyfriend who sexually assaulted you. Maybe you were - and you are again - too sexy, but when a man is correctly educated, he doesn't force his mate. In my point of view, never I could do that, when a woman said me 'I don't want' or 'I am not ready', I stop. It's a simple rule acquired from childhood for the most part of the population. My mum always told me : 'You can only touch with eyes. The moment where you can touch with hands, it's when a woman is consenting, not before.' "

" Don't say that, please. I'm not a victim, okay ? I refuse to pretend to be a victim. You're so kind to take care of me but, because I'm a strong girl, this story didn't hurt me more than I could imagine, because I was become a slut after that. I collected mates, dates, partners, friends with benefits… So yeah, I already was a slut." She laughed, tears were running onto her pale cheeks.

" Cass… I'm sorry."

" What for ? You didn't have done nothing wrong. You just saved me. Since the first time you became my partner, you became my first real best friend, my first real confidante. When I had my numerous anorexia crisis, you were beside me. Each time I was depressed, you were with me again. Never you hurt me, never you left after a violent argue because of me, always you stayed with me and the bitch I am."

" Cass… You aren't a bitch, even if I admit you can be it, sometimes. You were just wounded during all these years. I understand now the reasons you're as you are. "

" Butch, please, I repeat you again : don't consider me as a victim. I'm not a victim, get it ? I was young and I learnt from that. I know say clearly 'no' when I consider I don't want, don't be worried about me. Team Rocket has good self-defense lessons also."

Butch stayed be quiet, feeling Cassidy didn't want some comfort for a fact she refused to consider as a sexual crime. She was a victim, but her proud was more important, than these bullshits, it was probably a reaction of self-protection to keep her own self-confidence, and the guy was impressed about her temper of warrior. All of a sudden, she put her head on his torso, Butch accepted her with pleasure and wrapped her with his left arm, put his hand on her flat stomach, then dropped off a pleasant kiss above her head and murmoured :

" The first time I've seen you, I've immediately knew you won't stay a simple coworker. The first time I've seen you, I knew you'll be my partner, for work and more. The first time I've kissed you, I knew that I was felling in love for you."

Cassidy smiled, closed her violet eyes before answer :

" The first time I've talked to you, I already knew you were not as others guys. The first time I've talked to you, I knew you'll be my angel, my life preserver, the one I'd always hoped. The first time I've talked to you, I knew you'll be the first to whom I'll say 'I love you'."