One day, you will marry and have an heir. And when that time comes, I will leave the penthouse, burn all of my cameras and maybe travel until the heart heals.

I know we are too different. You're up there and I'm down here. I love you so much and that's why despite the criticizing of your colleagues? Cause it'll be unprofessional if I said goons, right? I will always stay by your side until you get tired of me and then throw me away.

I finally told my friends that I'm dating a guy but I didn't specifically told them it was ypu because I'm worried that you might get angry.

I also stopped taking photographs of criminals or any of sort or the stuff that may ruin your business and I might get trouble into. I don't want to be a hindrance to you.

I also get anxious of everything knowing I don't have a strong hold of your heart. I don't have money, power and fame. All I can do for you is help with the household chores.

Everytime I see those ladies that escorts you wishing it was me. But it would be very stupid. Because it might hinder your business and ruin your image and I can't have that. So I just sleep these jealousy, envious and sadness feelings of mine.

You know, you're my first in everything. I don't know if its making love for you but it is for me. You're peculiar, why? Because out of every person around you, you chose to stick with me. They are at the same level as you, don't you think so?

I just want to say that I'm very happy that I met you and fell in love with you. I'm lucky to have a person that always saves my ass whenever I get in trouble.

I'm sorry I'm just like this. I don't have a stable job and everything. I don't want to be called your mistress who stays with you just for what you have. No, I'm not like that.

I just want to be labeled as your lover, but then I wonder. Do you see me as one? I hope so. And if you don't thats okay too. I'll just do my best and stay with you until you finally decided you don't want me anymore.

I love you Ryuichi.

P.S. this is my first time writing. Take it easy on me. And reviews are very much appreciated