There are multiple ships in this Fanfiction. There is Atomwave, CaptainCanary, Captain Storm, just some Fluff for the last chapter and more. There are some spoilers if you haven't watched some of the seasons, I also didnt include carter or kendra other than a few references to them because they die so soon in the beginning.
If you asked a lot of people one word to describe Ray and a popular word would probably be Naive, or Annoying or overly Optimistic. But even though people think those things of Ray sometimes, Deep Down they all appreciate him because in a world full of so much darkness its nice to see a little light sometimes.
When Ray first became a legend he observed the others to see what they were like and he found some information that no computer could tell you. He first observed Sara Lance, she is the white Canary, formally part of the league of Assassins and also formally dead until John Constantine revived her. Sara was an outgoing and Fearless badass but Ray could tell that under all that there was vulnerability, but he also knew that she was a kind, loyal, and selfless person. Ray learned about Firestorm, Stein was Ray's professor in college but Stein could never seem to recall Ray as his student. Jefferson Jackson or "Jax" as everyone called him was firestorm's other half, Jax was a friendly teen who hadn't quite earned the title of adult yet, but he got along with everyone. Ray got to know Rip Hunter, Rip was a good Captain and even though he lied in the beginning Ray still believed in him, and at the end of the day Ray knew that Rip was just a Man trying to stop his family from dying. There was also Leonard Snart AKA Captain Cold that Ray had observed, Snart usually kept to himself with the exception of Mick Rory and Sara Lance,
(Ray was hardcore shipping Snart and Sara XxCaptainCanaryxX). Though Snart played the cold one, at times you knew he still had a heart and someone to love, that was his sister Lisa Snart, and hopefully in the future Sara lance as well. And last but not least there was Mick Rory AKA Heatwave, Ray knew Mick liked three things: Fire, Food, and beer, There weren't many words to describe Mick Rory, Ray couldn't tell if Mick was good or not but sometimes Ray knew he was good and would catch a glimpse of the kind and vunerabe side of Mick Rory.
Why did you leave us Ray?
Why Ray? Why did you abandon us?
Why Ray? Why did you leave?
You never should have left us! You will Pay!
YOU WILL PAY RAY PALMER! WE WILL GET YOU!
YOUR SOUL WILL BE OURS!
Gasp* Ray woke up panting and in a cold sweat, he had had Those Dreams again. The ones that had been torturing him countless nights. He checked the clock it was 5 AM.
"Are you Alright Dr.Palmer your heartrate is beating very fast and your breathing is abnormal?" said Gideon who somehow had worry in her voice.
"Don't worry Gideon I'm fine" Said Ray though he was still panting. "Im just a little shaken up from a Bad dream and cant go back to sleep."
"Would you like me to administer a light Sedative to help you sleep Dr.Palmer?"
"No Thank you Gideon, since I'm up I think I should get started on breakfeast but not without at least one cup of Joe first." Said Ray in a Semi-tired Voice as he exited his room and walked to the kitchen.
To his suprise there was already a fully awake Sara Lance in the kitchen who had two cups of coffee, one was for him.
" How did you know I was awake?" Ray asked the former Assasin. "I didn't, I just knew someone else was awake and had a feeling they'd probably want some coffee if they woke up this early in the morning."
"Still, Thanks Sara"
"No Problem"
"So whats for breakfast?",asked an increasingly hungry Sara Lance. "Blueberry Pankcakes, Over-easy eggs, French toast, and Bacon", Replied Ray as he got the pans and spatula from the pantry. "Delicious, I can't wait to sink my fork into the fluffy blueberry pancakes!"
The next person who was up was Snart, then Jax, then Mick, Rip, and Stein. Everyone loved Rays cooking, so every breakfast, lunch, and dinner Ray was the one that cooked and did the dishes. The kitchen was his domain. Ray was really stressed out lately with all the nightmares, the responsibilities and everyone expecting him to have the right answer, but Ray made sure no one knew how stressed out and tired he was so Ray made sure to always smile because he was supposed to be the cheerful person who encourages the group in bad situations. One of Rays deepest Darkest fears was that one day he would be of no use to the legends and he would be abandoned. And it did not help Ray handle his stress or keep his cool whenever his teammates tried to test Ray to see if he ever got mad. So He did Not like it when Mick, Snart, and Sara started throwing Lit daggers at Snart to see if he could freeze them fast enough.
"Hello Ray, care to join us?" Said Snart smugly as he froze a lit dagger that had been thrown at him by Sara
"No thanks, hey I was wondering if you guys could do this somewhere else like maybe in your rooms, in the jump ship, or anywhere else", Ray said while trying to keep his cool and not lash out at his teammates.
Mick then shot his heat gun at the table leaving definite marks, " I bet that makes you mad doesn't it? Well why don't you show us how mad you are?" The three were laughing because they could imagine Ray snapping and only kicking the wall and nothing else and found it amusing so they wanted to push harder.
Ray Was Pissed. He hadn't snapped. Yet. but was going to soon. Snart could see Ray was finally about to lose his cool so Snart made a dumb decision and did something to push Ray off the edge. Snart slowly raised his cold gun then shot the pots and Pans leaving permanent damage.
He Snapped. Ray Had Snapped. He charged at Snart and Punched him. Hard. Snart hit Ray back but didnt affect Ray since he was too angry to care. Ray kept hitting Snart over and over again, Sara and Mick tried to pry Ray Off Snart but couldn't so they alerted the rest of the team. Eventually Ray started strangling Snart. As he was doing this he was huffing and puffing and burning with rage, Snart was nearly out of breath when Stein injected Ray with a sedative.
The Team learned two things that day. 1. Don't push Ray over the edge 2. Ray was strong as Hell.
When Ray woke up there was Rip, Stine And Mick in front of him. There was also a unconscious Snart in the chair next to Ray. "So, are you done trying to kill Mr. Snart or are we going to have to sedate you again Dr.Palmer?", said a Concerned Rip. "That won't be necessary Captain" Said Ray.
"What was the meaning of your sudden urge to kill Mr.Snart, I know plenty of us dream about strangling him but that does not mean we act on it?", Said a now angry yet concerned and confused Rip.
"I'm sorry", was all Ray said. He said it twice, once to Rip and once to Snart when he had regained consciousness.
As soon as he was cleared to go Ray headed to his room when he was blocked by a not so friendly face that belonged to Mick Rory, who now had his hand on Ray's shoulder. "Look im sorry for what I did or almost did to your partner but please don't beat me up for it."
"Don't sweat it Haircut, You think your the first person on this ship to try to kill him? Hah please I've tried to killed him many times,so has Sara, but after each time when I finally cleared my head I never let myself be afraid of what I'd almost done, instead I laughed it off because sometimes in life bad things happen that you can't deal with so sometimes you have to laugh them off until your ready, and even though I didn't beat you up im not sure I can stop Snart from giving you a good beating."
"Thanks Mick, I really needed this talk", Said Ray as he smiled with a genuine smile,the first genuine smile from Ray in a long time. A smile that made Micks smile back.
A few months had past and Mick and Ray got closer and closer, probably because Mick started to hang out with Ray to protect him from the Ass beating Snart was prepared to give him. Another thing that had occured in the few months was Ray's feelings for Mick had grown but Ray was afraid to act on those feelings. Eventually Snart stopped trying to beat up Ray which caused Mick and Ray to Just hang out because they wanted to without having an excuse to use. The nightmares started happening again, so Ray started sleeping in the med Bay that way Gideon would wake him if he had any bad dreams. This system didnt work well because it made Ray barely get any sleep, and one night Ray got tired of it, so he went into Micks room to sleep in his bed. He crept quietly into his room and tapped him on the arm telling him to wave up. Mick Woke up, he would've been angry but he was too tired to be.
"What is it Haircut?", said Mick in the Raspy voice That Ray liked.
"I-um I had a bad dream and was hoping I could sleep in your bed"
As Ray said that Mick looked at Ray and saw he was wearing a warm green (Micks favorite color) flannel pajama set that that covered his body well and Ray had a pilliow that covered the bottom half of his face but mostly his mouth. This caused Mick to blush.
"F-Fine you can sleep in my bed"
"Thank you Mick" said a now cheerful Ray Palmer.
Ray fell asleep fast, he fell asleep before Mick did
So Mick learned that Ray snored. Loud. Mick thought he was a boat horn a few times. But Mick thought It made Ray kind of Cute. Then Mick scolded himself for thinking Ray Palmer was even a little cute.
When Ray woke up Mick was still sleeping so he quietly tip toed out of the room with his pilliow but was startled when he heard Snart's voice.
"Had a nice sleep Raymond?" Ray turned around and saw snart and the rest of the team in front of him. Ray's cheecks turned rosey red. "Your late for the team meeting, its 9 already, we missed you at breakfast.",Said a Smug Sara.
"It-It's not what it looks" said Ray who was about to tell the team about the nightmare but didnt want the team to know. Suddenly Mick emerged from his room to come face with the team. "What're you lookin' at? Its too damn early for a team meeting. I'm gonna go grab a beer", Said Mick as he walked to the kitchen. "Anyway, we're having a Meeting in the library" Said Rip as he headed to the library.
The legends had to go to Japan because Nate had fallen out of the waverider and landed in feudal Japan. When they went there Ray was kidnapped and the shogun took Rays suit and activated it. So Ray had to teach Nate how to destroy the Atom suit, Nate was successful in destroying it.
That was it.That was it for Ray Palmer. Ray now felt useless now that he was no longer the Atom. After the mission he went straight to his room and broke down, he knew he was now useless to the team. So he just sat there in his room and sobbed for hours but made sure no one heard him. When he came out, the team was concerned and waiting for him in the Bridge. "Are you alright Dr.Palmer? You went straight to your room and were there for a long time." Said a worried Martin Stein.
"Don't Worry Professor Stein I was just doing a time Aberration check to see if everything was back to normal", Said Ray with the most genuine-looking smile he could conjure.
"Good, with Kronos searching for us its imperative that we go over every detail of our missions.", Said Stein as he looked at his teammates with a satisfied smile.
Ray was about to got back to his room when..."y'know for a genius your pretty stupid",Said Mick as he took another sip of his beer.
"Excuse me?",Said a offended Martin Stein,"I'll have you know Mr. Rory that I have seven PhDs whereas you have none so how am I stupid Mr. Rory? Do explain!
Mick began with a sip of his beer," Your stupid because you can't see how hurt Haircut really is even though you can clearly see he's not okay."
"Ray is this true? Are you not okay?",Said Sara speaking for the team.
"Im-im fine-its just that what happened-it was-I-You know what I'm not fine! How can I be fine, I just lost the Very thing that makes me usefull! I just lost my lifes worth! And its not even like I can contribute my intellect! Nates the one who researches the missions and knows helpful imformation that we use all the time, Stein's the one that does the physics, fusion, and quantum Equations to make sure we dont die, and Jax is the ships mechanic! So yeah! how the hell am I supposed to be fine!?",Said Ray as he stormed to his room leaving everyone shocked that he yelled.
In his room Ray was fuming but couldn't stay mad for long and decided to start packing since he would be of any use anymore. "What the hell are you doing Haircut?" said Mick as he entered the room." I'm packing because I dont have any use any more and if I stay I'll just become a liability.", said Ray as he continued packing and didnt turn around to face Mick.
Suddenly Ray was pulled into a warm embrace with Mick, Then Mick kissed him. it was Rough yet tender like Ray had imagined it'd be. Then they pulled apart. "Your an idiot, your an idiot for thinking you could ever become a liability to us haircut." said Mick as he started taking Ray clothes out of the suitcase.
"No one on this ship could ever think you are useless, and who said your suit was all you are? Your have way more value by yourself than when you have your suit.",Said Mick as he threw the suitcase back under the bed where it belonged.
"Thank you Mick, I really needed to hear that.", Said a relievedRay Palmer.
"Good now enough of the feelings crap, lets go tell everyone your really okay now. And Get a beer."