Whirlwind

Ienzo hated parties.

No; "hate" was a strong word. As an eternal introvert, parties took a lot from him, and required several days' of mental preparation. But it was not always avoidable.

And anyway, he did want to go to this party. It wasn't often a childhood friend got their own gallery show, after all. There would be art and wine and probably intellectual conversation-something as designed for Ienzo as possible other than the social interaction. He sighed. All Naminé had said about the dress code was to "wear black" and the only thing he had since his unfortunate rebellious goth phase was a slightly-too-tight turtleneck that made him acutely aware of the fact that he was not in shape.

There was no point caring about his appearance. Who did he have to impress? If he cared, he'd actually do something about the hair growing directly into his eyes.

Ienzo was early. The city streets were narrow, and he needed a parking space. He walked slowly to the door of the gallery, trying to gather himself and smile. Naminé was already inside, of course, talking to one of the curators and adjusting the tilt of the frame just slightly. A few people were milling about, picking at the crudités that had been left out. He should've been later. Easier to blend in.

Well. No point backing out now. Once she turned away from the curator, she spotted him and smiled. "You made it," she said. "I thought someone was going to have to drag you." She leaned in for a hug.

"Congratulations," he said earnestly. "I do hope everything is for sale? I'd love to support you."

She waved a hand vaguely. "I'm just so in shock, to be honest. First time I haven't had to pay to be featured anywhere, never mind possibly making a profit. It does look so odd, right? To think most of this lived behind my couch until yesterday afternoon."

"Well, it's very much deserved," he said honestly. "It's about time someone noticed your talent."

She blushed. "Do you want any wine? Any snacks? It's all offered by them, so don't be shy."

He sighed. "That would be prudent, wouldn't it?"

By the time she'd walked him over, a handful of other people had entered the gallery, all of them wanting to congratulate the artist. Alone in her flowy white dress, she looked very much like a spec in the darkness. Pretty, free, glowing from the attention.

Ienzo spent a half hour or so wandering the gallery, with its exposed brick walls. It was nice, to have the excuse not to talk. She'd done a series based on portraiture and memory, something he forgot entirely until he was looking at a (thankfully small) charcoal sketch of his own face. Naminé had a bad habit of drawing anything not nailed down, and asking permission later.

"Hey, that's you!" a man said. Ienzo looked up.

He was blonde, his undercut gelled on the top. His black shirt was wrinkled and French-tucked. Ienzo knew this person was familiar, but wasn't sure how. Small town?

"Well-yes," he said. "I forgot I consented to sharing this."

The man reached up almost to touch the sketch. "She's talented, isn't she," he said, positively glowing with pride. "Oh! I'm not a creep, I'm her brother." A wry laugh. "Demyx. Hi." He offered his hand.

"...Ienzo. Pleasure." His hands were rough, callused.

"Oh, I know," he said breezily. Then, at Ienzo's blank look, "you're her friend. She talks about you."

"I'm sorry-all the years I've known her and she's never shown me a photo of you."

He laughed. "Our family is… weird," he said slowly. "It doesn't surprise me."

"...I see," Ienzo said. He wondered if it would be rude to go get more wine. "I suppose… every family has its quirks."

He nodded once. There was something in his teal eyes that contradicted the friendliness of his expression, something sharp and aware. Something that-to his chagrin-Ienzo found fascinating. But why?

"Are there any of you?" he asked lamely.

Demyx laughed again, that awkward, staccato sound. "Yes," he said. "It's-ah, over here." He rested a hand on Ienzo's shoulder and pointed him to another painting. Ienzo wouldn't have known it was a portrait unless he was told; blue green swirls and a flash of blonde showed an abstracted version of a person. "I almost drowned when she was little," he admitted. "I think she took it to heart."

"...I see." Ienzo looked over through his bangs at this man. He saw, very quickly when Demyx thought he wasn't looking, the man give him a once-over.

Ah.

He couldn't deny that he also found him attractive, despite the man being most definitely not his type (with that hair?). It was the look in his eye. The something more. "So what do you do?" Ienzo asked.

"Well, I'm also kind of an artist," he said. "A musician."

Figured. "...I see," he said politely. Well. No matter dwelling on a passing attraction.

"But for my day job I teach," he added, wrinkling his nose. "Music. At the college."

Ienzo's eyebrows shot up. (His heart fluttered.) "You're a professor ?"

Demyx snorted. "I don't look it, right? But I can prove it." He took out a beat-up wallet and brandished a faculty ID. "Read it and weep."

"You just look so-young," Ienzo said lamely.

Demyx shrugged. "It was sort of a happy accident," he admitted. "I was finishing my master's and the guy they hired to teach theory I and guitar crapped out. They offered me the job for a semester, and, well, I guess they liked me enough to stop looking." He grinned. "I tend to thrive under the radar. Want more wine?"

Ienzo's heart was racing. "Yes. Please."

They ended up talking for hours. Long enough for the gallery to close, for Naminé to waggle her eyebrows at him when she saw them sitting together. Long enough for Demyx to ask him to get another drink. Ienzo wasn't sure if it were his tipsiness, but this conversation didn't exhaust him the way previous dates so often did. It wasn't until the bartender was asking for last call did he realize how late it was-that, and he was in no shape to drive home. "Oh, goodness," he said. "I'm afraid I got carried away."

"Like how?"

"Like-I came out expecting to spend two very proper hours admiring my friend's art. Here we are."

Demyx smiled. "I don't know why she was hiding you," he said. "I've had… a lot of fun."

"Me too," he said earnestly.

"Would you want to go on an actual date sometime?"

He smiled. He was tired enough not to psych himself out. "Absolutely." He sighed. "Though I'm afraid I'm in no condition to take myself home."

"You could crash at mine," Demyx suggested. Then, seeing Ienzo's expression, "on the couch! Not what I meant at all." He chuckled. "Or I can call you an Uber."

"Is it far?"

"A couple of blocks. Think you can make it?"

"I'm not that drunk-just shouldn't drive."

He followed him out of the bar. It was very late, the moon hanging high in the sky, making everything quiet and silver. Demyx slid his hand into Ienzo's. He felt a little thrill, trying to recall the last time he'd enjoyed being touched so. His own attempts at dating hadn't exactly been fortuitous. Rarely did he ever meet anyone on an app that inspired real chemistry.

"I love this time of night," Ienzo said.

"Me too," Demyx said. "Nobody has expectations-the world is asleep. So calm. I come up with my best stuff at night. It's like I can breathe."

He bobbed his head. "I do sometimes have trouble with that. The annoying grind of mundanity. Easy to lose yourself."

"Yeah." He smiled sadly. "Well, here we are. Second floor."

It was a relatively new apartment building. The stairwell smelled like Pledge and dust. When Demyx unlocked the door, a small gray cat meowed indignantly.

"That's just Janice," Demyx said. "Come on. Be nice," he added to the cat.

It sniffed Ienzo's hand and nuzzled him. Blearily, Ienzo took in the apartment. It definitely seemed to belong to a bachelor-the furniture was plain and shabby, and the "couch" was a futon. The coffee table was a pair of milk crates with a board over it. There were some band posters on the wall. Thankfully the place seemed clean. It actually had good bones; the appliances seemed relatively new, the cabinets real wood.

"I'll get you some blankets," Demyx said. "Bathroom's through there if you need. I might have a new toothbrush somewhere-"

"Don't worry about it," Ienzo said. "I'd hate to trouble you. Really."

He blinked wearily. "Alright. Hang tight." He came back with two blankets and a pillow. "Wifi password's on the router."

"Thanks again."

He smiled. "Of course. Hope you sleep well."

Ienzo was too exhausted to do much more than curl up on the lumpy futon. His tipsiness was good to him, and he drifted off.

Ienzo woke up to gold sunlight coming in through the blinds. There was something warm by his feet; he sat up slowly and saw the cat curled at the foot of the futon.

So. This had all happened.

Ienzo rolled onto his back and watched the light play on the ceiling. It had been a long while since he'd had so much fun on a date. It felt almost… odd. He'd told himself he was too busy to date, too set in what he wanted. But honestly? If he had seen Demyx on one of his apps, he probably wouldn't have given him a second glance.

He heard movement from the other room. The other man was still in pajamas, his hair mussed and loose around his face. "You sleep okay?"

"Like a rock-then again, I always do when I'm drunk." He sighed. "Thanks again."

He smiled. "Don't mention it. Better than you trying to get yourself home. Though I have to admit, it's rare Janice cuddles up to a guest." He leaned over to pet the cat, giving Ienzo a peek of his (surprisingly toned?) chest under the collar of his T-shirt. "Coffee? Tea?"

"I'd hate to be any trouble-"

Demyx rolled his eyes. "Which is it?"

"Whichever you're having, I guess."

He was handed a mug of black coffee. "I never asked what you do," Demyx said. "We talked about so much stuff other than our actual lives."

"I'm a librarian," he said. "I work mostly in the research department."

"Do you like it?" He sat on the other end of the futon.

"I love books, and I love research," he said honestly. "It's the best of both of those things. Sure, sometimes I have to help certain… characters with questionable projects, but it's worth it to have so many resources."

He cocked his head. "What do you research?"

"What don't I research?" Ienzo asked, with a sigh. "Whatever strikes my fancy at the moment, I suppose, but I have a soft spot for linguistics and psychology. And gothic literature, but as my father is fond of telling me, that won't pay the bills." He rolled his eyes. "The joys of capitalism."

Demyx laughed. "Sounds like he's fun at parties."

Ienzo smiled. "Oh, incredibly," he said sarcastically. "But he… means well. Very doting."

"Are you two close?"

"Closer than we were when I was a child," Ienzo admitted. "His husband came ready-made with a child, and that transition wasn't necessarily easy." He wasn't sure why he was saying all this. "You are… astoundingly easy to talk to."

"Thanks, I'll be here all week." He looked into his mug, the glint in his eyes becoming sad. "I don't remember my parents much," he said.

"Naminé never brings them up."

"They were… not so into childrearing," he added, with a shrug. "Especially when I got older… there'd be food in the fridge, checks in the mail, but for the most part they sort of did their own thing. They call, once every few months, to see if we're still alive, but that's about it."

"So you were kind of on your own," Ienzo said.

"Eh, I try not to get too hung up on it," Demyx said. "No point, right?"

"I suppose not." The coffee was strong, warming the pale shadow of his mild hangover.

He drummed his fingers on the edge of the mug. "So about that date," Demyx said. "The library's closed on weekends, right? How about today?"

Ienzo felt his face warm. Normally he'd need more warning, more time to mentally prepare himself, and to groom. But something about Demyx's nature made that not matter. "Sure. Why not?"

They spent most of a day wandering around town, grabbing meals when appropriate, talking. Walking around the park, talking. Ienzo didn't know how many words he'd been holding inside until they were coming out. It felt so good to hold Demyx's hand, or to feel it on the small of his back. Something about it was so familiar. So… comfortable.

He didn't believe in love at first sight. And it wasn't love, not yet; but rather an intoxicating slurry of attraction and interest. Something that could… become. Perhaps this was why when Demyx asked him if he'd like to come up for "a cup of coffee" at the end of the day, he said yes.

And to be fair, there was coffee; they just didn't drink much of it.

Ienzo found himself making out with him on that horrible lumpy futon. He wasn't averse to casual sex, had done it multiple times, but typically when actually dating he didn't immediately hop into bed with that person right out of the gate. With Demyx, he was absolutely breaking all of his own rules-seeing a creative, not making an extra effort with his appearance, not taking the time to fully process things before moving forward. But oddly, the rush of this made that all not matter.

Ienzo was sitting in his lap. He wasn't sure if this made it better or worse, but Demyx was a very good kisser, especially compared to his last failed date. Ienzo's mind stubbornly did not wander as it was normally wont to in these situations. Demyx's hair was deceptively soft as he tangled his hands in it. Too soon, Demyx broke away. "This isn't too fast for you, is it?" he asked breathlessly.

"No. Not at all."

"Good. I just… I don't know, I don't usually do this."

"What, instead of taking your time seducing me?"

He giggled. "Well, kind of."

"I don't usually either," Ienzo admitted, kissing his jaw, his throat. Demyx was pressing up against him, the strangeness of hardness against denim. Despite himself, he felt his heart skip, this time with an anxiety. They'd talked about so many things, but not so much about one of the most important. He took a breath; and broke another one of his rules. "I… have to tell you something." He swallowed.

"What?" Demyx touched his face. "Are you a virgin or something?"

"No, but it… might change things?"

"You're shaking," Demyx said. "What is it?"

He hated that he constantly had to explain himself. "I'm… trans. Transgender?" He shut his eyes. "I wouldn't blame you if you want to cut things where they are."

His expression was hard to read. "Oh."

"I should've said something sooner."

His hand was so warm through Ienzo's shirt. "No. Thanks for telling me. It doesn't change anything. I mean. It changes things, but it doesn't change things. You know?"

He wasn't sure whether or not to be relieved. "Oh?"

Demyx blushed and bit his lip. "I've never been with… a person with those parts. I'd… kind of thought, when I didn't feel anything between your legs… I just thought I was doing a bad job." He laughed awkwardly.

"That's not it at all. I have a… packer I wear, but sometimes I can't be fussed, honestly." He could feel his face burning. "But it isn't… difficult, if you'd be comfortable with that."

His hand was shaking a little; Ienzo could feel it. "I'd be willing to try."

"I could… show you, if you like," he said slowly, unable to make eye contact. "Some other time… or now, whichever."

Demyx kissed him, and for a moment they were lost in each other before he broke away. "I could try now."

His heart skipped again. "Okay."

"Come on."

Demyx led him deeper into the apartment. Ienzo could barely take in the details, a combination of nerves and excitement making him feel vaguely dizzy. He thought he could smell incense, clean laundry, instruments on stands, a record player. Most of his focus was on the queen-sized bed. When was the last time he felt such genuine lust during a hookup, instead of mere curiosity? It was almost unfamiliar, making him shake and quieting the ever-present noise inside of his head. Demyx kissed him again, deeply, his tongue flicking against Ienzo's before reaching for the hem of his turtleneck. He took him in with something like reverence before leaning down to kiss his collarbone, sending a fizz through his body. Ienzo reached up to take off Demyx's own shirt, only able to look at him for a moment before he was eased onto the bed.

His thoughts were muddy, murky, and yet he was so inside of his own body. He struggled to unbutton Demyx's jeans and felt him working at Ienzo's, slipping them off. The nerves returned, making him acutely aware of the dampness between his legs, the insistent throb of his clit. He wondered if he might combust, and if that would be so awful.

Demyx broke away from the kiss. "Can I see it?" he asked.

"Yes-just-"

Demyx helped him out of his underwear. He was infinitely glad he was meticulous with his own personal grooming. He had not honestly thought this day would end with him getting laid. It felt a little awkward, to part his legs. Demyx ran his hand along the inside of Ienzo's thigh, making him shudder. "Oh," he said softly.

"I don't believe this is the first one you've seen," he said, attempting a drollness and a coolness he did not feel. "Not at all."

"True, but… not in real life," Demyx admitted. "But you're so… god, you're beautiful."

He snorted. "Hardly."

"Really." He leaned down to kiss him. Ienzo tried to take off Demyx's own underwear, his dick already straining against them.

The skin of it was warm against his palm. At least Ienzo knew he was competent at this. Demyx moaned against his shoulder.

"Before you… really go at it," he said, with difficulty. "First tell me how to-"

A blush made him hotter. "Right. Ah-" He'd never had to explain this to any of his partners. "There's a… little nub, the-"

"The clit?"

Thank god he knew that much. "Yes, just… that's the most important bit."

"Can I… can I touch you?" His expression was so tender. There was no way this was all real, Ienzo thought. There had to be a catch.

"Yes."

He felt Demyx's callused hand slide down his body, bringing with it a rush. After a moment where he seemed to struggle to find the nerve, he eased his hand over it, almost making Ienzo spasm. Demyx felt at it for a moment before he found the clit. "This?"

He swallowed. "That's it. The… testosterone makes it… like that."

"As long as I can make you feel good." He kissed him again and began to stroke it, rolling it between his fingers. The feel of the calluses made Ienzo gasp aloud. "Is that bad?"

"No, no, it's…" He could barely speak. "It's very good." With a trembling hand he fumbled to find Demyx's dick, trying to move in rhythm with him. Hearing him struggle for breath only turned Ienzo on more. He could already feel the sensation building along his body, hot and electric. "If you want, you could… you could go inside me."

Demyx looked up at him. "Are you sure?"

"Just-do you have a condom?"

His breath hitched. "Sure. Of course." He dug in a bedside drawer that Ienzo honestly hadn't noticed. He could feel his knees shaking. "Do you need lube?"

How had Demyx not felt how wet he was? "No." Ienzo took the packet from him and eased it over his dick.

He laughed. "You might have to help me." He guided the tip of it into him with one hand and gasped, his eyes closing. "It's different."

"In a bad way?"

"No." He pressed into him a little more. "God, no. That doesn't hurt you?"

"Doesn't require as much preparation," Ienzo explained. He opened his legs a little more, letting them rest against Demyx's hips, for a moment just taking in the feel of his dick. It was more substantial than the hands or toys he'd taken over the past few months.

Demyx moaned. "You feel so good."

"I could… say the same. Just kind of… slow and deep."

He started to move against Ienzo. His skin was tingling, the warmth and weight of Demyx's body combined with the thrusting bringing him again closer to that edge. The grind of Demyx's hips brushed against Ienzo's clit, forcing a small noise from him. He felt as though he were losing control-another rule broken-but found, in the moment, he didn't care. Ienzo tangled his hands in that blonde hair and kissed him, finding a rhythm with him, smooth and gentle, a steadily growing heat blocking out anything else.

"Maybe a little faster?" he asked in a voice that wasn't quite his.

Demyx made another noise and obliged him, moving harder. Ienzo could feel every bit of it, his body getting so sensitive the more excited he got. "Fuck," Demyx said to his shoulder. He pressed his lips against his shoulder, his chest. "I-"

He let himself get lost in his body, his trembling thighs, the little waves of feeling starting to break over him in earnest, building smoothly towards that finish. "I'm really-"

Demyx's hand reached down into the tangle of their bodies to find his clit again, and it was this more than anything that forced him over the edge.

It overtook him so fully and completely that for a moment he wasn't sure where he was, a hot and demanding pleasure holding everything out at arm's length. He couldn't stop shaking. He could feel, on some level, Demyx thrust into him once or twice more before he seemed to finish too, his dick twitching a little inside of him.

Ienzo came back slowly, seeing the ceiling first, his hands trembling, his skin borderline raw. Demyx eased out of him, making him shudder, and threw away the condom. "Are you okay?" Ienzo heard.

"Yes," he said. "I'm still-coming down."

"...Me too." Demyx settled next to him on the bed, breathing hard. "Do you cuddle?"

Another rule that would be broken. At this point why bother keeping track? "Yes." If anything, the arms around his waist helped. "I'm not sure I believe that was your first time."

He laughed. "What, because I paid attention to you for five seconds? What idiots have you been sleeping with?"

"...Idiots, indeed." He found himself relaxing in this strange bed. He'd almost forgotten that sex with another person could be satisfying instead of mere physical upkeep. "I do believe that's the best I've had for some time."

Demyx brushed his cheek. "Fuck, me too. I just… where did you come from, Ienzo?"

"Here. Planet Earth." He smiled. "Though I… haven't experienced something so instant in a long while. Maybe ever."

"Me either." He kissed him, and for a moment Ienzo used that to ground himself. "I know it's been… like, a day and a half. But I really like you."

The smile was involuntary. "Maybe it's against my better judgement… but I like you too."