"I can't fight with you anymore, Natsu!" Lucy cried desperately, throwing her hands up in the air as she turned her back on the fire dragon and sighed frustratedly. She reached behind her neck and pulled her hair away from her back and allowed it to slid over her shoulder and down her collarbone. She played with her fingers in front of her stomach and glared at them.
Natsu followed her steps shortly after her, pulling her shoulder towards him sharply to get her to face him. She whirled around with a surprised yelp and Natsu stooped down his head to hers, their eyes locking." I'm not telling you to fight with me, Lucy, I'm just telling you what's gonna happen,"
"Well, I'm telling you that I will not survive without you for more than a year!" At this point, her voice had cracked and she had to clear it to speak again. She looked down at the ground but sighed once more before looking at Natsu with a hurt emotion."Everyone is leaving me, Natsu, and I don't want to see you go either," she wiped her nose and sighed before rubbing her eyes and excusing herself into her bathroom.
Natsu sighed frustratedly and tore his hands together and planted them in his face. This wasn't the conversation or reaction he thought, she would have. Yes, it was selfish of him to leave her during these rough times, but his father was gone. Torn apart in front of him before his eyes. His past was given to him and what was he supposed to do? He couldn't sit around and pretend that everything was okay when obviously things weren't! And his Lucy knows that. She knows about his father. She knows about his night terrors about the war. She knows his past. She knows what he is and what he was made from and she's still willing to stick by his side knowing that she can be killed any minute.
The thing that she doesn't get is that he doesn't want to be why she's dead. Why wouldn't she understand that he already has to protect her everywhere she goes? That he already loves her and can't let go because of how hard it will be?
He has to let go of something that's holding him back and if it was Lucy, who would he be?
When she shut the door that belonged to the bathroom, she wanted to scream and shout, cry and breakdown. He was going to leave her. She knew it and couldn't do anything about it because that's how Natsu is. When his mind is set, there's no going back unless you give him a reason and it has to be a good reason.
Inhaling, she grabbed her hair and silked it the other way. Everything had just settled down and just when she found out who she loves, he's leaving. He's leaving her after her father just died. After Aquarius left her. After the guild left and came back because of him. He was gone for so long, suicide was one of her thoughts. She couldn't stand the loneliness she was given by his empty presence. Why did he choose to always leave when she needed him the most? Couldn't he not be him for once?
Inhaling sharply, she sat on her ass on the cold floor and had her hands in her lap. She had to talk him out of it, but how? Leaning her head against the door, she knew that this would lend to fighting. It was like they were destined to fight each other, but when it leads to things like this and she couldn't fight anymore, what was she supposed to do?