Prologue
I stared at the pure sky. Such mere beauty...
My body felt numb. I couldn't move any part of my body. But that was ok, either way I didn't want to. I didn't want to stand up and do something with my life.
I giggled. What life anyway? Nothing was left, literally nothing. I didn't even know if I was still alive or now, what I used to call it, a full ghost. So I just laid there. I floated motionless in the water that reached the horizon in all directions.
I told myself somewhere out there was earth. Civilization. Home.
I knew there was nothing. Nothing more but cold water and icebergs. I had looked it up, hopelessly flying over the water after my awakening.
So now I laid. Just to wait for my own death.
To join the ones I love...
I sighed. It did get quite boring. Although there was no energy for a quicker death left.
The little waves washed over my body and created an emotion I thought I had already lost the last days, like everything else: Anger. Anger against the one who had caused all of this. Who started this whole mess.
A tear left my eye. An emotion. After days of crying, screaming and cursing I finally found something new.
Hope.
The realization, not everything was lost, came with a bang. It also brought back a memory. I shook my head. I didn't want to live this through again. I didn't want to remember my former life. I preferred a new life. An idea formed itself in my young brain. Maybe I had to remember who I was to become someone new?
Remember why I needed to become someone new. The reason I could no longer be the boy I was. Never again. The answer came with a little wave of water that washed anger over me again. Maybe it was worth a shot. I knew, in the end there were two possible ways.
New life, or no life.
Either way was better than now.
So it all started on that rainy cold Wednesday...