"Arghh just shut up." His voice broke through the air like a sharp knife, making everything and everyone fall silent. His whole body was tense and shaking with anger and a high pitched tone was ringing in his ears, getting louder and louder for every second that went by.
Then, as soon as the words left his mouth, and as Rapunzel flinched, taking a small step back, it all went away, just as sudden as it got there in the first place. He just stood there as the realization of what he had said hit him, as he took in Rapunzel's reaction. Then, as pieces finally fell into place, he suddenly felt the way too familiar sting behind his eyes, as his troath tensed, making it hard to breathe.
"I'm so- Rapunzel I'm- Ohmygosh I'm so- sorry... Ididntmeanto- I'm so so- I'm sorry..." He frantically rambled, checking on the words for almost every letter. "I don't know what's wrong with me... I'm so sorry. I'm so sorry. Sorry sorry sorry-" He continued, hugging himself tight. Rudiger, noticing his human's way too fast and panicky breathing, quickly climbed the boy, clinging around his neck while trying to soothe him with his paw chittering in an attempt to calm Varian down.
It took Rapunzel a moment to get over the shock from Varian suddenly yelling at her. He'd seemed... almost insane. Reminding her way too much of that night when he'd kidnapped her mother and trapped her and her dad. It took her another moment to realise what was going on, as Varian basically broke down in front of her, crumbling in on himself as he desperately apologized.
"Varian it's-" It wasn't okay. She really wanted to just comfort him and tell him that it was okay, that everything was fine, but... her heart was still beating way too fast, every muscle in her body was tense as if she was awaiting an attack. Her brain was all blurry, making her whole body feel fuzzy in that nauseating kind of way. She wanted to tell him that it was fine, but it wasn't. It wasn't for either of them, no matter how much both of them wanted it to be fine they still had a long way to go before any of them would ever be okay.
"Varian," she reached out to give his shoulder a reassuring squeeze. "I know you didn't mean to do that. Okay? It's okay, just... please try not to do that again?" She let go of a shaky breath, pulling him into a hug, as Rudiger jumped down, knowing that his human was safe.
He leaned into the hug, choking back a sob as he held onto her. Both of them were holding on to the other way too tight, but neither of them cared. Right now they just needed to be sure that they were okay. That they'd be okay.
And in that moment, both of them actually felt as if they would be. They were friends again and they'd be okay.