A/N: I do not own How to Train Your Dragon.
This is just something short I wrote while I was away from my laptop, sorry about the formatting, this is my first time using the mobile app...
Warnings: Mentions of depression and suicidal thoughts. No deaths.
As Hiccup laid in his bed, away from the warmth of Astrid's touch, he could feel the gaze of the shadows. They watched him from their home in the endless, freezing darkness. Hiccup remembered the way the shadows called to him, how clearly he could see them.
He remembered being so lonely that he had sought out the companionship they offered, how they had been the only ones who had not only accepted his presence, but sought it out.
As they kept him company, he could feel his sanity fraying, knowing he should push them away, but he decided that he would rather have companions than sanity.
Eventually, Hiccup decided that he would leave the last of his sanity to follow the shadows into the void, to spend eternity with them.
They watched him as he wrote his farewells, giving him praise when he grabbed the dagger beside him and moved to deliver his letters. They followed him through the dark alleys of Berk, ready to lead him into the dark when he finished preparing for the journey.
As he turned a corner, Astrid ran into him, knocking him off balance. He knew this would be his only chance to act, but before he could slice his throat, and with it, his final ties to the light of the world, he felt the dagger ripped from his grasp, the cold steel catching the light of the torches as it spun through the air.
The shadows urged him to reclaim the blade and embark on his journey, but as he made his move, he felt Astrid's arms wrap around him, holding him back, her radiant warmth driving back the wailing shadows.
At that moment, he realized that what the shadows had offered him was not acceptance. They had never truly cared for him or his happiness, they had only ever wanted to destroy him.
As he finally drifted to sleep, he realized how lucky he was to be laying there rather than walking in the void.
A/N: Thanks for reading, see you soon.