About fifteen minutes after storming away from April, Jackson receives multiple and continuous 911 pages from her. "For the love of…" Jackson whispers under his breath checking his pager as it goes off again. Another 911 page from April. "Alright Mrs Haden your scar looks like it's healing nicely. I'll be able to discharge you tomorrow morning." Jackson tells his patient as he leaves her room and slowly walks himself back to April and the bubble.
The closer Jackson gets to her room the more his blood is boiling. She just doesn't get it. When she doesn't want to talk or deal with their issues she gets to run away and be selfish. When he expresses to her he doesn't want to talk about it anymore, that he is done fighting, it doesn't matter. She wants to now so she's not letting it go. His wishes and feelings dont matter and he is so done with the back and forth, done with his wishes and feelings being ignored, done always being the one giving but not receiving support. He is done and as he rounds the corner to April's room he intends to make himself very clear although he isn't sure how much clearer he can be then "I'm not sure we're worth fighting for"
In a very tense I'm trying not to lose it on you voice Jackson turns the corner and says "April, will you please for the love of god stop paging me 911, I've said my piece…." Jackson stops abruptly as he sees April slumped on her knees holding her head in one hand and her pager in the other while taking rapid short breaths.
"April! What is happening? April! Can you hear me?!" Jackson asks, rushing towards the glass and crouching down in front of her.
"Jackson...when you walked out I banged my head on the glass trying to chase you and now I can't breathe. My chest hurts I can't...I can't...catch my…" April tries to explain through laboured breaths and tears.
"You're ok April...I'm coming in...Just hold on a second" Jackson tries to comfort her, his heart beating out of his chest
He gets up and sprints to get on protective equipment, a mask, yellow gown over his scrubs and gloves before grabbing a crash cart and oxygen tank and rushing into the bubble.
"I'm right here April…" Jackson reassures her as he rushes to her side to try and figure out what's going on.
He grabs her wrist to check her pulse and it is racing. He quickly unwraps his stethoscope from around his neck to check her heart and breathing. Her heart is pounding and her breaths are shallow.
"April, open your eyes and look at me." Jackson says firmly moving himself in front of her.
She continues to sit with her head in her hands rocking back and forth " I can't...I can't...breathe...I...I" April stutters trying to explain what she's feeling.
Realizing he's not going to be able to get her to follow his breathing, Jackson picks up April moving her onto the bed in the bubble and grabbing the oxygen tank.
"April...I think you're having a panic attack...you're ok and safe but I'm going to give you some oxygen." Jackson tries to explain placing the oxygen mask over her face.
April's eyes immediately shoot open in fear not understanding what is going on as she is so wrapped up in the panic consuming her body.
"You're ok sweetheart, I'm right here just try to slow your breathing" Jackson reassures her as he secures the mask on her face and rubs a hand up and down her arm in comfort; not even realizing her used his nickname for her as it slipped out so easily.
As April calms down Jackson does a quick neuro check to make sure her headache is nothing more than a symptom of her panic attack.
After sitting together in silence for a few minutes, April takes off the oxygen and turns herself to face Jackson who has seated himself beside her in the bed.
"Sorry I paged you 911 Jackson, I honestly felt like I was dying and the thought of anyone else being her but you made my panic worse" she explains "You're the only one I can see myself being with Jackson. I know I left but I'm here now and I want to fight for us...so badly that I sent myself into a panic with the mere thought of not being with you." she rattles off tears brimming her eyes.
"April I...I...god I love you. So damn much. Clearly because I will always show up for you when you need me. But sometimes love isn't enough. A marriage is when both people show up for each other" Jackson says slipping off the bed and towards the door. "But I stand by what I said earlier you just want what you want...you don't care what I think."
"I won't break my promise to you Jackson, so I'm going to fight and I'm going to win." April says matter-of-factly.
Goodnight April, I'll get someone to come discharge you" Jackson says opening the door to the bubble and walking away without looking back.