Hey, it's Josie O'connell (you can call me Jo). And i'm about to tell you a story of my life, which actually started at the age of 17, when i met Him...Before that blessed moment i was just surviving...So let's begin.

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I was born in the suburb of Detroit. My parents are drinkers, so i became independent too early. I knew that if i don't start making money and somehow upgrading my life, i'd simply starve to death. I was looking for part-time jobs or like making somebody a favor (not that kind of favor) and earn some money for it. Unsurprisingly that i was conned million times.

Friends. I didn't have friends. Okay, i had some but i couldn't consider them friends. We could chat at school or have some fun but i've never was truly open to them. They never knew what's eating me, what is happening inside.

Boyfriend. I didn't have him either. Some guys liked me but i couldn't feel same back. For me, it's hard to fall in love but when i do, then my love will be absolutely unswerving and last forever.

The greatest dream of mine was being an idle teen. I was so fucking exhausted of everything surrounding me: parents (it's difficult to call them like this), studies, fake friends, work, and my own mind. Sometimes i felt like i'm burning in hell, the hell of myself. I would give anything to stop that pain. I wanted to break free. I wanted a new lease of life. I couldn't even imagine how suddenly and soon everything will change.

The 8th November 2016 - Election night. I was finally going home after another job. It was dark and the way home wasn't really safe. I never cared about that shit. Then i heard something, i guess it was "Cucaracha" performed by some sick bastard. Yet something didn't let me go any further, made me watch "the concert" till the end. He seemed insane: he pissed in a condom in front of Hispanics and threw it at them, then he got beaten which was no wonder.

I ran home. Very quickly. My heart was racing, i didn't realize what's going on. I don't know how but I managed to fall asleep. In the morning first of all i turned on the TV and saw that guy! My heart started beating faster again. Then i took my laptop and the rest of the day (the whole day in reality) i was looking for any information about him. His name is Kai Anderson, he is republican, so he was a stickler of Trump (i don't give a shit about all this political thing). He also applied to the city council and was rejected. It was difficult but i found his speech and i fucking loved it! He said that humans love fear and there's something smart about that, very smart. His last phrase was: "There's nothing more dangerous in this world than a humiliated man". Doesn't it make sense?! He will get what he wants and it was clear.

The 11th November - i started drawing him. I never knew i can actually draw. I really do not know why i started doing it. I guess, i just wanted to be closer to him.

The 12th November - i figured out something very interesting. Kai has a cult. It may sound weird but i followed him. The thing is: he chooses people (mostly mentally unstable people), pulls their legs, tells bullshit like: "I need you, only you can help me, the world is set up to humiliate us and blah blah blah". How do i know that? Simple. Today he was talking to some guy in cafe, and i took the table next to them.

Now my life has a purpose. I need to get in this freaking cult. I need to be chosen by him.