Anywhere But Here
Chapter 1
(Randy P.O.V)
That's it. I was gay. I had known it for a while now but I hadn't been able to admit it to myself until recently. I had to break it off with Marcia but I didn't know how to. I didn't want to be mean, but I just wanted to be blunt and get it over with. I don't think I could tell her I realized I was gay, I would just tell her I wasn't interested in her anymore. I knew it would hurt her, but I couldn't lie to myself anymore. I was still trying to think of a plan, I knew I had to do it to her face. I doubt it would make it any better if I did it through a phone call or a note.
I was sitting in my room, the only light on was my lamp. I had just gotten done studying for a test and I was tempted to call Marcia to have her meet me somewhere so I could end it. I wasn't quite sure where yet, but it wasn't horribly late yet. I figured I could have her meet me here but I didn't want to deal with her breaking down and trying to fix it. I stroked my chin for a moment, maybe I could treat her to a milkshake. I looked over at my phone that rested on my wooden nightstand. I felt my heart start to race in my chest and my hands started to shake. I picked up the phone and began dialing her number. I listened to it ring for a few moments until someone picked up.
"Hello?" Marcia said and I took in a deep breath.
"Hey, umm..what's up?" I asked and scratched the back of my head.
"Oh, hi, Randy. Nothin's really going on, I'm just watching TV with my mom." She said and I could tell by her voice she was smiling. God, I was going to hate myself for this.
"I was wondering if you wanted to get a milkshake with me." I said and she giggled to herself.
"Sure, where do you want to meet?" She asked.
"Dairy Queen, I gotta talk to you about some things." I muttered and she went silent for a moment.
"Oh..okay, Randy. I'll meet you there in a few minutes."
I hung up before she could say she loved me. I didn't want to hear it. I slipped on my shoes and grabbed my jacket, it was autumn outside and it was starting to get pretty chilly. My mouth was so dry and I was shaking like a leaf. This needed to be done. I just couldn't lie to myself anymore and I couldn't lie to Marcia anymore.
I arrived at the closest Dairy Queen and waited inside for Marcia. I ordered a chocolate milkshake, it was her favorite. I figured having her favorite flavor would make the news just a bit easier to swallow. I hadn't ever broken up with someone before, usually my ex's were the ones who broke up with me. I was just going to do it.
I watched as Marcia walked in and sat in the chair across from me. Her eyebrows were curved in concern as she reached toward my hand, I reluctantly let her take a soft grip on my hand.
"What is it you want to talk about, babe?" She asked and ran her thumb over the back of my hand.
"Marcia, I love you, but things have changed. I've realized things about myself and I just don't think I can be with you anymore." I explained as calmly as possible.
"Are..are you breaking up with me?" She asked, I heard her voice crack and I saw tears well up in her eyes.
"I can't lie to you anymore, I can't do this anymore. I'm sorry, Marcia, but it's over." I said and slightly pushed the milkshake towards her as I stood.
"That's for you, I'm sorry." I apologized one more time as I hurriedly walked out to my car to get away from her. I needed to get home to calm myself down.
(Marcia P.O.V)
I stared at the milkshake Randy had gotten me. He broke up with me, he really wasn't my boyfriend anymore. I wondered what I did wrong, we had been dating for almost a year. I wondered if Bob's death had anything to do with this sudden change, the whole town was sort of gloomy after all those events took place. I picked up the milkshake and carried it with me outside. I walked to my car and stood in front of it for a moment. I felt tears well up in my eyes once again but this time I couldn't hold it back. I began to sob like a baby, I angrily stared at the milkshake in my hand. I growled and hurled at the brick wall of the Diary Queen. I stomped to my car door and climbed in. I jammed my car key into the ignition, I needed to talk to Cherry. She always knew how to cheer me up.
I sobbed to myself in my car for a moment, I needed to get all of it out before I talked with Cherry. I hated crying in front of her, it made me feel weak and childish. Cherry was such a strong woman compared to me, I was just a big crybaby about everything. I turned up the heater in my car and began to peel off my coat. I sat my coat in the passenger seat as I buckled myself in. I wiped the tears off on my sleeves and took a soft grip of my steering wheel.
"You're okay, Marcia. You are okay.." I whispered and began backing out of my parking space
A/N:Here's a preview of a fanfic I plan on writing alongside my fanfic Stay. I hope you enjoy this preview of chapter 1.