this is just a oneshot on what I think happened after the season 5 episode So... Good talk ended, Lorelai's POV
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As I opened the door, I was shocked too see Luke their but I didn't have time to react before he began to kiss me.
I had missed this, we had spent weeks apart and every day apart killed me. But this was not right, we haven't been together for weeks why is he here? why?
'Luke' I say breaking the kiss apart 'Luke I can't do this. We need to talk about this' I tell him. I'm slightly angry that he has turned up here, like this, I need answers
'You can't just show up here like this and kiss me. You can't play with my emotions like this, It's not fair Luke' I snap, walking towards the kitchen
'Why are you here?' Lorelai asked
'Your mother' Luke began
'Oh, oh. So your here on her order so I will go back to Friday night dinner? Or so I will start talking to her again? I loved you Luke, and you obviously couldn't see that. But now my mother is involved your here? She broke us up Luke. She hurt us, she let Christopher come between us. and yet your here following her every demand! I can't do this. I was just getting back to my normal self again, I was just picking myself back up again and yet here you are! I can't do this Luke, I can't. Leave please. You have to leave!' Lorelai yelled, feeling every emotion possible.
'Lorelai, I know your still very angry and upset with how things ended. But trust me I want to be here on my own terms, I do! Your mother came to my diner and said how we should be together, even if she doesn't want us to be. But that doesn't matter to me. I've been missing you, god I have missed you! Your not like any other girl I've been with, your special and I miss you, god damn it. Can't you see I'm upset and angry too? I'm not here because your mother sent me! I'm here because I want to be here, with you! I want you Lorelai!' Luke said, trying to reach out to her.
'But how do I know that? Christopher gets drunk and comes between us once and you left me! You know what he is like, god you've seen it in the past with letting Rory down and you seriously think I would put myself through that again over being with you?' Lorelai sobbed
'I know that Lorelai, I know I was a jerk. But can't you see I love you? Because I do love you Lorelai!' Luke said, walking closer to Lorelai
'I should've been able to see it that night. You should've trusted me when I said that my parents could get between us, and you didn't listen and they did get between us! It even affected my daughter, which by the way isn't fair is it? She shouldn't have to feel torn between her grandparents, her father, her mother, and a man she has considered her father since she was 10! It's not just me in this anymore, it's Rory too and I promised myself when she was born she would always be my top priority. But this, this broke that and I have felt like I have neglected her because she's been looking after me! I can't do that to her again if this was to turn sour again, which I know one day it will and I will be right back to that dark place I was in when you said you couldn't do it anymore! You promised me that you were all in Luke! You said you were all in, but you lied! You broke my heart and I can't keep going back to that place I was in! I can't its not fair on me or Rory!' Lorelai sobbed, even more backing away from Luke, hitting her side on the table. Luke reached out and protectively caught her before she fell, but Lorelai continued to push him away
'Lorelai, you can't keep doing this! I love you!' Luke said, pleading with her
'I love you too' Lorelai replied quietly 'But I need to know I can trust you! I put all my trust in you to not break my heart, you said at the town meeting that there wouldn't be one and I believed you. I thought you were the one, but I was wrong. I was wrong because just when everything is going right it all goes wrong again, even though sometimes its me that calls it off, it's because I don't want to get too involved in case it hurts Rory. I can't hurt her Luke, she's all I have!' Lorelai added
'Lorelai Rory is nearly 20 years old now, she's a big girl now. You need to start thinking about you, and what you want. Rory wants what's best for you too, and she's not all you have. You have me, please Lorelai.' Luke told her softly.
'I know that Luke, but can we trust you? Can we trust you not to hurt us again?' Lorelai questioned
'Yes Lorelai, you can trust me. I want you to trust me, because I don't think I could live without you for much longer. Not seeing you was driving me insane and I felt stupid for letting you go.' Luke replied, as both of them edged forward and shared another kiss except this time neither of them stepped away.
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Wrote this during quarantine, as I have been in quarantine for about 2 weeks now. Trying to get inspiration back for my other stories. Hope you enjoyed this one.
Not sure rn if its a one-shot or if I will be able to turn it into more unseen moments of JavaJunkie S5. However, what I do know is that I want to write a fic on Lorelai and Christopher so any ideas please do let me know
Thanks for reading!
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