Note: There's no A. No copyright blah blah. Alison is not a bitch. I added Maya and Mona to the clique.
DOMESTIC VIOLENCE WARING
Italics are Maya thoughts. Shoutouts to any surviving Emaya shippers this fa yall lol. Sorry for any mistakes.
Now every group of friends usually have the following; The shy quiet one, the loud funny one, the smart ass, and the quirky wise one. Except for this group of friends Each person embodied all of these characteristics - some more than others. Also there were more than 4 of them.
Let's start with Aria the quirky quiet wise one. The one who won't say much but will say just enough and just the right things. Type to bust out a poem or song quote and you'll never know cause it was so genuine. Friends and family call her an empath for this skill. Moving on to Mona the second child of the group, Aria is the oldest. Sometimes starting shit due to her hot headedness but always looking out for her sisters. The risk taker out the bunch, very unpredictable when things get hectic. But like she says " Hey it gets shit done." Polar opposite of Emily. Not as in don't get shit done but more of " I do it so sneakily and quiet you'll never I did it to begin with." Growing up Emily was a little reserved but soon grew out of it meeting this bunch of girls. She's the cocky, confident one but she purposely blends into the background even in the family. Limelight was never her thing and still isn't. Emily is the gay one, well first gay one Maya came out later. Technically Maya didn't come out more of confirmed it, labels and sections aren't her thing. Maya was the person who kept the flow moving, never letting it teeter to one side too heavy. Balancing out everybody with her all around personality. Yes confident but rarely bold she left that for the others. She always kept close to Em. Obviously the two start dating later freshmen year, thanks to a lot of' encouraging' from Hanna and Ali. The rest was gonna let it play out but Hanna and Ali couldn't take it anymore. The pair forced Maya and Emily in a dim lit room locked the door and didn't come back for 2 hours. Hanna of course was the mastermind. Seen as the youngest who could do anything, say anything and get off clean. The rambunctious busy body who surprisingly is level headed. There's Alison the loud funny one, at times she's wise with the tips and tricks she dishes to the group. Some might call her Queen Bee but she never paid any mind to the title let alone let it describe her. Could she be mean at times? Hell yeah, Ali is the Mom of the group. Spencer is Mom #2 Let's call her Mama. Spencer is the smart ass, any words not spoken she will definitely notice. Thats why when Emily came out as gay freshman year it wasn't a shock. But just like Spencer, an excellent detective is Maya. You see that's what bonded Spencer and Maya together. Well that and their love for Mystery Inc and Nancy Drew. Maya came later in this dynamic back in 6th grade when she met Hanna and Mona in the hallway.
FLASHBACK
" Hanna we're going to be late." Mona whined.
" Mona… Do you really think I care? It's the second day of school we can walk into class at least 5 minutes late. We are newbies. FUCK! Why is this locker shit so hard?" Hanna kicked the locker.
" I know right! I just carry my backpack around. We could just load our stuff in Spencer and Aria locker. You know Spenc got hers open and if she does so does Aria. I swear Aria is her favorite and I'm not trying to be sensitive but that's a little fucked up." Mona replied leaning her back against the locker cooly. Adjusting the bag on her shoulder noticing it's getting heavier over time..Or maybe she's getting tired.
" See that's why I love you Mona you speak the words that's right in my head. Omg what if they're gay for each other?! That's lowkey cute." Hanna gushed winking at getting both of them laughing. By this point this hallways are filled with their laughter as every other student cleared rushed to class. They're shocked back to reality as they hear a soft click 4 lockers to their left. It's a locker swinging open.. On the first try! Both girls exchanged looks and stepped up to the locker door. Their eyes meet a lightskin fairly short girl with braids all the way down hitting her back. The mystery girl chuckled.
"Yeah I know I'm pretty legit opening the locker on the first try." She beamed, revealing pearly white teeth and dimples. Reaching her hand she introduced herself" Hey name is Maya. Maya . I'm new here. Well we all are but I'm new to this town, what about yall?" She tilted her head.
" My name is Hanna and this is Mona. And i'm declaring you our new friend!" Hanna squealed. All 3 girls exchanging schedules. Mona gasped " We pretty much got the same schedule except for one class yay! At lunch we're gonna introduce you to the rest of the family!" They all joined arms, ventured the halls for a few more minutes and headed to class. The rest is history.
END FLASHBACK
PRESENT DAY
Senior year, the year where shit gets real. Maya could feel the shift coming preparing for it everyday and night. College acceptance letters, scholarships, homecoming, prom and Emily. Even though it was the first day of Senior year she knew one day, one by one, this family of girls would disband. Being the realist and optimist she is, she revels in the fact that its for the better. I sure hope Em sees it this way. I mean she's going to some top notch college for swimming right? Why would she be mad at us for leaving the nest too? Realizing she said to us instead of me, Maya frowned in thought. Knowing something deep within but not willingly to confirm it just yet. Maybe it's not like that..
" Damn what you got scrunched up love?" Mona perked up interrupting the self denial Maya was engulfed in. Lightly jumping in shock Maya giggled and lunged to hug Mona.
" Mona love it's the ole senior blues." She said somberly.
" Awww we need to have sleepovers almost every night!' Mona replied sadly
" Yes we agree." Aria and Spencer said smoothly at the same time.
" Oh my god you creeps! Was yall hiding in the bushes or something?" Maya asked jokingly looking around frantically.
" Ha ha bitch you know we know where you're at all times. It's senior year, it's pop up season." Aria poked her tongue out.
" Ew stick that monster back in it stanks" Hanna easily interjected in with Ali giggling right behind her.
I'm gonna miss moments like these damn I love these girls so much it hurts. Wait where's Em?
" Hey where's Em?" Spencer silently reading Maya's mind. Their eyes meet and Spenc shoots her a smirk.
" She's probably late. So cocky she knows she won't get any tardy or detentions." Ali explained.
" I'm not trying to shake up a happy home but Maya your girlfriend is quite the charmer. All she needs to do is shoot a smile and it's a go." Causing everybody to laugh.
" I know I know that mouth is definitely good for more than just smiling." Maya shoots back.
" Oh we know." Aria slips in. Maya starts blushing turning red.
" I'm not tryna be racist but I didn't know black people can blush and turn red." Hanna said quizzily. The group goes quiet for a second. All eyes on Maya. They all glance at each other and erupt in laughter, tears pouring out their eyes. Maya laughter was cut short as she felt a hand touch her middle back. She tensed up and quickly turned around. I hope Em doesn't see this. Brown eyes met brown eyes as she came face to face with Emily. Tension in her body left just a little as memories of last night flooded into her brain.
It was just an argument Maya nothing too dramatic. I know, I know but man the way Emily was looking at me it felt like it was gonna happen again-.
"Hey babe You good?" Em quickly whispered to Maya. In return she shook her head and gave Emily a kiss.
" Aww look at the cutest gay couple in Rosewood" Noel swiftly taking the attention off the couple.
God I hope nobody noticed that. Maybe me and Em need to talk about it. No no she apologized over and over, showered me in presents and promised never to do it again.
Emily noticed the relief wash over Maya's face and softly smiled " My love Germain I missed you."Kissing her cheek. " Awww." Noel jokingly pouted." So who turns it next?" Turning to the others. They looked confused "Oh you know which one of you two gonna start dating?"an abrupt of laughter started throughout the quad. As the laughter rose and mellowed out so did Maya nerves. Emily of course took notice, softly kissing her cheek rubbing her thumb over her knuckles.
"Do we need to talk about something?" Em whispered in her love ear quickly. St. Germain nerves slightly elevated again. She turned around and muzzled Em's chest.
"Mmm I don't know babe maybe my nerves are just up today. A Lot on my mind you know?
Senior year just started. Career choices already on my mind." Germain softly vented. She felt the gears in her girlfriend grinding, her body slightly tensing.
"My love can we talk about this later please?"
"Yes of course" Maya looked up soundly kissing her on the cheek. Em poked her head back to look Maya fully in the face.
"Why aren't you kissing me on the LIPS? We haven't kissed in 2 days!" Em harshly whispered. Panic immediately came over Maya but as quickly as it came it left. I have to keep composure. For fucks sake we're in front of our friends! The whole school!
"Emily. Not right now." Silently begging with her eyes. This is getting too hectic. I love her but no I can't go through this. Especially when I know how she gets. I wanna call a break but she might-
Saved by the bell as it rang out, signaling the official start to the school year.
"Gots to go Em bye." Maya turned around, grabbed Alison arm " Come on schedule buddy we gots to go." "Lead the way Miss Germain." Ali riddled off.
It's now lunch period. To say it's been a day is an understatement. It wasn't even over yet what a shame. Maya found herself wanting to avoid lunch, specifically avoid Emily. Opening up her locker gathering her things for the rest of the day, turning to the mirror she got lost in the gaze of herself.
Em has always been over protective of me. But the way she treats me. Almost everyday it's something I'm not doing right in her eyes. I don't know if it's gonna hurt me to continue like this or call a break. I love her sooo much but this cannot continue. I can't even let this out to anybody because we're all close.
Taking a deep breath exhaling conflications roaming around in her head, closing her locker she starts walking towards the cafeteria. After 3 years the group still had their same lunch table. Relief settling in as she noticed nobody else has yet arrived. Settling in putting her bags down Maya pulled out her phone. Mindlessly scrolling through her feeds not noticing her lover sneak up on her side. Charming Fields laid a kiss on her shoulder.
" Baby I know this isn't the time nor place but I'm sorry for that outburst earlier. I know things have been shaky between us and I will take responsibility for that okay? Can we please talk later? Please?" Em begging, kissing all over girlfriends face waiting for the answer. Maya finally broke lightly giggling.
" Yes babe ok. I accept your apology but we definitely have to talk." Pecking her lips. All the other girls arrived one by one except for Spencer and Aria. They're so gay.
" Sooo first day back and it's already a party. Yall know what that means!" Raging Mona shouted out getting Hanna and Aria to jump up and down in excitement. Wow what perfect timing.
' Well you guys enjoy that me and my lady will be at home together." Em said snuggling into Maya's side. Oh no no. I wanna go. I can't disagree with her though. Especially in public. That will lead to an argument we just resolved! Imma just put it off for when we talk later. Who knows/s maybe I'll go there single? Yeah single and miserable.
" Aww come on guys it's senior year! We gotta do it big one last time." Spencer surprisingly said.
"Wow if Spenc saying go you gotta go. For fuck's sake she pribably got 2 projects to do and she's still going!" Hanna whined. The couple exchanged eyes, reading the others all too well. I know what that looks mean. Tread lightly. Decoding the message and sending one back Maya smirked " If you guys ever felt Emily tongue you would stay in the house too."
" Ewww!" the others said simultaneously.
It's finally the end of the day, whew. Me and Em still have to talk. I'm so nervous. Actually scared. I just can't dont wanna see a repeat. Not of that. We could yell and disagree all we like but not that again. It really scared me but I try so hard not to let it.
FLASHBACK
Maya knew something about Emily nobody on this planet knew. Maybe not even Emily herself. Her temper. Not childish tantrums or snarky comments no aggressive and in your face type of temper. Maya saw a glimpse of it when an asshole would try the family but never full blown. Never directed to her. It started 3 months ago, the start of summer ago to be exact. When Maya forgot to let Em know she wasn't going out with Spencer anymore. Germain received a shockingly aggressive phone call from Emily. Perceiving it as her being over protective, the incident was nothing more than labeled as miscommunication. It increased over time. It was one time. One time I didn't update her. Since then she's all on me. Constantly asking where I'm at, what I'm wearing and what I'm thinking. Times I don't wanna give up my privacy result in an argument. Always ending up with Em yelling and cursing. I rarely saw her like that. It's pretty pitiful to say I got used to the tantrums. But that one day changed everything.
The pair was laid down snuggly into each other on Maya's bed. Maya's head on Em's chest, softly caressing each other.
We're really going into our senior year together. Together. I love how that sounds. Wouldn't have it any other way. But…. What if we separate? We might have to, I want to pursue my music career not college. All Em got is scholarships. I would never force her to stay for me either.
"Hey babe.. You've been thinking about life after graduation?" Germain shifted on her elbow to look her lover in the eye.
" Awe you know I got plenty of scholarships. I'm mainly focused on the University of Arizona though… You're gonna follow me right?" The look of dumbstruck hit her counterpart.
" Em you're not serious are you?" Follow her?! Why would she ask such a thing? She din'task what I wanna do what the fuck! Both girls sitting up realizing this conversation just took a sharp decline.
'Yes. The school is amazing. It has any major you wanna go for." Em explained slowly. Slowly as if Maya was a child.
"Emily. Do you even know what I want to do?"
This fucking hurts. So much. She doesn't even know! We talked endlessly about college and how I don't wanna attend!
Reading her mind Emily smoothly explained. " Maya love I know you wanna do music but.. Come on you don't wanna get any degree?"
" I told you plenty of times I don't."
" Maya stop it." Something in Emily changed. Her tone, her eyes even her voice. " I want you to be with me. It's not that hard to innerstand. Stop it."It shook Maya to the core. It's oddly unsettling how calm she is. I know she has a minor anger problem but I have never seen this. Why is she treating me like this? Heartbeat raising suddenly due to the rage boiling inside her Maya scooted forward " You've got to be fucking kidding me. I'm not gonna follow you around like a puppy. I mean fuck I already have to answer all your calls, all your questions, tell you my location. This cconversatin is longover fucking due. Emily. You're too controlling! I put up with it because I don't want you to feel unappreciated. Remmber the one time I didn't answer a stupid question you called me out my name Em!" Finally letting the rage break the barrier. When she was done she realized Emily wasn't even looking at her. Clenched jaw and eyes down Emily drew a breath in.
"Maya stop it you're gonna say something you're gonna regret. You're pissing me off-" Really?! A lick of fear trickled into Maya but the rage overtook it.
" Grow. The. Fuck. Up." Those words sent Emily swiftly standing up. Pacing back and forth clenching and unclenching her fists. Is she really this mad? Over me wanting to live my own life?!
" Maya I love you with all my fucking heart. But i'm not stupid, far from it. I see the way people look at you and never see you fend them off. You're so happy go lucky touchy touchy with everybody. Now that I want you to myself it's a problem?!"
" You have me to yourself every fucking day Em! Yes I am friendly because I wasn't raised to be mean and rude. People drool over you too, oh you must have forgotten? I wasn't the one in the hallway hugging up with my teammate!" And she still talks to that bitch. I damn near cried my eyes out that day I saw them. Nobody, not even Alison knows what you did. What you continue to do. " Is that why you're so on top of me? Because you think I'm like you?" Maya inched closer and closer to Emily.
Still clenching her fists, even wiggling her fingers tapping them on the dresser. " Maya. Shut. Up."
" Or what? You're gonna find another bitch-"
Next thing Maya know she's on the floor with the right side of her face red. Emily slapped her. Hard.
She- she Emily just hit me. Put her hands on me.
Everything zoned out after that for Maya. Lightly feeling arms carrying her into bed, lips kissing all over face repeating apologies. My Emily. Emily Fields…... That just happened. Countless pleas fell deaf upon her ears. Sorry sorry that's all I can hear. It still hurts. My heart hurt. So much. Eyes on the ceiling she doesn't know what to say…. I have to see her everyday.. I still love her. Without a doubt. So much it hurts…. She hurts me.
" Maya i'm so sorry baby please say something" Emily eyes replaced the ceiling in Mya's view. She searched those eyes deeply. Seeing them revert back to the ones she fell in love with. Those soft brown eyes.
She choked out "E-Em why? Why are you hurting me?" Sobs overtook her body, tears coming in blocking Emily's guilt ridden face. " I do everything you ask of me. I never cheated on you. Never thought about it. I thought you loved me! Why? Why? Why would you hurt me?!"
" Maya my love please I'm so sorry! I let my anger get the best of me please. It'll never happen again. None of it. No more questions, no more hugging other girls, none of it baby. I-I just lost it okay? You struck a nerve I didn't know I have that's no excuse though. Please Maya stay with me. Together. I can fix this, we can fix this. I love you so much Maya please!." Emily begged tears slowly rolling down her face while she kissed all over her love body. No words were spoken except for Emily's countless apologies and Maya soft sobs. It quieted down after 15 minutes with Maya sniffling and finally saying " E-Emily. I can't do this. I-I can't keep getting hurt like this. " Sitting up to look her in the eye.
"No my love I fucked up but I will never do that again! Please Maya believe me. I'll do whatever to keep you. I love you Maya St Germain. I don't wanna live without you baby please! I'll go to counselling, therapy, anger management, anything to keep you. I'm cleaning up my act. I promise this will never happen again, believe me. " Emily said pleading. You said you'll never hurt me but you are. I trusted you with my heart Emily… I still do. Am I a fool?
"...You should leave." Maya eyes cast down unable to meet the other pair of eyes. Silently Emily got up, gathered her belongings and headed for the door. That night she blew Maya's phone up with apologies. And of course I forgive you. Maybe I just made her mad? She did say I struck a nerve. The pretty hurt Germain couldn't sleep that night No. Only weeping into her pillow. Restricted from telling anybody because she knows the truth. I will end up taking her back. Day by day Emily won her good grace with Maya again. But of course this toxic pattern came back in season 2 months later. Not one person in their group batted an eye. I must be a really good actor… Emily is better.
END FLASHBACK
A car horn interrupted Maya in her flashback making her lift her head she didn't notice was down in the first place. Meeting her lovers eyes, both smiling at each other like kids in love. So deep deep in love. Am I in too deep?
"Damn, I'm that breathtaking?" Emily said smirking. Yes you are. For good and bad reasons. Germain starts giggling and walking to the car entering it. Yeah I'm in deep fuck I love this girl so much. Just being by her brings me peace...But when we're bad oh are we bad. Right now we're iffy though. My moods are changing so much what's going on? Earlier I was dreading being by her but now.? Now I just wanna lay down and let her kiss me all day and all night. A curse and a blessing I miss them lips so much. We haven't kissed for days now. I was too anxious. We got into another argument a few days ago about the same thing. Over and over. Me and my 'wrongdoings'. Prior to that she reverted softly into her controlling ways. Only more discreet this time, always smiling while interrogating me. This time it was about me not signing up for SAT retakes. Fuck that test and fuck college. Em is still pushing me to go to college ever so subtly but I know if I give her a definite no that will shake us up-like last time.
Once Maya got in she cut the radio on relishing the music. Acting on impulse Em cut the music up and stayed silent. 5 minutes later they arrived at Emily's house. A wave of relief washed over Maya. I know Em will not curse me out not when her parents are home… Wait are they? Em instincts kicked in again answering the question in Maya's head " My parents are on the way home babe my dad went to the airport to pick up my mother. Remember I told you she got discharged."
"I remember but I thought she'll be home early. You know your mom is always the organizer." Maya replied getting out of the car. Emily followed suit, leading her to the front door. The couple took off their shoes, got some snacks out of the kitchen and went straight to Emily's room. Silence traveled with them until Fields spoke up.
" My love I-I I uhh I apologized for earlier. You're my girlfriend not my property. If you don't wanna kiss me that's fine. But personally it makes me feel some type of way. That we haven't kissed. I mean come on we haven't even cuddled. I know I fucked up but love that was months ago!"
Wow. She's more worried about what i'm not doing versus what she actually did wrong. Just like that the brief contentment Maya felt was gone. I don't wanna keep being the bad guy. I know I'm not. I don't want to make her mad but I'm not going to keep biting my tongue. Everytime I speak up here comes an argument. What should I do?
Taking a deep breath Maya acknowledging both sides " Emily I know I've missed your lips so much but babe you are not innerstanding where I'm coming from. Yes it was months ago but everything you said you'd stop doing started back a month ago. Than we have an argument about me not retaking the SATs when I made it clear I don't care for it since I'm not going to college. No disrespect Em but get over it im not changing my mind. It's silly to be upset over the kiss itself and not what happened to cause it" She huffed out her chest finishing her declaration.
Her counterpart sat there staring intently at her. I see those same eyes Im inlove with im good. Everythings ok.
"Maya.. Love. I hear and I'm listening to you but please can I just get one kiss? PLease? I've missed you so much. I promise we will resolve this babe just one quick Kiss?" Emily said pouting.
Fuck she really know's how to pull my heart strings. I've missed her too. She takes me on a rollercoaster man. One quick peck won't hurt.
Maya scoots closer to Emily now completely in front of her, leaning forward with eyes closed to kiss her girlfriend. Em quickly mirrors her but leans deeper in capturing her lover's lips slowly but passionately causing both of them to moan.
Fuck fuck fuck. I've missed her soooo much. I can't even resist this anymore. I allowed her to kiss all my problems away… Again. This time doesn't feel as bad as I might add.