This story includes talk of self harm and suicide.
Tonys POV:
i walked into work late as i always do. I look over at my partners desk and realise she isn't there, which is weird for Ziva. "wheres ziva?" i asked Tim, he shrugged his shoulders and continued to do his work. I decide to try and call her, i dial her numbers and wait for her voice but i am met with her voicemail recording.
"grab your gear, we got a case" gibbs booms from his desk with his cup of coffee in hand. "wheres David?" he asks me, "not here yet boss" I reply. "stop by her apartment on the way" he tells me. McGee and Gibbs follow Ducky and palmer to the crime scene while i drive over to Ziva's apartment. Its a good 10 minute drive from the naval base so i listen to some tunes.
I arrive at her apartment complex and walk up to her door. I knock on it and i am surprised when the door swings open. I get my gun out and search her apartment, once i determine it is empty i put my gun back in its haster. I walk over to the counter where i see a note which was sitting under her beloved necklace.
My heart sunk to the floor as i read the note:
Tony,
i knew you would eventually come looking for me, so i left you this.
I have decided it is my time, after living a long and horrible life. It is now coming to an end, i am giving you my necklace because it is the most important thing in my life, apart from my family at NCIS. Please keep it safe and give Abby and Ducky a hug for me.
I will be reunited with my mother and sister soon enough, where i will live a happy life in the clouds that overlook the cliffs.
I love you all,
Ziva x
I grabbed the note and the necklace and sprinted back to my car where i drove to the crime scene, i tried to get a hold of Gibbs but he wouldn't answer his phone. The car came to a quick halt when i arrived at the crime scene, i ran over to the others who were doing their usual crime scene tactics.
"you find her?" Gibbs asks me. I hand him the note i found and watch his face drop as he reads. "Go back to Abby, see if she can trace her phone" he tells me. i nod and speed back to NCIS, i run straight down to Abbys lab and ask her to trace her phone, without question she begins typing. "looks like the batteries out, she made a call at around 11am at this address" she tells me writing on a piece of paper and handing it to me.
"whats this for anyway?" she asks me, i give her the note and run out. I drive to the location Abby gave me, it was an address that i knew all too well. It was a graveyard where her sister and mother were buried. I arrived at the graveyard and walked over to the her mother and sisters graves. She had taken me there a year ago on the anniversary of her sisters death so i knew where they were.
I saw her cell phone sitting on top of her sisters grave. She took the battery out so I couldn't trace her, she was always smart like that. But right now i needed her to slip up so i could find her in time.
I went back to NCIS after searching the entire Graveyard. "we need to find her Gibbs" i say to him pacing back and forth. "we will, why don't you go to the hospital and see if anyone by her name was brought in" he tells me in a sympathetic tone. So i did just that, i went to the hospital.
I drove to the hospital and walked into emergency. After waiting in line for a couple of minutes i asked the lady if anyone by her name was brought in. "no sorry, no one by that name matches our files" she tells me. I sigh and go back to the car. I sit in the car for a second, thinking about Ziva, when she first joined, our undercover mission in Paris, all the times we trusted each other.
I eventually went back to NCIS, i hated that I couldn't help her, that she felt this is the last resort.
"nothing boss" i say to him as i walk in, "where could she be?, she couldn't have gone far. She made a call at the grave yards at 11 and that was only an hour ago" he contemplates. "i don't know, but if we don't find her soon..." i stop myself.
Ziva's POV:
im sitting on the cliffs, overlooking the city. I can see the Washington landmarks, the sun was shining on the buildings causing a sparkle like effect. I wonder if Tony had found my letter yet, he probably did, he would be looking for me by now. I wish he wouldn't, but i know he will.
I decided to spend my last moments at the prettiest place ever. There was no one around, it was peaceful.
I was beginning to feel Dizzy from the pills i had taken, so i laid on the grass watching the clouds form little pictures.
Tonys POV:
It had been 2 hours since i found the letter, time was ticking away. I decided to read the note again, hoping i would find something. My heart started beating faster when i read it again, but i scanned each word carefully. "overlook the cliffs" those words kept jumping out at me. I sat there wracking my brain trying to figure out where i had heard that before.
Then i remembered that time Ziva and i went to the cliffs that overlook Washington. It was beautiful, of course the view didn't nearly compare to her beauty. I grabbed my keys and sprinted to the car, i sped off. I turned the corners of the windy roads going up to the cliff. Once i got there i parked the car, i began scanning around the cliffs.
My heart dropped when i noticed her lying on the ground in the distance. I ran over to her to see blood pooling from her wrists. I quickly called 911 while i checked her breathing. I could barely hear it, her pulse was completely faint. I held both of my hands over her wrists trying to stop the bleeding.
After what seemed like the longest time ever i heard sirens coming in the distance. They sped over to me, two EMT's rushed out with a stretcher and carefully lifted her lifeless body onto it.
They wrapped her wrists up to temporarily stop the bleeding until they could go to the hospital. I went with them into the ambulance, holding her hand until they arrived. They rushed her to the OR while i was forced ti stay behind.
"gibbs, i found her. Come to the hospital now" i say to him on the phone. I pace back and forth in the waiting room until i see Gibbs.
"where is she?" he asked. "She's in the OR, she lost alot of blood boss" i say picturing her lying there on the ground.
After half an hour a nurse calls for us. "she lost alot of blood, we also found dangerous amounts of drugs in her system but we were able to flush them out. She will be on life support until she can breathe on her own" the nurse tells me. "She's in room 104".
Gibbs and i walk to the elevator and go to the first floor which is the Intensive care Unit.
We walk in the room to see her lying on the bed, her wrists were wrapped which were lying next to her body. She had a breathing tube in her mouth and needles in every vein. Gibbs and i walk over to her, i sit down next to her in silence as i watched the heart monitor. "why would she do this boss?" i say to him. "Tony, people feel like they have no other choice. They feel alone and scared and thats the only way out in their eyes" he tells me, i realise he's speaking from experience but I don't question it.
He kissed her forehead and left me alone with her. I let a tear fall down my eye as i saw her lying completely lifeless in the bed. I grabbed the necklace out of my pocket and gently lift her head so i can put it back on her.
A month later
They took Ziva's breathing tube out today, she is off life support and now all we have to do is wait for her to wake up. I sat in the chair next to her everyday, reading her stories. I learnt Hebrew for her and i read her her favourite childhood story.
"ziva, please wake up. Abby is going crazy without you, we all miss you a lot" i tell her holding her hand. I feel her hand slightly grasp mine. "ziva, can you hear me" i asked her, i felt her hand squeeze mine again. I smiled knowing she would be awake soon, i was going to make sure she had a happy life with me. I was going to marry her one day, and thats just what I did.