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not good in engllish I'm sorry...

Here I am, Standing close to you and your still so far away...

So near yet so far, some relations are better left undefined.

Gintoki never visit me to the hospital, I got discharge, I got terminated in the work, back to zero again. Gintoki is here in the Edo he's near, I want to find him, I want to see and talk to him but how? My men came and gave me my phone Sakamoto is calling.

Sakamoto: ahahahaha Zura how are you? Got discharge from the hospital?

Yes, I saw him...

Sakamoto: Oh really Zura? ahahahaha who is him?

Gintoki you idiot and I'm not Zura, I'm Katsura!

Sakamoto: ahahaha ahahaha did you talk to him?

No... He already has a family

Sakamoto: Is that true? I guess I should go back to Earth

By the way why did you call?

Sakamoto: Well, I'm giving you a gift I think you will like it ahahaha

You don't have to... but if you insist

Sakamoto: Okay in the evening Mutsu will go to the South east ocean in Edo wait for him he will give you my gift.

Thank you Tatsuma...

Sakamoto: hahahaha Zura, I hope you can talk to Gintoki

When I get home one of my comrade report to me that the important package is a bomb, the other terrorist try to set him up. No wonder Gintoki is mad at me, he thought that I set him up. I got ready to meet Mutsu in the evening we wait for her. She is a Yato, She is the very first Yato I met, She's here she gave me the package and a cash, I ask where is Sakamoto he said that Sakamoto is busy in the club, he never change.

When Mutsu open a package, I saw a giant white creature look like a Duck or Penguin but I think its a duck , its so cute I really like pets thats why I thank Mutsu and called Sakamoto that I receive the package and I love it, I will not alone because Elizabeth is here, I named her Elizabeth. We got home Elizabeth can communicate through signboards but she can't write Japanese so I have to teach her.

Spending days with Elizabeth I didnt think about Gintoki or the 10 years ago. She was like a medicine to me, she makes me busy so I cant wonder on my own thoughts. Elizabeth is a fast learner, I teach her basic samurai skills and how to be a true samurai. When we are walking in the streets of Kabuki because Shinsengumi is not here, my impormants said that they have a meeting in shogun's castle. We brought a Shampoo and basic needs when we saw Gintoki with his giant white dog who is starring at Elizabeth.

Gintoki: Zura what is that thing next to you its disgusting.

Its not Disgusting, Its Elizabeth and I'm not Zura, I'm Katsura

Gintoki lean his back on the wall and cross his arms, I want to see and talk to Gintoki but I have a duty to Elizabeth. When I pass to him he hold my wrist, Gintoki ... I said

Gintoki: Zura, Don't involve me in your terrosit act, Stop with what you are doing and accept the fact that the war has already ended and we are now living with the new generation ruled by Amantos.

He let go of my wrist and look at me, Gintoki I didnt want to involve you I dont really know that the package is a bomb.

Gintoki: Zura your smart, I know you knew that the package is a bomb. You are with war for 5 years you know that it was a bomb and you let me involve in your terrorist act.

Its not Zura its Katsuraaaaa, I uppercut him and leave him. Elizabeth followed me, I dont want to debate with Gintoki, why Gintoki doesnt believe in me?

When we got home, Elizabeth gave me a tea and left me to think, she's really good at reading about Gintoki and he's new attitude I know something changed.

Evening came and my men brought Gintoki he has several injury in his left arm and in stomach, I rush to get medicine and treated him, He's still breathing when I stripped him kimono and shirt I saw a drug that we are investigating. Gintoki involved himself into some dangerous Space Pirates called Harusame. After I treated him I got out of my room and go to Elizabeth's room to talk to him.

Elizabeth find the information about the Harusame ship that contains a lot of drug and ready my bombs and my new costume.

Elizabeth followed and I get back to Gintoki's side I look at him sleeping peacefully, I'm glad his okay now. I didnt sleep I only look at him and get lost in my thoughts, when he finally woke up.

Gintoki: Zura what are you doing here?

Its not Zura, Its Katsura, my men saw you and brought you here, I'll be the one asking you why do you have this?

Gintoki: I dont know whats that and I need to go and protect the kids, when he got up he's in pain\

Gintoki I will help you I have the information I know where are their base and the kids. I will lend you my left arm because you cant use your left arm.

Elizabeth I'll be going, take care of our men and donn't make unneccesary movement.

When we got there in the ship of harusame I say my name is Captain Katsura, Its silly I just add captain and they dont know me.

I help Gintoki and destroy all the drugs with my bombs. I said to Gintoki that I'm done with my job he just look at me without saying a word he attack the captain of harusame.

Its dawn when Gintoki rescued the kids, I realize that I dont have space for Gintoki's new life, I'm glad he already moved on and found a new family to protect. I promise to myself that what Gintoki treasures and protects I will protect it.

When its sakura festival I saw Gintoki and the kids with a girl, shes shinpachi's sister they go to the festival to have a picnic. The Shinsengumi is also there, they get along. I got jealous and plan to attack the shinsengumi while they are not prepared by gintoki stop me and protect the Shinsengumi. It was that moment when I realize that Gintoki change his attitude towards me, he choose the Vice Captain of the Shinsengumi over me. I was hurt but I smiled to Gintoki and said that so you finally move on, I'm not the only one special in your heart and there is new. I'm glad, I'm happy that you find someone else special. Congratulations Gintoki, Protect him at all cost just like how you did to me before, goodbye gintoki.

I travel to our old school and go to sensei's grave.

Sensei... Can I stay here for tonight?

Sensei will you listen to me?

Sensei will you talk to me or make me feel that you are here?

Sensei... I should be happy, I should smile and congratulate him, I'm the one who wish for his happiness then why tears falling to my eyes? I'm confused he made me feel so special and he made me feel like I was the only one. Sensei why do I feel so broken? did you remember sensei I told you that I like Gintoki, you said that you think Gintoki is the same he also like me and you said that wait for him to confess but its been 15 years and he did not say anything to me about his true feeling to me, he never called me by my name, he makes fun of me and called me Zura or wig.

I look at the moon and let my tears flow, "The moon reminds me of you Gintoki, so beautiful yet so far and I can never get it, just like you."

The night is still long.