If you don't like torture or violence… sorry
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Pain.
Suffering.
Weakness.
Strength.
Submission.
Discipline.
Self control.
Torture.
Demons.
Battle.
Training.
Survival.
These were some of the things that I learned, endured and accepted in the time I was held captive.
Asmodeus didn't keep me in his cells for long – maybe a week or two. Mostly he ignored me but one day he gave me to Valentine and Sebastian Morgenstern – my first masters.
I found out during my captivity with the King that I was his insurance to stay in this Edom place in peace. Apparently I was the one Valentine and Sebastian was looking for. Why? "To be their weapon"- or something.
They took me to their own castle in this horrid, red world with creatures flying and crawling everywhere.
It started with them burning a black tattoo eye-thing on the back of my right hand.
After that I was learned discipline and submission by the use of torture when I outright refused. They broke my bones, whipped me, bet me into a pulp and when they couldn't break me after a few months they had burned another tattoo in my right hipbone.
It caused me to be in agony until they deactivated it. All my nightmares were on the front of my mind and it felt like they were physically happening to me. All the torture I have endured these past few months were conflicted on me at once – or that is how it felt.
I tried pushing through the pain, guilt and suffering but after a while I couldn't anymore – so I begged for them to stop (I have never begged before in my life!) and I submitted to my masters.
They treated me like a slave everywhere except in the training room where I learned how to use weapons like swords, whips, axes, bows and all the others that I couldn't name.
If I failed to do what they asked of me or if they were unpleased by my performance at any time they would use the agony rune on me (that is what they call it).
If I did something right I would have a reward: like a blanket for the night, an early shower, new clothes or even fruit to eat and not that mush they fed me every night.
One day Master Sebastian dropped me off in the middle of this Hell dimension with only a long sword, two bottles of water and a compass.
I had to travel northeast towards their castle and survive the journey to pass their test. I fought many demons, got injured by them too, almost starved to death and barely slept.
I finally got to the castle after what felt like years but was only for, like, five days. They were pleased with me and gave me a pair of clean clothes to wear.
Master Sebastian was brutal with me when their enemy killed Master Valentine. With my careful eavesdropping I learned that it was Sebastian's sister that did it.
Master Sebastian disappeared one day and stayed away for a while. When he came back he was angry and frustrated and I heard him mutter about someone called Clary that did something to him and Jace? I didn't dare to ask but I was curious.
Master brought one day a whole army of people dressed in red robes. They had the same tattoos as him and they all had a cold look in their eyes.
Even though there were actual people in the castle they all ignored me and I still felt lonely and I longed to be home every day.
A few days later there was another man in the throne room when I was washing the floor. He wasn't the same as the men in Sebastian's army – he seemed focused and he had a golden crown on his head.
By listening their conversation I learned that he was called Robert Lightwood, King of Alicante. He was making a deal with Master: me for someone called Clarissa Fairchild and Jace Herondale on a silver platter. After some hesitation Master agreed.
That was how I got my third master. His wife just died and his eldest son came out as bisexual. He wanted a way to deal with his frustrations and apparently I was just the thing he was looking for.
He kept me in a small room with a toilet, a shower and a blanket. That is all I had and he came in whenever he wanted and let out his anger on me.
When he wanted more of a challenge he would take me to a training room and I had to fight him. If I got the upper hand and pinned him down, the guards would pull me away and I would get punished by the agony rune.
This is what I had known my life to be for the past few months and I accepted it. But it all changed on the day of my wedding to Alexander Gideon Lightwood.